DreamBliss

There is the idea of a Personal Legend. This thing we know as children. Then we forget, or a "mysterious force" convinces us that it is impossible. We grow up, listening to our families, friends, society. We stuff our dreams deep down inside, as they are impractical. Instead we go to college, or get a job, or marry and start a family. We grow old and we die, our dreams unfulfilled, our Personal Legend abandoned. I was envious of people who had this thing called a dream. I felt as if I was somehow missing something, incomplete because I did not have one, as far as I could recall. At my age the time for going after a dream, pursuing a Personal Legend, seemed to be coming to a close. I started reading the graphic novel adaptation of, "The Alchemist", and tonight I sat back and reflected. Seriously thought about my childhood, what I must have known as a child. I came to the conclusion there are three things that have stuck in my mind. I don't know how else to describe them: 1. To design and build structures or places, emphasis on building. 2. To play the guitar. 3. To go to the Big Sur area in California. As a child I played with legos. I think I mostly made buildings, but I do not remember clearly. This just feels right. It fits with my later building of structures around the place we used to live. Then, as a young man, I pursued various level editors, learning 3DS Max, and building things for video games. But these were counterfeits. I think the true legend is architecture. and the Taliesin Institute (the Frank Lloyd Wright school of architecture) specifically, as my starting point, unless an opportunity comes to just start building and designing things. I tried to learn the guitar. It was either not the right time or not the right teachers. I was teaching myself through DVDs and internet lessons. I think I need personal instruction, and a guitar. I sold the one I had. I don't know why the Big Sur area. It has stuck in my mind ever since reading about it in, "Spiritual Places." I have no specific place to go in mind (although there are numerous spiritual centers in the area I may visit.) Only a vision that may be connected, of an old man living in an old trailer near some red cliff faces not far from the ocean. That I have to see this person. Just the Big Sur area itself sticks in my mind, not this vision, but the two may be related. I am asking for help. Specifically I need the resources to go to the Big Sur, I think I am to start there, then I need the resources to go to the Taliesin Institute. Finally I need a guitar, something like I had before with more space between the frets than normal (a longer neck) as well as a teacher who is willing to teach me how to play it. Prayers, sending of energy, Treatments, mailing me items or donating money as you are compelled, these are what I am asking for. Funds can be sent via Amazon Payments to: dreamblissflows[at]gmail[dot]com. Replace the [at] and [dot] with the proper symbols. You may also contact me there for my mailing address. I also need someone who can either live here full time or be on call full time as a back up driver for my family and a helper for my grandmother. My dad would like to pursue his dream of hiking the PCT this year or the next, and if he leaves they will need another person here to take his place while he is gone. Normally that would be me, but I may also be gone. So prayer for the truest person for this position is also needed. I am leaving either this year or the next. I have made no plans yet. I have asked the Source for guidance and direction. I will not force things. I will flow, that is, I will be using grace, in my pursuit of what I believe to be my Personal Legend. Even if it is not, it should, by the very act of moving, that energy of going after it, draw me to it, or it to me. Only one thing I know for certain... Staying here is to stagnate and die inside. I choose to live life, in the present moment, to its fullest, not live the appearance of life, like a zombie, going from work to home, doing what society tells me I should be doing. It is time to follow my heart, not my head, or the voices of others. Thank you for your prayers and support!

