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OK, I know some of you don't agree with the whole frequency and vibration thing. Can we set that aside for a bit? Also get away from the esoteric stuff and work at the level of the most apparent and strongest illusion. I don't know if I am allowed to do this, but I am sure a certain someone here will let me know if I am breaking any rules and I will edit this post accordingly. I have started a GoFundMe campaign, Pedaling to Passion. Trying to raise funds for when I leave here. If you are interested in donating or sharing the campaign, here's a link: https://www.gofundme.com/pedalingtopassion So I am struggling with two things here... I can't seem to raise my frequency or vibration. I see this as a problem, because I can not draw higher frequency/vibration things to me if I am not tuned in to that particular channel. That includes meeting my goal for my campaign, not having my stuff stolen by someone and finding couches to crash on as I work my way through Portland. I feel bad, down and depressed, even angry at times. I am in a funk again, and I can't afford to be. Somehow I have to get out of this. I don't want to end up sick or injured because some subconscious or unconscious part of me can't get with the program and let shit go. I have to pack things up for storage, pack things up for my bike, and be ready to go. But it is like swimming in molasses right now. I don't know what to do. Other than maybe find a crap load of shrooms and be permanently high until I leave. The other thing is that, from my perspective, my parents aren't trying hard enough. I need them to find a place so I can help them move in and be done with them. I have given them close to half of my life. How much more must I give? I am 40 years old. I am well overdue to get out on my own and figure shit out for myself. But I don't feel I can just bike off and leave everything in their lap. I have spent hours searching for things for them, printing out material to read, giving the best advice I have. It doesn't seem like they are using any of it, and it's like getting teeth pulled to get them to get off their asses and call people. Plus they are making this harder than I believe it has to be. Mom owns half a house in Longview, dad has been paying my brother's rent for at least 8 years, he has been employed at the church and school for almost as long, he has references he can use and connections in the church. But he and mom seem to be doing little with any of this. The one time they did anything is when they found a crappy single-wide trailer in Battleground, but of course I had to help them with all the paperwork. I know they can do better if they just try. But my mom is sick, doing little around the house other than the dishes, and dad thinks his work is the most important goddamn thing in the world. I wish I could get my hands on my grandpa and beat the shit out of the bastard! Raising my dad to believe that his job, that hard work at it, to the exclusion of all else, is somehow not only important but also valuable. Complete and utter bullshit! Family comes first, then your fucking job, then your fucking religion! I have tentatively decided to give them until Friday to show some sort of improvement. But I feel I am done helping them. I think I will focus on packing everything I want in storage up, getting that put away, then pack up my bike and just leave. Why should I feel guilty? Is my brother here helping? Are my parents bringing in friends? Other family members? No. And I told them I wanted movers to help this time. Of course they ignored me, and now I am in physical pain, so much so I needed to spend $60.00 at a massage therapist's, which I couldn't really afford. But I couldn't hardly use my right arm and my shoulders and neck were sore stiff. I am so glad I found that therapist though. She really did some amazing work and I think also addressed some of the energetic causes of my physical symptoms. So should I just turn my back on my parents and leave them to their own self-designed hell? Can I find a way to do that and not feel guilty about it? I have cleaned out the upstairs and some of the downstairs all by myself. I have helped move my own stuff, which I boxed up myself, into storage. I have gone above and beyond all reasonable call of duty, haven't I? Can I give myself permission to just give up on them? Maybe they need to live on the side of the road or in their car for a while until they finally wake the fuck up. Maybe staying here is delaying what they need. Maybe in this case the baby needs to leave the nest so the parents can learn how to fly on their own again. If you were in my physical shoes in this situation, looking at June 1st, 2016 as the day you have to leave home and live on the road, what what you do? Sorry about all the swear words. I really needed to vent. I needed to get this off my chest. My only support group, my only tribe, my only real friends, are here at this forum. I don't have anyone else to talk to about any of this. I hope you understand. Feel free to move this thread if needed.

