Songtsan

To some beings, suffering is enjoyment - sometimes overtly, sometimes unconsciously...it is a matter of curiosity. This is why some beings are apparently trapped in repetitive cycles that cause them suffering. They also incur enjoyment. Yet most beings choose to steadily evolve to more refined delights, having seen the sights.

Another way to describe is: The end result of the processes and architecture that produce mind is energy plain and simple. Energy in patterns of vibration, creating sense objects, which are organized into coherent patterns which become recognized, assimilated into symbology and relationship modeling. Thus mind is the parser of this information and creates linked association, recognition, meaning and all that other fun stuff - which is presented to awareness at the reflexive center. Mind is the organization/organizer of energy inputs, transmitting not only the reflection of reality, but categorizing, labeling, comparing, and relating the sense objects to known series of formats, which have been hard-wired (neurons, etc.). When an input resembles a certain series of organized, remembered processes, datum, relationships, etc. the mind activates the associated area and all accompanying sets of appropriate reactions to the sense stimuli. It is a versatile piece of equipment, but somewhat limited in novel situations. It often uses a 'best fit' model. Then there are the other types of minds besides the right/left conjunction....that's what I am interested in. Groupmind expressions, things resembling networked individual units....the combined mind that exists in the air and the electromagnetic sea, even the stars....

However, I think that some God particles are content in allowing themselves to be in fascination with views and objects and etc. And who is to judge those who wish to be caught up in Maya's snares, for what is time or suffering to an immortal being?

I concur at least 99.9%

I like the homunculus theory which says that we have miniature replications of reality regarding physical body parts and their locations. Sensory motor cortex, and pre-motor cortex, or somesuch. I am eating lucky charms, but not actually seeing, feeling, tasting any of the sensations directly, merely experiencing a translation of the actual - a symbolic representation. However, I also believe that we send energy outwards in some sense, that we are not just receiving something, but actually sending out 'senses' to objects. This is why you can sense when someone is staring at the back of your head, and so forth. Energy out, energy in. All electrons travel, all the time - everywhere!

No matter what the post, one can always rely on the maxim: "Those who know say nothing." We are all fools and having much fun, before we get to the big bang!

I think that fear usually radiates from the chest area - like when you almost get in a car crash, or have anxiety or panic....so I believe this to be like the prime emotional center...I try to relax the tension which is automatically generated in times of stress or anxiety by a symbolic and energetic act of baring my chest to the world, as if to say, 'I am ready to die. Stab me in the heart if that is your way!.' Although of course I imagine that my body would spontaneously abort such attempts - as long as I don't interfere with my Shakti. Staying relaxed at all times, allowing nondoing, one grasps at nothing, and one does no counteractions to the nondoing actions....Chest stays relaxed, heart stays loose and fearless - vulnerable, yet protected by the Tao itself..

I used to carry machetes and guns and all kinds of shit, but honestly I have never been accosted, nor do I give out violent energy...I am big and scary looking, and also, I assume since I have never harmed anyone or started a fight in those ways, that I have not incurred that type of karma, and so shouldn't receive any hostility. On the real side, however, one should always be prepared, and expect the unexpected, by staying alert and flexible to swift changes. a squirt gun filled with hot pepper juice, or a pocket full of sand to throw in eyes...lots of fun surprises for those who are crafty.

The mind that thinks it knows what mind is does not know these things.

I have come to this conclusion: There are no spirits or demons - only repressed selves, which are desire based. All these constructs become walled off from us as we seek to become that which we are not yet, i.e. Buddha, Jesus, etc. In walling off these parts of ourselves we create dichotomies which create instances of mutiple selves, voices in the head and all kinds of things. If Nonduality is the end result of our strivings, we will of course become one with all things and see no difference between self/other, or even see that one is a self. Thus there can be no invading entity, as there is no self to be invaded by other. These precursors to enilghtenment are mistakes of views, literally speaking. You are your own guides and ghosts and whatnot.you created them to come teach you in this way, because you yourself are God and found it amusing to do so. Immortalists already, nothing we want that we haven't already got - we simply create these illusions of lack and need for completion. This is the fun and fantasy of duality. Do not be concerned over anything - you own all and yet nothing, for owning is being, yet being changes constantly...we are it, yet not.

