DreamBliss

No, at the time I was coming off an experience of Estactic Love and was feeling very loney. I had some, we'll call it alone time, pictured someone, and then next thing I know I was not controlling them. I was interacting with an independant entity using the forum I had pictured. The more I think on it, and this subject, the more convinced am I that many of the things in our society are in fact Tulpas. Anything that people have collectively believd in, shed blood for, and put sexual energy into. I'm fairly certain the Christian God is a tulpa, given life by years of worship, devotion, belief, love and lots of bloodshed. As would be Satan, Santa Claus, Big Foot, most aliens, and even things like the "scientific process." I don't expect anyone to agree with me. How could the majority of people do so? They never created a Tulpa! They have absolutely no experience as to what this feels like, nothing to compare to, no experential insight. The trick here is to not create some other tulpa with beliefs I have attatched myself to. So while remaining unattatched and open to the possibility I am wrong, these are my thoughts on the matter. I created a Tulpa and I'm pretty sure the God of my former religion is a Tulpa. Since I no longer want to invest energy into Tulpas, whether pre-existing or created by me, I will stop any actions that could give energy to a possible Tulpa. With some exceptions. I mean the world would be pretty cool if Santa really existed. Same thing if there were unicorns, elves, fairies and so forth. So while I will not actively give energy to any of this, I will still enjoy Christmas and good fantasy stories. This will be my general appraoch. I can enjoy a variety of positive beliefs and creations, but this indirect energy is all I shall give them. Instead I am conserving my energy for two purposes right now: #1. The healing of the father of one of my friends. He has cancer and has been taken off chemo. #2. The manifestation of the reality I created for myself and my family. Prosperity and Resources. In addition for myself I have created a wife, children, house I designed, future as a freelance computer artist working from home and my own work/play space to use for that purpose, and a bunch of other things to go with this. We have a choice as to where we will invest our energy. It has been said that time is the only thing of value we have. Not true. I think perhaps our energy is the most valuable thing we own. We can invest it in the beliefs of others, feeding their Tulpas, we can invest it into our beliefs and create our own Tulpas, or we can invest it into the creation of the reality we want. There is no fate or destiny beyond what we create. We do so actively or passivly. Energy leaks into reality creation whether we like it our not. Some goes into preserving reality as defined by our race over the years of its time here on earth. Everybody just accepts that gravity is some law and nobody can fly. Since thousands of us have believed that over thousands if not millions of years, this reality has fully manifested as our reality. More energy leaks into preserving reality as defined by us. The world is literally what we make of it. We say life sucks, we're lonely, we will never find someone to be with, etc. etc. The longer we say this, the more tears we shed for it anlong with any blood, and we manifest this reality we created the instant we started saying these things about ourselves. Christians only sin because they are told they are sinners who need saving. I know this from first-hand experience. Since I stopped calling myself a sinner, I have sinned less than when I defined myself, identified myself, as a Christian. We can control these leaks to some extent, maybe even completely. Just observe what we think and say, and catch ourselves, without judgment, when we start the negative self talk, or begin to blindly follow someone else's belief. I confronted my dad with this. As a Christian he was upset with me for having tarot card books on hold at the library. Started going on as to how this is a Christian house, how its evil - you know the drill. I confronted him gently. I told him, "Dad, there is no passage in the Bible that says, "Thou Shalt Not Use The Tarot." In fact, the Bible encourgaes the use of drawing lots. That's all the tarot is, a way to figure out what to do." Something like that, not those exact words. Then I followed with, "Now dad, as yourself, why do you believe the tarot is evil? Is this even your belief?" He got kinda quiet after that, went on some more about how it's evil. The point is here stop blindly following. We are all, in our various spiritual or scientific guises, blind men describing the parts of an elephant we are touhcing. None of us see