Vanir Thunder Dojo Tan

""""" Give me the Wolf’s Life Give me the Wolf’s Life, hunted, hungry, and free, Keep your sled dog, and lap dog far from me, I am Lakotah, call me by the name of my kin, Sioux I am not, Nor American nor Indian, Not Native, nor Tribal, nor other generic terms, Oceti Sakowin, our Ways our Life confirms, My freedom is not dependant upon your whim and will, I am free because I love and my love you cannot kill, I am the Wolf, and to the wasicu I will not bow, Intrinsic to my nature, and nature won’t allow, Chained, caged, or trapped, my spirit still runs free, No way that you can dampen, the freedom within me, Give me the Wolf’s Life; flee from me now greedy foe, For there are many of us, far more than you could know, Quietly we are born, and quietly we watch and learn, Quietly we are growing, and quietly we yearn, Yet if you listen to the Earth, a rumble does grow more and more, Quietly no longer, arrive we now to the fore, Seven Generations, attacked and reviled, All My Relations, unspeakably defiled, Never surrendering hope, our Canunpas still intact, Remembering every Inipi, and our Sacred Ancient Pact, Awakening now anew, fresh as the sun arised, Shaking off deep slumber, our death had been surmised, Give me The Wolf’s Life, related, a hoop, a Hocoka, Learning even wisdom, when beset by the Heyoka, Hunger, and thirst, and heat and even cold, Create within me strength, and make my footprints bold, I live not for myself, I seek not gold or wine, I cherish very little, only the affinity that is mine, Hunt me and seek my downfall, poison even my game, Delight in my sorrow, but call me by my name, Again, I say, I am Lakotah, you can’t forget although you try, For even your own memory, knows how much you like to lie, Wasicu your time is short, taking fat for your tomorrow, What stores have you laid up, to banish your coming sorrow? Give me The Wolf’s Life; lash upon me no tether, Seek me not at your footstool; find me facing instead, the weather, Strength and fortitude await me, Relatives of mine they are, Recognize me easily enough, remember they my every scar, I fear not but for the fat-taker, what will be his poor lot, When finally that day comes, and he realizes he owns not? James H. Starkey - Wanbli WiWohpe""""" I might not have any lineage, but this poem speaks from my heart jsut as much as it might from the heart of a Lakotah. The wolf is the teacher. That is why i am here. to learn and to share what i have learned. """""This was passed on by Chief Joe Chasing Horse, a relative of Crazy Horse. He translated it from the words of a grandmother who was present when the words were spoken. This is a statement of Crazy Horse as he sat smoking the sacred pipe at Paha Sapa with Sitting Bull for the last time, 4 days before he was assassinated. Many of these words are often repeated. There is one line often left out, that of the "young white ones". "Upon suffering beyond suffering; the Red Nation shall rise again and it shall be a blessing for a sick world. A world filled with broken promises, selfishness and separations. A world longing for light again. I see a time of seven generations when all the colors of mankind will gather under the sacred Tree of Life and the whole Earth will become one circle again. In that day there will be those among the Lakota who will carry knowledge and understanding of unity among all living things, and the young white ones will come to those of my people and ask for this wisdom. I salute the light within your eyes where the whole universe dwells. For when you are at that center within you and I am that place within me, we shall be as one"."""""

OKAY.... So... I'm crazy. what now?

eehhh...... pushing physical sensations around is closer to t'ai chi actually. opening your body to the flow of energy so that it is less obstructed. You can, yes, hurt yourslf if you arent careful, but that is the key: caution. Keep a level of caution about and recognize what you are doing to help and to hinder your progress. Moving your physical sensations around is more for physical building, synapses and osmosis. Moving your consiousness aroudn to guide your energy is vital to avoiding physical damage while practicing physical movements. Really, in a way, you're doing it backwards, but that isnt necessarily wrong either.

i havent had tea in too long, a good tea in far too long. I'll have to look into this. Thanks.

