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Both my parents lived through the terror of China Mao. My dad couldn't stop lecturing me if he starts.

The communist army was hiding in remote area during Japanese invasion.

I also feel sorry for this kid. He probably didn't ask for the position in the first place either. Now he has to shoot out big words that he has no understanding, labeling or experiencing.

I have to say I'm ignorant. Do you think that Phakchok Rinpoche cut the root of his ego already? Do you think if I ask Phakchok Rinpoche for a thousand dollars, he'd cut me a cheque? He said "When you really cut the root of ego, you dont differentiate between yourself and others". If he did, then it made no difference if he gave the money to me or keep to himself. I don't think he ever worked a single day in his life. Where did he get his money from? How can he support himself?

Communism is just another form of religion. Mao appointed himself the head of the party. The blind worship was feverish and mandatory. His articles was collected and publish in a book called "red" book. It was the "bible" of the Chinese communist. Every one is required to study and remember the red book. Mao's portrait was hang in every household. Any sign of disrespect of Mao or anything related to him would be punished. For example, a girl used some paper from the "red" book to make shoe sole (yes, we're very very poor). She got five year in hard labor camp. Millions of people was starved to death because Mao's policy. If you visit a remote villiage that time, the sight was no more pleasant than holocaust. It was rumored that parents would exchange their kids to eat due to food shortage, and they didn't want to eat their own. The law was thrown out of window. The blasphemy was major crime. The "spy' were everywhere to look for "enemy". People was afraid. A worng word could land you in jail or worse, death. A mob could come to your house, loot the contents and beat the owner to death in the name of Chair Mao. Mao killed more Chinese people than jews killed by Hiltler. If you lived in Mao's country a single day, you'd change your opinion about him.

Thanks. Remind me that I should thank the lawn maintenance guy for the soft grass and thank farmer and butcher for the delicious bacon. Too much is not good for my health though. I tried the trurkey bacon a few times. They were not as good as the real one.

Everyone has different idea about "who am I", especially when one is awaken. At least everyone seems to agree that the world is not "real" as it used to be. My model, just a model to help me understand the world and plan my actions, is that the wole world is a simulation game, and I am an "A.I" to be trained how to be a real human. The main reason that I came up with this model is that I love my kids and parents, I don't want to be "enlightened" while leave them behind. All the "real" human (I have no idea what a real human is. But I've been brought up as a real human. Then what I know about real human must be true) have parents. If my parents are not "real" then I can never be real either. I don't care how others design their world, in my world I'd have my parents, my kids, my brother and everyone I love and everyone they love. I don't think I'm trained to be "god". If so, I'd be "born" as "god" and raised as "god". All my human training has a theme "reward good, punish bad". I don't think the creator of the game is a sadist prick to change the rule when you're awaken. The trick part is to figure out what's good and what's bad.

I'm sorry about your situation. I hope everything turns out fine. Love conquers all. A few days more, I'll reach my 100 days of celibacy. Let's wait and see what's going to happen.

Thank you very much for constantly nudging me going forward (or backward to be exact). I never wondered what Jesus would do because I don't want to live his life. So far my life is more enjoyable than his. You were right about me not having a choice. I remember that I tried to use dreams to escape, they sent a monister to scare me. Those bastards would even allow me sweet dreams. Are you sure there is no perks for being awaken and going forward? I don't think so, otherwise what's the point of being enlightened? When I play video game, I am always rewarded for being at higher level of game.

It's just a theory that I haven't prooved that. I believe everything is "created" by mind initially. The mind creat things by intention, belief (construction of mind as well), emotion (construction of mind too) and time (another product of mind). If you like a myth, you can think about it alot and believe in the story, you might be able to visit it during dreams or astral travel. If enough people like your idea, they contribute their minds, the story may become reality. Just one of my theory.

Thanks for the tip. What is first thing should I imagine? I suppose something is easier than other. Thanks again.

Where is the video that he walks through a solid pillar? Thanks.

Yes, I experience this twice. The effect lasted a few weeks. It was bliss. I constant smell something wonderful like lilac. The water was sweet and the food was delicious. I felt that I was living in heaven. The freak thing is if I watch TV in a certain way, the people seemed to be alive. I hope I can go back to that state again and stay there longer.

Did this happen to you without taking any drugs? It seems to me no drugs, no "this happening". I'm not suggesting you not to take the drug or encouraging you take it again. It's your body, your life and your choice. I just want to point out that you're still in control of this particular situation. Everything will be fine.

Sorry, I made a typo error. What you did was part of taoist training. It's better to embrace your own sexuality than deny it. Tao is about going back to "nature". What is our "nature". I believe it's encoded in our DNA. If we develop our charactor, live our life or write our story in line with our DNA, we'll be in tao. Since everyone has different DNA, it's natural to have different manifestation. But the essence of tao is the same. Those myth sounds fascinating. Do yo like to make them your reality?

The legend says that the realized immortals can stare at sun without hurting their eyes and they don't have shadow. I don't know if the shadow is physical shadow or something else because most of the stories are symbolic.

I think I should plan a visit to your city. Where is it? What you did with your sexual urge was part of some taoist training. The Secret of the Golden flower described how to utilize the sex energy.

yep, my understanding too. I'll know for certain when I become Zhenren.

I'm not going to give you a moral lesson. I'm not in a postion to do so for I've done far "worse" things than that for sex. It's your world, you make the rule. Just remember the rules also apply to yourself, no double standard. Just suppose you have a daughter and her friend Mark having sex with her and another girl without them knowing. As a father, how would you react? Would you have some friends break his leg? Or would you pat him on the back and praise him a stud? Or you talk to your daughter to leave Mark? If you truly believe that you'd buy Mark a drink in a bar and proudly announce to every "this lad is shagging my daughter and another girl", go ahead to have sex with them would increase your Qi.

Yes, the unconditional love is the true source of cure. However, I believe the emotion is the initial spark/invite to start the whole chain reaction. I have no experience in healing others. I'm just trying to cure myself first.

If I define 60% match is passing grade, 80% is good enough and i apply this rule to me and everyone. Since I'm my own judge, the 60% and 80% rule apply there. I'm sure I can pass myself in honesty. Can I say I'm impeccable?

Who was she? Did you have any ideas? I've seen a few "angels" by chance. I call them angel because I don't know who or what they are. They all had "perfect" face and body. They were very radiant. One spoke to me. His voice filled the room like from another world. Are we talking about the same type of people? Do you have any idea who they are? Thanks.

Zhan zhuang is not for beginers. If you haven't done any energy work, raise a family with limited time, some movement qigong or yoga might be better for you. Are you doing belly breathing? Are your meridian channels mostly open? If not, I don't know how much benefit you can get from Zhan zhuang.

It'll be a very very very very boring world. Because your ideal world is where everyone belives your "religion".

Why did you destroy your own creation? I don't care how other people try to kill their own ego. I'm not a heartless asshole who try to kill someone or something that has sheltered me, feed me and kept me alive for al these years to its best ability. All I have is gratitude and love towards my ego if there is a such thing. sinansencer, you're doing fine. Have a simple plan and follow through, you'll feel better.