ATMA

What brought you to the way? What made you seek out spiritualism? Personally I discovered information on the way unintentionally long ago. I thought it was interesting but only after 'living the lie' so to speak of materialistic society did I realize it wasn't fulfilling for me. Or rather I was lousy at the game so I went looking for something else. It's my alienation from the norm that propelled me down this, which is for me, 'the only true path'. Is it possible that spiritualism is a sort an escape route for those who 'suck' at materialism? Are we, the supposed enlightened, the weak? The rejects? What drove you to this point? Were you indoctrinated with it since childhood? I'm just trying to decipher a kind of basic phenotype to the seeker class. Your histories would be excellent to read. Or any thoughts or ideas welcomed. The more the marry her. Om.

Very sublime V. Thanks.

So the world didn't end after all. Ommmm.

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Have you noticed how the robots select 'archetypes'? Goth, sportsfan, hippie etc. Do people you know such as family friends seem to be these robots? Or maybe they are ultimate beings only appearing as robots. It's possible this 'spiritual' path is a curse or a kind of trial for weaker souls. Think about if everybody knew about the robots but just played along with it for the entertainment of each other and themselves as well as to train these weaker souls. Passing judgement on the bots seems erroneous. It seems better to view them as your superiors by purpose or your superiors by child-like innocent bliss. Is the spiritual path harder then the ignorant path? Is it even superior? If you could redesign every aspect of your life would you select this same one? Just some ideas. Also, I'm very curious to the profit you make via donations on your site. You seem to get a lot of hits. I don't mean to be rude but are you making enough to live on? That would be a dream come true no? Ommmmm.

What's some alternate explanations to bi-polarism besides the brain/chemical approach? How do you come back from states of intense anger and depression? Let them come? But if you let them come they come. I just entered into an intense enraged state... What is this? Just the ego? Why does the ego attempt to make life worse for itself? It's baffling. Why shouldn't the ego's goal be positive? Why would the anger return. It seems like it builds up if you try to deny it. I'm extremely vicious. I'm glad at least I found this site where I am not judged and don't have to conceal rage. Ommmmmm.

It seems as though the way is different for everyone. It's specific to each person. If this is true than what are the chances of someone else's dao is the same as yours. It seems like this may be the flaw of a lot of religious teachings. They contain LAWS which might not jive for you. In the end do these teaching's and the advice from others really do anything more then prod you into discovering your true way? Are they just an accumulation of rental husks forming a pile we climb to reach our own individual truth? Or do all these paths lead to one universal truth? I'm undecided. What do you think? Is it all within you or can it only be found by seeking outside yourself. So bizarre to contemplate. So bizarre indeed. Ommmmmm.

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I think steve hit the hammer on the head. Also, I think you need to decide if you really need this or not. Doesn't all relationship eventually lead to suffering? Is it only a temporary fix? The answer of course is within your own soul. Search it. If you really need these other people then go out and get them. It's simple. Liberating. Exciting. OR Give up these incessant thoughts of a terrified ego. Decide for yourself your true nature. Cut these desires from your life. It's simple. Liberating. You remind me of myself years ago. If you are anything like me you are in for one hell of a ride. But when you arrive you will realize all the steps were necessary. I recommend to stop masturbating immediately. You will be sickeningly surprised at how much this seemingly innocuous addiction controls your thought patterns. Conserve your energy it's in finite supply. If you are a writer then you must be a reader. READ: The Teaching's of Don Juan: A Yaqui way of knowledge Ommmmmmmmmm.

They could not save her body, but they save her soul.

I was surprised to read that other tao-bums struggle with addiction. I don't know how to take it. Then again, any judgement is ILLUSION. Ommmmmmmm.

I was surprised to read that other tao-bums struggle with addiction. I don't know how to take it. Then again, any judgement is ILLUSION. Ommmmmmmm.

Is all illusion ?

