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Well my motivation is not money, its to help heal others transform, and myself.. Although I cant lie, I dont want to be homeless, begging for money all my life either.

I have been doing EFT and occasionally yoga, qigong and shaking medicine for the past couple of months... I have noticed that while it has helped I am often not in the moment.. SO I want a practice that puts me in the present moment, whilst healing past emotional blocks.. I want to be aware of my breath for 24 hours a day (if Im not sleeping) and do Osho's Dynamic meditation for an hour every morning. For the next three weeks before I go travelling. I noticed that there are certain situations that I find very difficult to stay relaxed, such as my dad critising or ignoring me etc... But I also realised that its almost impossible to be very aware of the breath, and be breathing deeply and at the same type lose composure. I also feel that it puts you in the moment, your just being aware of the gaps between the inbreath and the outbreath, not controlling it.. I think it can be like EFT in healing traumas because old emotions/mental pictures come up and you learn not to see them as real, and also I tend to shake (shaking medicine) so I think it heals emotional trauma at the same time. Anyone experience in Anapana? Opinions... Ive been doing it for half a day and feel high/on lsd and in the moment, Im not prone to react to situations.. I am liking this technique

lol it was complicated but I got the gist of it, thanks for the reply

Going to India for 5 months on the 15th February- Starting in Chennai, Madras I dont know what is the best things to do.. I want to be around nature, meet people, some spirituality (although I already know techniques, I just need to practice them so Im not depending on any guru), etc I dont have massive amounts of money- so I have looked at all Workaways, Helpx, Couchsurfing, also had brief glances at India Mike. After India I might go to thailand, dont know with what money though ahaha. Any advice or help appreciated

I have a book called shaking medicine...you shake on purpose/allow the shake to happen and dance to music.. After a while I started shaking whilst doing EFT/Yoga/Meditation.. I think it is to do with Kundalini and it always feels good afterwards.. Also I was doing Trauma Release Exercises/TRE and when you stay in a certain stance your body shakes and this is the whole point of this exercise to allow the shaking to heal, apparantely most animals shake off their trauma after an attack, but humans dont most of the time

Ive been doing a lot of Emotional Freedom Techniques like 4 hours a day for a few days in a row, taking a break for a few days, again for about 2 months. I've noticed dramatic changes in my self esteem, honesty, self expression, sense of power, joy etc. However I feel like Im always trying to reach a goal, Im always trying to heal a memory, Im never good enough until Im fully healed, I need to have a perfect past etc.. Ive heard a lot of people say you should release shame before doing meditation or you will be inhibited by energy blocks, but I also think that it sort of adds to ego and keeps you in a cycle of always trying to heal something etc.. Paradoxical like most of life? Thoughts?

Thanks for the replies...I guess we are unconcsiously motivated by our feelings and thoughts so being present is not the complete picture anyways... Heres what Ive been doing- http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?/topic/22443-eft-matrix-re-imprinting-with-nlp-the-work-positive-affirmations-and-bon On there I've figured I need to be more present- so the way to do that is to breathe, pay attention to that, and other pointers to the now eg "allow what is to be, surrender to the isness of the moment, the now is all there is, time is a concept" as well as other portals feeling the feelings, watching the thoughts and feelings, looking or hearing without judging, and being aware of the tendency to escape the now.. So I guess its OK/good to do these things in cycles but when Im not doing them..try and live in the present moment.

ok thanks

Yeh I know about Eckhart Tolle it was the first thing I knew about all this stuff when I was 17 and Im 21 now, also Alan Watts/Osho etc etc But the thing is there is a difference between "intellectually knowing" to be present and actually living in the present. Theres certain things like spontaneous dancing/spontaneous art/walking etc which are cool. Maybe your right..maybe I should go back to eckhart tolle... So the essence of Eckhart Tolle is- Say Yes to the present moment, surrender to what is, being aware of your resistance to the present moment, concept of time etc What I think though is that should I keep those pointers in mind like 1000 times a day? Or be in a state of meditation...just being aware..so I guess its being aware of feelings, thoughts. Also Ive heard strong arguments that Eckhart Tolle should have done a lot of healing on his own emotional traumas to be more of a human being..It seemed compelling at the time..lol

You know qualities, personality traits that you disown..Interesting to see. That I think my opinion is usually right in a discussion That I can be very hypocritical, complain about the rich not giving to the poor, yet I dont donate all my clothes to the poor and make up excuses about it That I think my theories on life are the truest Occasionally when I lack control, by masturbating, sexual issues, getting angry at people I like, being in negative states of mind Not being productive Starting a project and not finishing it Being unsure sometimes Occasionally not doing things I want to do, out of lack of fear and justifying it as not wanting to do it If I insult someone If I act weird or am thought of as weird When I am not considerate of other peoples feelings

