Vanir Thunder Dojo Tan

I wake to the call Slumbering desires stir; Must curb indulgence

The most powerful Heart is the Heart of Hearts, the courage to become transformed in all such manner as you will over time: to face the odds with natural autonomy, never forced decision, and without care but for the continuity and successful transmission of truth as an autonomous constant. To play the game and take a chance that you can change the game.

Omniversally flux. Be.

Sheer willpower alone is only theoretically capable of powering the body past death... to wit, I've never died, nor have the intent to deliberately engage in death just to prove (or disprove) anything, ever. Though, as a work in progress, I do hope that will power alone can and will propel all intent beyond the 'scientifically', 'rational', or 'realistic' possibilities... I consider subtle memes of relativity to be proof enough of the potential, and all that remains is practice. Nintendo is supposedly to mean "Leave luck to the heavens", which, as I can interpret, as a video game console, is to suggest that will power is skill power, but there isn't anything you can ever do about a bad roll of the dice. when you roll bad and perform well, you have strong will: Good skill. I will leave luck to the heavens if I were you.

'Slong as I got a good fire pit to tend to, im good. n_n

Tried teaching my ex fiancé this, but she was.... well... they made ... mind... She only cared about the appearance of spirituality and how she could use people and avoid being used... a preemptive.... problem Oh well, im sure i'll meet someone who's got the mutual weirdness instead of the regular old crazies.

Sometimes, in spite of being born with the awareness, a sudden realization can be thrust upon us by unforeseen external.... pushes... that blow to my noggin sure was sudden! and the rush of solitude-in-immersion was a shock to the expectations of normal bodily function, but you have to know...!!! I wouldn't trade it "for the world" such a silly expression, as we are already omniversal! Sometimes... it is a matter of fixing something! but I guess... "fixing" isn't quite accurate, but....... experiencing is the key.

That makes it genuine My favorite songs! The ones in my head... No, wait, the skeptics want to call it tinnitus and write it off as nothing... nevermind

It's enforced. The way you say it is like an innocent and honest mistake, when the reality is, we're in concentration camps that have no walls, no ceilings, and no rules.

your heart knows. you need only listen. I can only offer what I know, and that is the heart of hearts.

Open your heart. Listen to what you feel, consider the potentials of intent.

inertia; momentum. Civilization is a vehicle designed with high acceleration and top speed, but no brakes. All i'm proposing is apply the brakes, finally, for the first time, in over 10,000 years. The trick is this is a puzzle, kind of like a dungeon in the legend of Zelda. The vehicle is already in motion, high top speed, and continually increasing acceleration rates, as well as that top speed I mentioned. The brakes have not yet been installed, and if we want a future with... life, liberty, prosperity, community, family, then we need to attempt to install the brakes now. or never. but at least getcher feet off the fucking gas already.

"reworked existing belief systems to a new package to suit the times" Too bad we are not allowed to do that with civilization as a whole! /sarcasm!

wow. doesn't sound like me, but if it was my past life, I want to get the hell rid of that karma I've no relatedness this time... you sure it's ME? I've been able to, at the very minimal least bit, relate to your assessments of me every time until now... I cannot relate to ever appreciating "faking it"... I've only ever valued authenticity... i'm not sure how to address the "hopeless energy" you describe, as I don't consider it hopelessness, but physics. im not hopeless to gravity simply because I cant fly any more than I am hopeless to sexual gratification just because others cant get me off. I take great satisfaction in pleasing others... I only feel slightly upset that others cannot please me. I've stopped expecting satisfaction and just taking life as it comes, best as I can. Good with the bad, sort of thing.

My life is an open book... (and from the 6'th grade onward) if it is conductive to helping me, public or private is irrelevant; i'd do well to know what you're omitting... Post it wherever you're comfortable, I guess

other than an ego boost, everyone I've been with has either failed to get me off, or had no 'participation' involved (dead fish). I'm not seeking a mate, because im pretty well enough convinced I don't have one. I've had better experiences with guys than I have with girls... the girls I've been with, with the sole exception of that crazy bitch I almost married, were completely dead fish. My ex fiancé was a good lay, I can say that to a degree, but 60% or more of the time, she'd quit while she was ahead, and leave me "blue ballsed" to whack it alone. The guys I've been with are only marginally better... because they at LEAST put out long enough for me to get off, but it's still underwhelming when I know he came 30 minutes ago...

Empires be damned. they just want your money.

I *can't*. there is nothing to gain from attending, no benefits to me, who cannot hear clearly in a QUIET setting...

I am psychologically incapable of "just fucking". I can make love, but it wont "work" for me if my partner just wants a quick fuck; it does not exist. I can make love, I can last for hours (I cant actually shorten the duration), and I can pleasure others, but so far.... I am pretty much a one-sided lay... its all for you, I don't get squat out of it except an ego boost.

I think you are missing the point, and I think more pie guy exemplified it by saying "What you do not understand is that ACTIONS affect reality, and beliefs do not." And when I express my observations of infinite universes, omniversal unity, and non-experiential experiences, you call me deluded, yet I am not so! If I were deluded, don't you think i'd be ACTING on these inaccessible observations, like a lunatic? No, I am merely pointing out that you have a wicked and bad assed internetelevision in your mind, and you ignore it. Because to pay heed to the subjective infinite universe is delusional. stick to the objective finite universe, that is the only rational way to think. Go right on ahead. think however you want. I think that strict compartmentalization of thought is mentally retarded... skillful, but retarded.

Goal? I was thinking whisky... or Rum

I rather got a good laugh out of it!

"Organic" is a redundancy, pretty, aesthetic, relatable, but totally redundant, for so too are mineral, electrical, magnetic, celestial, and human interactions. Energy exchange is the only "thing" that exists, and it is a non-thing; exchange is not an object! Pardon my analytical nit picking, but all interactions not just organic

Cuz I do not have any reason to engage in good or bad, I cannot be honest in my response, but as a personal stance: Peace, tranquility, and quietude, by natural definition, are nearly a prerequisite for my hearing loss, as ideal conditions. As a naturalist, and as a humanist, I am not comfortable with the presence of hearing aides that do not offer a solution, but a trade. My comfort is particularly conductive to my own conductivity and communication. a night club is pointless, for someone who likes to engage in conversation and deep, meaningful discussions with a person they can relate to. My inability to relate to other human beings leaves me alienated or alienating. from my perspective of mutual benefit and natural harmony, civilians are the aliens... So why would I want to engage in practices which are conductive to civility when they only serve to manipulate humility and agitate humanity? From my perspective, it isn't humane... Not wrong... but not healthy in constant or repetitive doses... which is why neither I nor anyone else, can convince you.