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It is said intelligence 'is' your current soul-level. Gathering intelligence in my understanding now means, not gathering intellect, rather expand your energetic container. This light, this energy that you download and keep in your vessel, is intelligence. It's like you puzzle yourself together with more fragments of the Universe, not that you 'become' something else in terms of leveling up or business-career-thinking. So that would mean we are 'living' our environment, through the 'eyes' of these organisms? This would then lead to the conclusion that we are seeing what the earth, the planet, itself is seeing. Meaning we are telepathic every second, just not 'directly' towards other human beings. Who says that? "Known" is just a matter of shifting perception. Basicly the entire universe is known, through all perceptual channels that it created with itself. So nothing is ever unknown. But you see, at this point it gets messy, because it's rather obsolete to continue thinking in these ways... what would follow next is "Who allows us what to think" - "who are we and who are they". To solve that, at a least a soul-level consciousness is required. I on the other hand ask my mind, why is it not just freely "given" to anyone that so desires? Or is it? I mean what holds us back to connect, not to the soul and not the Higher, directly to the Universal Consciousness? What is "it" that this doesnt function as a switch. How different is learning from the perception of a spiritual being that is connected to a higher plain of existance? WHAT IF we seeing us as a small and dirty roach, having no job, no 'success' in life are actually the (excuse me to even speak in such terms, but for the sake of example) Higher evolved souls? Remember we are here because of drastic limitations. To being actively limited by these illusions to fine tune what we have not understood. To be in the heat of one's 'lower chakra'. My next step would be that my mind gets filled with shallow conspiracy theories through the BS I have clicked on youtube a few times where it's talked about a sort of emotional "milking process" keeping us here in fear. And here is the wish for higher guidance. But wouldnt this higher guidance not work as a cheat? To name the best example, the worst fear of an human individual: Death and how Guru's and whatnot speak about it. They claim it's no problem and the rainbow is beyond, but only do so because their higher aspect allows them to see more of the greater spectrum of life. Drasticly speaking: Wouldnt it be more helpful for your own's Higher evolution to actively be those bits and gore on someones hood? Arent we here in an endless cycle of respawn anyway? Isnt matter expendable and available in an endless reservoir? Yes and yes. But something keeps me away from doing this. What is it? You even speak of 'making sense' - what is sense? What makes sense is Bias. Bias makes sense haha! It's true. Maybe we should reduce the amount of questions that we ask from time to time and rather directly ask for what we want. Edit: Why can I sit in meditation and say and believe "Higher Aspect embody me more fully" and get different kinds of sensations I have never had before? I dont even expect them to be there. Actually I am very often so unconfident in formulating these 'higher wishes' that I unconsciously believe they dont work anyway - but they do, somehow, something works. It must follow your command. You - are it. How about doing this daily? I know I do. Not picture yourself being a higher perspective of yourself, because you get it wrong anyway - rather let it fill you how it wants to. Simple. I know from my experience, that it will repair you.. your body and emotions and thoughts, first. And you can feel this.
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Auric Sight - Can You See Auras?