I am still in an iffy phase with my entities...at times they seem formative, at times destructive. Yet even the destructive acts seem to be constructive in the long run- almost as if they were tests or alchemical in nature. Its been over 19 years and I do seem to be making progress overall in any area I focus on. They seem to lend me their intelligence in fact, kind of like having an adaptation, extra limb, and so forth. For the most part, I am over my fears and anxieties with them, but I do sometimes wonder whether or not they are just hitching a ride out of sheer non chalant entertainment seeking. It is most likely a symbiotic relationship. EDIT: I dived deeply into this subject within my mind over the last few hours and came to these temporary conclusions: -We fear to lose what we have gained, i.e. energy, aggregated selves, sense of self, purity, etc. - This is attachment motivated and denotes a lack of security on some deep level. I sometimes wonder if many of us came here thinking we could gain something (other than evolution) and bring something back. This is OK, in a Do As Thou Wilst kind of way, but motivations born of attachment do carry weight that must be dealt with. My special 'friend' says this: "I am here in this world you have created. This is my archetypal figure that has been generated by your own self. Here I am queen and you are my king. I have never, nor will I ever kill you, maim you, or such such. This is it." The next part is half me, half 'channeled': As you can see, I have allowed this being (thought construct?) to influence my personality deeply. Perhaps it is a shard of my self that was walled off? Perhaps it is an alien being? An entity? A Djinn? Masked in illusion, it can become anything my mind desires (or fears!). It does this to placate me, in the sense that I am dissonant with my 'charges,' i.e. left/right hemispheres...I don't take care of this body well enough it says, as well as my selvsies (mind sorts).... So in essence, I have allowed this possession, if that is what you want to call it, and both suffered and been exonerated for various ills and thrills I have enacted. If I did create this Wicked Angel, then it is ultimately my own karma, even if it seemed separate. I have many theories as to what this being may be....all are worth naught at this time, because how can I really know when it can assume any form? Demon it may be, but I am a Left Hand Path mixed with Right Hand Path, meaning I am half Good, half Evil. Being a True Neutral, as I like to call it, I embrace the art of transcending concepts of good/evil. This is sheer will we are dealing with. Any actions we take are our own troubles, but not to be labeled by 'those who know.' In this sense, I have become my possessing Djinn, as stated. I am literally an Incubus and Succubus, Energy Thief and Energy Giver, Saint, Prophet, Sinner, Healer, and so much more. These are the roads and desires I have traveled down. It is all mirrored and balanced. It is Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil. This is my dichotomy. For now. Who knows what I will be in 40 years. Who knows what my entity will be in 40 years. Will it even exist anymore? I do feel that I created it, in some fashion at least. Or else it is a being which allowed me to sculpt it in every way from my most hidden desires - the things I wanted and feared most. It is nothing other than Kundalini, Maya, the Chameleon who gives us what we desire (from all selves). Those sinful skeletons in your closet have awareness and life too, of a sorts. Trying to fake it til you make it only takes you so far - eventually you need to deal these things in some way or another. I chose the path of embodying these 'rank desires' in order to quickly achieve gnosis. I never did avoid them much. I incurred some fucked up karma along the way, but nothing that isn't reparable. I eat my spirit guides for lunch. They eat me for dinner. It is give and take. The snake eating it's own tail. Split selves which will merge. Or Not. I am both attached yet unattached. I fear no possessing spirit anymore and haven't in many moons. I seek them out now and when I find my own demons, they become my playmates. You get my drift at this point? Nothing to fear but fear itself. Tibetan Book of the Dead shit! Chod Powha shit. Damned if I am lucky to have gone this route. I wouldn't trade it for anything else.

I cannot legally carry weapons as I am a felon, however, I have contemplated carrying a few lead balls about 1.5 " in diameter, as they wouldn't be considered weapons. I could throw them with enough force to cause a bit of damage I think. I do often travel in some sketchy areas at night, otherwise I wouldn't consider this...