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OK, thank you for all the advice. Looking up Byron Katie. How does one do a ritual cord cutting? So it really is OK for me to just wrap up my stuff and abandon them? Taking just enough to live comfortably. Not just leaving with the clothes on my back. As far as my possessions, I have moved a number of times. I just throw away or give away things of no value. I might have more than I need. but I want to keep what I have. It gives me a reason to come back someday, pick everything up, and take it to my new home. It is the motivation that keeps the dream alive, finding a place of my own, coming back, getting my stuff, moving away, only this time I have a place to move to. A place of my own. Without that anchor the dream may just die, and me along with it. Probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but there it is. For example, some of the books I have and am keeping are things I wish to pass on to my children. If I throw those things out, it's, to me, like giving up on having children of my own. Throwing out all my stuff is equivalent to giving up on establishing my own home, my own place in the world. Maybe it makes more sense now? Because I am bicycling and have small-medium sized panniers as well as a weight limit, I am already down to the bare minimum. Just a few clothes, a hiking stove and cook set, my hammock, rainfly and mosquito neck, straps, rope, a few books, my nook HD, some wirebound notebooks, personal care items, bedding and a few other things. Will be paring down as I pack. I think I will get started tonight maybe. I think it will help to have the bike packed up, ready to go in a moment's notice.

I didn't read this thread and just scanned the first post. I think trying too hard to do anything pushes it away. I struggle to astral project, probably because I have tried too hard to do it. It could have something to do with what is called talent or skill. I think of it as some folks catch on to things quicker than others. When I started following Matthew Cohen's excellent Qi Gong Fire and Water I could feel my chi. For me it is a warmth in the hands, a sort of pulsing that gets stronger as the hands are brought closer together. Try some different exercises/teachers, maybe that Fire and Water DVD. Release, let go, and loose yourself in the movements. Don't try to feel anything, don't expect to feel anything. Just be open and receptive. Release attachment to feeling or not feeling. Focus on your breathing, put all your attention on your movements. I think you will feel chi in time. Treat all martial arts, including yoga, as a sort of moving meditation. Put your awareness on your body and its movements. Be fully present with that.

Before I begin I would appreciate it if we stuck to the topic at hand, not your opinions of the topic. Asking for your support here, your personal beliefs, feelings and opinions notwithstanding. My goal is to make the needed changes in my mindset regarding, in general, abundance VS lack/limitation and, specifically, money. As I will be hitting the road in just under two months, I would like to have done everything I can, tried everything I can, that would aid me, in the very least, in supporting myself along my journey. To this end I am working through Napoleon Hill's book, "Law of Success", the precursor to, "Think and Grow Rich." My intention is do do the same as I did with John Randolph Price's, "The Abundance Book", which I feel did help me. I think going through "Law of Success" and taking, "Think and Grow Rich" on the road with me is the next logical step. Mr. Hill instructs the reader to write down a, "Definite Chief Aim." While he has not yet defined it specifically, as far as I can remember from what I have read, it can be thought of like focusing sunlight through a magnifying lens. Sunlight can be thought of as a desire of something someone wants to do, the Definite Chief Aim can be thought of as a magnifying lens that focuses the energy of this desire. Examples relevant to the time are things like the Wright Brothers with their airplane and Helen Keller, who was blind, deaf and dumb, wanting to speak. Also Andrew Carnegie, who focused on steel. If I have any sort of burning desire, it is this... To live life without limitations. I can not express properly in words how strongly I want this! But you can see how it is unfocused. There is no specific aim here, just a general direction. [This part removed] I figured out, using the rudderless ship example, that this gives me a fixed rudder, or a rudder set in one general direction. So maybe I have to aim at "islands" along the way. Start with exploring this world, beginning with Venice, after I travel to the Big Sur. Just keep going from there, defining an island at a time located in the general direction of the sea of life without limitations. But I wonder if there is a better way to focus this that I am not seeing. Of taking this desire and concentrating its power more specifically. To that end I have started this thread. Any ideas on how to define something more specific here? [This part removed] I am curious to see what you all have to say. I want to get this concretized and written down by the end of this upcoming week.

Songtsan OK, I get what you were trying to say now. Thank you. Essentially work with what I have from where I am, Flow not force. I dig that! I am doing that storytelling thing here. Telling the story of how I want things to be, not as they necessarily are.