4bsolute replied to SonOfTheGods's topic in Esoteric and Occult Discussion
No. This is not seeing Auras. Not by far. That is a wide misconception that the "still image" the eye sends to your brain creates. You can see this everywhere: Look long enough at one spot, get a the effect of a soft stare or actually soft-gaze and move your eyes slowly with that vision. You will see how the image you have looked upon long enough in the first place, then still remaines. People believe they see auras when looking at dark trees with a bright sky behind them, looking somewhat sleepy and staring and then getting a distorted image of those trees, which they then drag around in their sight with them, for a short period of time. I have no specific term for this, but this has nothing to do with auras. I can exclude this, but funnily enough I can also not say what exactly seeing Auras is - because I have not yet perceived it, but I can break it down for you scientifically. What is the Auric Field? The Auric Field is a term used to describe the collection of all of our interface-aspects of our different bodies. To see one, what do you think you have to do? You must a.) fully embody it and therefore b.) tune your frequency to that state to see it. And speaking of seeing. How can it be seen? I can not tell you exactly because I lack deeper research or (currently) desire to perceive it myself. Third eye? Possibly. Of course an opened third eye is a very rare sight in these days. If I had one, I surely would have left my environment long ago... speaking in terms of 'the end state' of what is possible to experience clarity and with it all the madness around us. Not yet, not yet. So your frequency needs to be equal or higher to a certain interface body and then you must let it see you, I would say, not the other way around Because you can only see what you already are, never forget this. Edit: Auras are vibrant, full of colors. -
Is this even possible? I am glad that I am at a point where these destructive patterns a certain individual of my family puts out on a constant basis does not further affect or disturb me anymore. But all this unnecessary suffering. Can you bring a self-induldged individual to self-reflect, when it is also still thinking or acting in patterns of self-blame from time to time? My attempts so far in pointing out what goes wrong is seen as "you are the holy person, I am (the individual) the failure" and at the same time miraculously every bit (!) that leaves the individuals mouth is Exactly stating what goes wrong with it. It's like the higher perspective already lets the individual know what goes wrong, but instead of keeping it for itself, it vents it towards others. Example: "because of persons like you we have war on this planet, being egoistic and not caring for anything" totally not seeing that this is exactly brought down to the case of the individual: Seeing only itself (victim, ergo selfish) venting anger towards the outside (war in a small scale). I know that it is okay to leave everything as it is. If someone wants to point out that I should leave everything as it is, please write it out loud so that my mind is aware of it. Any chance of active help or 'force' or let it all fall to pieces, for the individual to ultimatelly realize what was done. Unfortunatelly such higher concepts of "we create our own reality" does not apply in any case. The individual is far away from such realizations. Ideas? Edit: What I have learned out of it while letting the rage heat up my surroundings and I was in a stage of yin, whittling my vegetables for dinner..
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Sending people energy/Doing healing work without asking someone...
4bsolute replied to Unseen_Abilities's topic in General Discussion
Yes, one way or the other. They can learn from it. Because they want to dive into it, to heal it. Because they are not afraid of it. Make friends with it. And then bring this understanding to the masses, so they can cure themselves. Actually such an easy and child-like concept but it's the highest of the high we know here as humans. Nothing else what we did in our sandbox-years. Fear? Whats that -
How to bring a family member to self-reflect?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Yes C T I know Bhante's videos. I watched them at the beginning of my journey and found them super dry, because I there had no conception about the neutrality he lives in. To watch this, as a beginner and then try to apply this in our lives was next to impossible. But now, a short time later - everything works. So never drop what 'seems' impossible at the first place, just your momentary bias. I take a pinch of these, a pinch of him, a pinch of someone else I find useful.. all puzzle pieces to refine my personal approach to life. Never fully copying 'one style'. Thanks -
How to bring a family member to self-reflect?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Oh you get used to it.. I really got thankful this morning after reflection. I mean thanks to this "tyrant" I have at my home, I was able to come across a deeper understanding about energy transmutation, that I otherwise got whoknowswhen. -
*breaks neck turning upside down on chair* Looks nice! But as always: I bet the real sunset looked way better. Beautiful sunsets since a few days here aswell, w/o any clouds. Hope you enjoyed it!