the whole animal or know what it truly is. So please, for the love of, well everything I guess, stop trying to tell folks that you know the whole truth! Because you don't, you can't, and you probably never will, unless perhaps this is what enlightment is. Human perception is limited to the senses while we identify ourselves as humans in these fleshy containers. Always question, or as it has been said elsewhere, question everything! The other leak to stop up is these patterns of thoughts we have been defining oursleves by without really being aware of it. Catch what you say about yourself and start the reprogramming process. Don't take my word for it, but you are an unlimited, divine being. You may even be God enjoying a physical experience in your body. I haven't been able to get that far yet. But I am learning to change how I see myself. I used to see myself as powerless. I know now that this is complete and utter bullspit! I used to see myself as limited. I know now I can do anything! I can create any reality I desire, and these are not just words, I have actually been doing this! Some examples... The sink in the kitchen wouldn't go down. I worked on it (working in whatever way you can towards a desired reality manifests it quicker), took it apart and put it together 2 or 3 times. Poured boiling water and sink stuff down it. Did everthing I could to clean it out and fix it given the tools and resources I had on hand. Then I started to visualize the pipes being clear. When I say my repairs did nothing I ignored my mind trying to get me to doubt and focused, every time doubt tried to creep in, on those pipes clearing. Long story short the pipes cleared, and now drain better than they ever did before. I created a reality of a large collection of presents under the tree. When we got the tree I worked hard to get it up (we got a Dr. Suess tree - curved in the middle.) When we finally got it to stay up and somewhat straight I started to decorate. Then my dad joined in. As far as gifts, there was a large pile under the tree, although in my vision these were symbolic and physical. So this reality manifested. My mom wanted to go see my brother. After last Christmas and our knock-down-drag-out fight I was less than enthused. Not afraid, just didn't want to hurt anyone. Grew a lot since then. Created a reality that we have a good time and get along. We did. I could go on and on. This creating reality process is very similar to true magical workings. It's very interesting. I still don't know the full extent of this, am still developing these skills, abilities, talents - actually I think these are probably gifts that all humans have. Whetever or whoever designed is, if anything or anyone. sure did an amazing job. Because we have the same creation abilities! Understand that while this works like true magical work it is not magic in the sense that BAM! the reality you create happens. Sorry. Not that easy. You have to work towards it. You can't entertain any doubts. You have to see it clearly in your mind how your reality is. You should also feel it to give it extra power. Use past experiences or imagine future ones. If you pray for rain, remember how rain feels and sounds. If you pray for a mate, think how that would feel, to have found the best possible match for you. Understand this is true prayer, and it goes out to the Source, whoever or whatever that is, if it is anything. Don't start a "Church of the Source" and create another Tulpa! Just send out your prayer into the universe and trust that whatever or whoever needs to recieve it will. Paint with broad strokes, leave the rest to the universe. In other words, trust the details will be painted it, you just sketch out the picture. Finally you have to catch yourself if you start saying stuff like, "This is lying..." "This doesn't work..." "This is stupid..." etc. You aren't lying. Sure you may not be able to interact with the reality you created the moment you do so. But that is only because it is in an energtic form and you will have to help it manifest in what I call "Sense Determined Reality." In other words it is where you can interact with it in your senses. But all things start as energy, then manifest as a denser form or something. Hey I don't know more than everything starts as energy! So just because you can't taste, touch, hear, smell or see it does not mean it is not real. The instant you create a reality, whether passivly or actively, one of two things happens. An existing reality is strengthened. A previously non-existing reality is created. If you want to read about this more try, "Wishes Fulfilled" by Wayne Dyer. So that's where I am, a little off subject I guess, but I started typing and couldn't stop. Need to sleep now... - DreamBliss