There have been so many beliefs I had to let go of from my former Christian faith. Some of these, such as the concept of sin, have been a relief. As I progressed along my spiritual path I found other beliefs that empowered me, such as the concept that my thoughts create my reality. In other words, the world I experience is a reflection of my thoughts. But now I am faced with the possibility that this belief too, may be wrong. As a Christian it was all about God. If it's God's will. In God's time. It was such a relief to be out from under the thumb of some all-powerful eternal entity outside myself, who seemed to have the same ego-driven impulses as the human race He created. Judgment, punishment, allowing Job to be tormented. And Heaven was not the perfect place I was brought up to believe it was. How could it be, if Lucifer and 1/3 of the angels fell from it? Where could sin come from in a perfect place? Why would I want to spend eternity in one place anyway? I mean I no longer have a physical body. So I don't need to eat, I don't need money, I can go wherever I want. A grand adventure awaits me! These realizations helped me work through the threat of eternal damnation, something I had to struggle with when I renounced my faith. I turned my back on that belief, and all other organized religions. I decided instead to learn from the teachings of each religion whatever I needed to learn. After all I went through all that, and my experience with the tulpa I believe I created and had to disconnect myself from, I thought my struggle was over. I was actually feeling peaceful, serene, calm. Anger and depression no longer had the hold on me they once had. I was able to smile and laugh more often, when before I smiled and laughed rarely. This concept that I create my reality with my thoughts opened up the world for me. It did not matter to me that I did not have the power on a physical level to challenge or change the things in the world that bothered me. I knew I could change my thinking about them, stop investing belief energy into the reality these happenings proposed, and thereby remove all power from them. I could, just by addressing how I thought about things, change the world. At the same time I could come to what I now called the Source, a general-purpose name for what I used to call God that I adopted, about anything and everything. The Source, unlike God, had no ego. I simply could not bother it with my requests as it is eternally and perfectly loving and creative. All I had to figure out is how to access that power to manifest the things I wanted in my life and the world. How to properly ask for things, or pray. Kinda like figuring out what plug would fit this socket. If I could do that, I could do anything I wanted and be anything I wanted. But then I started reading things that told me that the creation part was finished. Everything was pretty much set in stone. I could not heal myself or others. I could only Treat them, by not focusing on the person or the dis-ease but on the nature of God. It was God that did all the work. At this level of my spiritual growth I could accept God and Source as different names for the same thing. God is not at all, in my mind, what He was when I was a Christian. Now God is more of an It, an energy, as I started. So when I use God from this point on, outside of the reference to my former faith, I am still referring to this new concept I have of this entity, which I also call Source. Anyhow up to this point Jesus, as detailed in the New Testament, became a sort of a role model for me. Now that I was no longer a Christian there was more freedom in studying the Bible. With other things I had read I could see this book differently now. I could see Jesus as a man who figured out how to plug in. I thought if Jesus could do it, so could I. We are both children of God afterall. We are both connected to or one with God. I am still struggling with this oneness thing. This essentially made me feel that I could live a life without limitation. All my life I had been limited by my circumstances, beliefs, thoughts. I had never been a powerful or wealthy person. All of a sudden it seemed as if I could experience what that would be like, to have the power in me to heal, transport myself anywhere in the world, fly, take control of my dreams, astral project and explore the energetic realms of the afterlife. I thought I could do anything. I was flying high, then the plane stalled. Now once again I was being told I was wrong. My beliefs were wrong. I can not control things. I can not create my reality. My thoughts do not create my reality. I do not do the miracles. There is nothing I can do. The world is set in stone, creation is finished. Even though what I, and the rest of humanity, call reality is not how things really are, how things really are can't be changed, so what would be the point in knowing the Truth of reality? I guess I though if I knew the Truth, I would then know how to do the things I wanted to do, or how to become what I wanted to be. Essentially everything now is hopeless. My life has no purpose. I have no idea what my dream may be. Even if I were to see reality as it really is, I can't change anything. Reality is set, my course is set, I have the illusion of free will, of the ability to do anything I put my mind to, but these are as illusory as what I think of as reality itself. On top of that there seems to be no way to really know the Truth. Everyone has different definitions, who knows which one is right? I have to hear my parents constantly saying that the world is coming to an end, the second coming a big part of the Christian faith. I also read in text after text that the purpose of my life is to serve, which I know is a pile of bullshit. So that just adds to the depression energy I feel. All day, every day. It is no wonder that I finally got sick in my physical body. It is a reflection of my inner state, in serious dis-ease, I am sure. So now I have to ask, if everything is set in stone, then what is the reason to keep going? I can only come up with one. Illusory or not, there is a big world out there, and the Big Sur has stuck in my mind, so I guess I am going to have to ignore reason, free my intuition, step out in faith, with no guarantees I will even have a place to sleep, clothes on my body, or food in my belly, and go. I will have to lay my son on the alter, so-to-speak, the comforts of living here. I am blessed with a roof over my head, clothes and food. But I am starving spiritually, and if all my life were to be was living here, I would kill my physical body right now and free myself without hesitation. I need to let this go, get rid of unreasonable reason, and act solely on intuition. I know this is a major area in my life I must address. But how do I deal with this desire to have some measure of control or power, which I have never had, my whole life? I will have even less when I am hiking or biking down the coast. No safety, no security. No assurance that even if my inner landscape is at peace, and I am thinking nothing but loving thoughts, that I will even survive on the way down there, or if I get down there, once I am there. I mean if my thoughts do not create my reality, I certainly can't create a realty of getting along with everyone I meet, can I? If things are set in stone, if fate or destiny or karma rule, then I am powerless to insure a pleasant experience for myself. If I can't think good thoughts about what will happen, and the people I will meet, and expect that to be the reflection I see out in the world, then I am at the mercy of the whims of some design already set in place. The script is written, so-to-speak. I only think I can ad-lib. Once again I am left without answers, without even the faith I once had that if I just thought correctly about my circumstances and the people I meet, that I would be safe. I know I need to deal with the things driving my need for control, power and magic. I will use the word magic to describe acts that most people do not do. Walking through walls, teleportation, flying, healing. Maybe miracles is a better word. But I have always thought of this as magic. That this world is plain and dull without magic. Without wonder, a sense of wonder, without amazing things. Not that life in its many forms on this planet is not amazing. But a beautiful bird that can fly is nothing to a human who is flying, with no wings, devices or anything other than simply having figured out how to supersede the concept of the law of gravity. I need to figure out the roots of these desires and address them. But I am tried of this letting go. I am weary of it. Every time it has hurt and taken me a long time to recover, and I still have not recovered fully. I am hurt and tired. I don't believe oneness with God is any more of a desirable future than Heaven or reincarnation. I question the things I have been reading. I wonder what the Truth really is. I wonder if things have to be so hard. If I have to go through all this shit just to finally, someday, when I am 90 years old and have little time left physically to enjoy it, be able to do the things I have always wanted to do and be the person I want to be. I am not even sure who that is. Someone who is doing whatever they love to do, that thing they loose track of time doing, that thing they get lost in. I guess I want to live that life, and I want to live a life without limitations. I am tired of limitations, restrictions and rules. I want to live an unlimited life, doing what I love doing. If I am going to have a dream that is it. If this is an impossible dream to attain in a reasonable amount of physical time I guess I had better just kill myself and be done with it. There would literally be no point in living if I can't have that life. Or at the very least a life where I am doing what I love to do, and I have figured out how to access, channel or work with the Source to keep my own physical body healthy and manifest needed things. I guess now I want to see what others think. If you have a point of view I would appreciate it if you expounded on it. I remember in a previous thread that someone said my thoughts do not create my reality. They never explained why they said that. I seek understanding here, and if it is available, confirmation. I seek the Truth, whatever that is and however painful it may be. The true Truth too, not the Truth according to your religion. The Truth that has been proven to be experientially true by someone with many years experience on their own spiritual path. I am feeling a little lost and directionless right now. I have hacked my way through the dense jungle of various spiritual teachings and am now standing here, unsure of where I should go next. Please point me in the right direction if you can.

ThisLife: I am still looking for that happiness button! To go along with the side-track of this thread... I am not taking sides here. I will speak only experientially. Based on my own experience, if I could have come into that dance knowing what girl would laugh at my face I would have avoided that girl. I would have avoided taking that other friend out and pursuing any relationship with her. I would not have done the things that caused the one I thought I loved to be driven away. In other words, had I known what I came to know I would not have done what I did. I would have chosen another course of action, pressed the happiness button instead. In fact I used to tell myself that perhaps I will figure out some day how to transport myself back to the past and warn myself. But then I wonder, if I came back, would I come back to the same life I have now, it being it's own dimension among the countless threads of dimensions, or would it be different? Well I will not open that can of worms and really send this thread off the rails! I will only say that I have never, with full knowledge, chosen, at least consciously, unhappiness. I always tried to to the things I thought would make me happy, or that my beliefs said would make me happy, or that my others in poistions of influence, like my parents and teachers, said that would make me happy. My whole life I have been pressing the button I thought was the hapiness button, but it turns out I was pressing the wrong one! In fact I am coming to believe there is only one button, and that is the unhappiness butrton! It is in the act of trying to press a button for happiness that I bring unhappiness. It occurs to me happiness comes naturally, same as service. It is a natural part of the experience of life when someone is flowing along, not trying to do antything or make anything hapopen. This is hard to explain. Basically when we pursue happiness it runs away from us. When we stop pursuing I guess it either finds us, in the circumstances of our lives, or it was always there. I will let others debate that. What we have to watch out for, as I have recently learned, is any unconscious pursuit of happiness, or the pursuit of something else with another name that is really a disguise for happiness, as seems to be my case. In other words we might be looking for mate, and the subconsious train of that is that if we had someone to share our life with, we would be happy. But we are pursuing, consciously at least, a mate, not happiness. So introspection is needed to get to the root of a thing. I am still not sure about all what I am about to say, but perhaps people just forgot they were born perfect, with everytrhing they need for happiness, and as we grew up we somehow got it into our heads that happiness is found somewhere outside of ourselves. Really all human constructions, from various definitions of God and the resulting religions to time itself must all come from the same root, humans looking outside of themselves for happiness. But is happiness, wholeness, completeness, whatever, truly found inside? Or is this just more seeking? Maybe happiness, God, time and everything else doesn't exist? Maybe everything is all an illusion, and we are all brunts of some cosmic joke. Or maybe we really are just evolved primates. Maybe all life on this planet, the planet itself, and the universe is the result of some random chance, and we are stuck asking why when there is no answer. We're all just chunks of feces in the fart cloud of creation!

