skydog

nice post thanks

Your right It only makes sense to go the right approach. I actually love women in general and have lots of women friends. I went off an emotional tangent about " some psychotic women" not "women. I do not think of myself as "different" but when I start thinking of my mother and how psychotic she can be as well as having to describe the difference between violence towards a man and to a woman I have to use the word women. Neverthless words easily bring about misunderstanding which has nothing to do with the topic.

Oh and in case your wondering this is not from a girlfriend.. this is (even more socially despicable) from my mother who I feel has been very emotionally violent throughout my life and was screaming and insulting me for one day for like three hours and just wouldnt stop, despite logical reasoning, so i went to sleep feeling stressed awakened still listening to her screaming and put my hand over her mouth and my fist close to her face. Then she called the police and now my mum and I havent talked in a week. I live with her and Im 21, yes I know Im old enough to live with myself, but frankly Ive just come back from travelling and I have no job or money at the moment. also my brothers girlfriend is doing things which seem to make my brother cry everyday. I was in my room and had no way to vent except facebook and expressed that if she keeps doing this i will shove my foot in her face. Unknowingly she has my brothers facebook and saw what i wrote started arguing and now my brother wont speak to me anymore.

perhaps you've never suffered emotional abuse from a parent or woman mr plaboy king

Your right a womans strength often lies in the society and these socially conditioned knights in shining armour that jump in and try to play the hero.

To be honest this posts wreaks of the same kind of socially conditioned moronic rubbish I was talking about. I will address each point you make, just because I feel like it then i will try to find my own solution. 1) You can take responsibility for your actions, yeah fine, but some people take that too far, and believe that everything that a woman does is their own fault, in my opinion this is self hatred. 2)You talk about walking away, yet I read a post of yours last week where you hit someone in the face, to be honest I didnt think it was a massive deal, but lets get real if a womans been screaming at you for the last three hours and calling you names and won't stop and has been pretty much doing it her whole life telling someone to walk away is ridiculous. 3)Nothing short of having your life threatens justifies violence towards a woman..hey but what about a man, thats ok right? now you can give me some bogus reply but Im pretty sure your thoughts are exactly the kind of rubbish everyone else has. 4) "This isn't social conditioning just being aware that I am a man who is stronger than a woman and it is my duty to protect her" Whooaaa whoaa whooaaa hold on, since when does everyone ahve to be the knight in shining armour. I see this kind fo rubbish all the time. Women do lots of abusive things to a man and the man knows nothing about it then a man jumps in and tries to play the hero. Sounds like you. Yeah I am stronger than the woman since when does that mean its my duty to protect her. Ill protect whoever I want to protect such as myself from being screamed at with insults for three hours everyday or my brother from being reduced to tears nearly everyday. Why should I protect a woman who I consider evil and hateful. Why because shes a woman? Should I protect smaller men too? They have the right too emotionally abuse bigger men right? But bigger men must protect them right? Sorry but your post has some good points but is filled with garbage, which actually is pretty destructive. I agree with taking responsibility and perhaps walking away but some people enjoy seeing you hurt and push really far. However first poster is right I should go along with rules of social conditioning and conform because that is going with the flow and not going against it. I can walk away, laugh or do healing sounds. To be honest I don't like this idea of opening up I feel some women actually want to hurt me but perhaps I will try it thanks for your post.

I am a young man who is considering which university choices to take etc. Honestly this stuff is my passion and I wish to give it to others, whilst making a decent living, whether that requires a psychology degree, building businesses, etc? Anyone have any opinions. I feel that a university degree would make my life safer and add more credibility from society. I meant to say my passion is all that spiritual philosophy, psychological, meditation techniques etc

Thanks for bringing some awareness. To answer the question truthfully... I want to feel enlightened and at peace all the time (resistance, ego), I want to progress quicker (resistance, ego)...sometimes I get confused as to whether I'm doing the right practices (ego, trying to understand), desire to be powerful, special, unique, perhaps different, disliked in a bad way, desire to dissasscociate with current reality, desire to be thought of as special and fulfill ego story. Looking back on this even these thoughts had a small perception of ego is bad or it is bad to have goals or somewhat shame based, or somewhat trying to prove the belief that all questions come from unhappy thinking. Most questions come from a state of mind (thought) as oppose to the now

I may be mistaken here but I don't think he was questioning the idea of you seeing energy rather the belief that everything is unconditional love... (which i dont disbelieve or believe) leaning more towards disbelief though.

Thank you for your reply. In the Uk we get student loans from the government which we pay back once we are earning a reasonable income, also with nursing many courses are completely free since you are working. I need to actually do some work experience with nursing however to fully make sure it is what I want to do. However I see it as a good job for travelling either the 2 months off every year, the fact you can work for a while and probably go and travel and go back to work and work abroad, also i hear shifts are flexible as also you can do overtime. It might be a nice idea to combine this with the medical qigong etc etc later down the lane but having an income allows one to investigate other options a little better. Regards Sinan

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Thank you for your reply. Im not seeing this Everything is unconditional love. Perhaps I can agree that everything is a mixture of nothing and something (which moves at different speeds, quantities), seemingly looking concrete yet being part of everything, I see Everything is Energy quite clearly, I find perhaps truth is not meant to be so pretty. Also I am not talking about sensing Energy I can sense Energy, I am talking about "seeing" Energy, Auras. I.e Carlos Castanada, DOn Juan..if such a thing exists.