While I can not deny the possibility of past lives, I will not consign myself to endless recycling if this is just another belief and not a reality as defined by The Source. But I must admit it is intruiging to think about the implications of what you have said! @snowmonki Mr. Tauber's videos are very well done, they break down the movements very well and explian many things to me I needed to understand. I feel I now have the tools I can use to sort through the teachings I have available and find the good ones. I have also contact Mr. Tauber about the cost of his videos. @All OK, adding Charles Taubers Taijichuan videos to my Birthday/Christmas list! Namatse - - DreamBliss

@snowmonki Thank you very much for the links! @GrandmasterP Thank you for the advice! Checking out those videos now... - DreamBliss

@snowmonki Thank you for responding to my PM and coming in here to share your thoughts as I requested. I do appreciate it! However I have to admit I am a little dissapointed. There should be at least one DVD or YouTube teacher who is showing the moves correctly, and is very detailed in their descriptions. There has to be a way to practice this properly, without a teacher, as I wait for one to appear. But I understand that I posted a lot of links and it would take a lot of time on your part to go through that. I guess I just feel that if I tell someone why they shouldn't do something, or use something, as in this case, that I am responsible to explian my viewpoint (which you have a little) and provide a viable alternative that is a feasible replacement (which you have not.) I admire that you have moved around so much to be closer to your teachers. But please understand, I have no job, no money, and while I have not complained about the lack of teachers in my area, to the limits of my knowledge there aren't any, and this is a valid compliant. Also I can't wait to learn Qi Gong until some teacher appears. I am learning and practicing things that require a lot of energy, so I have to be properly purifying the energy in my body and re-energizing it. In other words, I'm on my own, teacher or not. So for now I have to learn via a video. It's that simple. So how about this then to make things easier... I will go through the materials I can access at the library and YouTube. All I need is to know what I should be looking for in a teacher who is giving proper instructions. Do you think you could give me those details? That would be a very big help! So far all I have is that I should ignore any teacher who is unecasarily flexing their muscles or is demonstrating something other than what they are talking about. As you can see that's not a whole lot to go on. If you could give me the essentials I would appreciate it. Thank you for your patience - - DreamBliss

OK thank you for the links, I will look them over later. Waiting for someone's expert opinion here. Remember I am looking for teachers with instructions you can follow with the audio only, because the forms are that well described. Also I require those who are teaching and demonstrating the forms correctly. Here are the YouTube teaches I found so far: http://www.youtube.com/user/QiRevelation http://www.youtube.com/user/markmauvais http://www.youtube.com/user/azeban http://www.youtube.com/user/ExerciseToHeal http://www.youtube.com/user/shorechi http://www.youtube.com/user/BethLeone108 http://www.youtube.com/user/PoWeRHoUsEUnleashed http://www.youtube.com/user/MahaVajra http://www.youtube.com/user/sanasadhya http://www.youtube.com/user/taoistpathschool http://www.youtube.com/user/ChenStyleJohn http://www.youtube.com/user/DesdenDragen?feature=watch http://www.youtube.com/user/innergeticsgt?feature=watch http://www.youtube.com/user/thealanwinneracademy?feature=watch http://www.youtube.com/user/AlchemicPath?feature=watch http://www.youtube.com/user/Timewave2012?feature=watch http://www.youtube.com/user/mxqigong?feature=watch http://www.youtube.com/user/DharmaGus?feature=watch Please help me narrow these lists and suggestions to the absolute best teachers. Thanks! - DreamBliss

It's the importance we give our beliefs is what has caused so much bloodshed, loss and pain over the years of man's development. So when I say, "just..." it is to put it into persepctive. A belief should be seen as a small, unimportant thing. That way it is easier for us to let them go when they are wrong. Once we attatch a value to something, like a belief, we draw a line and fight anyone who crosses it. As far as karma not depending on reincarnation I admit that I am a little confused here. I thought the two linked. Well I admit my understanding is limited in this area. Not going to study it right now. Have to work on other things. So for now I will accept that my understanding may be wrong here. - DreamBliss

