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PS forget the guru and spiritual talk going on here. It's all generalisation and isn't really tackling the actual underlying issue here.

At this point I must reiterate something that I posted to another member a few days ago. What you have said here is your choice. You have chosen to believe this...this is why you are so defiant to accept another philosophy. All you have to do is invert your belief. I make it sound easy...and it so isn't but once you do it, you realise it IS easy. But in your current state of mind, you can't and won't be helped. Not by any of us, but yourself. Only YOU have the power to overcome this mindset...once you have, you can pick the advice you feel works for you.

The priest and the nun... The nun asks the priest "Please, tell me about truth." The priest points outside to the moon. "There is the truth, but my finger is only the words. The finger cannot also be the truth"

I can endorse this. Any moments of wisdom have always come as a lesson learned...something unexpected from what originally seemed to me as an "unfortunate" situation. You don't always get what you want but you get what you need. And if you actually listen to the signs, it makes life a hell of a lot easier!

In the film "Shaolin", Jackie Chan's character's path to enlightenment is not through martial arts and meditation, but in cooking for the other monks. Worth a watch. Also worth reading Chuang Tzu, especially his tale about the Ox butcher. As for Buddha, he didn't just sit and meditate...this was just his foundation. He went out saved a lot of people superman style!

Meh, I'm not ruling it out. The synchronicity is uncanny...looks like I am back to accepting clairvoyants and mediums. For my own good. Long story. I don't have an opinion on the debate happening here though. More to experience first for me!

You know what, I got wrapped up in all this before. So much so, I had to stop. I guess it is the balance I was missing. I've gone from.one extreme to the other. But they keep calling me back. *rolls eyes* Ok, I suppose I better listen. Ok, I will stop dragging my feet, I promise. "Am I a medium?" - I asked this question to myself a couple of years ago when I first started seeing these entities. It brought back memories to when I was a child and spoke to/saw things. I maxe the decision not to be. I guess it's not an option. I shall see what happens from here then!

First of all, wow...pretty accurate! Now I will expand. It is interesting that my partner claims that she always used to see ghost and spirit when she lived with her mum. Nowadays she doesn't. Interesting to know why this is only affecting me...I guess generally she is more grounded these days. I perhaps know why...I'd be interested to see if you know as well. I'm not playing here, it's just that you have been incredibly accurate so far...I just want to know how correct my intuition is. This is because a lot of what you have said here has crossed my mind before...and as you quite rightly said, I'm putting something off. Perhaps living in denial about one aspect of my life. Yes, I carry the genetic "worry" that my dad has. Incredible anxiety and a lust for chocolate. Perhaps a comfort food. I went through my rebel stage because I saw this early and didn't want to repeat the same mistakes. As much as I love and respect him, he annihilated himself at a civil service job. So I defied his "secure job" advice and went to university to study music/marketing. In the back of my mind, I saw a pattern and karma in my brother. He has collapsed at work twice in recent years. I too have had my stresses...realising it wan't necessarily about the career path, but genetically how I handle the stress. Thankfully, I found Taoism in 2010 and this practice has very slowly, helped me empty that cup and refill it! The alkaline diet, is this close to yin foods? That is something I have already adopted (except the chocolate, at the mo!) My partner feels the same...she needs an alkaline diet to battle candida symptoms or something... RE the baths. Can you believe that for the past year, I religiously take sea salt, eucalyptus and lavendar baths?? I steam the bathroom out and spend as long as I can in there AT LEAST twice a week. I have noticed this rapidly heals any martial arts wounds and heard elsewhere that it cleansed the spirit. I can add the other ingredients if you feel it is necessary. Good to know that at least I've started to deal with the issue This includes the mindfulness meditation. I will keep this up! What is golden in your post is these last two points. Yes, my landlord lived in this house for 11 years! My partner still feels energies and has always said there is something wrong here. It doesn't affect her but always has me. I used to have so much anger, and I have hit a few walls whilst I've been here. Also, my landlord is not a great people person at all...and always told me he has no time for children. He is a very blunt individual and seems to me like he has issues of his own. He has just got married though. That's something. Back to the house, my partner's mum is (apparently) a clairvoyant, and has cleansed the house with incense before. However, I'm inclined to agree with you when you say this is all an uphill battle. It now seems we have done what we can but it's all just damage limitation...no way to eradicate the issue. Finally yes, I have recently discovered that I am approaching the end of my rebellious stint...there is a new career in mind that will provide me with stability and marriage and kids might even be on the cards. Only yesterday did a good Taoist cyber-friend agree with me in that I need that responsibility now. Mouths to feed, my own home and wife. When I'm 65 and retired, I can then carry on my spiritual practice for enlightenment, but at 26, is worth more to me to stay grounded and look after my immediate family and start one of my own. No one has pressured me into it (something I am happy about that I have stuck to my guns with) but it is time to move on now. I have made peace with my demons and I guess this month, it was just a jog from these guys that life will always be the same here, unless I change it. Thanks so much for your post Horus. I will respond to your next one soon!