You cannot "know", for knowledge is fixed in time, static, unmoving. It does not exist outside of the delusional illusions of the intellectual mind. to "know" is not necessarily truth, but a fragment based on truth. Knowing is fluid and constantly changing. Knowing is not affixed or static, it is constantly changing. If you think you know something, you stop knowing it. It becomes a static object. a memory. If you think that you cannot know anything, you will always look to life in pursuit if learning, knowing, and experiencing anew, as though with the humility of a child.

Fecking 12 years old it began, it is an ever unwinding process. once you start, i dont think you really have a choice. you cant stop willingly, without the complimenting will of the way/tao/physics/god. Want has nothing to do with it. for whatever reason there may be, i was influenced to need to do this, elsewise i could not have begun. There are no limits to levels. the absence of infinity is an intellectual delusion. the collective whole of all that is, is merely the smallest building block. it does not ever "end". After avatar, one might become aware that they can become an emulator. An avatar is merely a representative. a simulator of something more than themselves. An emulator becomes what they once represented, now self-representative. the complete merging of individual self with whole self. A true master is one who never stops.... progressing on the path. It would be redundant after this to name or describe the "levels of awareness". the first 5 are the only ones that are relevant to society and survival. The potential accomplishments of an avatar is far greater than the potential of an emulator. but what one can teach is a whole different set of potentials.

im out of the loop. WTF is this "i thought" meme you're discussing?

On that line of thought, some happy noodle boy quotes: "Well spank my ass and call me Debbie! Dare not defy my commands!! These hands!! I cant get them off my wrists!!! "Hey, you cloud! C'mere!" "Magical jellybeans are forming where the flies have landed! Hey stay away from my wallet!!" "I thought it were a chigger but it werent no chigger! But it were!!! Spooky! So i ran!! HEY! You're not my dad!!!"

Okay, yes, i was embellishign what you said about "The bedroom may be the last place we can still embrace (not deny) our animal natures. So why not cherish & relish in that fact?! " Over-embellishing the animal instinct aspect, and downplaying/ignoring the "civil" cultivation aspect. But in the grand scheme of things, birth is no better and no worse than rape in this world, as it forces us to be alive weather we are willing or not. The unborn are the most disrespected "minority" on earth. A "minority" because they dont exist yet, so no one thinks they have to mind their future. I'd "man up" if i had a decent example. Reading into manhood is like reading a romance novel: you arent experiencing what you're looking at.

My sentiments. it appears more and more people, particularly people open to online discussion, are expressing avatar-level understanding and awareness... What do you suppose this is going to result in?

truly necessary line: Reality is recreational. We re-create all parts of reality in new representations. The internet is the mind. I have the most powerful and indomitable urge and need to experience and express Free Will. I will fight probability to the bitter end. There isnt only one Avatar at a time, is there?

Wrong page, apparently. i changed the link, maybe that will fix it. "mom" refers to the natural world which we came from. "dad" refers to civilization and fictional gods which "lead" men on earth. Thus the illusion is exposed. No one cares. >.> right... Probably just bitching that i have no power over my life. not that anyone cares or can do anything about it. I appreciate teh compassion people put forth online, but i beleive that it is no different than lying, as there is nothing one can DO to back up that compassion.

Thank you for your post vortex. i need for people to wake up and recognize the "all or nothing sensationalist 10 year fad" trend which is not only ruining our future, but our childrens' futures, as well as having cumulatively lead up to THIS generation of neglected men who are increasingly resorting to sex changes that dont solve the inherent problem at hand but treat the symptoms. EXCEPT your last bit says i should jsut go rape the girl i love. yeah, right.

being hearing impaired myself, i like how you all get a laugh at my expense. Nah, it's not ME, per se, but the mentality of "lol he cant hear right" still applies. it's this careless mentality that is killing me.