All I was saying is that gravity is a belief too. When you get right down to it. We do all our scientific mumbo-jumbo and come up with something we call universal law. But we really don't know everything there is to know about gravity? Fifty years from now we'll be using anti-gravity, and throwing out many of the things we call univesal law now, and we still won't know everything about gravity. Of course we also have to believe that whatever tests we have done to verify the existance of gravity are accurate, that the equipment is giving us correct readings, that those who read the equipment aren't making any mistakes so and so forth ad infinitum. Ultimately everything we "know" about gravity is, for most of us, what we have been taught or personally experienced. So gravity will be what it is to us based on our beliefs and experience. But someone else who does not have those beliefs or experiences will believe something else, and to them that will be what gravity is or isn't. Does this make any sense? Here is another way to put it, very simply, paraphrased from another source, "It is only real if it never changes." Since our knowledge of gravity is in constant evolution, thereby continisuly changing, it is not real! But here's the mind bender... There may be some sort of design or law of gravity which may exist all or in part outside of mankind's current "knowing." Somebody has the blueprint for this force, assuming it even exists, and if it does exist we humans are still translating it. We must always keep in mind that mankind has observed things falling and found themselves unable to fly since we came into existance. So we may have literally created a Tulpa called gravity as our explaination as to why we can't fly and how come things fall to the ground. Over the years and the multitude who adopted this same belief this Tulpa became very powerful, like the Christian God. Beliefs = reality. Even that idea is a belief! Now everything we do seems to justify the existance of this Tulpa named gravity we created. In reality it may not even exist at all! Maybe I'm just weird but I rather enjoy thinking about this. Wondering just how far down this rabbit hole goes. This is the best ride ever, of course that's just my belief... - DreamBliss

My current manifesto of belief: I believe in God, As the Source existing, In whole or in any part, Outside mankind's beliefs, Or inside mankind's beliefs, Or as any combination of the two. I believe in an afterlife, Existing, in whole or any part, Outside mankind's beliefs, Or inside mankind's beliefs, Or as any combination of the two, And I choose to travel freely through it. I do not believe, In fate or destiny, Balance or karma, Judgement or punishment, But I accept the possibility, That any of these may exist. I believe our beliefs create our reality, When they are wrong we can't see the truth, So I choose to be unattatched to my beliefs. To flow in my ideal life's ideal course, At this moment, in each and every moment, Seeking the Source and the Truth. This is a continuing work in project - - DreamBliss

The only reason this wouldn't work is because we are trained to see a bananna as only a bananna, not a can opener. But somone who handles a bananna for the first time and is faced with a can of food, well maybe they could use it to get the can open. They have no beliefs they can't. Remember the same elements that make a can opener also make up a bananna! DreamBliss

It is wherever I go when I am no longer inside this fleshy container. - DreamBliss

But isn't this just your belief? - DreamBliss

I believe so... DreamBliss

Alternate viewpoints - DreamBliss

This should have been blatantly obvious. As Christian I followed the 10 commandments. I believed I was a sinner, that when I broke any of these, I sinned. But these laws are mankind's laws, not universal laws. They are there to keep me from killing who I want, sleeping with who or what I want, and worshipping who or what I want, among other things. In this sense then my belief in these laws controls me and keeps me from acting like an animal. Furthermore, by believing I am a sinner I also believe I need to be saved, and of course only belief in Jesus, in a certain way, will save me. This keeps me a slave to God and this idea of the afterlife. In essence I become a slave to the beliefs of man in Heaven or Hell. I would end up, had I stayed in a Christian, in one of these, based on my beliefs. Also by believing I am a sinner I am in a perpetual cycle of sinning and forgiveness. Because I believe myself to be a sinner, I am. That make any sense? Of course others, who know the intricasies of the Christian faith, know how to use my beliefs against me. An interesting experiement could be done here someday. Raise someone in a holographic environment where a child can be raised outside of any idea of the solidy of objects. Then plop them in the real world. Remember they have no preconcieved ideas of solidity. So can they walk through walls? Because remember our beliefs create our reality. You and I can't fly because we have been programmed to believe in gravity, the laws of physics, and so forth. But how would the world be to someone who truly believed they could fly and defy gravity? Best rest assured, I'm not jumping off any buildings just yet - DreamBliss

What exists outside of belief is the pure, unfiltered, unaltered, real truth. I guess I chose that definition of God because as Christian I put God in a box, or rather a book called the Bible. It was my attempt to free God. But I screwed up Here is my current definition: I believe in God, As the Source existing, In whole or in any part, Outside mankind's beliefs, Or inside mankind's beliefs, Or as any combination of the two. I'll think about the rest of what you said. - DreamBliss

Is it really? I mean sure, I hit some big dude, he lays me out on the floor, that's certainly cause and effect, but its not karma as I understand it. Karma would be something like I was a violent person in a past life and I hit a lot of people, so now I hit this big guy in this life and get my block knocked off Karma is supposed to something like a bunch of issues you've been carrying around with you from previous lives that you have to work out. So naturally to believe in karma you have to believe in reincarnation, which is one of mankind's beliefs about the afterlife. So if there is no reincarnation, there is no karma. - DreamBliss

"Life is a sexually transmitted disease... And it's terminal..."