If I was talking to normal people I might try and justify that Im on psychadelics but im not even though I feel like it. If hate and love are the same thing because if you love love, you must hate hate, if there is no end to reach, if the neccessity of survival is just a concept, if there is nothing you must achieve, then life is just one glorious play, dance, celebration. So how might you express this..by celebrating. Im sure most people on this forum know shaking medicine and ecstatic dance where you dance, shake and even sing however you feel like just for the sake of doing it. Well same can be said of art- you draw whatever it is you feel like drawing just for the sake of it, not to make the perfect copy of a chair, if I could show you my drawing its really funny, I even folded the sides of it so the paper sheet is a pyramid and tore little holes in it...because theres no serious purpose to it, its just a play, nothing in it is perfect or imperfect its just expressing. Same thing with music- such as drumming or the didgeridoo or whatever just making whatever noises you feel like, because you feel like. SO like yehhhh i wrote this thread, Im the mannnnn, Im going to write lots of bullshit at the end to make my point tlukk like yeh there was a guy called tulku or something always used to talk about sex repression hmmmm yh thats cool he was banned wasnt he I read this site a few months ago but never read that much, yh im sitting on my sofa its cool like lemons mate.

lol that video makes me laugh

Hmm I agree..Laughter (most laughter) is agreeing with someone opinion, it is used to relieve tension from a shock and sometimes a way to assert superiority over others. Some people may find racist jokes funny, but other people may strongly hate them....If were honest most of us probably wouldnt laugh at an insulting joke about our own race...EG What is like shit but takes nine months to come out? A white person..some people may laugh at that signalling they acknowledge the joke as true, but many white people wouldnt. Hmm..So I guess humour can sometimes be used to insult people. Not that I meant it, but im sure some find it insulting..

I agree theres a lot of stupid crap in conspiracy theories..although I cant really say that for instance the theory that a man invented aids is wrong..because I dont really know..or that in the footage of the moon, theres no stars or the shadows are all in weird positions. I just think in a site where people are supposeadely more aware, conscious and unbrainwashed...the emphasis should be looking at alternative points of view rather than conforming to the rest of the way that the population thinks being furious that there is an alternative view of 9/11 etc.

ahaha lol

Yes, I am serious, Im sick of everything being labelled a "conspiracy theory" and brushed aside when it is usually the truth eg 9/11...making fun of conspiracy theories can seem funny to some, but I just find it annoying because it hides the truth of things and prevents things from being seen clearly and changed.

There is something wrong with me There is something wrong with them/that There is something wrong with the world I need to achieve something Something must happen in the future I cant do it I am/they are not as good/bad as them/me Because these are just beliefs/concepts not truths..

lol how stupid would op feel if he knew that half of the "conspiracy theories" are true and most of what the tv talks is regurgitated brainwash bullshit.

not saying I do but people meditate whilst sleeping, conversation with friends, heated discussions with friends, fighting or martial arts, eating, working... there are situations Im finding it difficult to see like studying or certain types of work like high pressure sales

The term conspiracy theory usually refers to something that is not written in a newspaper that is controlled by people who make money off of the way you perceive things. Rupert Murdoch- a rich capitalist owns 75% of newspapers in the UK, various magazines, Television channels etc, so any opinion that is not in his interest is "a conspiracy theory" Id say about 50% of conspiracy theories are accurate. In fact I would describe what is written in newspapers as "conspiracy theories" i.e against muslims for oil, against iran for israel and oil, against socialism for the billionaires etc edit: They can make you a bit paranoid though and negative though..unsurprisingly as under research you may find out a lot of information which is not too friendly. Terrence McKenna has a good view on conspiracy theories meaning there is no one group plotting to kill everyone, lots of powerful groups want more power, it is human nature... In fact it would be good to hear something that would chill my mind about some of this stuff because it does annoy me sometimes, I try and just focus on peoples happiness, but I think it seems a bit fake

1) Being brutally authentic and honest both with yourself and other people (actually it may be better to share with an understanding person) Read Radical Honesty or gestalt therapy. It frees up a lot of energy to be fully yourself. 2)Also going to lots of parties and socialising....a few times a week (pushing your fears, experiencing being loved, socialising), keeping good friends and company that respect you. 3) In Nathaniel Branden's six pillars of self esteem- one is to set yourself-goals and values and live up to them... 4) Some codependency tools- eg visualising being a baby and your parents hugging and caressing you- John bradshaw, Codependency no more I agree that often meditation is used to cover up traumas and scars and pain, why is why addicts are addicts and actually, 99% of society is addicted, when you meditate your brain produces drugs, so meditating is like being addicted to drugs. Whereas releasing traumas i.e EFT Matrix Re-imprinting will bring you more to your childlike state..

