DreamBliss

Well I have read your posts and will let myself digest them for now. But I have to say, at this moment I am more confused :/ Is it possible to put it very simply for someone like me who is having a hard time understanding? Something along the format, speaking generally, of: Christians = God, Jesus (His son), and the Holy Spirit (the holy trinity.) Yogic/Advaita = I am God, you are God, we are all together seperately yet collective God and connected to each other. Buddhist = ??? I must admit, the whole alien origin idea throws me, but I remember something from Arthur C. Clark. He said something along the lines that an alien race could have a technology so advanced it would seem like magic to us. Thinking about that, if one of us went back in time and showed someone in the 15th century a cell phone, well they would think all sorts of strange things about us and our device. It would seem like magic to them. So the theory that aliens in essence created us is plausible. I hear what the Buddha is saying in those 3 verses, and have to admit they echo some of my own thoughts and feelings. My whole journey started when I began to ask questions. Things that Christians never talk about. Such as if Heaven is a perfect place, meaning no imperfection, then where did the pride and sins of Lucifer come from that caused him to be cast out? More troubling to me, after reading some of Thich Nhat Hanh's work, was, " Could a holy, loving and perfect God cast such a man into hell simply because he was not a Christian?" Now I have never met Master Hanh, I would like to someday, but from what I can tell in his words the man probably acts more like a Christian than most Christians. But the problem still remains, what if? As unfair, as wrong as it looks from all viewpoints, what if God is exactly as detailed in the Bible, what if the Bible is telling the truth, what if there is only Heaven and Hell? All faiths that hold this Heaven/Hell belief are a trap, because you have no way of proving them right or wrong to the point of safely ensuring the security of your own soul. Nobody gets to know for sure until they die. So whatever your religion, or lack thereof, you are still forced to take that final leap in faith, hoping that whatever you believed or didn't believe was true. Trust me when I say I don't think there is anything harder in this life than moving past and in many cases moving on from long held and ingrained beliefs from your religion. I am scared, and not afraid to admit it. At the very least I know I make my journey in this physical portion of my life harder, because my parents and my grandmother are all Christians. Some of the views I hold now, the realizations I have had, I can't share with anyone in my family for risk of offending them. It hurts and it sucks to not have anyone outside of some forums I access through my computer screen to talk to about this stuff. Anyhow I would appreciate some simplication here. Thank you sharing and your patience - - DreamBliss

I'm in a lot of pain and it's about to get worse. The proverbial you-know-what is about to hit the fan. Music is my therapy, but because of everything that has happened my tastes have gotten all messed up and I'm not really sure what to listen to anymore. I can not describe to you in words how it feels to go through your music collection, and realize that nothing fits anymore, that much of it does not speak to you anymore when it has spoken to you for years, leaving you unable to find anything to help you work things out. Worse some of the music reminds you of the pain you are suffering and what you are going through, so when it's not a temptation to return to it and hurt yourself it brings back memories that hurt you when you see it or hear a snatch of a song in a TV program Sucks. Big time. No, I wasn't going to have you try to guess what might fit me. I've been listening to Jes and The Birthday Massacre. Both are working very well for me right now, Jes actually speaking to me a little more. Here is the song I love the most by Jes, from her album, "High Glow": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vk0ltsJzh9E Do you know of any other music similar to that? I think what I am after here is stuff that is emotional, spiritual, melanchony, and electronic/dance. If you have any suggestions for me would you post them? I really appreciate it - - DreamBliss

Woah! OK then, now I just have to figure out why mine is a "more real" midieval battlefield... Thanks man!