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Confusion: Why do I rather get what I dont want, instead of what I want?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Simply more energy? Since energy contains everything. Your "luck" (wisdom) your karma (intelligence) and crap (DNA) Everyone posting movie and song quotes tonight? Really? Haha -
How to bring a family member to self-reflect?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Humans, getting confused and rarely seeing change. I get that aswell. Glad I am mostly in a position of where your wife saw you. Keep it up, it's very helpful for your development. I mediate naturally a state of authority, which I aknowledge and never ponder upon since I was told and it stood that way. This state is helpful but you have to balance it with kindness. Since its hard yang. For some reason this state is seen by everyone I encounter except my mother, she sees it as dick-out. I rarely speak words of wisdom with her since she thinks she knows it all. Never knew that I would turn from a very yin teenager to so much yang in my mid20s now. Gotta love to balance it Mothers? Curious beings arent they sometimes.. Yes, the individual I was speaking about was / is my mother. But it doesnt matter. Could be anyone else. I make no excuses about family members towards 'strangers' - everyone is equal in my chest. Had the "how do you talk to your mother?!!" special place in abusive situations oh-too-often! -
How to bring a family member to self-reflect?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
No, that is the individuals opinion about my self. But good that you've pointed it out. When I edited that post for spelling, I was about to add in bracket that it comes from the individual I speak of, not from me. So action. Action through someones thick-bias-glasses. What else. Until then, silence. Yep. It's obvious that I have a problem. Even if they would go out and kill babies and rape pets, if it concerns me, I have a problem. As hard as it sounds but it always comes down to it. We cant find solutions if we stay in that space of "I have a problem with you, because it doesnt feel good to me". That only means I want to solve that problem I have, because I want to change You because >>>I<<< do not feel good. -
Scenario: External negative force reaches me and I want to use this energy to transmute it into positivity. Have I already transmuted it or am I in the process of transmutation, when I am seeing myself being not affected by these negative energies (such as yelling or cursing) and creating them to be beneficial for me? That I state the intention "Even if I do not yet know how, but I desire to transmute this negativity into a form of positive energy that is beneficial to me." And by creating I do not mean the attempting, or have a vague idea in my head. Hard facts with real results! I really mean the desire. Since I am already in a state of 'I see it as it is and it does not affect me any bit negative anymore' - which it does not to 90%. I feel here and there a bloat in my stomach, but that is it. Through breathing into it, it disappears. Imagine you no longer need to ignore negative energy. Imagine you are able to seek every arguement as a chance to further increase your capacity? And while being 'in that mode' do not fear the so perceived opposite as you then transmute it aswell into not to being opposite anymore and can then interact with it more freely, can even be responsive to the arguing invididual! Am I already doing it, even tho I can not really explain the method? What would happen if I would understand it, physically, would it increase the effectivity, would refine it?
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Is anyone else seeing what I am seeing? How is it to explain
4bsolute posted a topic in General Discussion
Alright from non-conceptual, to conceptual - the difficult part. I already contemplated about to Not express but I am not there yet to leave such things as they are and go on, so here we go: I have noticed this phenomenon the first time in '12 when I took a rest while walking through the woods. A few hours ago I saw it again. It is very easy for me to see this effect when my body, mind and emotions are very calm. Such as when I decide to pratice a walking-meditation. When after a time of relaxation I then let my already soft view get even more calm by looking at my surroundings on the ground and slightly infront of me with a gaze that can be refered to a soft-stare, but which is not focusing. I would call it seeing through my physical eyes, but not seeing at the same time. What then happens is that I see the atmosphere, the 'air' around me start to breathe, it becomes alive and I see patterns.. like as if the picture infront of me (ground, gras, mud, plants etc) is made out of puzzle-pieces and is re-arranging itself, to somehow remain a picture for my vision. To my mind it looked like my brain struggled somehow to keep a sense of reality here alive Today it left the notion of that if I would continue this soft stare, I would see 'through' something. What is something? The 'illusion'? I have no idea what the illusion actually is and I can also only contemplate from a theoretical point of view about the idea that our brain puts our physical vision together from uncountable images in order to create this reality for us. I was not yet 'above the maze' to recognize the maze as being one, so to speak. What is this? What am I seeing? I instantly remembered myself when I was watching 4D animations. The 'breath' or the vividness of the atmosphere in my field of vision was then somehow contracting and expanding at the same time. At different locations. All connected and yet not connected. If you ever have seen your white bloodcells in your own eyes, via staring at a bright spot, very tranquil - recall a combined picture, not trying to focus on one, recall their connected movement which you can not grasp with your own mind; and now put this into any picture and imagine one of these bright, white cells carry a part of this picture you are looking at and all cells move at the same time, a fluid movement with no beginning and no end. Please ignore this, if it is too confusing. I do not know if this can happen for my total field of vision. Currently it is only in the center. Is any of my glands in my brain introducing itself into my regular sight? Can anyone help? -
Is anyone else seeing what I am seeing? How is it to explain
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
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Confusion: Why do I rather get what I dont want, instead of what I want?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Literally 'the' only sayings my mind always had trouble to grasp... The concept of dissolving, removing something and then finding it again, or finding twice as much. Above general logic -
Sending people energy/Doing healing work without asking someone...