LeonBasin. He writes. Also the best book on screenwriting I've read is called 'The way of the screenwriter' I highly recommend it. I've written a feature length script. Finished the second draft. I entered the bluecat screenwriting competition and didn't win the 50 grand. Ommmmmmm.

I'm starting to lose my cool, guys. Bigtime. Constant godamn thoughts. I just want an ego self destruct button. I've tasted the waters of no-mind but forgot how sweet they were. How do you return to the middle way when there is four godamn doors? 3 I can understand but not 4. I need some guidance.

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Don't think of the past as a waste because you didn't achieve. What happened was a requirement for your current state. This negativity is lifting you up. The soaring point will return on you soon, I think. Maybe you may not be able to handle it and die tragically like wax wings in the sun. Viewing your negatives as negatives is easy.... viewing them as positives is the way. Think of it this way if you weren't insecure/low self esteem you would be out there breeding like everybody else. You got reincarnated with these 'negatives' so that you CAN attain your goal. Patience is a hard thing to learn as you must not confuse it with hope/faith. In the end you have to give up your goals for them to return. You have to go with it. Don't impede the flow but don't kill yourself. Stop using drugs. Push yourself. If something makes you uncomfortable that means DO IT. View your old ways as an enemy. Think what you would normally do and do the opposite. In this way you will seperate the egos grip on your tendons. Take hold. Let go. Don't try but don't 'don't try'. Imagine the person you want to be. Keep this image in your mind at every moment. See what they would do, then start to do it. Eventually you will become this image. Dusts in the breeze. Ommmmmmm.

You been freestyling long? If you enjoy recording keep practising. You could improve to the point of artist. Some tthoughts: -less freestyles more writtens -spit faster if you can at certain parts spit the filler words faster OR: -cut out alot of the useless words ex. ' slow down to realize my energies that i intune inside of me' to 'slow down, realize, atune my, energies inside' -not every line has to rhyme -rhyme multiple words in one bar 'bad habit dark hunting addicts in rabbit park' -new beats -new mic I'll collab with you if you start gettin serious about music. Some dope rappers: -ATMA -Rook da rukus -sick since Ommmmmmmmmmmmm.

In many stories about sages enlightenment dawns on them suddenly, like a rushing. Is this actually part of any teaching? Is enlightenment attainable in full suddenly given the proper switch? Or is it more a way of life? Is someone living by the way (no longer concerned with reaching the end goal of enlight) enligtened? Who is more enlightened? If enlightenment is located within why can't you access it? Can it be triggered by someone who isn't enlightened or does it require a master? Do you wish you were enlightened? Is this a natural desire? IfF you became enlightened would you still post up on taobums.com? The goal without goals must be entered. Those fences are circling you quicker then ever.

It seems the way cannot be put into words. It may be too vast. Is this truth if it is words? When they tell you things like clear your mind, let thoughts come on don't judge upon them, you think you understand what they are telling you but you are wrong. They are only using words as best they can to give you a general idea. Once you experience the true way you realize this but are still unable to communicate it even by your own mind to your own mind. It's a kind of sensing. Not faith. Truth and faith are antibacterial agents incapable of mixing. You may wonder... Is this wall scalable or is it ethereal in the deepest sense. Faith is false. The reason why truth cannot be spoken into being remains a mystery. It's truly exciting, no?

It's almost too scientific. Pornography is thoughtless IE so full of unrestricted thought that the ego self overloads. IF everyone was enlightened would there still be porn? Does this mean the porn consumption per capita increases as spiritualism decreases/lacks? It would seem that way. When you think about it all sexual desire stems from a thought... Maybe there's some spontaneous banging events that happen between man and woman but that is just natural like bonobos on the plains. Porn is not important. Conversely, it's the only thing that truly matters. Ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

What is it? How can this be? To be afraid of being afraid... Is some kind of joke? How does one further?

A master is only a 'master' when a master is 'not' a 'master'.

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