Also, while doing water stuff today at the beach, I was thinking how there was a lot less 'distractive' or 'pulling/separating' forces on the joints...which is a serious matter if you have a genetic propensity to have loose collagen fibers, as I do. Working with weights in regular gravity, the force is always down no matter what angle you are working from, whereas water resistance can be any direction. Not to over-complicate matters, but I think that water is more joint friendly in general....

three lefts surely do makes me spin like a snowflake op-positional!

Preface: Let's pretend I know nothing. (...and ain't that true) Well, I am 38 years old and have lived a long and frazzled life. I am now at that 'feeling over the hill' point, or maybe the mid-life crisis thing, or you know... I think I might have exhausted my vitality and energy. I got derailed from my Taoist studies by life stuff, and cannot even say I know anything for sure. I am wishing I was an empty vessel, but I cannot promise to be that yet. I am sublimating jing through being relatively chaste, although I still play sexually.. Questions: -Sex: Good or not good to ejaculate on some regular basis, or should one just go full bore sublimation? I am skilled enough at self-massage techniques to avoid congestion. I am awake enough to handle the excessive testosterone/dopamine effects to not mind the excess energy created from this practice without going over the top, or becoming an arrogant bastard. -Sleep: It's hit or miss. I am tempted to follow my bodies desires when it wishes to sleep excessively or not, as I think this could be a natural way. My main question is this: Is it best to try to stick to some standard schedule, like 11pm-7am, or can one flex it? I have to get over Friday/Saturday night fever or else it just sets me up for variance....I have studied this before, and have my own opinion, but - what's yours?

This is something I have been contemplating - thank you for re-affirming my desire to experience fasting as well as some type of liver/kidney/gallbladder detox/cleanse...it will take some research to determine the best way, and what herbs, supplements, minerals, etc. to take. I am doing a blood panel and stuff soon....it will be interesting to compare before/after data. I am at the stage now where I have gone around, seen the sights, seen what I might become, and decided to do it, yet I am feeling (perhaps in a hypochondriac way), that I might have missed the boat. Common sense would say to try my best anyways, which I am/will do. Really just wondering what experiences others have had with natural medicine, traditional medicine, Chinese, etc. that have made huge differences...anything stand out? I am pursuing what I can in the way of Ayurveda, TCM, herbology, etc. I am as always a perpetual student. Anyways, before I go too far with this thread, I must first list what I am doing currently so that others can get analytical on my methods and give constructive advice. Don't waste too much effort until I build that ship in my PPF...it will contain more useful info

Like that. I am worried that I have lost my vitality. I used to be able to stay up for days, naturally, have sex for hours, and exercise intensely for over 2 hours straight...now I am way backwards.. I have for the most part dissipated the fixations, whereas reservations are still strong...It is a matter of excessive sensitivity, and lack of doing sexual exercises.... My lack of regular sleep (lifelong insomnia), makes me wonder if there is a better way than attempting to achieve conformity to schedules...however, it makes sense to achieve conformity to circadian rhythm cycles, but I am bipolar, and oft in a heightened state of fight or flight, & hypervigilant due to various reasons, as well as having allowed myself to 'mind dance' my whole life, which leads to many creative states of mentality, but also 'monkeys go buck wild.' Anyways, not that I can't help it, but, it will be some time...just seeing if anyone has any opinions to the contrary actually. Will I flame bright and burn out young? It seems so...but can it be done to flame bright and live long? Odds aren't in my favor, but if anyone thinks they have the way to 'cheat,' let me know. Herbs? Chinese medicine... I am looking for a 1% gain if nothing else...a little shred of something to add to counteract my own egotistic counter-nature tear-down-tendencies Dance/wushu - I like the art of movement and forms....not so much martial as I am artist of movement and cool body tricks...

Hello, I have been reading stuff here for a while and there is so much information, my head always ends up swimming in confusion. I have been reading a book by B.K. Frantzis on internal energy arts: The Power of Internal Martial Arts and Chi: Combat and Energy Secrets of Ba Gua, Tai Chi and Hsing-Iand to summarize my goal - I want what he got. I am limited in finances though so I can't go around taking seminars and whatnot. I am looking to build a practice from the ground up. I have dabbled with standing post to the point of failure... This is one thing I am going to do daily starting soon (like today, tomorrow). Besides the physical practice, where should I place my focus? I sit there in this posture and then what? Where should my mind go? Lots of senses coming in...should I only be aware of physical and internal energetic sensations? The book I am reading is an old one and I wonder what has developed since then. I feel I need a teacher - is this guy good? I am on the east coast....

