Tatsumaru

You do realize that Saw Palmetto is one of the most famous herbal supplements to act as 5-alpha reductase inhibitors and to be used as a potential profilcatic agent against prostate enlargement issues. But there is some contradiction here as DHT is known to cause testicular atrophy, and testes are the organs which produce testosterone, which means that using saw palmetto will probably decrease testicular atrophy and indirectly help restore testosterone levels, but then numerous studies show that saw palmetto actually decreases endogenous testosterone production and that's why a lot of bodybuilders stopped using it in their post cycle treatment periods. Go figure. @Mantis, I just lost some hair due to stress, hairs entangling and over-combing. I'm not prone to MPB so I don't think I'll ever go bald. I just want to restore some damaged hairs that is.

Thanks, but I think I'll pass.

Sounds like waiting around to die.

I never knew why people tend to see "Why can be so much worse" all the time as if the point is to suffer as much as possible ? Other than that I do agree that Finasteride sucks. There is no such thing as feminizing drug as the same hormones play different roles in both sexes. This of course does not mean that injecting yourself with estrogen won't result in the upbringing of some feminine traits. For example too high estrogen will result in increased libido but erectile dysfunction in men, while increased testosterone in females will result in abnormal libido. Again it's a good thing to understand that libido and sexual performance are different matters. One of the main reasons for that is that estrogen receptors in both sexes are not symmetrical.

I don't want to no science. Science is so limited. All I want is something to happen. P.S. Ok, Zhang, Thanks.

I'm looking for something to happen. All I hear is students who erm... promote.. their so enlightened masters in New York and Alabama. People talking about shooting laser beams and discussing it with friends. I mean give me a break. It's obviously not real. You just want it to work out so bad that you lie to yourselves that you feel Qi vibrations when your bowels growl or that you feel electrical currents when your feet go numb from sitting on your ass for two hours doing this stupid meditation...

Thinning of the skin is a sign of low estrogen. You misunderstood something that you've read. There is no such thing like females preffering bald men more often than not. MPB is only a sign of hormone inadequacy, not of sexual one. It would seem rather counter-productive for a female to settle for a less healthier man because he's less healthier when all females are hardwired to do is to seek the best male gene they can hope to opt for their infant. As I said lower testosterone in males is associated with diabetes and accumulation of visceral fat and coronary disease. Nothing good ever came out of low testosterone in males, hence the hormone replacement therapies. It is absolutely not true that Propecia is not associated with gynecomastia since DHT is one of the male hormones that is responsible for the inhibition of the aromatase enzyme, hence the medications for breast cancer like Masteron which are DHT-derived.

Once a person stops striving for perfection he might as well be dead. Healthy looks are natural and to think that hair loss is a mere cosmetic problem would be rather weird as biochemically hair is the best indicator of a person's overall health. There are many physiological reasons for hair loss different from excess DHT. Since I'm already familiar with them I denoted in the beginning I did not want to talk medicine. Taking a 5-alpha-reductase inhibitor doesn't mean that you'll only prevent DHT binding to your hair follicles but decrease the overall levels of DHT in your body as well. Now you might see that as benefitial as prostate enlargenment and male pattern baldness plus more are attributed to excess DHT. At the same time taking 5 time the recommended dose means your DHT will diminish to sub-optimal levels which will throw your free testosterone:dht:estrogen ratio out of the window. This in the long term will result in dramatic increase in the likelihood of male breast cancer, possible gynecomastia, skin thickening, diabetes and more. The funny thing is that a simple caffeine concentrate shampoo like Doppel Effekt by Alpecin will deal with DHT locally, so Propecia for hair loss is a definite overkill and I'm talking at the regular dose. I totally agree. Tiny bits and details create the bigger picture.

Thanks a lot. Great info.

Can you also recommend some further reading please ?

Ok, no offense on this, because I want to believe you. But how come a person that enlightened to send laser beams all over the universe with the power to re-assign balance would be talking about it on a forum. Sounds like a geeky Buddha to me. It's like those qigong masters who are wearing glasses and are bald and fat. You almost believe them but then you are like - "but why is he wearing glasses if he can cure cancer ?". You know what i mean ? Again no offense, I'm not saying you are not telling the truth.

I found the 1963 version. I will order it.

Do you think that the sacred book of abramelin is a decent read ?

Good point.