I am reading Jeff Foster's, "Deepest Acceptance." The other night I picked it out of the 2 dozen or so texts I have next to my bed from the library, and it inspired my previous thread. Reading it I learned I need to stop resisting the present moment. I became aware that I was constantly thinking about the future or the past. Or I would try to avoid the world by putting my nose in a book or some ear buds in my ears. I have only started the re-programming process today. Reading the next chapter, "The Ocean of Acceptance" a question came to mind. So this thread will be really short, for once. My question is simply this... What if there is no life after this one? What if there is only this one, physical existance and nothing else afterward? How would that affect being in the present moment? Because I could no longer claim that I am the ocean and the waves of present moment experience can not affect me. There is no I, in this example, no Higher Self, to live on, to remain unaffected by the happenings in the physical realm. In this example there is only my me, my physical body. In other words, what if this whole "present moment" thing is a big pile of dog doodoo? Not saying that this is the case, merely asking what if. Looking for a clear perspective on this.

I guess, even though I call it clarity, understanding, or Truth what I really am seeking is indeed hapiness. I have not spent much time in introspection on this, but at first inward glance that appears to be the case. If I know how things work, how to plug in, then I am in control. I must believe at some level that this control will allow me to have the life I want, and in having the life I want I will be happy. I worked through some of this last night, after starting this thread. My desire for control ultimately stems from fear, as all desire for control does. But it goes deeper. When I was a Christian I came to a point where I did not trust God. Prayers were not answered, God did not provide, did not protect me from hurt, pain, embarrassment, humialtion, and all the other crap that happened to me. I threw myself into His service, following the wishes of my parents and teachers, went out to minster to children. I found rejection by a father who said I was not good enough for his daughter, Heartbreak as I watched someone I thought I loved being driven away some years later. Rejection again as a girl laughed in my face when I asked her to dance. Rejection again as I took a friend out to see if she wanted to be more than a friend, but she wanted to be with some guy she met on the internet. Only this rejection was more personal. She would not sleep with me. She slept with some random guy. She wanted to get the sex thing over with so she wouldn't disappoint this internet guy. I came close to killing myself. I was too much of a coward. I know that may be a strange thing to say. I thought I left this baggage behind with my former faith, but I discovered I needed to forgive God, now perceived as the Source, so that this stuff didn't keep haunting me. So I did that. I also released and letr go of all negative thoughts, beliefs, feelings, mindsets or programming I had towards God. Then I released and let go of my need to control my life. I know I have done a shit job with it so far. But I came to realize I needed to forgive myself, so I did. I understood that I did not know any better. I was given this gift called life and I never thought to go to the gift-giver and ask how best to use it. I have entrusted my life to the Source, and am now practicing being present minded, because the only reason to resist that would be if I was trying to control my life, shape it to what I want, and I refuse to try that anymore. This is tough and I am not sure if I can keep it up. But I don't give up easy. Hell it took experiences that literally blew up the Christian faith and its teachings before I could move beyond that faith! For the record, I do not jump willy-nilly from one teaching to another. I read a book. If it rings true, I apply it. If things ring false I chuck it. I read and I apply what I read. I think about what I read. Look inward at my feelings and thoughts. Maybe I am doing something wrong here, maybe I am seeking happiness yet again through the pages of these texts. I will have to work through that later. I also still have to deal with my desire for power and/or magic. I think its roots are partially simillar, born of a distrust in God. But I sense there is more. To answer a poster, if I had such powers I would definetely use them for myself. But I think I would also use them to help others, as the need arose. On an interesting note I have made a marked physical recovery over the last two days of posting this thread and working through this. Could that be a sign that the inner part of myself is also getting well? Thank you all for reading this thread and posting your insights. I appreciate your support!

OK here is part of the list of the DVDs I can currently access: Qi Gong for Beginners and Qi Gong for Stress Relief By: Garripoli Tai Chi for Fitness By: David Chang AM Chi, Lower Body Chi, PM Chi, Tai Chi Beginning Practice, Tai Chi Daily Practice By: David-Dorian Ross Energy Exercises for Emotional Vitality, Energy Exercises for The Beginner, Energy Exercieses for The Intermediate By: Discovering Chi (series) Tai Chi for Beginners By: Samual Barnes Tai Chi Inner-Wave By: Joey Bond Tai Chi Fundamentals By Tricia Wu Which of these, if any, should I use? If any of these are not something you would recommend, why exactly? For example, in another thread I started on another subject. Matthew Cohen's Fire and Water Qi Gong came up. The person that said the exercises were bad gave a couple of reasons, among them things like Mr. Cohen is flexing his muscles when they are supposed to be relaxed. What I am looking for are energy gathering/purifying exercises, preferably in Qi Gong (AKA Chi Kung). I like the side effects of good muscle flexibility among other things. I always liked Cohen's workout because I could use that after a really hard day of work where I was stiff and sore and I always felt better. I could also use it after a draining day and feel energized. Furthermore I can "see" the flame at my center, even meditating on this now, and I know when it is blinding bright and full of energy or when it is dim with little energy. The amount of energy I see there is directly releated to what I experience in my body. So I am looking to, in essence, recharge myself. I should also mention that it appears I am linked in some way to the earth or earth energy. I now see vines that come up and either connect to roots I put down from my feet or the vines just enter my body. This is all in my minds eye of course. Be kinda freaky to have vines come out of the ground into your physical body Anyhow this is symbolic, to me, of energy from the earth, while a sort of system or web or whatever of light rays or shoots - whatever you want to call them, connect to the energy of the sun/sky. Anyhow there is shamanic, magician and other energtic stuff going on here, and this should be considered in any DVD you recommend. Yeah I know I'm weird OK, as for length 10 minutes is awesome, 20 is OK, 30 is bearable, 40+ is "YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!!" So somewhere between 10-40 minutes is best for me. Also the exercises/moves should be very well narrated, as in Cohen's DVD, so I can easily see and feel how my body should be placed, and know I have it in the right position. Whatever else you can say about Cohen, you can certainly easily follow the audio of his DVD most of the time. Any DVD that depends on the video to explain everything is not as useful to me. Because I can carry around and use an audio file with me. But I can't work that way with a video file. Free is awesome, if any such creature exists. You give me the names of good teachers I'll gladly hunt around YouTube. Otherwise I will see what I can dig up at the library. Have a bunch of material there, something in it has to be of good quality. As always your help is appreciated. I would really like to get it right this time, hope I don't have to unlearn anything Cohen taught wrongly. - DreamBliss P.S. PLEASE NOTE! DO NOT RECOMMEND A CLASS OR ANYTHING THAT COSTS MONEY TO ME! I have no money to buy anything, so I have YouTube and the library. Of course I also have a birthday coming up on the 11th... Hint... Hint... Right now on my birthday/Christmas list are Josephine McCarthy's "The Excorsit's Handbook" and Magical Knowledge books II and III, Shalia Catherine's "Focused and Fearless" and "Wisdom Wide and Deep." Prentice Mulford's "Thought AreThings," Franz Bardon's "Initiation Into Hermetics" and, last but not least, the "Kybalion" by the Three Initiates.