This is another viewpoint I just don't understand. Where in the annuls of time is it written that to be a spiritual person you have to live simply, with little? Everyone who does it, that I have heard from at least, say that they are happier. If they could live more comfortably, with every modern convenience, using the same amount of effort, if, in essence they could exchange their shack straight across, no-strings attached, for a well-furnished mansion, who is to say they wouldn't be just as happy in luxury as in sparsity? Who is to say that these modern conveniences somehow corrupt a person? How can a person be corrupted by anything unless they choose to? Why do authentic gurus in India live in caves instead of palaces? Why do they feel they have to? Sometimes I feel that the spiritual life is being sold as something that has to be hard and lived with very little comfort. But I have yet to see any evidence in the overall laws of creation that things have to be that way. I think this is just another adopted human belief, passed down over the ages, right along with the idea of earning and working hard. I think we truly can make of the world what we will, and sometime ago humans decided the world had to be hard, had to require effort and work for anything of value, that this is the cost of a life filled with desirable things, while the cost of a spiritual life has to be empty of things, yet require just as much if not more effort and work. I think this whole thing is bassackwards! I think having a desirable life can and should be easy, and a spiritual life can and should be filled with an abundance of all desirable things. That we can all live however the hell we want to, that there are no consequences, and the only power our "stuff" has over us is the power we assign it! That fancy leather recliner is no more capable of corrupting you than the bathroom scale is of making you fatter! Why is this so clear to me, so obvious, and yet its like I am the only one seeing it? i feel like I am looking at a unicorn in the woods, I am staring right at it, and yet everyone around me is incapable of seeing it. I honestly do not get it. This gift, like the others before it, I thank you for, but I leave it where you left it. I do not subscribe to this viewpoint, and I am deciding, here and now, that I never will.

So many of you have presented me with what you believe the world is like. I appreciate your sharing this, but again I must leave the gifts of these perspectives where you left them. As far as I am concerned, the world can be, and is, exactly what I want it to be. It is for me to mold the world to my desires, not for me to mold my desires to the world. I know we have all been raised to believe similarly, to essentially see the world as a challenge, cold, cruel, an obstacle to overcome, hard, set in stone. I was raised by people who still feel they deserve very little in life, and they have to work hard for what they get. I am done believing, feeling and thinking that way. As far as I am concerned, the world is s substance that I will mold to whatever it is I desire, and that process of forming my desires is the only work required of me. I use animals in my comparisons to humans because humans, by their own scientific definition, are nothing more than highly evolved animals. And we would all be happier if we could throw out ethics, morality, religion and ever other chain around our collective necks! Humans do act like lemmings and sheep in the way they follow others. They do act like rats in a barrel, willing to claw and scratch they way out. They also act like a virus, devouring this planet and its resources. I myself am acting like a frustrated stallion, in a tiny enclosure, with attractive females just out of reach! I apologize if my opinion of my race offends. But it is my opinion, just a gift that I brought to you, and you can leave it where I left it if you so desire. As far as that scale... I am all the desirable aspects of Warren Buffet, Bill Gates and Gordon Matthew Sumner (Sting.) As far as what I have to offer of value, I am sad to say very little that I am aware of. I can read and write, and teach the same. I can perform some IT tasks, building computers, installing Windows. I have always been a cart horse, that is the breed of stallion I am. Always carrying or moving things or performing some sort of work. But my enthusiasm for this, as well as my endurance, is limited. I don't want to do that anymore, or dishes, or janitorial work, or baby watching. I can cook a little and teach some cooking. But in the grand scheme of things, valuing myself according to society's terms, I am just about completely worthless and useless. I have little or no value in the eyes of society. But I do not feel that this is my issue, I feel it is society's issue. I may turn out to have greater value to society than society, at large, is capable of realizing. Or maybe I don't have any value at all, and am here to teach people that humans don't have to have a value tacked onto them. So when I am traveling out there, if someone wants someone to hang out with, talk over spiritual matters, go swimming, skydiving, rock climbing or just about anything else with, as long as they are willing to invest the time teaching me, I am willing to learn, and I can be that person it is fun to hang out with. If you have a couple jars of spaghetti sauce and some noodles in your cupboard, maybe some hamburger, I'll make you spaghetti. I can just as easily cook a pizza or make a cheese sandwich. If your computer isn't working well because you have installed a bunch of garbage on it, as long as you are willing to work with me on it, I can clean it up. If you want to upgrade it, in most cases I can do that. I am someone you can have fun hanging out with and at the same time feel safe with. I am someone you can talk to as well as someone you can trust. I have forgotten my perfection, same as everyone else, so there are flaws and rough edges. You may find things about me you don't like. But if you can get past that stuff, I will probably be that person, of which you may write later in life, "He was just always there for me." That is the only real value I have to society and the humans of which it is comprised. Working on my Definite Chief Aim using Mr. Lee's as a sort of guideline. Unfortunately mine will be a couple pages long. The world is your oyster. But if you don't like oysters...

