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Resisting the pain holds, allowing the pain liberates. Resisting 'what is' right now is to resist yourself.

Very interesting. I have felt weird things in this area. What would be the benefit of focusing on the LDT? For me, focusing on the UDT brings huge benefit into the life. From my feeling, it seems a lot of energy is held in the LDT, but when the UDT is touched that energy goes silky smooth.

Where do thoughts come from? When I look I cannot find anyone. And when someone says, 'the brain' this is just another thought rising up. There is seeing, touching, tasting, hearing, smelling, all these things change, but when looked who does these things arise to, they just do. If the answer is 'Me' then this is just another thought rising which will disappear. The urge though is to be completely identified with the 5 sense and thinking. When I suffer from my thoughts it wakes me up to see them and create the distance to leave them alone.

The more I practice body awareness the more I can sense the subtle vibrations or blood in my body. It seems where ever I place my attention in the body, the blood or vibrations get stronger. Now if I place all my attention on my head, I feel a big pressure build up. Is the pressure a sign of energy imbalance or doesn't mean anything? I have recently bought the book "Taoist Yoga - Alchemy and Immortality", and am familiarizing myself with the mini and microcosmic orbit. So my question in relation to the microcosmic orbit is, should I but pushing that pressure down the front channel to complete the microcosmic orbit?

Thank you for your advice.

It doesn't feel like anything. It feels like nothing. How does one touch it when one can't feel it. Well thats a hard one, but I can only suggested moving your attention there. If you hit the mark and the whole body relaxes then I would say its there. The body relaxing is not the goal, but resting the attention in the nothing is. I also thought I was pushing the attention outside of the body, but I have found resting the attention behind the eyes has the same result. Resting the attention on the formless instead the that which has form.

I would like to get your views on the difference between Enlightenment and Immortality? Is Immortality, life after physical body death with the personality intact?

I'm not sure if its too much, its just a pressure inside, no pain or anything. Walking meditation becomes very easy when touching the space behind the eyes. The back arches up and the body feels light. Its amazing that resting your attention on this spot can have such powerful results.

Suffering is sometimes the greatest teacher

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Thank you very much

Could the pressure build up cause a crown opening. I feel like the pressure is trying to break something open, like something has been blocked. When I first started meditation I got too massive loud bangs as the pressure went in between the eyes and ears. I then passed out after seeing the brightest white light that smashed through the top of my head. I have never felt the traditional kundalini energy surge up the spine that's so strong and intense.

Would one want to be a blip on the radar? And if there is a longing to be a blip on the radar, from what place inside is this coming from?

Thank you for your response. I was bringing the attention to behind the eyes and focusing on the nothing. Now when the nothing is touch then its fine, if it doesn't hit the mark and rests on form, the energy build up happens. It just feels like someone is expanding a balloon inside your face. When I first started my meditation a few years ago I experience and still do to some degree a lot of popping or cracking noises inside my head.

What is the personality other than a ball of thoughts/beliefs held onto?

i have enjoyed reading your post xabir2005, thank you

Love yourself now unconditionally. If the answer comes back that you can't, then why can't you? And if the answer comes back as a belief why you can't, then let go of that belief as it doesn't serve you.

thank you for your welcome. So before I have looked into Non-dual meditation. Now at this moment I am looking into the Tao and the movement of energy.