THAT IS NOT THE POINT! WE DONT NEED MONEY, YET WE ENFORCE A FICTIONAL NEED THEREOF! Smoking pot helps me calm down and act rationally. I want only to pierce teh throats of all human beings with my fingers and tear out their ignorant, lying, deceptive throat chakras when i am sober. Meditation and clearing the mind only put it off till a later time. it is everpresent, unrelenting, inescapable. The tao wants me to kill and die trying, or i am completely fucking FUCKED in the head and need HELP that i CANT ACQUIRE ALONE, let alone receive online.

what good, i ask, is cultivating "non-ejaculatory orgasms" if there is no one interested in laying with you to have the experience? i wish i was dead

kung fu    /ˈkʌŋ ˈfu, ˈkʊŋ/ Show Spelled[kuhng foo, koong] Show IPA –noun an ancient Chinese method of self-defense by striking blows at vulnerable areas of an attacker's body using fluid movements of the hands and legs. Use kung fu in a Sentence See images of kung fu Search kung fu on the Web Origin: < Chin gōngfú lit., skill So it basically means the skill of self defense, which has no style! The deadliest weapon in kung fu is the skill of the practitioner, regardless of what physical tools one possesses, the skill or lack thereof to use them overrides their perceived lethality. A fast enough and well enough coordinated body is deadlier than an assault riffle in the hands of a professional marksman. To forget this is to forget where personal power truly comes from.

and i... motionless an observer without self yet, observing self.

i love how people (read as: i hate you all so fucking much for) think they "need" governments, countries nations, and politics which dominate life ways. I hope SOMETHING beneficial comes of all this NOW. im ready to leave this god forsaken rock. i hate it here. Love the place, hate the human populations. time to go on a homicidal/suicidal rampage and kill till i am killed.

i have been jaded and bitter since i was 12 years old and realized that if you dont have money, you dont have ANYTHING. That "human" people, now citizens, civilians, nationalists, but not human, value money over compassion, profit over love, gaining over giving. He who has the most toys wins. Well... kill him. he deoes not dese4rve to live. no one who "has the most toys" deserves to live unless they share those "toys" with the WORLD EVELNY. YEAH im jaded. THE WORLD IS A SHITHOLE AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO BUT "ACCEPT" THAT?!? FUCK YO)U ALL! FUCK TAO, FUCK BUDDHA, FUCK ALL, it's NOT worth just idly sitting by and doing nothing about it but "accept" it. My path is obstructed with impossible obstacles and without help, i cannot move forward, and without Love and compassion i cannot receive ANY of the help i NEED. If i had something to fill the holes, i wouldnt feel this way or act this way, but there is NOTHING worth living for in my path. My entire existence is a waste of effort. no one cares about my experiences, therefore i dont want to care about my experiences. No one cares about me, therefore i dont want to care about me. If i am not alive for hte benefit of the whole,m i would simply rather not be alive. No one cares.

that attitude is a result not a cause. fucking piss me off huh?

Probably because i am a defect of nature, which the human herd has forsaken and abandoned, and in return to that, i have no favorable offers. Akin to a street mutt; no material or social value, therefore no appreciation or consideration, no Love from anyone in the herd.

So how come the pock marked ugly ex-tweaker gets the percect redhead and i get shit on? heck i could kick her fiance's ass for that matter i jsut dont LOOK it. Maybe that's all i gotta do, eat his brains. that'll show dominance! HA! TOO BAD IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY!!!

This is why i Love you! We are two sides of the same coin i think. But i see the "real" coin as being more multi-faceted and trans-dimensional. a "hypercube" is the best description i could give. and yet somehow 2-D LOL I think much of 'my 'enlightenment" has come about through debate and some arguments, but in a way saying such a thing is redundant when all experience leads into and of all other experience, which cultivates the mind and mentality. We all find our own paths to our own places, but we never stay in any one place forever, as our very inherent nature is to seek out the "new", even though we know it all already-we become bored with what we focus on exclusively enough that "old" things become renewed.