I admit I must be an anomaly in the human race because I have never understood this. Coming from my former video game playing days, games were getting harder and harder, and I was, as far as I know, the only one speaking out against it. I mad it clear that I do not play video games to work. If I have to work at beating a video game, I am no longer having fun. There is certainly the payoff and relief when a particularly hard boss or part is beaten. But I could never describe that experience as fun. The same thing, for me at least, applies to life. I don't want a life of challenges. That makes the process of living more like work and less like fun! I want life to be easy, I want to have things handed to be on a silver platter. Others call me lazy or entitled. It hurts. A neighbor lady I work for tells me I don't follow through or pay attention to details. Family members say I am lazy. But who is qualified to criticize or judge another human? Who can say with any authority that clawing and fighting your way through life, like a bunch of rats in the bottom of a well, clawing their way to the top, is any better that realizing the futility and stupidity of it all and looking for another way? I want to enjoy my life, and as far as I am concerned, the easier my life is, the more enjoyable it is. I know a lot of people, maybe every other member of the human race, loves to fight their way through each day, whether on the rat race in the big city or to survive off the grid somewhere. But my ideal life is this... Picture all the desirable aspects of Atrus's life in the Myst series. Able to build things and experiment, able to create and travel to other worlds. That is what I see in my mind's eye, all the parts of Atrus's life I loved from the books and the games. Translated to "real world" terms, I am living on my own large piece of land, with my own house that I designed and built myself, a large house, built into a cliff or something, blended in with the natural terrain. I have a shop for my experiments, maybe a greenhouse or hydroponics garden. I am far enough from civilization that the lights don't pollute the sky at night, so I can see the stars. Yet I have the means to travel to town and get anything I want. Maybe a plane or helicopter. Each day I can get up and do whatever the hell I want, with no fear of not having enough of something. I have a huge bank account and enough residual incoming going in from writing or selling patents or whatever to keep the balance about the same, maybe even increase it little by little. I have my own library, I have a theater where I can watch movies, I have an observatory with a telescope, computers, electricity - every modern convenience. In this vision of the ideal life I only have to work hard when I choose to and if I choose to. There are no consequences if I do not. I am enjoying my life, the world around me, the things I do. Any challenges that come are not nearly insurmountable obstacles between myself and something I desire. Maybe there is just enough challenge that it requires me to think things through or put in a little effort. But I don't have to feel trapped or kill myself off. This whole mindset of 99% of humanity that you have to earn things, work hard at them, beat down challenges - hell - watch an action movie sometime! Fun to watch, sure, but be honest, would you want to be in the heroe's shoes? Hell no! All that stress, for what, a bigger cubicle? Or one with a view? A big house on a lot with a 3' wide strip of grass out back? A small sweatbox of an apartment in New York? Do you think the people in these positions are honestly enjoying life, even if they say they are? And the other end of it, living off the grid in a cave or a trapper's cabin somewhere, no thanks! So I appreciate what you have offered with that sentence, but I do not accept your gift. I will leave it where you left it. I know what I want, and that is not it!

Thank you for sharing this! I had no idea that Bruce Lee was also a student of Napoleon Hill. I have heard about him, the things he could do in his martial arts practice. Something went wrong, because both he and his son Brandon died tragically, I think both during filming. But Mr. Lee definitely left a legacy that is still remembered today. I think I should add him to the biographies to read. It sounds like he wanted much of the same things I wanted. Thank you again!