I need your help to solve a mystery. Tonight, when making tea, I broke my one and only one gallon glass jar. Now I know science can explain to me the symptoms as to why this happened. A weak spot in the glass that finally gave way. Someone dropped it unbeknownst to me or maybe there was some crack I didn't notice. Or maybe all glass jars break after you have poured boiling water in them for a while. Science can certainly explain the symptom of the problem, but not its cause. In other words science can explain how the jar broke, but not why. If it is true that I create my reality, then I somehow, at some level, wanted the glass jar to break. I caused it to break. I set into motion the events leading to me getting that particular jar or whatever else caused it to break. Now I did not have continuous strong thoughts that were negative towards the jar. I didn't always think, every time that I poured boiling water into it, that it would break. I didn't have strong, conscious feelings at least, towards it not breaking. I mean I cared about the jar, it's what I made tea in, and I am obviously upset it is broken. But I was not obsessed with this jar or anything. I didn't have feelings or thoughts towards it breaking. There was a small undercurrent of wondering if it would break, a little worry attached to that, but that's it. Should not have been enough to actually cause the jar to break. I am sure that I did not want the jar to break, but that I also did not harbor strong fear thoughts about it breaking. Whatever worries I had were there only because I lost my previous jar, and it was some time before I received this replacement. I did not, physically at least, break the other jar. No, this thread is not really about a frikkin' jar. The jar is actually a straw that broke the camel's back. I have failed, yet again, to manifest the books I requested. I still do not have a clear idea as to what the hell I should do with my life or where the hell I should go. I am frustrated, depressed and feeling drained. I keep somehow forgetting to do things like work on my modeling, writing or through this singing book by Silvia Nakkach. Just the other day I has jazzed up after doing some of the early exercises in her book, and feeling as well as thinking I would love to attend one of her workshops – perhaps I could manifest the resources needed to attend. I have since lost all steam. It's like some vampire that feeds on positive energy has come to me and sucked my meager reserves of it dry. To put it simply, I am screwing up somehow, to the point I am causing these issues in my life, including the physical manifestation of a breaking jar and failing miserably at producing any requested physical objects. On top of this I have to deal with a very unhealthy environment for me right now. My mom and my grandmother have been fighting all day. Up until this present moment, for reasons I can not explain, I have been unable to astral project, lucid dream, remember little exercises related to these, perform physical exercises, or pursue any of my artistic or creative channels. I want to, I have a desire to, at least consciously. But for some reason I don't. I used to think there was some kind of resistance or block there. But I have come to understand that any blocks or resistance would only be in my mind, constructed by me. That I, and everyone else, are all connected to the Source and each other, and that these channels are forever open. They only appear closed or blocked in the minds of those who have these blocks, or this resistance, in their mind. Our natural state is to be perfect, like the Source energy that gives us all life. That means our natural state is also to be perfectly creative, just as the Source is. So by feeling or thinking there is a block or some kind of resistance there I only reinforce any block or resistance I previously created in my mind, or rather in my access of mind, assuming that mind is universal for all of us. One mind, many forms. Digressing... The point is that if I don't want to have blocks or resistances then I have to stop believing, feeling and/or thinking they are there. See myself in the desired state, a fully open channel between myself and the Source, which is my True State anyway. Here is my problem... If the Source is creative and loving energy, if it is light, if there is no darkness in it, then shouldn't positive thoughts be more powerful than negative ones? Because this is not my experience. I have to fight and struggle to the point of exhaustion to keep the energy and mindset needed to manifest something in my life. I am exhausted! Having trouble coming up with the energy to try again. Not sure I even want to. But if I think the briefest negative thought towards a glass jar, for example, it will shatter! It is so much easier to think negatively, to fear, doubt, worry, criticize, judge and do all these other low vibration things. It's far easier to manifest negative stuff in my life instead of positive things. And negative things that have been established for any length of time are nearly impossible to remove and uproot! While tending to the seed of any positive thing requires an immense amount of effort to allow it to grow, develop and put down roots. And even when you have an established positive mature thing, the weakest negative thought can decimate it utterly! Why in the hell is that? It makes no sense. Isn't negative energy the opposite of the energy of the entire frikkin' universe? The opposite of the Source? What am I missing here? I mean if force in general is not the best approach to any situation, but its opposite, flow, is (which is what has proven true in my experience) then negative energy should struggle to do anything, because if the natural state of everything is positive energy, then negative energy would have to use force to do anything. Negative energy should repel positive energy, and visa-versa. So negative energy should not be able to be used to create anything, as its nature is destruction. Negative energy should not be able to draw creativity to it. So how come negative things manifest quicker and with less effort than positive things? Then there are those that say there is no negative energy. But how exactly does that work? Please help me solve the mystery of the broken jar. I need something, not sure what, some guidance, some sign – something that can explain how this can be, what I am doing wrong, how I am messing up, how to get this right. I refuse to accept or believe that negative energy and low vibration mental states are more powerful than positive energy and higher vibration mental states. I absolutely refuse to accept or believe that! It is illogical and it makes no sense! The only way it could make sense is if the Source, what others call God, is actually the opposite of what I think. That it is actually a Source of destruction and hatred. That is the only way negative things could have more power. It is the only way darkness could conquer light. Nothing else makes sense! Let me urge you, whether you agree with or understand anything in this thread or not, to listen to your heart, your intuition, and post whatever comes to you. If its personal feel free to PM me. No response is irrelevant. Every single one is important. I have to get Sherlock Holmes on this things arse, so every clue is important! Please do not leave me in the dark here, help me understand this! I know that someone out there will share the idea, or say the phrase or word, that will unlock this. Help me figure out how to manifest a requested object and how to stop inadvertently breaking jars with my mind! Thank you for reading!

