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As well as for me. In the past i was pretty addicted to porn and jerkin it, and lately i have been getting reduced sexual interest. i hope to bring my sexuality back and be able to control it

okay got it. i will separate those practices. But how is concentration on the breath one pointed if there is inhale and exhale? i have trouble with this as well

when i was younger, around age 10 i had psychic type things happening to me semi-frequently. Then something really intense happened and i freaked out crying and told my parents, who told me i wasn't allowed to read books like that and that it wasn't real. Those types of things stopped happening, and i stopped believing in them for a while

well what i do when i meditate is i use a double sided mantra, i say half of it when i inhale and the other half when i exhale. i am definitely gaining deeper concentration from it as i get effects like forgetting my body on some small level (basically nerves relax and i don't feel pain anymore) and i feel some sort of chemical-high-peacefulness feeling. But, i feel like i am getting stuck at that feeling. Even when i try to gently ignore it and continue, i stop at that feeling. i think i am making progress on that level, because i can now conjure that feeling at any time during everyday life. The mantra i use is training in morality, and depending on the situation i alternate between 2 or 3 mantras based on what i feel i need most. So while i am repeating the morality mantras, i am contemplating those too. i feel as if maybe i might be stalling in progress with concentration because i am contemplating the meanings of the mantras at the same time and how to integrate them with my life. TLDR should i separate my training in morality mantras from my concentration practice? Is this holding me back in concentration?

i get all kinds of sexual looks no matter what the occasion jk noone ever looks at me, im a dirty bum

i would be so lost without this forum and everyone on it, including those i disagree with. So not ready to give it up myself

oh man, your squiggly art reminds me of mine

i would not sue someone ever, because in my opinion everything that happens to me is a mixture of no fault/my fault

probably really REALLY bad advice health wise, but i sell plasma for cash lol Also where are links to these paintings? do want see

if you consider just hitching and backpacking around, know that the world will take care of you. It may not always be in the way you want though. Entitlement and honor have nothing to do with it and anyone who tells you otherwise is bitter that they had to work for theirs while other people discover abundance and waste - like all the almost expired food thrown away every day. Tons of advice to give, crash space on my floor and a warm meal. tons of free cultivation and spiritual teachings in my town too

i may be wrong, but after kundalini don't some schools say to bring the energy down to the heart? i have also heard bring it to LDT. i have never heard of bringing it to the perineum

your problems are why i quit kundalini practices and started doing chikung. i couldn't take the headiness

i thought she was holding a pokeball until i realized it was a stethoscope

nothing is ever wasted, something ate that meat or else it went in to the soil.

walk on gravel barefoot. Best lowering i have ever experienced. Just don't let it affect your posture walking, keep walking as if you were on a comfortable surface

sometimes when i want to edit my post i accidentally click quote and double post with a slight difference in the second post i guess this is just my fault though

i once had a vegan tell me that carnivorous animals were morally wrong for eating meat, along with people who live in areas where meat is the only option. In my own kitchen nonetheless!

same. when i go to type a post and bring up the keyboard it jumps me back to the top of the page

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i feel like if you are reading a book about something like this (or even reading a book in general) you are already a lot more "awake" than the rest of society as far as the person saying you need to wake up is concerned. i'm really tired of the whole "wake up" thing. What if i am already awake to things but would rather "go back to sleep"? There are some things i acknowledge as truth and a real issue but i would rather not think about them 24/7. Things like the illuminati and genocide. i know these exist but i don't think i could do anything to stop them so it is better for me as a person to not think about stuff like that all the time. Anyone that doesn't know stuff like this might just go "that is stupid" within the first 5 seconds so the you need to wake up argument is pointless to me

try drawing zen tangles

find a browser for your ipad that supports flash. i have one for kindle just gotta find an app that will do what you want.

archetypes do exist, but i don't think they do on a spirit/soul level. if reincarnation is real i don't think the soul every really belongs to anyone, so to say "this is my past life" is a little silly. My idea would be more like "everyone who lived before me was my past life" just speaking my opinion here

so you create heat just by moving your attention to a part of you? when i move my attention around internally i just get super increased bloodflow. if i want heat i have to do something active and then move my attention to the place to heat. Do you think about what heat feels like while you focus or just focusing itself does it?

If i want something small, within a week i will find it. i tested it this week with something i didnt really want and i got it. i am wondering if this is negatively affecting energetic progress? Should i work at having no desire more? This manifestation has been happening for a long time, before i even practiced energy work, but has intensified since. It starts with a thought like "oh this thing would be nice" then a week later i find it on the ground or meet someone who gives it to me. There is about 80% accuracy, even when the thing i wish for is money but no matter what it is it has to be small. When i realize i dont really want that item its too late, i am going to get it