4bsolute replied to Unseen_Abilities's topic in General Discussion
Literal. Sick, a state of confusion. The cure: Understanding. Why do monks wish to have cancer? Heard it a couple of times -
Dear Ones, I've practiced the MCO over one month, tried my very best in living celibate and at the beginning of the 2nd month I started with Qi-Gong. I had the idea to include tantric practices into my day, such as the orgasm without ejaculation, but did not quite made friends with it yet and so switched to ancient egypt with their 'ankhing' which is performed by fully ejaculating and mentally leading the energy out at the opposite side of the spirit.heart chakra on the spine, let the energy loop around the head automatically and re-enter the body at the actual chakra. Not successful on the first try. Regular outlet. Encompanied with my usual body being emotionally 'washed clean', slight arising of doubt or..consternation, feeling like a hole was blown into my Dantian (not so severe as the words imply but as if 'something' was missing) and after I got up after a short meditation I felt a stinging sensation inside or at the area of the 'sperm palace'. Which felt quite painful, but is now gone again whilst finishing this sentence. Lasted about one minute. I do not feel dramatically drained. There is a clear difference compared to before in terms of 'fulness' in my stomach and lower abdominal region. It does not feel so compact and 'safe' anymore. How big is the setback? When can I continue my practice? I am aware that Qi-Gong is on pause for at least 24h... And most importantly: How should I best handle my private time with my spouse, who can be considered a nympho? I have the idea to use her natural high sex-drive in a mutual agreement to further empower my methods of cultivation. BUT I DO NOT KNOW HOW. I really need help here!
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A few questions about important questions about ejaculation control and sexual energy
4bsolute replied to yondaime109's topic in General Discussion
Oh goodie... sarcasm. Could you please elaborate where he is mistaken? In how many cases? I am just about to follow his teachings. Please expand this a little further. -
Sending people energy/Doing healing work without asking someone...
4bsolute replied to Unseen_Abilities's topic in General Discussion
Yes, I always imagine the higher selfs of those inviduals on fire. Because it might be the case that those individuals in a situation we see as "need of help" miss a tiny piece to solve it by themselves and then they cant because someone helps them. Ridiculous. Like with my grandmother who is literally sick to death, obese, cancer multiple times. Her entire family doesnt really help her, cant really help her (so it looks like). I have all the tools and told her what to do and she appreciated it but fell back into her habbits. The most hilarious thing while we as a family all sat in an asian restaurant and just finished our meals when she expressed that her stomach doesnt feel so good and she was about to order ice cream to cure it LMAO - the waitress almost fell off her chair and brought fresh fruits. At a point I stopped spoon-feeding her and saw it better to leave it like it is: She has to learn for herself and we shouldnt focus so much on 'helping'. The active helping. Which is just egoic again, because we have a wrong understanding of 'suffering' oh so often. Like "Oh I have such a headache" you tell someone and possibly they think you're gonna explode and give you all sorts of things to attempt to cure the headache. Are you gonna figure out how you got the headache by swallowing some kind of pill? NO. So be sick. Its good for you. Yes, I just said that. -
Confusion: Why do I rather get what I dont want, instead of what I want?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Yes, similar to forgetting things. My whole team at my job discovered in a laugh when I was still at my office job a few years ago: We contemplated about "Why do we never recall what we forget, by forcing the thought to come back?" - whenever you tell someone this, he or she replies with "Well just do something different" which was then for us to understood as distraction. This wanting or finding is always a contraction. 'Science discovered' that this clinging to the memory acts as a black spot or an overwriting.. wasnt helpful for me at that time. Ok seriously, I stop wanting everything. And I just continue to get... answered it myself HAHAHA Mind: "But.. but how do I get?" oh sh!ts and giggles -
Super natural is and always was always a state of someone he or she did not personally have, or was in. Like the talk about being enlightened. You do not see Yourself as in that state, that state is seen by others and then put in such terms. To you, to me, it would appear as normal. That is what I told my uncle when he was contemplating about his ideas of how he would grow, when he started into his journey last year. He dodged my perception of reality and imagined it to be wondrous. But he totally did not see that it only was his imagination. A third perspective so to speak. I can guarantee you that the further we get away from the third perspective into a first perspective, everything is COMPLETELY different. Why do I mention this? Because I used to play a lot of video games. And so I also dreamed in third perspective and sometimes still do. But the figure I there see, who is this? Is this me? It can not be me. This is a state of watching the story of some individual