I had maybe a glimmer of understanding today on this. That positive and negative are probebly just perception based - they do not exist. I know the world simply is, and I color it with my perceptions, deciding what things in the world are good and what things are bad. So it stands to reason that the Source simply is. But that would mean that it could not be creativity, love and light. If the Source, like the world it gives life to, simply is, then any idea of good bad, light, dark, hate love, creativity, destruction are all human perceptions. The actions of the Source are interpreted to be one way or another by humans. But of the Source just is, then its actions also just are. I can't wrap my head around this. I do not understand. Is the Source, the energy of the universe, just energy that we interpret as good or bad? I mean I don't think the Source has an ego, but what drives it? Or is it just some soulless, emotionless force that, one it is understood how to use it, can be used for what humans would interpret as bad or good? But at the core it is just a lifeless energy, a force, a power, something like electricity, nothing more? I guess I don't want to think that. I liked leaving my Christian faith and this idea of some ego-driven God prone to human emotional fits behind. I liked the idea of a pure energy of love and light. If it loves, then it cares. But if all it is is electricity, and all I have to do to manifest things is figure out how to plug into it, the whole of creation seems suddenly dark, cold and worthless to me. Life seems worthless. I wish I knew the truth here, understood this.

Please explain this.

So to start with my intuition is, at the present moment, and to my present knowledge, not very developed. I have too many irons in the fire to address this right now. All my concentration, energy and focus is going into opening myself completely to the Source, to clear the channels to my artistry and creativity. So this is not a thread asking how to develop my intuition, although if you know of any good resources on the subject I wouldn't mind it if you shared them. No, this is about a sort of drive or pull I get sometimes. Right now I have made a request to the Source to provide 3 specific books by 2:45 PM Saturday afternoon. I am practicing keeping a laser focus on that, the manifestation to me of these items. The other day I felt I should go to Goodwill. That drive or pull again. So I went. No books. This was a previous attempt and it turns out I had the titles wrong for two of them :/ I am feeling this same sort of drive or pull to go to the Treasure House here in the town where I live. This time I have asked for the titles correctly. I have come to the conclusion that if I am trying to manifest these books, chasing after them as it were, that I would be interfering with the Source. That I should just do what I normally do. I have wanted to go to Goodwill for a long time now. I don't have a car so I don't get out to shop much. Need a winter coat and they do have a lot of books there for cheap. Along the same lines I want to go to the Treasure House. It is also a thrift store. I still need a winter coat. Also thought I would look for a Singing Bowl. The point being that I don't normally go to these places. They are places I like to go and would usually request trips to when my father is available to drive me, but otherwise I would not go. Lately my father has been busy working at the church. He drives a fancy Hyundai, so this is why I ask him to drive me, because the car would be hard to replace, it was my mom's parent's car. So it is rare for me to drive around in this $25,000+ vehicle which is their only one. But my dad has taken a trip to California, so the car is mine for a few days. I still need to be respectful, if my mom says I can't drive it to these places then I may decide to honor her. I know that force applied in any way towards the manifestation I am focused on is also interference. So I have come to the conclusion that this is some inner, subconscious or habitual mind driven impulse, this drawing/pulling towards Treasure House and another little oddball store that might have things like Singing Bowls in the area. It is a fear-based response. It is the little me, my ego, the false self, trying in some way to make the thing happen I am focused on. The best response is to ignore it for now. I may go later after I get some more sleep and drop my mom off tonight. By refusing to listen to this drive/pull for now, by refusing to respond to it, I hope to get a clearer reading as to what it is. Right now all I have is guesswork. My track record is that every time I feel this it proves to be useless if acted upon. An example... I walk past a board with information on it about local events on my way to the restroom. I make a mental note to stop and look at it. I leave the restroom, go past it, forget to look, get most of the way to the parking lot, feel suddenly that I must look at it, that I might have missed something (fear) so I turn back, even though at some level I know its useless (which, if this were intuition, would block me, I have to address this negativity.) I go back and, just as I suspected, there was no reason to do so. This is an example of how this sense operates. I don't think it has ever been right! So my question is how to tell between the drive/pull of this useless sense, most likely based on fear, most likely a tool of the ego, and true intuition, that true gut feeling? For you NCIS fans, that famous Gibb's Gut? I know that intuition is the voice of the Source, AKA God, speaking to me. I know what intuition is, I know it is important to listen to it, but how do I separate that voice from this very similar drive/pull coming from fear? Heck, I am not even sure I have ever really heard the voice of intuition, so I don't even know what it sounds like! I would really appreciate some guidance here from those who hear and know the voice the intuition. What does it sound like and how can you tell it is intuition and not something else? Thanks for your help! - Mark

Thank you. So if it is intuition, there should be no emotion. Intuition is Spock, instinct is James Kirk. To change channels, as it were, to where I am listening to my intuition and not a voice of fear, I simply need to stop listening to anything coming from inside that is driven by emotion. Is that about right?

