Vanir Thunder Dojo Tan

those dreams have never been about sex except once which i mistook for a premonition when i met the girl from the dream in real life :\ Otherwise, they've been the classic falling dream, and i've had them while awake as well, where my entire body feels like it just suddely hit something solid after falling for a long distance... SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME whenever it does happen and i spend about 5 minutes trying to figure out which life just died and which consciousness just emerged For that matter there's a gas station in salem across from a mcdonalds that has "blown up" at least 6 times on me, and my entire omniversal consciousness had to shift realities. Same one- that's what creeps me out. First time it happened was very vivid, some guy with a very terrible karmic aura drove past and the death in his eyes creeped me out badly. he drove past the gas station, but i was also vividly aware of "his" expression of vengeful intent and mass destruction. I experienced multiple times, that gas station exploding and killing "me" and others. In such a nonchalant manner mostly, except that part where i suddenly SLAM into my body...

In the practice of semen retention/celibacy/etc there is often mention of linked sexual practices of orgasm without ejaculation, multiple orgasm, and sustained orgasm, as well as celibate nonsexual practices of abstinence. In the line of multiple and sustained non-ejaculatory orgasms, wouldnt we basically end up experiencing a constant state of infinite energy and be "wound up" all the time, constantly occupying ourselves to use all that energy? "use it or lose it" is what im thinking, but at the same time, the LDT should be able to store it all, but the question is, would that mean constantly meditating?

no pain or anything? And do you know the results yet?

uh. i disagree. When it throbs and hurts, something's got to give. And since i have no means to "convert" sexual energy into "usable" energy, then i'll do what i hav to to not get angry and violent toward everyone and ruin my entire life in the process. I'll just stick to ejaculating. it's the only solution i can actually apply at this point in time. unless the secret is revealed here and now and i learn how to USE my energy instead of BEING USED by it.

roughly 89% of my posts are simply trying to get people to think about a subject that is not immediately objectified in the original topics which i am responding.

let me save you some time. The entirety of omniversiality is a 1-D existence. The most that can be said or exemplified of this philosophy is the period at the end of this sentence.

and if it never occours in the course of my life (so far)? if i dont need to be concerned, then im definitely not, but... I dont know anything about have any experience with this subject, so i had to ask

im blindly following the tips and hints i'm reading about here but something i found scrawled on a piece of paper in my wallet rings true: Tell me and i might forget Show me and i might not remember But involve me and i will gain understanding. I dont think this is a very "involving" practice so i doubt i will ever understand.

The object is not the point. Both objects must consume other objects in order to continue to support the ecology of the independent object. The compassion factor is not WHAT the object DOES, or WHY the object NEEDS, but WEATHER OR NOT, and HOW the object expresses concern for the subjects of its self and of other objects-weather consumed or preserved.

<.< i caught that. or the sheets if you buck it My question is more or less the causality of unintentional ejaculation. i cant do it "by accident"

Laozi might just be an awareness, independent of form, capable of communicating with us, through us, as an individual amongst us or as an idea we mutually employ... Or is that lousy?

To my knowledge, I have never had "autonomous emissions" in my life. Every drop of semen that has ever sprung forth has been due to masturbation, and been completely intentional release. Can someone explain the nature of nocturnal emissions to me?

No, this is an observation which i am sharing. i lack the level of self control to actually force my mind to not focus on my body and experiences. It's either i ejaculate, or i murder. which is it? there's no middle ground yet. if im not getting off, i need something to "replace" getting off. and since i am extremely frustrated- conflicted between biology and intent, maybe?- i become swiftly angry, and then swifter still violent. im not willing to become COMPLETELY USELESS. no sleep, cant sleep, too horny. fuck that shit.

there's a lot of us here but i dont think anyone's paying enough attention places like facebook to notice or "get it"

According to many research articles i've found over the years... THC does all that too...

i cant not masturbate :\ this is peculiar... at arousal, i cannot ignore it, in bed i cannot be non-aroused. honestly dont know why im automatically aroused like that for no reason at all :S But the self control aspect of not masturbating.... i cant not masturbate. lol i cant keep my hands off myself.

Duality of nonduality: Yes. No. Both yes and no. Neither yes or no. Both yes and no, as well as neither yes or no. "At the same time". AS WELL AS NEITHER "Both" NOR "Neither" "yes and no" at any time, mutually with "all at the same time". If you follow what i am saying they you were one of the few people who didnt need to hear it.

Physical evidence does not have authority over the spiritual nature of reality. Im not selling you anything, so please DONT buy it. Think of it this way: The Sims. You make a family of 8 sims and move them into a house. YOU have control over ALL 8, but they ALSO have free will, and operate and act on uniquely individualized algorithms, but at the end of the day YOU are the only "real" person there... Now transposition that from 8 to a population of 8 billion and voila!

geeze, i think a concice post like that should count as all 5 prerequisite posts! Shouldnt there be something the mods/admins can do to "undermine" the automated functions of hte forum when such evidence as this is presented as fact that they are not a spammer?

okay that first one sounds about 60-75% like The Inspector Gadget theme Im not adding music yet, cuz i was hoping more people would comment on each other's music. i cant be the only one!

disband the federal government. now. Stop talking about it and DO SOMETHING about it. fuck's sakes people. stop posting this drivel.

somehow i dont see your words as being valid... could you, perhaps, try again?

i dont know anything about the LDT then i didnt know it generated energy, i thought you were supposed to store it there?

My understanding of past lives is limited to my imagination and things i've read and heard: That "we" are an illusion, as that we are all the same observer, experiencing each and every life born, lived, experienced, and passed on all throughout time immemorial. I Am. This means: everyone shares the same "I" observer that we each call "me" because we are uniquely experiencing only "one" life at a "time". So it is entirely possible to recollect past life memories if we were to clear our minds deep enough, for long enough, and just allow the memories and fantasies and ideas to merge formlessly.

oh yes, lots of fun!