WillingToListen

I've heard a number of people say to not get any kind of spiritual/occult symbol tattooed, because it can have a detrimental effect on my life spiritually/mentally. What are your opinions on getting tattoos of spiritual/occult symbols?

I am considering taking up this system as a practice because of it's cohesiveness. Are there any of you who have any experience with it or advice pertaining to it? Please and Thank You

And no cons! Great for you! I'm glad you are finding your way and getting a bit of relaxation Enjoy life- it is such an amazing adventure we're here to experience and it sounds like you're off to a wonderful start I'm glad you and your family are spiritually enlightened, a beautiful long life to you all. So happy that you're happy

But you don't understand. I don't want to fix it anymore. It always breaks and needs fixing- there are no masters. I simply don't want to live any longer. I'm not stupid, I know of nothing else under the sun which I wish to experience. As much senseless killing goes on, whenever there's an a legitimate reason it's never present. Euthanasia is an option aswell, I was just waiting for enough $ to afford to ticket to europe. Stay for what songtsang. I just want to die. Sorry I can't be as content as you and others are with illusion and suffering.

^__^. Cool.

I once saw some buddha at the gaspump video or something on youtube and the guy on there had gone through a full awakening, and one of the points he pressed throughout the duration of the interview was that "a full-awakening" is in no shape or form compatible with modern society ^__^ Everything's a lie, I want to die.

Maybe not caring is a bad choice of wording. I just want to die because everything here bores me, that should be more direct.

If you were going to do it you wouldn't have told anyone in real life, especially anyone who could impede the process. Been cutting for years. Cool. I loved it dearly at a time around the beginning/middle of this spiritual experience, then people/my environment helped change that.I don't know why it's so hard for someone to understand how one simply doesn't see any worth in anything here. I'm sick of this world of illusion, its up and downs, lies and few truths- I just don't care anymore. Freedom doesn't exist anymore, peace will never come, people will never stop killing/discriminating/hating. I don't want to live any longer it hurts, I just exist to have people talk bad about me and keep my mother from thinking im dead. I wish I never wake up tomorrow.

I'm glad you care. One less thing I have in common with you or anyone else it seems. What's taking me so long to become a serial killer hahaa ^__^

Hhahaha all this energy cultivation and manipulation, isn't theere a way to blow up my dantien or something? Or a way I can make K fry my brain again, maybe even some permanent retardation this time? I'll take retardation if it's the closest I can get to death- it's like being elightened anyway ^__^

Did you ever know?

Some of those are funny ^__^. It's obvious you weren't going to do it. I would've gotten it right already if they didn't find me bleeding. Heroin's my best idea so far, the guy is like an hour out though and it's hard to get a ride. The only ride hahaha

Your feelings aren't real.

It's funny you should think that. Working with drugs and razors beautiful.

Cool. Good to know I have "your blessing", I don't know what I would've done without it.

I'm trying to get there soon. I don't believe it's exactly something you can work up to though. I could pay you if you'd do me the honor. The one person who agreed to do it faked I waited 24 years for some semblance of a "life" until I figured out I really didn't want one to begin with, I'd say I was fairly patient. I am a virgin, never had a girlfriend. I am 24. I only cared about music and writing, "shakti" took those. I don't have a car. I don't have any friends, just a few acquaintances. I don't have any other hobbies/interests besides those I lost. I don't care for anything anymore, I work for no reason. I just spend my money on weed/drugs, since it's the only way I have to get away from here. My family is falling apart. I am poor, no bank account. No schooling beyond high school. I don't care for any more relationships with people, or any more suffering. I no longer care to experience/know anything more. I am living when I rather not be. Songtsan get your bullshit out of here, maybe a lot of people don't know what they want/wanted from life, I'm not one of those people.

A stiff corpse inside the earth, long dead to the world. Did I awake to this reincarnation with a death wish? Is it my mission to just start killing humans mercilessly until I'm eventually put down?

Rude is subjective. Mastering nothing over a lifetime is pointless to me. More pointless than being here in the first place. I'm an idiot for not wanting to try things I care nothing for, and not seeing a point in life once my passions were stripped from it. But I'm sure if I allow my life to bottom out some more I'll become a creative genius Become a man? What high horse? I don't give a shit about any of this realm. There's nothing else I want from it not a family, not a friend, not a house, not a car, not a paycheck, not travel, not a girlfriend. I don't want any more life, it bores me stupid. There's nothing I enjoy doing anymore, music and writing are completely gone, since 'shakti' decided to 'make me lose interest in them'. There's nothing else I wish to do in this realm of illusion, I just want to leave. I'm sick of having to work for things I don't want, talk to people I don't care about, breathe air I don't want. Fuck all of you and your planet, I've had more than enough of it all.

That's exactly it. You're okay with being a jack of all trades, master of none. You don't care about mastering something, I did. What kind of bullshit life is constantly changing direction, in that extreme of a fashion. You say shakti kept pushing you in different directions, what if shakti just kept destroying whatever you had managed to create? What if it's not a 'process' just something you keep running from. What if shakti is just destroying your life one passion at a time? After all it is an intelligence and it isn't you. What if you've just become content with shakti destroying your passions? I don't know, what you described, I'd want no part of. Slowly just drying out.

Sounds like a life not worth living.

Bad.

What happens when you have let go of almost everything, when you become indifferent to nearly every worldly affair. Then what? Do you just sit and slowly erode? do you eventually commit suicide? I don't want anything else but to do die. I'm sick of everything. Why put up with all these buildups ad letdowns if I don't have to, I'm sick of pretending I actually want to be here on this planet anymore. I don't really judge as often as I used to, I just find myself not caring. I've lived enough.

I don't trust anyone, because there's no reason to anymore- nor was there ever one.

Songtsan, it's hard to "give in" to a being/intelligence that ultimately feels like its possessing you, but at some point I think I did just that, I didn;t realize how different my life had become and my thoughts about it- now I don't feel like "fixing" it again or experiencing anything else, I just don't want it anymore. Today was really odd, the cook at my job essentially told me what I was thinking, which doesn't happen often because theyre kind of "heavy" as of late? anyway. I guess he decided he would get to know be a bit better today, so at one point he said "What!, no kids, no wife, no money, no car, no girlfriend?.. You're dead." And I just looked at him for a minute and laughed nervously a little, I thought I was the only one who though that. I've no desire to "live the dream" ,or any other for that matter, anymore. I don't care about what most people consider life and it has literally nothing more to offer me. I'm so sick of it, one day I might end it but I've thought that for a while so I don't know. I didn't think it would be such a hard thing to do. I'm bored with life and I'm sick of the neverending pain. Why should I be okay with entertaining this illusory reality- this ignorance for any longer? Why work to accept something I don't care about? I'd just rather be somewhere where it didn't exist altogether.