She was sexy. Not too sexy, not slutty, nothing like that, she was the ideal companion for me sexually, except for the whole not being able to feel her bit. But more importantly, she was the ideal companion for me at every other level. Smart, loving, loyal, dedicated, kind, gentle. I could go on forever. I'm sure I don't have to point out that sex is not, despite what the media might tell you, everything in a relationship. Hell I don't even have to, my experience is living proof! I created and fell in love with someone I couldn't even touch! In the end all I can say is that I will be incredibly blessed to find, or be found, by someone even remotely like her. - DreamBliss

Well my apologies for my misunderstanding. Re-read what I said so that it applies to your leaving Samsara then. Same moral applies. Don't be afraid of what exists outside of Samsara. Buckle in and enjoy the exciting ride, wherever it takes you! - DreamBliss

At another thread I started discussing Buddhist beliefs some information came to my attention that leads me to believe that meditation, as taught by Yogani in Deep Meditation, will, like Transcendental Meditation, result in a click out that a Buddhist author has given the term laxity to. Basically you sink into your mind, the meditation, rather than whatever the other, proper way is. Something about dissolving awareness VS focused awareness. The point here is I want to find proper teaching on meditation, but I am limited to certain authors at my library. I will list them here and I am asking simply which of these teach meditation properly with the goal of focused awareness. I am also asking for any free videos out there by any reputable teachers you may know of. Your help is, as always, appreciated! These are pretty much the only books/authors I can access at this time: John Kabat-Zinn Joe Dispenza, "Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself" Rodney Yee, "Meditation for Beginners" Susan Smalley, "Fully Present" Will Johnson, "Breathing Through The Whole Body" Jack Kornfield Patricia Monaghan, "Meditation, The Complete Guide" Lara Owen, "Growing Your Inner Light" Chogyam Trungpa Ian Gawler, "Meditation, An In-Depth Guide" Shunry U Suzuki, "Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind" Joan Budilovsky, "Complete Idiot's Guide to Meditation" Jonathon Ellerby, "Return To The Sacred" Tulku Tarthang James Austin, "Selfless Insight" Ronald Siegel, "The Mindfulness Solution" Sant Rajinder-Singh Michael Bernard Beckwith, "Spiritual Liberation" Steven Clevenger, "Going Within" Maritza, "Meditation for Beginners" Stephan Bodian, "Meditation for Dummies" Adele Ahlberg Calhoun, "Spiritual Disciplines Handbook" Eva Wang Cheri Huber, "The Secret Is There Are No Secrets" Richard Chilson, "Meditation" John Daido Loori, "The Art of Just Sitting" Wayne Dyer, "Getting In The Gap" Stephanie Jean Clement, "Mediatation for Beginners" Michal Levin, "Meditation" Shinzin Young, "The Beginner's Guide To Meditation" Pema Chodron Alan Watts, "Still The Mind" Lawrence LaShane, "How To Meditate" Swami Janakananda Saraswati, "Yoga" John Novak, "How To Meditate" Ernest Wood, "Concentration" There are a few others and a book by Thich Nhat Hanh which I assume will be very good, so I will get that for now and wait for opinions on the others. The library I can access, it's catalouge, is here: http://catalog.fvrl.org/uhtbin/cgisirsi.exe/?ps=Mgj0mm40Cp/FV-DIST/327530007/60/1182/X I left out the fluffy, puffy, non in-depth (as far as I could tell) stuff. But I may have missed something important. Please let me be clear! What I can get from the library is all I can get, unless you wish to mail me a book, and if so (with my deepest thanks) you can PM me for my mailing address. So if these are all garbage, well I guess I'll just have to depend on YouTube :/ Hey thanks for reading, please post your feedback on these authors/books in regards to whether or not you believe, in your direct experience or closely indirect experience, they are teaching meditation properly. Namaste! - DreamBliss