I see. Well thank you. I too love the woods, but especially fantasy woods. Weird stuff like houses in trees and fairy villages. Ayhunna loves taking me through the woods playing, "Chase The Fox." So if I were to guess it's a part of my inner landscape. - DreamBliss

Then I would also recommend: I went through a phase with this kind of music. - DreamBliss

Well hello everyone! A friend of mine, also I suppose my teacher and guide, known as Telethiese at Dream Views (where I am also a member under the same user name) recommended you to me. I wasn't going to sign up initially. Been burned too many times, kicked out of Spiritual Forums, tired of signing up at dozens of forums for half a dozen answers. So I wanted to read some forum posts and replies. But you guys have limited your permissions here for nosy folk like me, so I went ahead and signed up. Sometimes the best way to learn how to swim is to jump in the water. Just have to hope there aren't any sharks in here... Well expect some very strange questions from me covering subjects that are going to test the limits of your collective knowledge and experience! - DreamBliss

If only that were true! BTW how do you determine who is an "ordinary man" and who is not? How do you define "ordinary?" What makes you so certain that your idea of ordinary is correct? That society's idea of ordinary is correct? Who determines, ultimately, what shall be labeled as ordinary or extraordinary or subordinary? What would you do if it wasn't ordinary to be ordinary? Why not believe that everyone is extraordinary and thereby manifest an intention that they be so? Wouldn't this world be a better place if it was populated by the extraordinary? What is extraordinary anyway? Is that more of ordinary, like you have extra ordinaryiness, or does it mean more than ordinary? Because of it means more of ordinary, well you shouldn't wish that on anyone. Better to see the best in others, not the average. Anyhow be careful with the label machine around peope - - DreamBliss

Hey thanks for all the suggestions! I'll go through them later tonight. Couldn't have come at a better time either. White Wolf Running On Air - what is the prupose of the picture? It is very interesting, and I will study it, but I don't know what you mean by it. - DreamBliss

I should be clear that I have been working hard the last 20 years or so. I like to work hard. But I want to work hard on things that matter to me. Put effort into doing things that are worth the effort. I have no intention of lazing about. I just also have no intention of working at the first crappy job I can find simply because society, through my family, tells me I should do so. I've already put in a lot of hard work and had very little to show for it most of my life. I don't want 40 years or so of that. If I'm going to work hard for 40 years at something, then I need a proper return for all the time and effort. A small house or apartment, a minvan and a mortgage just doesn't cut it. I will remember your tip about the Zen Archery... - DreamBliss

All I know is I don't intend working in an office, or anywhere else, for anyone else, for 40 years. I will find another way, and any female daft enough to stay with me will be well worth the wait. - DreamBliss

I think its sad we have to follow the generally accepted ideal of what society calls success and accomplishment in order to have a nice warm house, someone to cuddle with, and a full belly. To add insult to injury society calls this so-called "American Dream", this vision of a white picket fence and a family, reality. The sole reason to live and die on this planet. We are very much like sheep. We drive in herds where we work in herds and back to where we live in herds. We follow this idea of reality simply so we don't have to be out in the snow, cold, alone and hungry. Even those living on the street generally huddle together somewhere. Very few people actually want to live outside the herd mentality, or maybe I should use the word drone mentality, for fear of loss of personal comfort and their basic needs. Everything we do, we strive for, we attach value to, all of it is driven by our 5 senses. What we can see, taste, touch, smell or hear. We become trapped by our senses and by our beliefs, making us narrow minded. Few rarely if ever consider there may be more to life than society's ideal of it. Fewer still who realize this actually try to change things. Think about this for a minute... Is the only workable system one were everyone goes to work a a job that usually makes no use of their inherent abilities and talents, work for 40 years or more, if they are lucky to even keep their just that long, just so they can barely make rent or pay the mortgage on their house, all in the effort to raise children who will be forced to do the same, in the vain hopes that someday, when they are in their 60's or 70's, their bodies used up, their minds failing, that they can enjoy the final years of life in retirement? No, there has to be a better way. A way to move beyond this flawed concept, allow people to work at things that make full use of their inherent abilities and talents, and in return get a nice place to live, knowing their children will be able to do the same. And once the focus is removed on survival and blind pursuit of a non-existent dream, they will have a chance to explore the world that lies beyond what their physical senses show them. That's what I think, but these thoughts should be considered a WIP. I fully intend that, should it flow in my life's course to do so, I will change the system for myself and any family I may be blessed with. If I am given the chance, I intend to change things. - DreamBliss