I'm not the world's best marketer or writer, but I do know that if you spend a lot of time with this you will see dramatic changes in your confidence, energy, youth, success, calmness and happiness. It may even effect illnesses. So what were trying to do is heal negative traumas. You can either pick a memory that jumps out or look at the earliest memory relating to how you feel about a challenge you want to overcome. For instance if you want a relationship but dont have one currently it may make you feel worthless or like your not normal. Look at the earliest memories where you feel worthless or not normal. You can spend some time feeling your emotions just to figure out the earliest memory. Here's some beliefs that traumatic memories can cause to infiltrate your mind and body. Imagine how successful, happy or confident you may be without these strong feelings: I am worthless I am incapable I am weak I am powerless I am unloveable Im not good enough the way I am Theres something wrong with me Im stupid Im lazy Im useless Im shy Im weird I dont belong Im not accepted Im not loved Im not safe Im not wanted The world is not a friendly place Im only loveable if (I achieve, Im better than someone else, If I work hard) Im bad Im wrong Im flawed Im incorrect So we want to look at the earliest memories associated with these beliefs as it tends to take some weight off the later memories that are similar. For example. When I was a new kid in school, I had an accent and kids would tease me about it, I got so wound up, I felt so alone and rejected, then later on in that day I started a fight and cried after the fight. If I began tapping on myself- rubbing the point just under the shoulder bone- "Even though I have this feeling that Im being attacked, I deeply and completely accept myself" do this three times Then tap on the crown with four fingers "This feeling that Im being attacked" Then the rest with just the index and ring fingers so the third eye point, side of the eye, under the eye, under the nose, under the mouth, collar bone, breast bone and side of the body. That was just a warm up round... Now we go back to the scene of the memory just before I start to experience emotion, meet the child in real time and thank him or her for holding on to your pain, tell the child that your hear to help them feel good and ask to tap on them, ask the child what it is that theyre feeling and how strong they feel it eg "Im not loved, Im not good enough the way I am, fear, Im being attacked, im not worthy of respect, im unloveable, Im not part of the group, I dont belong, Im not accepted, that I cant be myself" now start to imagine tapping on the child whilst you tap on yourself so.. If I began tapping on myself whilst imagining tapping on the child in the same way- rubbing the point just under the shoulder bone- "Even though I have this feeling that I dont belong, I deeply and completely accept myself" Then tap on the crown with four fingers whilst imagining tapping on the child "This feeling that Im being attacked" Then the rest with just the index and ring finger so the third eye point, side of the eye, under the eye, under the nose, under the mouth, collar bone, breast bone and side of the body. I personally like to play a relaxing song such as reggae or jazz music and tap until I feel the feeling change intensity, Ill tap on each feeling I have associated with the memory, neutralising as much negative emotion as possible, you'll know something is happening if you start shaking, burping, laughing/crying, screaming, roaring, yawning. I was surprised as I was tapping on a memory related to this and started screaming and roaring and barking and crying uncontrollably, I never realised just how much pain was trapped inside. I urge to complete each memory before doing something else as leaving the memory half neutralised is a waste and will also put you into a very bad mood. I would tap each point for a couple of minutes maybe even longer, Ive tapped on a whole memory for a couple of hours before. Eventually the memory will seem very different, before you interpreted it one way, now you dont really even have an interpretation, you want to really make the memory as neutral as possible. Once that's done and I mean really done, We want to talk to the kid ask them what they can do about the situation and if you feel like it you can change the situation for them, so now the children, play and have fun. Then let your child play.

EFT Matrix Re-imprinting- Healing and changing childhood traumas http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?/topic/22160-how-to-heal-negative-memories-extremely-powerful/page__view__getnewpost Shadow work http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?/topic/22112-what-do-you-dislike-about-yourself/page__hl__WHAT%20DO%20YOU%20DISLIKE

? Explain, also I found your second post sounded a little narcisstic. I think people should be able to admit their faults, Parents often act like their gods who can do no wrong. I agree you can live in a state of nothing is good and nothing is bad, and for most of the time its a good way, but when youve got a lot of trauma (most of society) certain things inhibit you