I do not understand it entirely, but I'm not supposed to talk about the object of my Definite Chief Aim. That is why I removed some parts of my first post. But in short, I want a life that is the polar opposite of everything I find currently undesirable. I want to be wealthy and spiritual, not poor and spiritual or wealthy and material. I want to be surrounded by friends and loved ones, to have someone to share my life with, not have few friends and nobody to share my life with. I want to succeed more than I fail, instead of fail more than I succeed. If there is someplace I want to go, I want to be able to go there, at the drop of the hat, in exactly the way I wish to. On a smaller scale... I want to replace my current bicycle with something better suited to my frame and needs. I want to replace my current camera with something that has more advanced features. I want everything I need to make sleeping in my hammock comfortable and as bug-free as possible. I want plenty of money for equipment and foot and to stay anywhere I like. I want all of this easily, not by the sweat of my brow. I want working hard for something to be optional, not required, in the manifestation of my desires. Right now I feel surrounded by limitations, by things I desire which are missing, and I want the opposite of this experience. That give you a better idea as to my goal?

4, 5 and 3, in that order of importance.

Using the example of a bow and arrow, considering these principles, what is your target, if you have one? Could you explain what you mean by these principles?

How can I change my life experience to one with no limitations? OR How can I change my life experience to one where I can truly be, do or have anything?

Here is a link to the event: http://theshiftnetwork.com/QuantumDreaming

I won't be getting into the details I mentioned. It would take too long and I just don't feel like talking.The gist of it was I started studying the tarot again, and had received some cards that emphasized I should ground myself. Thank you for all your posts.

I found my copy of the Gift of the Tao - Disc 1. I will follow that and see how it fits. I also have Sarah Powers Insight Yoga Earth, so I may work on that. I also have Matthew Cohen's Fire and Water Qi Gong, as well as Beginner's Tai Chi. After all that there is Budokon. If a practice clicks with me I will make the time to do it. I can easily add nuts to my diet. As far as dropping my conscious dreaming and projection practices, I am not sold yet. It doesn't feel like these are something I want to eliminate. Although I can see how practicing these is certainly going to take one's focus away from the physical world. I found that bit about people's auras fascinating, but a little beyond the scope of my current studies. I guess I have to figure out what being grounded or rooted means to me. I will have to look over my notes and spend some time with this. More later I think...

Yes Karl, I believe that was the post I was referring to. The source of this also advised that I spend more time in nature. I already spend some time in nature, barefoot, naked when possible. One of my favorite things to do is to step out on the concrete pad where I used to practice various exercises, and just stand there, legs hip distance apart, barefoot, closing my eyes and putting my attention on the breath as it comes in and goes out of my nose. But I usually only do this for a few minutes. I know the answer comes. Something will come into my awareness, something I can do in the natural flow of my life that will serve to ground me. I have started up Qi Gong again, but so far only once. I don't know if it will stick or not. I am also considering taking up barefoot running again. I have to consider that there may be nothing I can or should do to ground myself at all. This may be about ceasing to do something, and in the stopping of doing that, I become grounded. Maybe I have to stop astral projection and lucid dreaming practices?

I have always wanted to get mine opened. There is a book by Sam Sagan that is supposed to help in this regard. Guyausa tea is supposed to help clean the eye.

I made a quick search here but I didn't notice that anyone else had posted yet about this. So here is a link to Long White Cloud Qigong: http://longwhitecloudqigong.com/ Here is a link to a video I made showing you how to download these, should you wish to do so: Finally here is a link to Give Freely Recieve Freely, the philosphy behind which this course is shared: http://www.givefreelyreceivefreely.com/ I can not recommend the lessons at this time, as I have not followed much more than the Introductory Material. I know there is a focus here on teachers that instruc you in the movements, not just choreography. I don't know how John teaches. But so far the videos seem very in-depth, covering many important aspects at the beginner level, starting with how to use the videos and breathing exercises. I leave it for you to try and see for yourself.