and not living your Own. Super important to get this in. The more I contemplate about 'teleportation' the more I understand that my entire perception shifts from the idea of teleporting my body.. looking at it from the outside.. to what happens when I stay inside, in this body, how I type these lettershere on this screen, how it feels to teleport THIS self to some other place. A COMPLETELY different feeling. A more denser one, in my terms. This third perspective thing really is a sickness! Call it whatever you want, I call it 3rd perspective. Observing something from the outside rather than being 'it' and living from this core. Can you make anything out of it? Sorry friend I had a 'letout' this morning, I hope you can puzzle it together anyway. Edit: I see the departure... I believe you mean the exist of this grid into a higher state of understanding to be there when we... like it has been said so many times and it will be said again so many times in the 'future'... when we let go and Let Life Live Us. How can it be any different? Why this need for control? Where does it come from anyway????????? I ask myself sometimes and now again... like an infection! How do you want to fly an airplane when you dont even know every bit of it's function. Same for our body: So many individuals 'wanting' but have they every understood 50% of all bodily functions? I see it this way: Mastery of our physical. And then move into other bodies. And therefore states of experience, call it realms, whatever. Understand how your body works from Toe to end of your Hair. Living in harmony, not a single pinch. Then emotions, and with it mental qualities. Like mentioned in here: Everything must be in harmony. No excuses. No workaround. If you have a missing limb or 5 missing organs, sorry next life. PS: How do I master my physical? By meditation and let my higher aspect give me answers. That will then lead to a reduction of asking in such forums here for advice to a bare minimum. I also say this to myself. Meditation every day. Best every morning between 3 and 6am for the rest of the life. And then? Then application. Further knowledge follows. Coincidence in german is "Zufall" - directly translated into english is "Fall into ones hand". People say life is one concidence when they do not understand life. Awakeners say there are no coincidences and neglect that there are. You then just merge more and more with the circumstances 'that fall in your lap', you embody them! FIRST PERSPECTIVE rather then seeing yourself as a victim THIRD PERSPECTIVE. good, now I got it done. my mind got it done. Satsang: Seperation, to understand every aspect. But not to exclude yourself from all those aspects which shape your entire being, no, in the end see yourself as all of them combined. And then ultimately and truly work with them all at once.
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Confusion: Why do I rather get what I dont want, instead of what I want?
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Why do you..? I should.. but I.. well I greatly appreciate. I will aswell. Why am I even asking........ @Marble ... tiny individuals mind nods and giggles and searches for further purpose of this day ... -
Is anyone else seeing what I am seeing? How is it to explain
4bsolute replied to 4bsolute's topic in General Discussion
Which means that even an "I am" not, "I" still am. Wonderful use of quotation marks. Either "I am" or "I am" not. The inability of the Universe to know what a negation is in a sense of 'not receiving'. Ultimatelly we always and forever receive. Isn't it so that true immunity doesnt mean resistance in a sense of blocking or shutting off - it's merely a redirection of 'negative' slash detrimental energies or a recycling or transformation of such. Just for the sake of clarity, for who ever reads this and understands resistance in a conventional sense like denial. Thank you, these clarifications and further insights mean much to me. I can not remember having been recharged, possibly, but I will pay attention to it soon again, since the last time already was a few days ago. -
Join Me In An Experiment In Giving What You Want To Receive
4bsolute replied to DreamBliss's topic in General Discussion
The most profound and meaningful experiences in my life I have always received in a state of surrender / complete relaxation. I am sure this applies to all things. My sole question: Do we always need a tension first? Regarding sexual desire which was a big thing 2012 for me: It disappeared naturally. How? Simply with a higher understanding about the sexual processes in human beings. Do research, meditate, gain wisdom and your false ideas just fade away. Naturally. Happy applying Btw a "No" in a sense of "Not happening" does not exist. The Universe is an entire "Yes". A no is a resistance. And a build up resistance is tension. And tension is waiting to be released, has to be released. So dont even build up a "No" in the first place. If you understand this, then many things in our daily life get instantly clear. -
