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when I am quiet within - love naturally arises as the primary essence / if i am able to let go of all else and just be

curious thing / probably no answer / don't believe in coincidence much every time I am driving at night a street light or two usually goes out just as i approach it or go under it... tonight 2 went out this happens rather often / i think it strange unless my country has really poor quality light bulbs and street lights are going out all over the place constantly... but this seems unlikely

Well I assume you have experienced time travel yourself? with your AYA experience? the experience seems forever? but only an hour has passed? Ive heard people who astral project, the further away they get from the earth time seems to stop... from an earth perceptive? or mental space time awareness perception perhaps even a dream seems to go for some time and you wake up and only 1/2 has passed time + level of consciousness I totally believe it would be possible to master time and space / once one masters consciousness the more dense reality the slower time? (vibration) the higher vibration the further time becomes meaningless say 1 hour on earth maybe 100 years (feeling) In realities vibrating at a faster rate then ours when you take aya or like or meditate consciousness is vibrating at a higher level = less time constraints so i assume to time travel physically one would need to become light move into higher realities... choose path from there and then descend / slow your vibration into the time frame space reality of choice

Cool man! love / compassion yes yes LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE feeeeels gooood

everything occurs in the present... when you think of the past... you are thinking of the past in the present when you think of the future... you are thinking of the future in the present moment etc my feelings come from the present realization / compassion and empathic understanding that I am unable to help at a large scale all my fellow beings / overwhelmed by the suffering being experienced by others by seeing them suffer I suffer + no matter what I do I will always cause suffering and conflict / even with the best of intentions so I have to except that fact? that life is conflict < and see this as necessary for growth\ /learn to trust in the Great Tao more fully ... why does it make me feel this way in the first place though?

Thanks Owl I was deluding myself for a moment / idealism (angelic army) vs "reality" - you are right GUARDIAN SPIRIT! (1000s pieces I feel somedays like Avalokiteśvara) the rest is fantasy also / numerous contradictions... I'll get there in the end wait... you say... there is no end?? it would seem what i am doing in denying the inevitable - also I think I have gone past breaking points with ethics and inner conflicts haha to the point of... can I mow the lawn? does the grass feel pain? nowhere to go' everything I do will cause some conflict / maybe joining the military was a F**K IT moment ... one polarity to the next...

Death motivates me and the promise of "Freedom" since a child --------------------------- Beautiful poem Stosh Beauty motivates me too! thanks for reminding me Beauty in all its myriad forms / expressions -------------------------- realizations = nothing much of a muchness? (haha, slight rip from Alan Watts)

Thanks V When I am? I am when I am not? hmm How would you suggest to pursue the Tao - to be honest I haven't meditated in some time / in the past on and off ... at present ive nearly destroyed myself I think ... the world has crushed me i have seen the evil of this place... I wanted to save this place... futile / i have no hope left ... fear is fading too i guess, not really (trying to be brave haha) / ... feel kinda worthless and pathetic really... this human I.. this ant crawling around in the dust without the faintest clue about anything... I guess the ant may actually know more than I. I want to be "immortal" a "god" so I can fix this place... I cant see anything other than a god being able to mend this broken world ^ but maybe that is the "beauty" of this world... who knows... there is nowhere left to go (i guess is the best way to put it) everywhere i turn I can barely stand it... so much BS and meaningless trival...nonsense i don't want to be apart of this "machine" this "system" i don't want to reinforce this madness I didnt quite understand what it was to lose ones innocence - until i lost it nothing to do with sex etc but purity of mind / this world is full of filth / filthy, perverted, wicked minds perhaps it is the lose of hope? hmm or understanding the world is darker than you could at that time imagine as I progress through life (23 now) things just seem to be getting darker... i use to believe everyone was inherently good haha shows how naive I was. what i am trying to say is in a sense I am as broken as this broken world nothing much left? isnt that the goal though? to become nothing? or no-thing? whats the difference really... a piece of me thinks nothing is a good start? (is fire meditation / focus concentration etc "meditation"... or path to? or not to the Tao (Freedom?)) just to be sure / I am a "fighter" ... but i refuse to play the "game" anymore... i don't know I feel this is all for the best in the end I will see

Sorry to derail Owl / in terms of timing - my present thoughts and MHs post + my spiritual aspiration coincided.

Ah thank you MH You may have guessed from my other posts... I can't really accept the non dual reality / good and evil being the same... my view at present is that the world is going to hell... so to speak / so much corruption / pollution / needless suffering / inequality etc... few noble souls left to actually create the peace everyone is looking for... the military was never on my mind until recently // i am under no illusion as to what that may involve or some of the forces controlling the military at present (evil)... a large majority of the conflicts... / there is no "angelic army" / ... I think my nation may not be as influenced however...hmm perhaps I could put myself in a position to protect those who can not protect themselves bleeding heart perhaps maybe I would be better suited to "law enforcement" I feel like I am in some dystopian movie, the world decaying / turning to ashes darkness/ oblivion enveloping all?? am i the only one here who sees such? I don't know where to turn is the best we can do chant / OM SHANTI SHANTI SHANTIO OM! peace peace peace? sorry all for my sorrowful energy I have a lot of things to figure out

Hey MH in terms of the military / this option has strangely arisen from myself as a path (unlikely)... though it may contradict but maybe also compliment my nature ... they say the path of a monk and a soldier isn't so much different? how did the military shape your spiritual inclinations/ desires/ feelings? or did they came after

Informer + Vmarco good debate / finding it very interesting! in terms of 6 senses? I don't understand why we must "destory" / ignore (the impossible) them I use senses all the time to go deeper into meditation? eg: breath, sounds, feeling... its all about concentration and focus not about doing being nothing? don't all the senses descend from awareness / consciousness anyway? the "highest"? If the Tao didnt have sense neither would we? its inherent in all creation... and for it to be inherent in creation it would have to be inherent in creator... a creator can not creator what creator is not. its like earth to water to fire to air to ether to... focus, refinement, transcendence ? my agenda is to find out what my agenda is / I think at present it is to "kill the buddha" ?

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Linked to another topic / perhaps a slight variation / curious to your thoughts Do you think a "Rock Star" or like famous figure would gather chi force? energy from people "devoted" to them a crowd of say 50'000 all chanting your name? or just the constant mental energy directed @ them? building them up?

ahh cool Ive been teaching myself to "hold" onto this sensation longer when it happens i'll start letting it move around too I feel its a guiding sensation of sorts also? nothing happening something of that you need to acknowledge comes up // tingling happens? to say hey...THIS WAY!??

sounds like a pretty wacky experience ahah where do i meet people like you in "real life"? I seem to be in void of spiritual / mystical esoteric occult "magicians" wizards and sages haha... as in non existent / everything is so god damn "main stream mediocre"

@ Seth + Thelerner I tend to agree with both I do believe there is a combination of interstellar / interdimensional / inner planet / military and supernatural things (lol) going on in terms of "alien" / foreign to the "normal" earthly assistance // that perhaps these beings or some of them were called angels and demons at one point ... all cultures around the world have concepts of good and bad beings interfering with human affairs interesting stuff / would be cool to one day "get on top of it all" see / know what is actually going on ahh haha

The tingling sensation up the spine? into the head/ brain + face

Sometimes meditating "going deeper" this internal spinning sensation happens in the mind / consciousness / body? what is this? peace

ah cool missed your post sorry and yours Dwai i'll check out this Shaktipat

hm cool De Paradise interesting stuff

everything is interrelated? mutual arising