This will speed it up: Off-topic I know...

The video I posted is not the speed of a normal lesson. He just sped up the video like that for fun. Here is a normal speed demonstration, he takes even more time teaching each of these movements: What I noticed watching the first video is his position and posture, as well as the movement of his limbs and body. It looks spot-on to me. I thought it would give others a good idea as to how well this teacher knows what he is teaching. Of course it is also fun to watch!

I am bringing this thread back from the dead! Just in case anyone missed it who would like to know about it. Also be interesting to hear if anyone went all the way through the lessons. Fun video to watch, you can tell he knows what he is doing:

I did not intend to come here to these forums to ask about this subject, but I have hit a wall and I can think of no other place to go. Maybe I am delusional, but I feel like there is a concerted effort to block and downright confuse people looking for information on this subject. In a country where nobody agrees on anything, that there is some powerful group somewhere working very hard to make it nearly impossible for me to find the information I am after is mind boggling. I guess I should appreciate that they, whoever they are, have found one thing to agree on! I am not looking to debate or discuss your perceptions of bad, good, should, shouldn't, right, wrong, etc. etc. etc. blah blah blah. If you want to preach find a church or a soapbox. Please do not use this thread. I want one book, just a single text if possible, that covers entheogens, psychotropic, hallucinogenic and/or poisonous plants. I don't care about man's law, man can shove his law where the sun don't shine. I take full responsibility for my actions. I am at a place in my spiritual development where I feel the need to break through some things. I need a wrecking ball, in short, to get through some inner walls. I need a reference that will help me easily and readily identify the wrecking balls growing in my area. In the physical form of plants typically classified as controlled substances. My area is refereed to as the Pacific Coast, Western North America (not Canada North America), the Pacific Northwest, and specifically Washington, Oregon and California. Although something that covers America (not North America, which includes Canada) would also work. But it must be comprehensive and detailed. It would be nice if it told me how to cultivate, extract, process and use the plants. But maybe that would have to be another book. It should be up to date, printed in the last decade or so, with large full color photos. It should be a paperback, as I have to lug it with me when I leave home. An example of a good book that unfortunately is too heavy for me to carry is: http://www.amazon.com/Mind-Altering-Poisonous-Plants-World-Michael/dp/0881929522/ That has to be the absolute best I found so far. But it is too general, covering too wide an area and as a result not covering as much of the plants in my specific area. One last thing... I added poisonous to the list not because of reasons some here may think, but because some psychoactive plants are classified as poisonous. Ayahuasca is an example of this, as is the Fly Amantis mushroom. If this thread is considered to be something that is not allowed to be posted at this forums, then you have my permission to delete it. I will not argue with anyone about it. [Edited this part out. Didn't seem appropriate.] I am a Shaman. Plants of this nature are a part of shamanic practice. If you don't like it, tough. Shamanism has been around a lot longer that man's laws and religion. If you know of any books that meet my criteria (and obviously if this thread is not locked or deleted) please post links to them here. I am especially interested in books that you have read or currently own, that you have found invaluable, perhaps in your own shamanic practice. If you feel the need to preach at me about this subject, try to do so through PM. I will hear you out. Get it off your chest if you have to, then go in peace. I appreciate your assistance in this matter.

futuredaze I got my hands on the books you recommended, and I can not recommend them. They have very little, minuscule even, information as to whether or not a plant is poisonous or hallucinogenic. They do not describe physical effects or first aid treatments. Pictures are about the size of your thumb and not well detailed. However I do appreciate you sharing the links. It gave me a place to start, and now I know of one series, the Lone Pine series, that I can eliminate from my buy list. Knowing what not to buy is just as important as knowing what to buy! All What I am looking for is a book I can throw in my pocket, whip out, find a flower, and find out what it is, if it is poisonous or psychoactive or not, what its effects are, first aid treatment, etc. I want a picture that will allow me to easily identify it. Unfortunately these two books fail in all these regards. But they do have some useful information in there, and are perfect if you just want to identify a plant or find a particular plant. With this in mind, are there any guidebooks that give you all the information? I am beginning to wonder if I should not just buy an e-reader device and carry a bunch of pdfs around...