Diamond Spectrum

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I'm deeply lonely. I have class rooms full of students, a number of social clubs I can pick and choose from, i get attention where ever i go. But very few people to connect with on a deep level of intimacy. I believe this simply comes with time. What's also interesting is I crave connecting with people in deeply "spiritual" ways that my teachers have connected with me, and i mean out of this workd ways, but that is even more rare than the simple time tested intimacy friendship. A few long time fellow students and practitioners, a couple family members, no single soul mate, the soul mates I've found are my best students and my teachers. On the rare occasions that we reconnect along those spiritual lines, it is truly a marvelous feeling!

Speech is blasphemy! Silence is a lie! Above speech and silence, there is a way out!

Your words are a stake to which donkeys are fastened.

Real Spirit Travel. An Unfortunate accident that puts negative contemporary attention upon ancient practices of soul journey through ethnobotatnic pathways.

“Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.” -Rumi “Not only the thirsty seek the water, the water as well seeks the thirsty.” -Rumi

Seeking forum members advice and experiences with amber. I have never worked with it. I understand it will hold a static charge. Fascinating that a number of things can be suspended in amber including ancient bugs, plants and even water?

*bow* thank you Taomeow!

Without minimalizing the state of consciousness that practice induces, including the external influences you describe (living in the mountains)... It stands to reason the preexisting CONDITION of (wo)man is the reason why practice transforms consciousness regardless of the external influences which surround the practitioner.

I've landed back in Portland after a summer of adventure. Portland Roll Call?

Gravity sucks.

Ask the right questions, get the right answers!

Focal Cones

Nothing's the Matter

A flock of strange birds.

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Swish

Also, I want to note, my energetic practice is better around females. If I hang around only males it creates imbalances that even out when I'm around warm hearted women.

You can develop a high level of skill and still touch women, it's a buddhist monastic rule upon entering a monastery. Everybody stressing over porn need to find real women around them to talk and hang out with and that way you'll see your obsession. It's an image, if you need a release you need to feel a satisfaction that is based on your physiology that is unattached to the images that are not real. When you couple that with being around real women, you will get energy instead of feeling a black hole of the negative cycle. Part of it is just feeling bad about releasing yourself without a mate, but get rid of the image and do it with your mind, as you get the urge, and you will progress MUCH faster, also when you experience metaphysical phenomenon as a result of unattached jing circulating chi and the refinement of your spirit, previous energetic experiences like those become dull and boring. Real life is rich, this process of becoming full the empty cup is filled every day. Just pm me.

Aesthetics could be looked at as the release of an energetic wave along any line, in this context, the lines of chi flowing and flowering through the human form.

Care for the tree, eat big fruit.

In re reading your words, I would like to form the idea of a distinction between placing the attention on a sense, or placing it THROUGH the sense. This would be like gazing at the candle until the candle is gone.

Scotty, Food is a good meditation. Fixing the concentration is exercising the attention, the blade of the mind, the attitude of a cat ready to pounce is perhaps a good analogy, a mind which is open is not tense, but ready, watching clouds pass, reflecting the moon. Consternation and frustration obsession and psychosis have their own ends.

Might be something to the Bed of Nails after all?

When I worked in some places with more charachter I would carry a small ball peen hammer in my pocket that was my grandfathers. On occasion I would remove it from my pocket and use it to lightly tap my meridians and hard to reach release points. No one ever asked me what I was doing, the smart ones knew, and the not so smart ones didn't want to find out. Recently I found another use for my little ball peen hammer: 1 hammer, 10,000 strikes