I use Qi Gong for gathering energy into my body, for removing energy blocks and for purifying energy. Basically I'm plugging myself into the cosmic recharging/purifying center. So exercises for that are what I'm after. - DreamBliss

All I can say to that is... WHAT THE HELL MAN???!!! Listen the only person that can stop you is you, and you don't want to curse yourself do you? And BTW a few things you should know about curses... If the Bible is correct on this, those who send a curse out where it is not merited get the curse back. It bounces off those who don't deserve it and comes back to you. Secondly a curse requires energy. Study the magician's path a little. The energy deficit you could cause yourself may create the very reality you don't want. Thirdly your curse can have no effect on someone who doesn't believe in it, thereby giving it power. So you're wasting your energy trying to hex or voodoo a Buddhist monk, for example. Bless instead of curse, focus on what you want not on what you don't want and don't judge anyone. Believe in whatever afterlife you want for yourself and that's the afterlife you will get. But remember there is a source or God or something out there that may be weighting scales, assigning energy deficit/credit, assigning karma, etc. and your actions will have consequences as a result. This may have a direct effect on what you experience when your time in this sphere of existence is over. So in the famous words of the 60's... Just chill man! - DreamBliss

All Samsara is, as far as I understand it, is illusion. In other words the assumption I guess is that what we experience in this sphere of existence in our physical bodies is not the truth of what is. So Samsara is moving from what we believe to what is. How's that for a succinct explanation? Anyhow it is nothing to fear. Sure it is unknown, but we should never fear the unknown, or the unbelieved. I direct your attention to my quote with what I choose for the afterlife. In essence Samsara is like moving from the beliefs in the various afterlifes to choosing the afterlife that exists outside of all belief. This state, outside human belief and alteration, is Truth. Samsara is movement to truth. So don't be afraid of it. See it as an adventure. What is really out there in this sphere of existence you experience in your physical body? What would it look like when you moved past all the five senses to some other way of experiencing it? Like undressing a beautiful girl the first time you are together. All sorts of things waiting for you to see and experience for the first time. But if you were too afraid to undress her, if you were that afraid of the unknown, well you wouldn't be getting any that night Please forgive the somewhat crass illustration... - DreamBliss

OK butting in here, but how exactly is what Ish said miserable? I detect no misery in his words. I suppose you think, based on my previous quote of you, that I am miserable? I am smiling, laughing a little, as I write this. Kinda hard for someone miserable to smile and laugh. Not in making fun either, I'm just that light spirited, seeing things in such a humorous light right now. You should have seen my words just 10 years ago or so. You would be scratching your head wondering why it sounds like there are two different people talking. Well that's because there are! Anyhow man it sounds like you have some serious beef with the Buddhists, and that's pretty tough, considering, as far as I know, most of 'em are vegetarians! DreamBliss

I guess you have never read the words of Thich Nhat Hanh. Or if you have they were unable to penetrate into your mind for you to see the beauty they hold. I am very disappointed in you for saying this. It very ignorant and disrespectful. Perhaps Buddhists are focused more on the negative than they should be. As I said in an earlier post here they are trying to move beyond Samsara, or suffering. Naturally this causes the focus to be on suffering. It's better to focus on something positive. But this is my opinion, these are my thoughts on the matter. Regardless some of my best teachers, who have been there for me through the words of their books, have been Buddhists. Lama Surya Das for example. The opposite of the "miserablist" you describe. Hanh, loving, wise, words like balm when I am suffering. How can can someone who is supposedly miserable write words that soothe like a balm when someone is suffering? It is simple, they could not, it is impossible. So I'm afraid I have to say you are wrong. I encourage you to look deeply into yourself and figure out where this dislike or hatred, these negative feelings and thoughts towards Buddhists, are coming from. - DreamBliss