Here you go...fantastic thread for you to understand more: http://thetaobums.com/topic/33830-synchronicities-are/ Best wishes to you mother too

This is no coincidence...but synchronicity. Search this forum for more on synchronicity and also, Ganyin I think it is. I think Taomeow knows more about that. And that's the second time I've mentioned her today. As if by magic, she might appear. What you have described is not uncommon, but it isn't amazingly supernatural either. Certain things are just supposed to happen, like clockwork. The friend you hadn't spoken to in a year has a role in your life, equally as significant to someone that is in your life 24/7. This person is so connected to you in a way that they are almost identical...that's why you have the mutual, respectful relationship that you have without having to constantly stay in touch!

Thanks. I don't doubt that...a part of me just would like to think that there could be another explanation. Fancy that. While most get excited about the idea or paranormal activity, I'm just wishing it away. The physical world is enough to live in, nevermind these other pests!

I agree. Anything that still requires a fair bit of focus can just add to stresses and strains. For example, sometimes I don't have time to cultivate. Other times I have too much time and over do it. Both lead to fatigue... So unless it is in balance with everything else, having a day in pyjamas (I mean the ones worn at night haha) in bed with a film isn't a bad alternative to restore you. Diet, supplement wise, it depends what you regularly eat. Off the top of my head, I would say chia seed and fish is a good idea. Omega 3 is pretty clean, energising and good for your long term health. Do you feel that you could be lacking iron? Maybe fresh broccoli, spinnach and additional pills are needed? Perhaps a good beef rendang curry also. Can't beat a good rendang Taomeow needs to see this thread...she's more expert. Where did she go??

I feel like I've just been watching fencing.

I'm not into magic/AP...I mean, I dabbled in bits two years ago when going through a tough time (I was having a lot of these lucid nightmares of demons/ghosts...see my earlier post to Unseen_Abilities where I killed a couple in frustration) Nothing since though. As soon as everything cleared up, mindfulness meditation is all I have done. And I have occupied my time with working and being creative. RE the banishing...thanks, yes I will incorporate this. My whole upstairs is susceptible to damp/mould...landlord has done what he can but a main issue is that windows are not high enough. That problem can't go away...but we are armed with dehumidifyers at least, and open widows as much as we can. Could you elaborate more on how mould affects this? Finally, my father's health is ok, other than diabetes and a bad back. Thanks

This is what I always thought...I never want to believe that non physical things and energy can move stuff. But...I have had other moments of telekenisis a couple of years ago. So I always get baffled now when unexplainable stuff is happening...I usually try and be as mindful as possible when I am awake. Sleep walking is interesting...I never thought about that. I might set a camera up one night. Problem is, these episodes aren't consistent.

What, do you mean what kind of jobs did I start doing around that time?

And I want my game back. I will jump hoops if I ever find it.

Thanks...recently I have started to be slower and more mindful these days when eating. Meditation practice has slipped with a hectic schedule. Tomorrow, all restores to normal so I will take some time to get that ball rolling again!

Back a year or two ago, I got so fed up that I killed a couple of them. I strangled one girl and jumped/ground and pounded something in a tailcoat that slipped under my door and crawled to me at a frightening pace. Did the trick though...until my episode a few nights ago!

Weirdly enough, I watched Anchorman 2 in my room just before bed two nights ago and all seemed ok! Following this, today, I finally checked my drawers and found nothing in the tight space where the towels are kept. U don't really know what I was looking for but anyway,nothing took me by surprise in there. I will remember to keep laughing then. If it happens again, I will roll my sleeves up and throw them out, Uncle Phil style.

Hehe you can sense it. I feel like I haven't stopped moving in a month. One more afternoon to go and then it's chill time.

I won't even take ibuprofen any more. If the head hurts, I shouldn't be so tense. As simple as that. With that knowledge, headaches are rare

I seem to communicate with animal quiet well. Not to be confused with being able to be friends with all of them. Just like walking down a street with people, unless someone is particularly social, most are afraid to talk back...or at least hold a convo.

I'm still running. On my last set of batteries I think. I will hunt for ghosts later. Then I will sleep right through tomorrow.

Ok well you have a choice. You could open up to her about everything that's going on and that you would really appreciate her support in getting through it. Why not? Maybe if things could work, and you were willing to make her a part of fixing it, she would warm up to the idea. You just said you love her. So I would get off this forum and talk about all these things with her, rather than a bunch of guys you haven't met in the flesh. That way, if she is too hurt or whatever and turns you down, at least you know you did your best to salvage it. We won't go away, either way. The other choice is to treat this as a learning curve that makes you realise that had you have decided to at the time, broken up a while ago. But a relationship sometimes takes work. My partner tolerated my anger for years. She should have left me...but she gave me a million chances to change. I hope you can be so lucky