This is based on the teachings of this book: http://www.amazon.com/Resurrection-Neville-Goddard/dp/0875168256/ref=sr_1_sc_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1387097029&sr=8-1-spell&keywords=nevill+resurrection As well as the Christian Bible, where it talks about how a curse will come back to you if you send it out and it is unmerited, and the "where two or more are gathered together..." Here is the idea in a nutshell... You receive what you give. Once you give something, you make yourself open to receiving it. So, if you were to give out anger to someone, you leave yourself open to receiving anger in return. Hence you end up with an argument. But there's a little more to this than that... A person is more receptive when they are not conscious of the receiving. In our argument example chances are you don't realize you are leaving yourself open to receiving anger by giving it out, there's not a lot of consciousness or awareness going on, so it works. But if you were Mr. Scrooge, to use a holiday example, and I walked up to you and said, "Blessings To You This Christmas" you would say "Bah Humbug!" and the blessing would bounce off you and back to me. But let's say you are sleeping one night, and maybe you aren't entirely a Scrooge. There is a crack there where you might, in some certain circumstance, bless someone. So I send out my blessing to you late at night while you sleep and it enters that little crack and sets to work on manifesting in your life in some way. No crack, no blessing. So you have to be willing to give out whatever it is someone wants to give you. If you can't give it, you can't receive it. With me so far? As you can see you really need to watch what you think or say about people, because if you sent out a negative thought towards someone who is incapable of giving that same negative thought, it will come back and bite you in the arse! So if you are miserable the first thing to do is look inside. What have you been saying to yourself? How do you feel? What kinds of energies have you sent out to others? It wasn't all that long ago that I would see a couple walking hand in hand and my thoughts were not very kind. I felt like the Grinch at Christmas. The consequences of my action? My mindset, thoughts, beliefs and programming? I'm 38 years old and not only have I been single and unmarried all my life, I am still a virgin (not by choice), I haven't even been a real date and I certainly have nobody's hand to hold at this moment! I know that was a little personal. I didn't need to say all of that. But I wanted to give you this as a warning. An extreme case of the kind of things that could happen to you. You get what you give. You give what you get. Thankfully I stopped feeling that way and now when I see a couple walking I smile and am happy for them. I am still alone at present, but not for long, I am sure! This thread is all about tapping into this power in a group setting. It's an experiment, meaning the recipients must post replies and keep everyone up-to-date on what is happening as a result of their involvement with the group. We're proving that this idea works, so we can use it for the benefit of others and ourselves. So here's the plan, which can be adjusted as needed. If you want to participate, post what you would like to receive. Also post a picture so we know who to send this to. How do we do that? Neville describes a few types of mental “seeing.” There is mental hearing, mental sight and mental action. From my own person experience you may be able to do one or any combination of these at various strengths. I am mental sight and action, with a presently weak ability for mental hearing. I can see things in my mind's eye as clearly as I can see things in the physical world. So I will take one or two requests, write what I call a visualization script, that is basically like a movie I will play in my head, answering the request. You may do something similar. Now it is not enough to just see. You will have to practice mental hearing. Because you are going to have a conversation with the image of whoever it is you are visualizing something for. You will see them receive this, hear them thank you, maybe shake their hand, maybe have a discussion, maybe get a tearful hug. Do not force here. Keep your script, if you make one, basic. Let things flow naturally. Do not use force. Don't be Alfred Hitchcock in the Director's Chair. Your script is more like a vague description of some movie you would like to remember. You are asking the energy I call Source, which you may call Tao, God, Buddha or something or someone else, if they remember this movie. They go “Ah Ha!” and it begins to play. Understand? Less manufacturing, more allowing. Probably what is actually going on here is a sort of premonition. A collection of scenes of what could happen, given the person, what you are giving them, and yourself as the sender. You are basically seeing a glimpse of one possible future. That would be my guess anyhow. Anyhow there is no need to dwell on that, and its OK if you don't agree or see things differently. We can start a whole new thread for that if you want. The main point here is there is something you want in your life, so you will post your request and a picture of yourself and someone, or several someone's, will take your case and send you the requested thing (BTW we need a picture of you, full body, so we can clearly see you in our mind's eye.) They will silently set to work envisioning your receiving of the requested thing. They will not post in this thread. We will use the, “...pray in closet...” mentality here. So you will not know who is sending you the requested thing. But you will come in and give a progress report after the request has been answered. A progress report, not a complaint, not an “Is it here yet?” Just let us know if your request has been granted and provide as many details of the granting as is comfortable and appropriate. Yes, any request may be asked here. But keep in mind how this thing may work and be very careful how you word things! The last step is for all parties to give thanks, before and after the request has been granted! This is very important! Make your request, then forget about it. Just make a mental note to tell us when it has been granted. As you proceed through your life give thanks for this request as if you already have it. Feel as if you have it. Also be thankful for any related things. If you are asking for healing for cancer in your lungs, spend time every day being thankful for your stomach, kidneys and heart working so well! Understand? For example, Michael Bernard Beckwith, in “Spiritual Liberation”, says take time to give thanks for your kidneys every time you use the restroom. PP time. The restroom is the perfect place for a prayer of thanks. I tell myself, when I am sitting on the throne, that I easily release everything which I need to let go. OK, I think that covers it! I will start the ball rolling with my request: I am requesting mastery, not control (all control is rooted in fear), over my sexual urges. Now I know this is sort of a tricky and possibly icky thing to work with, so here are some ideas as to how you can help me with this. You can picture me sitting at the computer, staring at the Bing search screen, knowing that I am thinking about searching for some pornography. You can picture me shaking my head no, saying no. You can have a conversation with me about it. Maybe you have your hand on my shoulder and are telling me about how self-destructive this could be. Maybe you are sharing your own personal experience. Whatever works for you. But we have a conversation about this. You can imagine the desire to search and any thought of searching leave my mind. Maybe picture me turning off the TV, pulling out my meditation pad (a folded orange blanket under a pillow with an orange case, one side specked with mold stains – long story) and meditating. Another possibility is if you are a male, you know when the desire comes over you. Picture me sitting there, the desire coming over me. You know how that feels, I assure you that feeling is probably universal for all human males who are not celibate. Anyhow imagine that feeling just evaporating. Dissipating. Disappearing. Maybe see it as a pink fog rising out of my body, dissolving in pure white light. Or maybe you have a healthy, positive high-vibration way you deal with it. If its not too personal for you, imagine me dealing with it using the same method, maybe even following you teaching me. If the whole sexual urge thing is too much and you don't want to touch that with a 10 foot pole that's OK. I love and accept you as you are, and bless you just the same. You may use this secondary request if you wish. I would like to find, as soon as possible, enjoyable, fulfilling, meaningful and well-paying work! Until I have that I would love to have some extra money to do some last minute Christmas shopping with! That one should be easy to deal with. Pretty much all of us want the same thing, so I will not give you pointers here, but you may ask for some if you would still like them. Here's a pic of me: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=628039680593037&set=a.483508301712843.117126.100001610314806&type=3&theater However you choose to help use your words, your unique way of thinking and talking. Take anything I have said as a suggestion only. If others have personal issues and assign some guidelines to help you, follow them in your own way. Thank you for taking the time to read this and for any request you may send out for others or myself. Blessings and love to all who read this thread, whether they participate or not! I am looking forward to your requests and reading about their manifestation in your lives!

When I saw it I thought it looked like a dragon's head.

Anyone else having trouble with the photo? It should take you to my Facebook page, here is a link, you can browse to my photos from there. Maybe I have to set the permissions? https://www.facebook.com/DreamBliss That's an interesting thought on resistance. Thank you!

I am reading a book: http://www.amazon.com/Demystifying-Out-Body-Experience-Exploration/dp/0738730793 In it the author teaches an energy exercises, where you think about an area, like the top of your head, and you direct energy down through your body, out through your feet, and back in and up again. No mental imagery or visualizations. No looking at the areas of the body where this is occurring. No matching your breathing to it. I think I understand it, I feel the energy as warmth and I follow it with my mind, feeling it, as it slowly (and I mean slowly) goes through my body. Some areas are energetically blocked, and I just direct my thoughts to them and feel until I actually can feel the warmth. I have added to this a practice of doing the same thing at the base of my spine, gathering energy there. I have had some very vivid dreams from this, and I may have actually projected, because in one of my dreams I was in a car that flew out over a cliff, so a definite sense of flying. Also longer dream recall. Well I have been struggling in my meditation practice, and obviously energy is not flowing very well in my physical body, so I thought, OK, let's, metaphorically speaking, kill two birds with one stone! Tomorrow I intend to meditate on the movement of energy in my body, focusing on that as I send it down from the top of my head, out, and up through the soles of my feet. I think this is a really cool idea, but what do you folks think? I appreciate your advice! - DreamBliss

In the book I mentioned the author talks about making the energosoma (I think) more flexible in order to more easily move out-of-body. I would just call it the energy body. In any case I want to exercise my energy body, make it more flexible, make it easier for me to astral project. I also want to have a focus object during meditation that requires intense concentration, which this does. I have tried counting, focusing on breath, eyes half-lidded and eyes closed and mantras. I catch myself making, for lack of a better term, a thought-noise for my breaths when I focus on breaths, counting works OK but is itself a thought, and whatever purpose that is supposed to be accomplished through eyes open is beyond me. If I close my eyes I get lost in imagery more often than not. I have also tried "just sitting" type meditation. Making meditation itself the object of my focus is too subtle I guess for me :/ The most focused meditations I have had were sitting outside focusing on the wind. I can sometimes do that inside focusing on raindrops. Sometimes I can focus on the feel of my beating heart, but I am hesitant because I had done this before and had chest pains, although this has not happened recently. So my goal here is to combine meditation with a meditation object that requires a lot of focus, the end goal to consciouslly (and fully) astral project as well as dream.