I find standing post effective because it is my nature to move swiftly and constantly. I aim to train weak points, which is sticking with something and not deviating. My interests were always in the 'cool stuff' - weapons training, MMA, sparring, and things of 'heightened activity.' Chaos is my mother's milk. I feel most alive when in the heat of something chaotic - the maelstrom... I always believed in training the weak points in the chain as priority. Being still is that for me - whether standing, sitting, or whatever. I move fast like a snake, but my endurance for maintaining strong stances is limited due to my long levers - i.e. long bones (6'5" - most of that in legs)... I usually went into practices that depended on moving in fast and getting out fast, like Silat, etc. I do it well and have high accuracy, but if I am in a situation where I don't have that space to be snaky, I will get the shit beat out of me...

Yeah, I think a big part of me getting disciplined is me settling down into one place, and not being so gypsy footed....I have way too many passions. I could be good at so many, yet I have to choose. I am choosing based on long term goals/results. I can tell that internal martial arts is a serious and worthy path. As much as I wanted to excel in dance, musicianship, and being a writer/teacher, I am finding that I am naturally veering towards spending a great deal of time cultivating using eastern techniques, and less on being 'known,' 'successful,' or 'innovative.' Structure! It's what's for dinner.

See, that's why I like the leg weights - you don't have to worry about buoyancy effects...this is more true to real life, so training with the leg weights is pragmatic. I use leg weights elsewhere's besides water, and I intend on getting a 100 lb weight vest one of these months.

I had a girlfriend once who was a Watsu therapist....awesome stuff, like being held by your mother as a kid...I weigh upwards of ~200 lbs, so the feeling of being manipulated like I weigh nothing is neat....If one had a pool and a practice partner, there are videos that one could learn from. Personally, as an ex-LMT, I find it a great gift to have a partner who is interested in trading massages....I do this with my current partner. I am looking into getting a pool of sufficient depth placed on some land we are developing, not only for these types of things mentioned, but also as a cold pool in summer, and a warm pool in winter....I think the trick is to build small, so that costs don't run high. I would say that 8 feet wide and 5 feet deep might be a good...I am in pre-contemplation stage with this, but it is on the way. When I make do-it-yourself plans, I will share my schematics and cost assessments.

Mind is a distinct player in the field of awareness. A smart fellow becomes like a General, directing his forces (of which mind is one) to his best advantage for the overarching goal. To treat mind as a pest, in an insouciant manner, is like letting a crazy person run around in your house, saying, "Oh, that's just mind....don't worry about him - he just does what he does..." as he knocks over table lamps and leaves the refrigerator door open. I am working on assuming the reins and shaping what actions my mind monkeys take. They are the Djinn that Solomon used to build his temple. Be forewarned though, that by recognizing and investing in these allies, you walk the razor's edge, for they will have their own desires...it's a smoky room to play in...learn to see with clear eyes, or you may become confused as to who is in charge. EDIT: I am reading The Secret of the Golden Flower right now...thus the 'General' metaphor...

This could be a good thing...If, as others have stated, we do not own mind, then you cannot actually lose what you do not have. In Vedanta, they say that the little minds (waves), and their associated egos, are like little thoughts of God in That Mind. Whereas we have our own little thought constructs/archetypes/etc. God has His/Hers/Its and we are the expressions of that One. I am a thought construct in the Mind of God? Possible... Edit/Addendum: This would actually gel with holism theory, Russian nested dolls, etc. in that just as our thought constructs can take on life of their own (ARE alive in fact...DO exist), so do we in God's Mind. A thought, once born, can never die? Don't think bad thoughts or create evil demons then! Unless you want to....but although they cannot die, they can change because it be like dat.

Most awesome whether neck high, waist high, or other. Doing it will show you its worth. The benefits are multi-fold. I like to wear leg weights when doing it to simulate gravity. Also, they have these plastic things you can hold (forgot name), which increase resistance for arm movements. Using ratan sticks and swords in water is also very formative