Strangest... Welcome... Ever... I am beginning to view concepts such as success and accomplishment with the same disdain as what others call reality. - DreamBliss

FernandoD: You and I are very much in the same boat. Except I'm 36 and don't have a girlfriend One thing you can do, that I practice myself, is when the temptation comes, to stop for just a moment and tell myself, "I choose healthy sexual relationships. I choose healthy sexual expression." Realize that this is, afterall, your choice. Choose to stay away from the porn sites, choose to stay away from the cigs, choose to save your sexual release to be shared with a companion you care about of the opposite sex. Assuming you have regular interaction with your mother, her negative energy is infecting you. Yes, infecting you. Please check out or buy, then read and study, the book, "Touching The Light" by Meg Blackburn Losey. It is a very strange text to be sure, but there is an exercise in there I will detail in brief that will help you. The theory is simple... Your energy is unique to you and no other entity in creation shares that unique energy signature. So to block out interferring and infecting energy signatures from others, you have to fill yourself with your own energy signature, filling and then surrounding yourself in it. This is done by assuming a comfortable meditative pose, relaxing, dropping your chon to your ches, closing your eyes, and then looking towards the center of yourself. You should see a small spark or light somewhere in the core of your being. Once you find it breathe into it, visualizing it expanding with each inhale and exhale until it has surrounded and filled your entire body. Do not force it around yourself or into any shape. It will, on its own, assume a tight shape around your body. Do this every morning, first thing, without fail, before going out into the world. The bonus to this is that your negative energy will not infect anyone else either. The next two books to read are Maxwell Maltz's, "Psycho-Cybernetics" and "Letting Go of the Person Your Used To Be." I typed out some of a section I feel may be relavant to you: Using The Power of Mind To Transform Your Thoughts From: “Letting Go of the Person You Used To Be” By: Lama Surya Das 1. Be Positive No matter how bad things seem try to replace your unhappy and negative thoughts with those that are joyous, serene and happy. Be optimistic about your life and your future. 2. Be Clear About What Is Hurting You Reflect on the causes and consequences of what is bothering you. Think about the origins of your difficulty. Did your behavior play a part in your unhappiness? Whenever possible try to fin other ways of behaving that might cause you less grief in the future. Let go of your old opinions and believing that you are always in the right. Can you accept responsibility and make better choices in the future? 3. Distract Yourself Let go of any tendency to be obsessive about what is bothering you. Think about something else, or do something different to completely change your mind. “Stop feeding the flames of negativity by turning old negative stones over in your head.” 4. Question The Way You Think Pay attention to how you think and what form your thoughts take. Ask yourself what triggered this series of disturbing thoughts. Follow the patterns of thinking that led you to these thoughts. Think about the different patterns of thought you could possibly pursue. 5. Push Away The Disturbing Thoughts If all else fails, use willpower to refocus your mind. Use your inner strength to let go of the particular thought or thoughts that are causing you so much distress. Psycho Cybernetics will teach you how to create mental movies. You can use these to mentally program yourself in a desired way. For example, I have a movie I made to get me out of depression. Write out a script for the movie to accomplish whatever it is you wish to accomplish. Understand that you are setting an intention here. Sit back, close your eyes, and run this script whenever needed. For me when I used to get depressed I would run the script then. I had another for when I got angry. You can substitute a written script for a graphically drawn sequence if you are artistically inclined. Whatever speaks best to you. I hope this information helps you. Believe you will succeed. Believe you will find a girl, and not just any girl, but the right one for you at this time in your life. Believe it, think about it, act like, it has already happened. Wayne Dyer goes over exactly this in, "Wishes Fulfilled." You can read that book as extra credit if you like. - DreamBliss