Vanir Thunder Dojo Tan

IT IS NOT "just the world we live in"!!! that's an irresponsible statement and only going to step aside to allow things to continue to degrade. It is not "just the world we live in" but the absense of personal accontability and further degraded by PRAISING that kind of mentality! Dont dare say it is "just" the way, because it is NOT the way. it is directly CONTRARY to THE WAY.

not feeling like i have to worry about other people judging me would be nice.... but i have no personal power. everything i have has come from everyone but me. everything i have done has lead me to no material gain... or otherwise. I am wholly dependant on others, not because i am incapable of action, but because my karma demands it. I am not in control of my environment; i cannot place myself with any deliberation into an environment wherein i would be comfortable or even content expressing myself as more female. Masculinity is a peer pressure that not only affects men, but also defeminizes many women into becoming more assertive and dominant than the natural feminine expression, thereby ALSO psychologically influencing men to express femininity as they are DEPRIVED of such expressions FROM WOMEN!

according to Edgar Cayce, humans evolved from genetic experiments involving the combining of various animal DNA, and we were originally furry, feathered, tailed, hermaphrodites across teh board. Further genetic manipulation led the the physiological separation of male and female archetypes. I desire a return to unity of sex/gender.... but i was sadly not born as such

...... if i had a choice it would be both. lol but i DONT have a choice, so i will do my best to forget ideals.

i know, right?! XD You should read my blog entry about TDB.

And i thank you for extending that invitation... maybe i will take it up with every intention of coming back home, but i have some psychological sorting to do before i can commit myself to something this critically important...... especially if it means leaving the Pacific Northwest again. My karma has bitch slapped me EVERY time i have left. it's telling me not to, ya know?

What songstan said sums up my own feelings. I am at a similar point in my life where my psychology is rejecting the male/female personoa/biology integration (which i cant even accomplish by any natural means anyways) and demanding an embrace of my own natural masculinity i was born with (path of least resistence TBH). I had for too long idealized the hermaphrodite perfection of unity and failed to cultivate my natural abilities and talents... I need to make changes that coincide with my nature, rather than try to achieve an idealized one...

an eternal pursuit, like perfection... waking up to reality...

And if you look to the very infinite depths of eternity and still cannot find it, it means the time to wage war against all oppositions to peace has begun? Im not sure it even exists as but a fleeting moment of ignorance. Ignorance is said to be bliss, but i find it to be downright disturbing and unaware.

Good Gong Fu exemplifies the ferocity of Dao.

AS OPPOSED TO CIVIL SOCIETY?!? WTF ARE YOU ON ABOUT?!? I am worse for the wear for having NOT had the opportunities to learn to survive in teh wilderness. im ready to flip my shit for good.

well i tried yesterday, but my time limit ran up unexpectedly when i thought i had a whole hour left... now im on my last 30 min of library internet... i'll give it another shot, but im just lurking i guess

yeah basically. believe what you want, really, but *"if"* there is a supreme authority/being/god, then it cannot be a separate entity from all of reality, therefore yes, we are all essentially "fallen angels" or "infant gods" coming into being. Not just me, im merely acting like its true, instead of just thinking it is

i'll see if i cant spend an hour in there chatting!

Your narcissism pales in comparison to my god complex!

mind between the two: Infinite all and nothing Mind is the fulcrum

The infinite omnitude of infinity is never "other than" or "just such".

"stealthing" is when you consume something from the bottle without ever touching the bottle to your lips or saliva. Stealth drinking.

but...? I think you're well along the right path in all this, however. Just keep observing the universe observing itself through itself as itself, etc. You'd be amazed at what the subconscious loses track of...!

it seems my own point was overlooked, but i will try to say it literally: It's not about being "awakened" or being a teacher, but about setting forth a correct and righteous example of life's unobtrusive maintenance. Much like working with children, you also must learn to exemplify and appreciate the good and right examples while borderline ignoring the bad ones and avoid even acknowledging them by mention and help drive focus toward the positive and beneficial ways of behaving. There is a right and wrong way to do all things and this has no regard on correct or incorrect. The correct way to rocket to the moon is in no way bearing the "right" way - as it is inherently wrong to rocket to the moon, given the level of necessity that it be done. Necessity is the majority objective measurment of right and wrong. Right is always and/or only necessary and there are correct and incorrect ways of exemplifying righteousness. Wrongfulness, however, is the majority leading example, and the majority, in their stupidity and ignorance, want ought keep it that way, shun and even squelch righteous examples... There are many "correct" ways of doing wrongful things, and the focus is mutated from right and wrong to correct and incorrect, while using the titles of right and wrong to describe your relation to the acts. Suddenly it becomes "wrong" (read as incorrect, spoken as "wrong") to take food without paying for it, and the "right" (read as correct, spoken as "right") thing to do is "earn" money to "pay" for your sustinence. When the whole of that scenario is in and of itself inherently wrongful, but the model of power derrives from the misleading verbiage of the exchange that in order to retain a wrongful (and inherently thusly harmful) way of life, is to subconsciously convince people that it is "right". This is largely accomplished by misinterpreting the definitions of such words as, but not limited to: "right and correct" , "wrong and incorrect", and "ignorant and stupid". Exemplifying correct righteousness is what makes for spiritual. Exemplification makes for teaching, correct righteousness makes for spirit.

This is an interesting thought you've stumbled upon: What "use" does the "universal body" have for an individual within the universal body? How and WHY does one "utilize the universal body"?

In a sense, you miss the entire point of spirituality in your very premise; to compare spirit to mundane is to compare red dwarf stars to the wsensation of finishing level 3-4 in super mario bros. ... But in the parameters of your inquiry: the very act of exemplifying a spiritual virtue is in and of itself a spiritual application and the very act of teaching is a high example, indeed, but there is no "highest" in infinity, only ascending, stagnating, and declining. there is a fourth state for those who pursue the omnitude of infinity.

gracious are the clouds; free floating forms in transit: Yet they reap all things.

The world is never enough... We are god(s); the universe creating itself, experiencing itself through itself. There is no "enough", only infinity.

it's merely a matter of willingness to go the distance. How willing are you to weild free will?!? XD LOL!!! I may or may not be a Buddha, ask my teachers. but i DO have free will. everything learned can also be unlearned. you just have to make a choice and accept the it's consequences.