Vanir Thunder Dojo Tan

I still want; I would like to get married and raise my children to ask these questions... and yet, unless there is a need...? perhaps I am forever ineligible and depressed and alone?

autonomous life is not terribly engaging... no pun intended. darn off to a bad start already! Autonomous life, observing life without intending to interfere... it is not easy; to truly lack intent to interfere has taken me all my life that I know of to consciously question the necessity of interference. THE WANT! THE DESIRE!! The "need" told to me every moment of every day... that I am told my that selfish self that is not of true self... maybe it is ego? Maybe, maybe some mind monster that cannot be seen was created by the WB and locked in a water tower.... never to be released. well maybe it got out... I don't know. I AM TOLD! That I need.... I need to get the girl, be the guy, I am supposed to earn the bacon and bring home the cash. I am told I need these things, but I ask why I need to "do" anything to "accomplish" anything that is of "necessity" if it IS in fact necessary? IF it is necessary, WHY? WHY do I need to? why do I NEED to impart effort to bring about this necessity? Unless... it is not, and never was in fact, ever, necessary at all?

I dunno. should I change my name? It's not so much a name change as it is rearranging the letters and spacing

i have enough regret and pain in my life that i dont need to feel anyone else's.

The only honest to god answer is that; as a matter of circumstance, learning to cultivate sexual energy is as opposed to potential wastage, perhaps? I would have to ask, what would be a better use of stagnate sexual energy? It certainly isn't making me any more "attractive" thus far.

how about trauma to the back of the head as a kid.

the "I" that 'we' usually claim "I" and/or "we" 'are' is/are (an) observer, without intent or desire. Not the I we think we are, but the "I" that we really truly are, without façade or veil.

Humans have 2 arms, 2 legs, 2 eyes. One left side one right side. and a similarily matched brain. i dont want to imagine 8 or 4. and go squish.

As it can all be made awesome:

maybe I should be a mod? lol

maybe I should be a mod? lol

an ignored choice to ignore inspiration and ignore enlightenment... can you choose to ignore the truth in order to grow?

The "I" that "you" truly are is already, always has been, always will be, enlightened. there are other "I"s that will inhibit the clarity of thos, you cannot be rid of them, only balance them in/with your existence; consciousness is everpresent and singular wholeness of all/nothing; yet while fractured within itself and infinite in its' fractal, it is a 1-D singularity and both inside/outside time/space at the same "time(/space)".

hey, i am all with you, however, i have an attachment of sorts to the social aspect of the forum, that we may share with one another our practices and experiences; not yet ready to let go of it myself. Almost, but still learning Not ready for applying new practices as consistently... not that my own are that consistent.

you're already initiated a block in reaching any future point of enlightenment until you let go of the "I" that you think you "are".

Good god im terrified by that... o_O

I was talking at what was said, with who said it

Sorry, marbles, I see after the fifth read over where we missed it; I did mean to say that, and felt it was covered well enough with "SO LONG AS THE INDIVIDUAL HAS NO TRESPASSES AGAINST OTHERS, OTHERS SHOULD HAVE NO REASON TO TRESPASS AGAINST ANY INDIVIDUALS." Since I consider the act of neglecting the free and consenting will of an outside individual an act of trespass, sin, crime, etc. I tend to define the words too much alike to distinguish them that much. In other words, Your free will is your only genuine property, as it is the only thing that will last as forever as your genuine true self, i.e. spirit. to disregard the free will of another includes nonconsensual physical approach (touch, strike, etc.), or to procure gain from one's own creation/work (slavery, theft, plagiarism-to an extent)... these are all crime/trespass/sin each word defines each act equally... with free will as law.

I meant not to offend anyone with my sharp words, but the whole thing seemed a little two faced to me, since it can be applied to BOTH "us" and "them"... or BY both. and that means the only true war, with fairness is in an unoccupied territory... and since "collateral damage" only happens to occupied locations.... I cannot help but feel disdain toward anyone who thinks it okay, or better, to "fight on 'their' land not close to home", since you're just telling them, basically, to do the same to you. and why shouldn't they?

I LOVE YOU! HAW! You dont need to worry about salem, it's kinda crappy here lol better than southern california lol I'd LOVE to visit alaska though! Washington, Oregon, two beautiful places, i dont tend to separate them I consider the original oregon territory to be quite beautiful, though i;ve never been to idaho. On topic, however, how to change my name? Do i need to send a PM to a mod? who should i message?

huh... i'd add ya as a friend again MPG, but that is currently hinging on "again"... lol i dont mind, but curiousity has a was of piquing...

it's a title. We all walk our own paths, but no matter the path I will walk, I am never more or less than a Human Being simply being Human.