Songtsan

I loved Deci's word styles so much I tried to copy cat it to a degree sort of like one would share a favorite song with people to gauge their reaction to it, thinking is this stuff really as genius and amazing as it seems to me? So I experimented with it on people on the internet, then observed curiously. I know that I was so into it because it is often detailed like dominoes falling with no gaps and made perfect sense to my mind, with stylishness that was cuttingly fierce that intoxicated me and produced a great deal of that feeling of longing for something that I couldn't place what it was, as if I'd lost simething but had never had it. The word Scheherazade came to mind but that's not the word, though maybe that too in a way. Saudade. That's the one. I'd write a list of who I missed but Im avoiding list making to a degree. I tried to join that originaldao forum a number of weeks ago, but my intro post was deleted due to mentioning in passing Library Genesis, and I had spent some time writing it and as I have been having a hard couple of years it kind of shocked me. Then I checked back and thought my IP address had gotten blocked.

Will be interesting being homeless if the world keeps going the way it looks. The USD seems prepping to become a not standard reserve currency, food and gas prices going up and up, government supported stalking and harrasment of homeless people seems well rooted and sunk deep into acceptability just under the surface. Dont come to Hawaii and be homeless, they won't want you here. I did almost a year and a half homeless here from the beginning of 2019 and also some time in NY state. There is much to be aware of if choose homelessness and if you aren't prepared it could make you stumble into a long term morass and age you at double or triple time rates and affect your length and quality of life so much so that you believe you are in a tragedy if life were a play or movie. You may notice things from a way different perspective and have your idealisms bashed out of your psyche in such a way as to tear your heart and give you a thousand yard stare.

My Naturopath/LaC employer is mostly retiring soon and will likely be selling some of his books and supplies related to oriental medicine. His wife also has a large amount of TCM materials in Chinese and so basically at this time, I am putting together a list if there are some people who might be interested in making offers on any of the materials. Hopefully this drive link will work: https://drive.google.com/open?id=11Vhlz74OJMwJNFu9oQoeLYRqIzhbTScqh Also other related materials including a vintage ultrasound, ear candling stuff really old Bach Flower essence kits that are unopened and according to the people that make them, they don't lose their efficacy when passed the expiration date.

also looks a little like cells undergoing mitosis or whatnot.

IN the tune of the Pink Panther theme song, sing, "Dead ant, dead ant, dead ant dead ant dead ant!"

I've decided to sell my coin collection. I just don't do much with it. Mainly I have Indian head cents, some large cents, a few Flying Eagles and about 200 PCGS slabbed coins (modern varieties) of PR 69 DCAM or higher quality, including some SP 70s. I am selling at wholesale prices, usually less than half of what PCGS says they are worth. Let me know if interested.

I disagree. If I am born blind, with no areas of the brain that involve sight, I can still be aware. What about temperature sensation, sound, and other sense modalities that don't involve light at all? Awareness is something else other than energy - also it does not have to involve photons at all. It can involve the movement of small hairs that turn into an electrical signal. The awareness isn't even of the hairs movement at all - its of the signal that get transduced.

could also be to a ramped up fight or flight system, adrenals, etc. Besides things already mentioned, you can practice various meditations until you fall asleep, take some melatonin, valerian, or look at what you are taking during the day drug-wise, including caffeine, as possible catalysts for insomnia. Supposedly honey at night helps sleep too.

Thought stopping is useful but overrated. Why take a stance which originates from aversion? One branch of techniques neither tries to stop thoughts, or contributes to adding thoughts, it simply witnesses the flow in a non-attached manner; another way is to choose a specific object of focus and keep returning the mind to it. Thought stopping could be useful at times, but I think it also involves attachment to the thoughts, one way or another, so wouldn't be considered an advanced practice.

A person should be able to change likes/dislikes to a good degree. People learn to like pain, embarrassment, cold, heat, electric shocks -basically any kind of stimulus. People also reverse likes to make them at least neutral, such as people with addictions. They pair the addictive behavior with a negative stimulus. I think its mutable.

Even 'fake' things have a reality