Well I do many hours of different practices everyday- for example today I was having perception problems (suffering) so I did the tibetan fire exercise of imagining I was burning all obstacles to do with these topics,allowing negative beliefs to come up and be looked at while positive beliefs come and solve the problem. After 20 minutes I was shocked. Did this for an hour or so in total today. Playing with sexual organs whilst doing vipassana and self massage. What I imagine stillness movement to be for 10 minutes 4 or 5 times. Taking my dog for a walk imagining everything is energy, contemplating it. Reading the Tao teh Ching. Playing the drum and making my own healing sounds and laughing. Sitting Meditation. I rarely stick to any specific. Do this method everyday at 6am kind of thing, I just find it completely against the flow of natural life, too structured. Also it seems to be the mind coming in to say look I am in control now sort of thing. However possibly it means "Im" being undisciplined and discipline is a way to silence the mind? Everything is a paradox. Personally I am interested in learning to see energy then I can "see" what works and what doesn't, however I already can when Im aware of how I feel and the better I feel the better the energy. However most emotions come from the mind. But its crap to be in a shitty mood and contemplate "oneness" etc. It would be better to contemplate appreciation. However I'm not really sure. Also how do I make my own personal practice journal? I tried to make mine but it went in the discussion bit instead.

I am very familiar with shaking medicine and spontaneous dance and find it to be very helpful. I am looking to save up and buy the book, workshop of stillness movement etc however before that happens which could be a while I have been practicing what I imagine stillness movement to be like reading the information and the video. Without ruining Ya Mus sales etc does anyone find shaking medicine to be superior or offer things which stillness movement doesnt eg focusing on good feelings, noises, shaking etc. Is it possible to do both. I find shaking a very powerful healing mechanism..I also like to be still and grounded Regards Sinan

Interesting read when I did Qigong in Oshos resort in Pune the instructor said that Qigong doesnt encourage shaking, so I guess Ive been getting confused. So you practice different spontaneous practices? I am also interested in learning different spontaneous practices however I am interested in sticking to one or maybe two in particular. I wasn't aware that stillness movement incorporated shaking occasionally. I also find focusing on good feelings is a great practices that seems to have changed my "personality", however I see the wisdom in dropping all the ego stuff to ascend to the thoughtless realm also. I also find playing a drum spontaneously, making spontaneous noises ( maybe healing sounds) and music as well as laughing seems to really purify my energy. I've noticed there was bad qi in my neck because I would start putting my hands there and healing myself and if I laughed certain parts of my neck felt blocked. However in five minutes of this spontaneous music the blockages went away really quickly.

Ok thanks I will do both or at least until the workshop in finland regards sinan

Yeah its true but ask yourself..why you care so much? What is it you want? I think special abilities all that are cool lol...but at the same time kind of leads to a "spiritual ego", In the end its impermanent and its only thought of as supernatural because we are tuaght theories of existence which imply the world is full of seperate unconnected things or created by one man which we are not a part of. Whereas if you believe in interconnection then this doesnt seem so weird.

Also do you have a link for the flight mate? Would be helpful Cheers

Hello mate What is Qi saage? Also yes spring forest Qigong sounds good. I am also living in the UK so I guess If I wanted to learn Qigong I would have to do nursing then come to america, nurse there whilst doing qigong?? Also how do you get certified as a holistic health practioner I hope I dont have to go to university for another three years for that. lol sounds good. Regards Sinan

I guess so nothing is easy in this world..I like the idea of helping people and being with the sick and dying. Im sure there are bad parts to it. I have ideas although I dont wish to share them. They are more about things I would enjoy to share with the world (didnt write that properly) also Im very creative and come up with ideas non stop and I have discussed them with others and they seem good. I guess some people would say it wouldnt work. In regards to other business things I am looking to get a flow of assets coming in. My dad is into stocks and stuff so I asked if he could teach me some stuff for like an hour a day and in exchange I would give him a massage or teach him meditative techniques. Also I am always learning reading books and building websites is an idea I think could work and build some steady income with enough initial effort. Thanks I guess it is good to hear a skeptic opinion in advance rather than later.

Good luck in all your goals, my friend thank you for your post, it has also given me the idea to do chinese medicine on top of whatever else I choose to do Regards Sinan

Hello Sloppy Zhang thanks for your posts I am considering nursin because it is a real safety net, then building assets and investing to make money but I have ideas business related and there not about business there about sharing and I think they are pretty unique I need to figure out how write things like business plans etc

Hello Yamu I have been thinking about what you have been saying and coming more to the conclusion that nursing seems like a good idea. It is a far better safety net than say mcdonalds. My actual plans are to bring consciousness raising activities to the general public, investing in stocks and assets, maybe real estate so I dont have to be a slave if I dont want to. Also nursing seems ok, I like helping people. Also say I live in the UK and want to do a medical qigong program after doing a nursing degree in the UK how is this possible. Regards Sinan

Hi What does anyone think about following Psychotherapy which can include many things- Lucid dreaming, hypnosis, EFT, visualisation, gestalt therapy, expressive art, writing, music, singing, dance, psychadelics, CBT, counselling going to University/ies for it...which I would be happy to do for a career. In the meantime look into things like Medical Qigong and building my own businesses and assets. Many people believe that Qigong doesnt solve everything and other things are related. regards