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Yeh I see..lol

I see what you did there. I agree with all the thoughts here but even if I am going to escape it, I still have to put up with at least a few months of work, and it is probably good for keeping me grounded and balanced 2 steps forward, 1 step back thing. For a few days until my trial job im just going to do loads of yuen method/healing codes to see how much of this is actually my own emotional disharmonies/irrational beliefs.

Man I wish I lived liked that in mexico, it is my goal eventually, i keep getting urges to just go, had a job interview just today man it makes me so angry how most people live...anyways

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Conditional respect is good and ok. But excessive focus on such things to me is pride. Not respecting someone to me comes from not loving them. When one loves others unconditionally/heart is open, one will view their actions (even the most hated person) in terms of the actions of a family member or loved pet. I do not think of not respecting my family members. Just their decisions. I may place some emphasis on good qualities but ultimately in judging others by their "worthy/unworthy" qualities, skills, this ends up coming back to me and in my own self love and how I would love myself. So I think focusing on Unconditional love is important as it means such questions/contemplation will seem meaningless to some degree.

NAJA cool, I do believe someone said you were a native american before why not lol Manitou, thanks for sharing that is interesting........ Some further thoughts Over analysing and over questioning is a result of a blocked heart There is little need for clarification when the heart is open The native americans often talk about inner silence too not saying I think its bad to "meditate" but I just think some people go extreme with this and void is form and form is void. Clever analytical wisdom from a blocked heart is incomparable to stupidity from an open one. Smiling just for its own sake and effortlessly (not too strained) seems to really open the heart as does laughing, drumming, poetry etc. But the heart gets very excited with cultivation and wants to go to extreme so probably good to be balanced and sober with it too

Ideally I say love in unconditional aka respect. One can easily disagree with an opinion or action or behaviour or misguided perception without viewing the person as different. When people respect some based on certain things more and some less this can encourage bad attitudes. Deep down someone is the same person whether or not they have misguided thoughts which lead to misguided feelings and actions. I never agree that people should be put on pedestals. However what Im saying is very idealistic and an open/loving heart is more powerful than any analytical thoughts from a blocked one.

Well everyone has one, but only you can see it. I can agree to some extent It did feel kind of 1984, but I seem to have forgot about that/had this feeling removed and moved on if you look on previous threads on this section, I made a similar thread.

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Basically I agree

That was like a masterpiece, thanks

Is Dzogchen the same as Zen Where you just sit and let go and there is nothing...even in pain, like its always heaven. Always back to nothing. Anyways..If so What is the importance of having a blocked heart in this state, like say after an argument one can go back to nothingness but it has a different quality..or is this another intellectual rationalisation.

Usually people have some kind of "reason" to go under such a path intensely, I am questioning where these reasons/sicknesses that for example shamans who learn to cure themselves or pain that people experience come from, like if in a way it is some kind of subtle gift.

Hmm actually I wrote some innaccurate observations. I think some people feel a great calling to go intense at certain points in their lives, going intense can seem intense for some, for others it is not even that intense. There are some good threads for people on here on how to deal with changes.

Oh yeh silly me I forgot

Yes I try to, I dont always do it, often I unconsciously have the Idea what Im doing is best (of course I wouldnt be doing it if I didnt think so) In think its best sometimes I want to show this to others or by law of nature think their way is not as good, (naturally this would result in one trying to show them the way you believe is right) It is very difficult to not believe anything is better than anything else. I often think that my ideas on spirituality is how everyone should think, I find it difficult to shut my mouth (even though this is getting better) and try very hard not to preach (even if it is unconscious) I am getting better at this although it is hard. I generally try to avoid the my way is better approach but on some level that can also be a form of "my way is better" lol. Like boasting about humility.

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Yeah sometimes this happens like yesterday in sleep meditation after this discussion, in zazen. But it comes and goes, and my mind gets scared, and comes up with 1000 rationalisations as to whats wrong with this (maybe some of them have some truth to them) the one in the OP was this state of withdrawal when the heart is feeling very blocked...

I delete things cos I feel uneasy. Sleeping meditation shows the way, Zazen shows the way, Fasting shows the way..Heaven is here now always even in samsara.

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