WillingToListen

These last couple weeks I've been getting little sleep. I'm averaging around 3-4 hours of sleep a day. I feel fine but, I'm growing concerned that this may start having a detrimental effect on my being- on my life. Does anyone have any recommendations or experience with this?

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I don't have a 'practice' other than prayers, the frequency of those varying greatly. I guess I need to start a practice then. Heavy body weight exercise? Like push-ups and stuff?

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I don't know. I've been advised to avoid meditation altogether during this process, especially since I never really started to (or even learned how to properly). People are telling me so many conflicting things about this process :/

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I want to use this time to learn guitar (I used to play but only dwelled on technicality). But some advise against putting any kind of strain on yourself mentally during this process (writing stories etc.). Right now I really need something to invest my time in. I'm rather alone in terms of friends because I pushed a number of them away when this "experience" first started taking place. And I'm unemployed and have been unemployed the last few months. I just sit at home trying to keep myself occupied and from being "crazy". I really need something to invest my time in. Any suggestions?

Society isn't peaceful.

I'm 24 going through some degree of awakening/arousal currently and I say, "FUCK SOLITUDE"

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Did acupuncture work to solve your sleeping/insomnia problem? I REALLY WANT MY SLEEP BACK (((((((((((((

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I would agree. Putting all my energy into helping/trying to help others has brought me much suffering. Now I feel like a husk.

Thank you all for the helpful input!

I laughed at myself. I've been taking life SO seriously(as in like a "class") and all I've been doing is trying to do is spiritually balance things/grow. I've been almost completely ignoring the present. In limiting/repressing myself so much(being to stern in my morals) I basically was taking my own life away from me. It's not a wonder I felt suicidal, I was literally taking my own life away piece by piece a day at a time. Kundalini to me doesn't make things seem sterile/pointless, it's the person getting trapped in that mindset and putting all the energy towards everything being pointless. I am decent in my following of the commandments, but I really don't think god would give a person life just to make them suffer through the entirety of it. It's good to have a good moral compass, but trying to live the ways of the ancients/old times in this modern society is only going to bring you torment. A friend pointed out to me how whenever the dalai lama visits America he only stays for a very short period. I can only speculate how stressful his life would be following his own teachings strictly and living in one of our inner city areas. Dalai lama in south Baltimore, hahaha American life and "The way" is a fast route to cognitive dissonance- sometimes you gotta bend or you'll break

Yea I just want an exam sometime son to feel safe. Chiropractor/Acupuncture sounds good to for this K energy. And that sounds about right. It would explain why now I feel WAY over stimulated and sometimes my brain feels like its melting whenever I'm looking at my computer screen for too long(and its on the lowest brightness setting). I dunno sometimes when I'm under well lit fluorescent lighting in indoor places or when I'm watching television (next to never now) I catch my eyebrows raising by themselves and my whole body tensing up. Hopefully this K mellows a bit, so I won't need all this silence all the time. and most music makes my head hurt now, and it's disappointing.

I've just been stuck with this thought the last couple weeks. I used to write and make music, although they were both kind of negative. The writing was mostly noir/horror type. The music was dark and ultra-violent, I distanced myself from it completely before my first "experience" happened. I'm experiencing a "kundalini awakening" and I'm doing okay- it's just that now that I'm so content most of the time, I can't pull my artistic energy from the same place I used to, hate/fear/bigsadness. I've found myself trying to attempt the negative music again and it literally feels like it hurts my body(I think it does) and when I try to write "dark" lyrics I literally get headaches from it. I have so much energy and the fact that I can't follow my "passions" makes me sad sometimes. Is it just my perspective? I know a lot of people on here talk about how good and bad is an illusion/perspective. Do I just need to "get over it"? All I know is that I really loved writing and it was really nice having music as an additional outlet, but now that I can't do those like I used to I have no place to put any grief/release energy- I find myself "exploding" with rage sometimes or getting Extremely sad. I need art :/

Thank you all for your input! I'm going to give it an honest effort these next few days and see what comes of it

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