A human body dies because the intelligence inhibiting it, is not able to fully understand it's nature and the nature of energy that sustains the body. Therefor at a certain stage the body is left and the cycle starts anew. Rebirth, reincarnation into a human vessel. Because the body dies in a weakened state, the soul spark is so weak that it automatically stays in this earthly orbit. Meaning: Reincarnation. Reincarnation due to the idea of karma is simply low vibration. Low vibration is also saying and meaning "Fuck you". Therefore raising vibration means raising all aspect of your being, intelligence and wisdom to name two of many. Toist practice teach immortality. Meaning: Understanding the nature of energy and bringing the physical body in a state of equilibrium, more towards and into alignment with Source which is here named humbly as Tao. Where cell decay and cell birth is 1:1, meaning endless healing, which is then understood as immortality. We have death, decay, disease (...) only because of a huge collection of misconceptions about Life. If we understand everything fully, then there is no more death. That means that we as Higher Aspect live in this human body as long as we want. Learn with it and from it in whatever shape or form we desire. That means we do no longer need to reproduce. We do no longer need to give birth to children, because children ultimately are a vehicle of further living as a human being. This 'technique' then becomes obsolete. It is said that beings from Atlantis were in such a unified state, that they had no sexuality. There was no male and female in such a sense we have now that we need eachother to reproduce and understand life. Naturally, you then can create everything by yourself. Possibly even offspring. 'When we are done here' we then consciously a.) leave this physical vessel behind (let it deconstruct, return back to earth) or b.) refine it in such a way that the physical body is able to transcend plains. When people actually speak about immortality and refer to the impossibility in bringing this concept to this planet, they simply see the overpopulation. But don't worry, I can help you: Those people now choosing to live more fully into this direction of ultimate alignment will be the immortal beings roaming this planet. All the other "billions of people dying, after the global shift actually happens" die simply in a natural process. Even what Drunvalo Melchizedek said in his state of confusion as we all know him to exist here said it right: A very small percentage will die consciously, mean ascend into other realms; a slightly bigger percentage but still small compared to the rest will stay here on this planet (immortal human bodies) and the majority dies naturally (and see it as disaster, because they do not yet understand). But at a certain point of evolution it was slash is always that way. And if we follow all global teachings the majority of human beings will not be reincarnated here into this earth plain like before. Why? Because our Higher Aspect lives in multiple realities at once. Possibly that you reading this have many other human friends connected to the exact same Higher Self. So by this I simply mean that the Higher Aspect does not need more incarnations with less capacity, but then brings more capacity into fewer individuals. Quality over quantity if we want to speak in factual terms. This all hit me yesterday night and today when I was talking to my mother, when the majority of it literally just flowed out of my mouth in a joyful way at the same time not really knowing what I was speaking about but somehow it made sense, encompanied by a tingling sensation in the spinal collumn. From GMO foods to immortality haha what a conversation.. Have a good day everyone. Enjoy your Second Sunday in Advent ♥
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Do you believe in- and when do you think the actual shift will happen?
4bsolute posted a topic in General Discussion
With all the physical effects on this planet... Like Drunvalo Melchizedek said: That the earth could possible darken for a few days, a second ice age. He also mentioned that only the earth knows when the completion and the full shift will begin to happen. Since she is female, there are no set dates. He said that it happens somewhere up to 2015 or 2016 (I cant recall it precisely). He and many other teachers mentioned that it is vital to go within from now on until it happens, because the Chaos on the Earth will increase drasticly. To establish our connection with the Higher Self (not the lower, the earth) so we make our own transition, safely. Also that no one will be left behind. - For me personally there is so much mixed up. I really dont get the point why many of them dont right speak it out loud that never ever was anyone left behind, every consciousness makes a transformation into another form of life. There is no endless void, because you as life will always know life, because you are life and will attract slash be always the same. He and they said that some make the transition consciously and the majority will follow due to a natural event. In mundane terms: They die. But saying such things only creates a mess. Even for me when I first heard it a year ago. Do you believe in- and when do you know the actual shift will happen? The rumble, the big closing of the eyes, the void, the transition and then the next life? Are these theories all random-prophecies that were going on on this planet for centuries? Because they all correspond to eachother: The "dying"-process. Personally wouldnt I look into the internet I would not have felt a thing about Ascension. Regardless of my meditation. No "The whole Universe is watching us, we are the first ones to make it as an examples for other worlds to come" no "imminent danger of the lizzies" as they call it - nothing. What about you? What's your inner knowing, not.. any.. mind-chatter you have picked up on the internet. Be honest to yourself.