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oh wow, guess i was wrong

i am pretty sure i know who this is.

Yeah i wanna see him type out his whole life story, it will give me a good idea if i want to read the rest

Jetsun you are replying to a permabanned member

normally i just fight really hard and make it worse, then give up and it goes away soon. i like your analogy though!

i don't really know how to do this, all of the typical male characteristics i hear about are either negative stereotypes or stereotypes i personally view as detrimental to my goal of people liking me/viewing me as nice

because i experience it as me projecting my negativity onto other people and i see them staring at me with either the same angry or scared feelings i feel all the time and it scares the shit out of me i don't know what word to use other than "handle" to describe not freaking out when i start experiencing this, maybe "accept"? i am scared of myself and the entire world, when i feel threatened i pretty much crumble and fall instantly

i used to want to write a book, but then i realized that i can barely get someone IRL to listen to my theories for even a minute and seeing some of the negative attention some people get on here i would be way too scared to post anything like that on ttb. i catch enough BS for my threads that attempt to think out of the box, imagine a whole book of my nonsense! inanimate objects are sentient animals with tails have extra chakras people already have super powers they just don't realize it when they use them the best cure for an angry society is to shock them, as the facial movements for shock and anger are almost exact opposites 4chan culture is developing its own form of spiritual cultivation, but they aren't aware of it there is just a taste of my crazies.

No need at all o.o He already made a thread saying he would leave TTB alone...or has he already come back? i haven't seen him at all, but i haven't been checking the nubile asian thread.

i guess i will have to sit down then D:

ah well, my statement still stands

My unity experiences tend to have a lot of "I-ness" It is like there is nothing but me, everyone and everything is me. Complete with my ego and all my problems...

probably my favorite thread by him was the "The time has come for angels to descend from heaven and take free will from the world so everyone can be enlightened and ascend" or however it was worded

Not really full experience of it, but i have had some really scary episodes that the only explanation for them is non duality Have also experienced forgetting crucial parts of my reality momentarily i don't think the realization of these things is the most important part, but what you do with it. This kind of knowledge can and will drive people insane if they don't know how to handle it, which i don't.

i have just enough to eat and pay bills and then none left over to do anything at all, so it kinda forces me to look within for my happiness if i want to be happy at all

i saw that canned oxygen in a convenience store in Poughkeepsie Ny and immediately assumed it was for getting high. But i decided to humor them and ask what it was for and i got the answer, "There are some places in the world where there is no oxygen"

yeah recently i smoked pot everyday for two months straight also. that is probably what really caused the pressure and the recent depression

ever since i started being able to feel the vagus nerve i have had more difficulty controlling head pressure

as a general rule i tend to stay away from all of those things, but i am only human and find myself eventually eating the crap again. i regret it 100% of the time though

i only don't kill myself because i don't like fear to control my actions. If i was perfectly happy and still saw no point in living i just might do it though

can't wait to see your responses to my old friend who thinks about the same way when they get back from their longterm suspension from ttb....

i care, but it just seems to be a just-because type deal. i don't really have a reason to at all, and that is why i contemplating suicide myself. i feel like my caring is conditional and shallow. i hate how fake i see myself as being. Some people seem to genuinely love the world, i am just faking it until i make it.

You would probably be exactly the same. All i know is that when i want to kill myself, the best thing anyone has ever done for me is give up on me. i cry until i feel empty, and then happiness and insight arises from that mental state

well i wouldn't do it for you but that is one of the few birthrights that people have, so you have my blessing - to live your life happily or to end it if you find that impossible. Good luck with whatever path you choose

song, have you read my first MXE trip report? it is in my personal practice journal on here. i think you would get a kick out of it