I really want to do that but there only two famous chinese practitioners here but they seem like scam. Found a few articles about the of people saying there weren't of much help. I will grow my own reishi mushrooms and some gotu kola, will order he shou wu as well. I really feel as something is off as you are saying. I really want to visit Mantak Chia's tao-garden and practice but can't afford it atm. Other than that - great advice from all. Thanks. P.S. Also my blood pressure is weird - left hand 99/50 right hand 130/60. Went to a cardiologist, showed 120/60, doctor said it's perfect. ECG and ultrasound were fine too. Don't have any pathological growth but then I've never abused steroids, I just used twice or thrice. I've done shrooms a few times, x, a lot of weed that's all I can think of. Never drank, I hate alcohol. Just a small glass of red wine every now and then for the benefits of it. Even though I have history with drugs, except for this short depression period I ate very clean, I'm a vegetarain I only eat unsaturated fat, I drink lots of water, replenish electrolytes etc. (you know the healthy stuff) The only thing that bothers me (at best) is that my grandpa had a few heart attacks, my aunt has cardiomyopathy and my father purportedly died from a heart attack (but they never figured that out) I do believe that through healthy dieting and inner peace, genetic predispositions can be beaten.

Plain and simple, I've lost it... my balance, that is. A few months ago I started this topic: About me and my life. It's basically what I've been struggling with and a lot of helpful advice. Since then I've changed a little. Learned important things but my life is still nowhere near where I want it to be. This is destroying me gradually, and what do I mean exactly... This Christmas I spent alone at my house. I decided to take some magic mushrooms even though I wasn't in the mood. The dose wasn't big at all but nevertheless it felt horrible and mostly because I was in the wrong mindset. I suffered a severe panic attack and went to the ER to check my heart as I felt if it was going to explode any minute. Since then nothing has ever been the same. I'm very anxious, nervous and constantly watching for my pulse. I have been having problems with my heart as well probably stress-related. You get the idea. I've taken mushrooms before, I used to grow them, so my point is that all the sh*t that has been happening in my life broke loose that day and now I'm not the same person. I would wake in the middle of the night with my pulse over 160 etc. I went to the doctors, they said heart is fine, now I'm about to do a blood panel tommorow and also visit a neurologist and psychiatrist. The truth is that I'm a very reckless person - I am a bodybuilder so I use all kinds of medication, I'm a great fan of biochemistry and medicine and am currently studying to apply at Columbia University. I've been of all medication for a few weeks now. And all the stuff that's happened to me including the lonely life and the lack of friends and the failures are taking a toll on my balance. Now I feel very down, I don't know what to do. I want everything to be absolutely perfect but it never is. For example if I am not maintaining a perfect physique and health I wouldnt go out, wouldnt communicate with new people and it has been like this for my whole life. And I just can't take myself anymore. I'm failing as a person. Do you have any suggestions ? What should I do ? P.S. For some reason I want way too much out of this life, constanly pursuing the hardest of achievements but at the same time achieving nothing at all. I try to set the bar lower but it just doesn't work. I want it all and I have nothing.

There is Hiking, Rafting, Bareback riding everything you want. Maybe I should start something like this.

My heart is fine, I'm just suffering from anxiety issues.

What should I do if I focus too much on my heart rate during meditation ?

I'm 22. Ok I won't share a word from now on. Just sit and practice what you gave me. Thank you all for the good advice. Be well.

I tried muting my inner voice on the way home yesterday and it felt pretty damn strange. All thoughts that appeared in my mind I would imagine as rapidly falling into pieces. Instead of harmony I reached a dark psychopatic trance. Very weird right ? I thought "Hmm. I doubt this is what the guys meant by letting go".

It's nice but I like cooked tofu more.

In a God forsaken country called Bulgaria...

If I get accepted at Columbia University I'll be in NY. Till then though, I'm not an US resident.

Ok I think I'm starting to get it. But how do you fuel discipline if you let go of motivation and wanting. I'm ok with letting go of feelings but want to remain productive at the same time ? I have to say though motivation and wanting seem to be two very ill feelings as they seem productive only at first glance and now when I think of it all things that I've accomplished were when I would mute my inner voice. But I can still feel something is missing, something is wrong... I don't seem to be able to progress at the pace that I want. For now I'll just follow your advice guys, seems you know what I'm talking about. P.s. Def gonna watch groundhog day and try knitting.