There was a time, months ago, when I meditated on the landscapes of my chakra, and at some point I was joined by what others refer to as a spirit animal, Ayhunna, a red-tailed fox. As near as I could understand it his energy was used up about the 3rd or 4th chakra and I didn't have the heart to continue. During our precursory explorations, before we began work on the base chakra, I visited my eighth chakra. It was somehow more real than the others. Ayhunna was dirty. It was wet and raining, a gray day, and we were on some sort of medieval battlefield. I watched a man take a huge sword to another man and then come towards me. Ayhunna and I fled. But through everything that has happened, with Ayhunna's return and my return to my spiritual practice, I would like to know about this chakra that, so far in all my reading, is given only an indirect, cursory mention if at all. Appreciate the help - - DreamBliss

After reading some more of Josephine McCarthy's, "Magical Knowledge I" I believe that a few months back I created a tulpa, or thought form as she calls it. Breif info here: http://adifferentpath.blog.com/2012/11/16/the-final-piece/ I don't want to go into the whole story. Too much pain, one of the reasons I am here at this forms actually. No I am just looking for free information on handing a Tulpa; specifically how to dismantle it or decreate it to return its energy to its source. I sent McCarthy an email. But just in case she does not respond, perhaps there is a well read or well experienced Buddhist here who can help me? I appreciate your help - - DreamBliss

Well in that case we have a misunderstanding here... I agree with everything Bashar said in the video, and this is exactly how I do things. I guess I have lost my ability to communicate eloquantly with written words. Just means I have to work on that. OK so to rough it out a bit here... He says use what you imagine, what you want, as a sort of template. This is what I referred to as the sketch. He says to let the Higher Mind bring you something better. I referred to this as filling in the details. Elsewhere I've described this process as using broad strokes. He basically says not to insist that things happen exactly like what you want. I have already said that I know the source is a far better artist than I. That in this physical form it is unlikely I would be able to see the bigger picture. My puzzle analogy. So I don't insist on things being exactly as I want. I am not attatched in any way to this ideal reality manifesting exactly as I have envisioned. I would rather let the source manifest it the best way for me, at that moment. Essentially I set an intention. But I like Bashar's template anology. Or you could say I place an order. So I pull up to the drive thru window for a restaurant that serves everything. There is no menu here obviously. You just have to go uyp to the window and order whatever it is you have a craving for. I decide I want a big 'ol hamburger (my apologies to you vegetarians and vegans) with fries and a shake. The traditional American Heart Attack. You could also call this marriage But the vast machinataions at work beyond the order window know that right now, at this moment. I need some spicy Indian food. Lots of veggies, no meat. Water to drink. So I recieve my order. But I don;t complain. As I smell the food I realize I really want this more. I eat it and my belly is full. The same purpose of my intent, my order, is served - I was hungry and now I am full - but I didn't get what I ordered. Well I'm OK with that. If this process sounds even remotely like what FU Yue was advising me to follow, just in different, down-to-earth, blue collar words then no worries. As I said what Bashar says in the video is what I am doing. I will watch it again to verify this. But everything he said makes perfect sense to me, I understand it, I agree with it, and this is what I'm doing, no matter what my words here may be implying. I guess the only missing element is the work thing I discussed. At the moment I can't remember who wrote it or said it or the phraseology. But the idea of movement being an aid to manifesting is where I got that from. This is not forcing or demanding things be done a certain way. Using my fast food place analogy again, the place doesn't accept cash. But its so big, serving so many people, that it appreciates help. So say you place your order, eat your food, then park teh car and go inside. Then you roll up your sleeves and get to work. A lot of food is being prepared, there are millions of order windows, some of which have customers waiting, so you dive in and help out. In this way you pay your bill. Serving others. Physical work to aid in manifestation. Physical action to move towards manifestation. The most powerful way to manifest something you desire? Help it manifest for someone else! So perhaps this is what Fu Yue and others speaking in a similar fashion mean when they say, "You want love? Be love to others." Stuff like that. This is the work I refer to when I say I'm working towards manifesting something. It is not forcing, pushing, or anything else. It is changing negative thought patterns, serving others, maybe even bringing to others that which you want to manifest for yourself. Fu Yue, please feel free to point out anything I missed. I would like to understand and know how to apply what you are saying. Thanks! - DreamBliss

That's pretty much what I have been doing and trying to explain here. I just hope when I teach it I don't sound like that guy... DreamBliss

I apologize. I do not understand what you are trying to tell me, or more accurately, how to apply or use the information you have posted. - DreamBliss

