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Well, I haven't sung a singing bowl before. I guess you meant at higher frequency, the physical movement appears more internal than external. Then I agree. Also, my sense deceived me before. Once I didn't feel any physical movement sensation down from my pelvic floor area. I reached down to touch it with my hand. I felt I got an electrical shock. I then realized that my brain couldn't recognize the "new" sensation. I needed to teach my brain to register this new "internal" vibration. The higher frequency, the subtle the movement. Then you reach the ligtht stage and your third eye is fully open for a moment, there is nothing subtle at that stage. I've alos noticed that strong emotion help turning MCO. I don't know it helps open heart DT or generates different chemical stuff inside to power up the turning. I haven't figured out reliable method to utilize it.

Same principle, different application. I don't know that you can move your body without any input from your brain. A headless chicken, maybe? But it's only for a few minutes at most.

There are always more than one way to achieve the same result. I'm not debating the effectiveness of crossed legs. I just want to say I reached samadhi in a sitting position once and in standing position once. If you I get enough energy going, the restriction of the forms seem to be ridiculous. Then I couldn't be able to control the energy (or I didn't have enough virtues in another sense), I got into trouble. I still can't sit with crossed legs comfortably enough to do serious meditation. I'm working on it.

Also, it's just a personal preferences. There is no right or wrong approach. I'm not as patient as you. Your approach is more similar with yoga relatively static method. I like dynamic approach, or short cut. I like to use the light/spark from my third eye to set the fire in the TD, then kindle the fire/light to a reasonable energy level, then circulate the fire/light. I'm in the very beginning of learning. Sometimes I can't get the ligth from third eye (especially at night, I can constantly get it during day time now). Sometimes I can't get the fire going inside my TD. Sometimes the fire isn't strong enough to pass some of my weak points. Sometimes, my mind is too scattered. Sometimes, I didn't warm up enough to clear the path. In short, the result is inconstant from day to day. It could be very frustrating for someone. The yogis don't do MCO. Some of they surely reached enlightment. Steak, lobster, both or neither, you do whatever works for you.

I believe you can turn it faster and faster until you're turning the light. I believe at the end it'snot a gradual process, it's more like nuclear reaction.

Yes. The visualization and tactile methods are just training tools. The real thing moves by itself, you just set it up in motion and feel the movement. I believe the highest state is when the head catches on its tail, then miracle will happen. I'd like to know anyone here experienced that.

Good quote. Do you know what happens after the "Supreme Reality manifests itself"? i.e. what's the next goal of meditation?

Thanks. Is it the same as "Bindu" in kundalini yoga? bindu is the point where the original sound of creation first appears.

Thank you. I was so silly. I read the book and did the excercise that I can't even remember what I did. It seems to me that shen light is similar to third eye opening. The rumor says that weed can help with that.

Did you meant that you could only do " fixing the spirit at the seat of awareness is" once? Why? Thanks.

To be honest, I dont' know what fixing the spirit at the seat of awareness is. Could you elaborate please? Thanks.

Thank you. The ture mind is too fragile and loving. It can't function in the current society I've been partially responsible for. Thanks again for all the help.

What happens to a person if he's experienced these while he's alive and come back alive? Thanks.

Great. I'm waiting for you and your lover to make the gay legend.

I'm sure about it. Why do we want to mess up an already perfect story? Jesus story was so clever that I had to buy it because I couldn't come up with a better scheme. A brand new story is more appealing to me. There are about 7 billion people on earth now. I still have 1 in 7 billion chance to make it the first.

Jesus wasn't able to do it. Buddha couldn't do it. Lao Tsu didn't even try. I hope some couple out there can make the legend.

It took two to tangle. It won't help anybody if we bring blame into this. His wife of course is aware of Nikolai's emotional struggle. Her response was to attempt to keep herself look young to be more attractive to Nikolai. Did she really believe she's got a chance up against a 20 years old in the physical department? What's her way of showing her concern for the union. She's threw a tantrum over a bow of tortillas. The ironic thing was that she's in the profession of anylize other people's mind. I just want to bring those thing up to make Nikolai know that we're not here to blame or judge. We're here to help out of the universal goodness of our heart. They just acted out of their old thinking pattern in the new age terms. Or they were sleep walking. Or it's the result of their karma. They are totally innocent in a way or totally responsible if looking from another view. Nikolai is a smart guy. He's awaken by thinking with his normal brain. I've just recently awaken or gone crazy. I'm still confused and disoriented myself. I don't know how the new world operates. I'll just tell him my own story in short. The long version may take me a few month to write. A few years ago, my marriage was in trouble. We fought constantly in front of our kids. I wasn't happy at all. Then I met a girl of my dreams. I left my wife and kids. My wife threatened the girl at her business. The girl didn't want nothing to do with me. I was heart broken and broke down. I was let go of my jobs. I relied on weeds to survive the ordeal. I found another job in US. I started my new life. I found another girl that I loved dearly. We moved in together and bought a dream house. Then the similar thing happened between her and me. Some fights between her and me was exactly the duplicate of the fight I had with my ex-wife. I was desperate. I cheated on her. To make it short. I had a Kundalini awakening after two month of meditation. I wasn't ready at all. I realized that I loved that girl so much that I'd kill myself for her. Then why I had hurt her so much in the worst way? My girl friend found out my infidelity, she left me. I was devastated. I had another K episode. Here I am back to canada, almost a year later, I'm still try to forgive myself, patch up my relationship with my ex wife, be a better father to my kids, struggle with my job and hope my ex-girl friend come back into my life (please don't bust my bubble on this one). A new country, new job and new girl didn't change my fortune because I didn't change myself inside. Keep doing the same thing and expect different result is insanity. I can't run away from myself. Nikolai, you have to walk the path yourself. Whatever you decide, I support you. Would you please be true to yourself and be honest with yourself? If you make a mistake, it's OK. we're always given a second chance.

