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Squashface, are you kundalini-active, by any chance? I get energy blockage in the area of certain chakras if there's something I'm not doing, or doing and shouldn't be. For example, if there is a situation in my life that absolutely requires that I speak my peace - I will get a feeling of blockage in my throat chakra. It gives me a clue as to what I may not be seeing. Also, consider that the body is trying to say something. The other morning I woke up and couldn't put weight on my right foot. Somehow, during the night, I had pulled my achille's heel. How the hell does that happen?? Later that day I was to meet with a man I was considering renting a room to. The thought occurred to me that I could be walking into an 'achille's heel' for me. Sure enough, the man turned out to be a problem drinker who's still drinking. The reason this is an achille's heel for me is that I am a recovering alkie, my husband was, and the early part of our marriage was living hell. But the real achille's heel is that I am a Fixer, an enabler, all of it, lol. Given what I really wanted to do to this nice man who needs a home (which was to mother him and make him well ), I instead decided not to rent to him. It was actually hard - but my achille's heel gave me the heads up.

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Unfortunately, it's geographically undesirable. And a few other things that make for more stones on the Con pile than the Pro pile.

I too sit thoughtless, which I've been doing for a few years. It took many years of brushing thoughts away to achieve it. I'm at the same place you are, for several reasons. I stand there in wei wu wei with you. I allow the stream to run all around me, I no longer react in my pre-programmed way. I am getting much better at it. But - I have had absolutely no feelings - not one - for the past 2 years.* I have left behind my overachiever self, although sometimes it will tap on my shoulder and I will feel guilty for not-doing. But not-doing is what I am doing. It is what I want to do at any given moment, or it is just sitting there and allow the thoughts to delve down into truths. I've come to the conclusion that it isn't necessary for me to do anything. It's only necessary that I remain in the knowledge of Who I really Am and willfully act accordingly. The template of the Dao seems to merge into my life. We are the torch bearers, Mskied. It's a whole new mindset, and we aren't alone. Some on this site. Here's how you can use your state to benefit a situation, yourself, or another person. Know in your heart, as you are Consciousness itself, that the wu wei is working. But you have to set an Intent first. Otherwise you'll remain in an uninteresting position. So when the dynamics of the situation start moving, keep your hands off them. Let them resolve to their own accord; but you must have done much inner work to have the clarity to get the machinery running. It's like a plate of spaghetti is suddenly turned into parallel strands. But if ego gets involved in the situation, you will tweak the situation into a direction that isn't the best. So if you've found humility at the basis of what you have found of yourself, you will be able to do this. If there is a decision to be made during this process, err on the side of love. *until I met this wonderful man on the Isles of Shoals last week. Oh dear.

Funny that you picked up on this too. I love the pit called Because, because this is the pit I grew up in, lol. Always asking why. As to the dogs of reason, I think he may be saying that Thinking alone will never find it. There is a realization process - a process of inner glimpses and arranging one's self accordingly until alignment and clarity is realized. Both components are essential.

Thank you so much, Everything. So much of what you say reminds me that time isn't really linear, that there isn't really a before or after, and that all is now. That takes so much of the drama out of the fear of tomorrow when we realize that it's already happened and we're just playing catch-up.

hot cup o' Quandra Tell me WTF that is.... coffee works for me

Yes, exactly. A daily discipline.

Well put, Everything. I had the most powerful moment last night. It was one of those things where I was sitting out on the patio watching the sun go down over a mountain in the desert. Sometimes the full awareness hits you, that God is Life, and We are Life, and We are God. That there's nothing to 'implore' or pray to. That We are It. We are the Intelligence. That there is nothing to do but sit on the fence and watch the circus go by, or alternately to join the circus if we want. The choice is ours. Or sometimes the circus gets a little rough and then it's time to climb back up on the fence and just observe. That moment of '360 degree awareness' is beyond description. I stay pretty well in awareness anyway, but to have it envelope you like that - it is total lesson in itself, and a feeling that involves no doubt, and no separation from life. Just, I Am.

remains in its wake..... what a lousy phrase to draw when writing haiku

Actually, rebooting can be a willful choice. This happens all the time in the recovery programs. To fully recover from addictive behavior, it is necessary to go within and search for shadows, tendencies, character defects, and mistakes we have made. Then, once that information has been obtained, one must look to see who these character defects have affected in our drinking lives. Then we have to go and make amends to those we have harmed. This is an extremely powerful program; done out of necessity, as you infer, but done willingly in another sense, in that anything is better than the alcoholic hell we were living in. So we become willing. What actually happens to some is that it puts their feet on the path to enlightenment - depending on how thorough and willing we are.

(Sorry, couldn't figure out how to delete this insert). I wrote before seeing Mr. Gray's ditty.

I truly love you.

This is absolutely fantastic. If I get another life I would like to do this.

I'll bet there was a good dose of wei wu wei in there too.

Hardest thing in the world to dust. submerge in water, no problem

A group trip? I'm in. When you mention that about LSD, it reminds me that Bill Wilson (founder of AA) started experimenting with it in his 24th year of sobriety from alcohol, along with his friends Aldous Huxley and Gerald Heard. Wilson was convinced that LSD would help 'open the heart' of people wanting to get sober but unable to relate to the second step (Came to believe that a power greater than himself could restore him to sanity). He participated in LSD trials going on at a veteran's hospital as well.

He seemed to be a product of his own unique path, and it doesn't surprise me that you say that. I used to live up in Ojai, CA - where the Krotona Theosophical Library is. Beautiful green grounds under huge oak trees. I was too young at the time, but Krishnamurti would give Sunday talks under the oaks and many people would show up. I've gotten a lot from him through his books. He doesn't seem to be straight Theosophist (didn't he have a difference with them at some point?) and there seems to be Yogi philosophy and Buddhism in there all at the same time. Highly unusual guy. But how in the world would I know? I read a Rajneesh book back in the 70's and thought he was great too.

Another wonderful thing he said when someone asked him how he stayed in consciousness - he replied that 'he didn't mind anything that happened.' That's serious acceptance of what is.

wash that apple, son... give it to the shoemaker he's got a good sole

(still thinking. will return when solved)

\ of impermanence he mumbled after I asked what he was thinking

I think this is crucial. It's about love and kindness. Nothing feels better than being kind to someone who is being unkind to you. It just feels....right. That's the essence of unconditional love - loving someone for what they are, not what we think they should be. This is a wonderful daily discipline to keep in mind. So much out there to transcend.

I need to let go! this merry-go-round is sick; there is no brass ring

birthing a turncoat.. Mrs. Arnold succeeded after several tries