I feel compelled to say something, just not sure what. I guess I want to make it clear that I don't see myself as God, like I said I am still struggling with that. Likewise I understand that my physical body at least is connected to the physical, and my energetic body is connected to the energetic. Also I don't really think I'm trying to control nature. Far from it, actually. My approach, so far at this moment, is to imagine the reality I want. This is basically a sketch, a lot of symbolism. I know that I don't know everything, that I may not even be able to in this physical body. So I leave the rest to the universe, or the source, using the two interchangebly. To whatever energy, entity or being may exist that we may be all a part of and are all likely connected to. The originator of everything, if there is an originator. Whatever or whoever that is is able to see the whole picture. I can, in this limited form, only see a few peices. I know what I would lik ethe picture to come out like. But I'm also smart enough to acknoweldge that whatever originated everything is a far greater artist than I. I am fighting and struggling only with habbitual negative thought patters. But not a fight as if I see them as an enemy and am trying to destroy them. I know that, like meditation, the best way to deal with unwanted thoughts is to watch them, let them play out. My process is to be aware of negative thoughts, playing out from old patterns, and when I become aware of them, without judgement, fear, aversion, I simply choose to think positive thoughts instead. The reality I created for myself. My inner flame/spark water space, stuff like that. Likewise I choose positive feelings. I do not agree that nature or the Tao or whatever will take care of me without my effort. That would be cool, sure. I'd love to just sit back here in my chair, never rising to eat or take a restroom brake, and trust that money will come to me, all my needs will be taken care of, and food will manifest out of thin air. But this is not the way things are in my opinion. Understand that this is only my opinion, I am not attatched to it, if it is proven wrong by personal experience I will change it. I think the way things have been designed is that we have, as I said, been given the keys to creation. It is up to us to use them to provide for ourselves. It is a gift given to all of us. It is a part of our divinity. It is what, perhaps, we are connected to before we had physical bodies, and what we return to when we die. Some call this the Source. Some pool of energy that we are all a part of and connected to. In our energtic form what you are saying is udoubtably true. Everything this flows to us, through us, and we flow to or through everything. But once we have physical bodies, we have to first awaken spiritually, moving beyond religions and beliefs impose on us, then second we have to find these keys, then third we have to use them, and finally we have to invest much work, effort and will into the process. I think its because we, in a lower vibrational rate, are trying to bring something to us that currently exists at a higher vibrational rate. When we use the keys, we manifest whatever it is we wanted, but it is energetic to begin with, and it takes time and effort to make it tangible. So I appreciate your advice. I will not outright dismiss it. All possibilities exist. That means what you said may be right and I may be wrong. Only a fool dismisses a teaching out-of-hand. Being open is part of being flexible, and this is a part of being unattatched. So I am open to any truths in what you have said. I will save this thread and let these words sink into the morass of my mind. Maybe meditate on them. All I can say with any certainty at all is this. I lived life for many years as a Christian. Identified myself as a Christian. In many ways the Christian God is like Tao or the Way. One of those ways is that Christains are taught to trust God to provide. That He will care for them (the whole lillies of the field passage.) I lived my life according to those teachings for over half my life. Rarely were things beyond the most basic of needs every provided for. Blind trust, belief and faith is exactly the same as wishing without feeling or effort. They will both provide exactly the same thing - nothing. You can not ask God to fill your empty belly, nor can you trust Tao to fill it. All that time as a Christian I worked hard, I served and I prayed. My earthly rewards were embarassment because I had no social skills (homeschooled), lonliness because I only every went on 1 date (not even a real date), depression because I lived in a double-wide trailer and had very little, thoughts of suicide because I never felt this joy Christians are supposed to experience. In short I worked without expecting anything, and nothing was amy reward. Now when I say work I refer to not-work (the belief, trust, no expectations, etc.) and religious work (preaching, teaching, being an example, etc.) So as far as Tao or the Way, with all due respect, you can keep it. I will remain open to it, not adverse to it. But I will also not follow it. One time down the, "Trust God (in the case of Tao or the Way, the Universe or Nature) to provide and He (or she or it) will..." path is enough for this lifetime. One last thing I know is what I am doing now works. It has proven to be experientially true. I have created a handful of realities and they all have manifested in various ways. Granted not always exactly as I outlined, but that's OK. I'm not attatched or adverse to whatever manifests either. I invest my trust and belief that whatever does manifest is the best for me at that time, in that moment. If it doesn't manifest then it was not for me at that time or in that moment. Meanwhile while I work to manifest my chosen realities, I go with the flow. I do not force. So this is my Way, my Tao, my path, my religion of non-religion. It works for me and as long as it does I will continue to follow it. - DreamBliss

I have no virus scanner running or anything. I run Firefox and have AdBlocker on. The links in the emails take me to another site, not Tao Bums. Previously they worked. So something fishy is going on here. - DreamBliss

I appreciate and respect these words, but I am afraid that this approach is not for me. I believe we have all been given the power of creation. That we we can think into being whatever we imagine. That we are divine beings. We may even be collectively God, experiencing this reality in physical form. I am still wrestling with this last bit. That means sitting back and saying, "Que Sera Sera!" is to deny the power we have been given. It is not a matter of opening and flowing. It is a matter of imagining what we want and manifesting it. It is a matter of re-directing our enegy from negative, extraneous things, taking control and being responsible for our lives, instead of leaving it in the hands of God or Tao. Despite my thoughts here I am open to all possibilities. I am open to the universe. In fact I believe I am a part of it, connected to it, and may even be it (still having trouble with this concept.) But I don't ascribe things to fate, destiny, Tao or God. I am independant of these. I create the world, the universe, the creation, that I experience. Life is exactly whatever I make it. I have spent too many years viewing life as a big, stinking pile of s-t. Now I am reprogramming myself, retraining myself, to see life as the beautiful, joyous experience it is. It is not cold, impersonal. There is nothing and no-one working against me. Even if they were they can have no effect unless I let them. There is only what I choose to experience in my brief physical experience here, and I have chosen to experience my divine, powerful, creative nature. So whenever I feel alone, instead of saying and feeling, "I am alone" I reprogram my thoughts, speech and feelings to love, I say, "I am love" "I am loveable" "I am desirable", etc. If my body is sick I say, "I am strong" "I am healthy" "I am well." Do you understand yet? Whatever the truth of our nature, the keys of creation have been handed to all of us. But most of us leave them in our pocket. Tell ourselves things like, "If it's God's will" "Follow the Tao" or "I am weak." These statements are all equivalent in that they either leave those keys, this most precious of gifts, within our pockets, or place them in the hands of some other. My keys are out of my pocket. They are in my hand always. I will never give them away. I will honor the source that gave me this gift by developing and using it. We are all meant to experience what is good and beautiful in this world. It was always meant to be a positive experience. There is no karma, no hell, no fate, no destiny, no God - nothing beyond what we accept and choose to believe. Even the Tao., the Way, can become a Tulpa if it is given enough power. I have had enough of creating Tulpas, of giving away my power, my life. No more. I have the keys to all of creation in my hand, and I use them, like this. - DreamBliss

I guess someone needs to write on this subject. Perhaps I will. Folks need to learn how to clean up after themselves., I must confess... It is very hard, especially at this time of the year, for me right now. In the middle of reprogramming my mind which has been programmed by years of what I called "realist" thinking. Realist, HAH! The assumption that something will be some way simply because it has been before is perhaps the biggest assumption we humans collectively make! No realism is simply "justified" pessimism, and the so-called justifications used for it are based on past events, which no longer exist. Something Wayne Dyer said I keep coming back to... Your body, right now, is not the body you had when you were a child. Not one cell of that original body remains. So even our bodies are not real. The past is gone, and everything that happened then has no bearing on what happens now unless we create that reality. Anyway to stop beating around the bush... I was tempted today to play that video I made. Listen to the music I listened to then. Essentially risk re-connecting with my tulpa. It is almost unbearably hard to resist. I'm clinging to the reality I have created for myself, my ultimate reality, my dream, where I have a wife, children, house and a way to support us all. I try to hold on to that picture in my mind. I try to feel what it is like in this reality I have created. But it is incredibly difficult. After too brief moments visiting this reality I come back here, where it has not manifested yet. I am alone again. I have to admit I am tired of being alone. Even though I am not alone (reprogramming.) I have a family, they just haven't manifested yet. ARG! - DreamBliss