Sorry to report that I haven't got much experience from this 100 day celibacy. It's just another day for me. I don't feel more energetic. Woman doesn't appear more attractive to me. It wasn't much a test of will. The Kundalini awenkening robbed me of my libido. And I felt guilty about my cheating on my ex-girlfriend. I might have sublimated my sexual desire unconcsiously.

Sure, it's possible. However you seem to have two small problems: 1. Is your wife OK with it? 2. Is G Ok with it? I'm a little confused about the question that if you need to run away from G. You said that G hadn't contacted you for weeks. It seems to me that you don't have to do anything active to "run away". I have two similar experiences. I've learned my lesson. IF it happens again to me, I'd open the can of worm: I'd lay it out straight to my wife. Actually I'd do it before a 20 years old appears. If my wife doesn't care about my discontent, then what's the point of having a life partner? At mean time, I'd remember it's a two way street. If I don't consider my wife's priority my priority, why should she care about my priority? Nikolai, I hope with my whole heart that you'll do better than me.

Sorry, I didn't mean to ingnor you. I typed a long reply. Then my web browser crashed. I took it as a sign that I shouldn't post my comment (I'm kind of superstitious nowadays since synchronicity happens so often). You asked me again. I guess I'm OK this time since I have to answer question by another human. It's just a phase that I carry over from my swing club days. I just worked there. I didn't have a partner to swap at that time in case you wonder. Some couples only allow their spouses to have physical sex with others. While some allow their spouses to fall in love with others to incorporate that person into their life like a seond husband/wife either live-in or live-out. They'd say to their spouses before they do the deed "no mental sex, OK? I love you." Nikolai's question is dear to my heart. I walked out of my ex-wife seven years ago. I cheated on my ex-girl friend. I was a bad person. There is no another way to look at it. I don't know what kind of magic Nikolai had. He wasn't satisfied with his old life. He dreamt up a gilr as escpae route. To his surprise, the girl menifested into his real life. He had second thought now. I'm sure I don't want to be in his situation. Should Nikolai continue his escape with help of this girl? Or should he stay put to figure out another plan? I have no opinion one way or another. I'm sure Nikolai would make the best decison since there would not be other. The only advice I can give to Nikolai is "there is no escape from life, not even in death."

Can a person love two people at same time? Who made the rule that a man can only love ONE woman? To take the point further, who made the rule that a man can only marry ONE woman? The God by Islam interpretation doesn't have problem with polygamy. Why do I have to convert to Islam to pass the morality problem?

I'd tell whoever tells me the news "no, thank you." I already promised my teen daughter that I'd walk her down the wedding aisle. Who'd want to mess up my plan in my world?

Nikolai, Have you thought about open marriage? Are you perfectly OK with the idea that your wife having sex (either physically or mentally) with other guy? If so, can you talk to your currect woman about open marriage? You never know. She might want to know other guys too. I worked in a swing club for a few years. I've seen different kind of arragement between husband and wife. I don't know if their marriage are better or worse than traditional ones. But they sure communicate to each other more openly than average family. Isn't that sad that you can open your heart to a bunch of strangers online while you can't talk to the woman with whom you plan to spend the rest of your life? (no blame here. I did similar things before)

Hello, I'm not qualified to give any advice since I have no idea about life myself. All I know is that I have to keep going forward. I do what I can to make the journey pleasant for me and my follow travellers. I do my best to not destroy the path on the way. I may enhance the scenery if I have spare energy. For a 18 years old, you are exteremely intelligent and self aware. You have good temper to deal with critism as well. If I were a girl of your age, I'd definitely feel dumb around you. I'll offer a few ideas, some may be stupid. Hopeful you'll find some useful. Why masturbation? What do you think about sex? Can you find someone to have sex now? If you experienced sex, you might have different idea about masturbation. If you can't find willing partner soon, is escort legal in your state? Do you know that ejaculation can be separated from climax. When you masturbate, do you concentrate on your genital area only, or do you spread the good vibration all around your body? Have you had a brain orgasm? It's good to learn masturbate correctly. How many girls do you want to attract? Do you want to be pursuit by a legion of girls or you just want to find the ONE? There are billions of females on this planet? Are you sure none of them may be attracted to you? Is your masturbation the biggest problem in your life? You must have a good life. I have a few things in my life that cause me big headache. Making my penis happy is just one of them. Most time, we don't see ourselve clearly. Are you a good son to your parents? Good brother to your siblings? Good friends to your mates? Good student to your teacher? You mentioned that you had conflicts with your relatives? People tend to show their true color more in these situation. Do you want to share more? What kind of physical excercise do you do? Qi Gong? Yoga? martial art? Weight lifting? socer? tennis? Be true to yourself, you'll find answer sooner or later.

Thank you very much. Without looking at mirror, I can never find the dirt on my face. Without shooting off my mouth first, I can never hear my own kind reminder. Thanks for allow time for me to grow and remind me to give myself more time too.