Songtsan

Hfyyyd xjfkfk! I know exactly what you mean....

how does that work? That we are some type of radiance or emanation? We must be more than the emanation....that's just a show of sorts....is there any way to be more clear about what it is?

I looked at both articles. Does not seem conclusive. I've always thoughht of meridians in terms of myofascial lines....need to do more research on it. I hope they can prove it scientifically. It would be a nice breakthrough.

Exposure therapy. Gradual incline.

No matter what, cultivation will occur, even if no goals are held in the mindspace. Goals could be seen as ego-achievements. It seems only an ego could have goals. But having the goal of being goal-less would be paradoxical or something like that. Might as well enjoy the experience of egotism and see a story unfold. Or not.

Used to weight train regularly. Ex-certified personal trainer. CSCS and ACSM HFI. Yeah, I agree that squats almost every day is overtraining. According to what I learned back then, 2-3x/week max for training legs. With 2x more normal...

Deeper than that. The desires you have in you are actually tripping you up. If you could cut the root of all of your fascinations, you would be a Buddha. The fascination towards becoming a Buddha is a tripwire too. You choose to be friends or enemies or neutral towards your fascinations. If one is a friend of a fascination, one will seek it, if one is an enemy toward a fascination, one will hate on it, think on how to remove it, and because what one hates is verily oneself, you will hurt yourself. If you experience equanimity towards the fascinations, then you will be in the safest space, neither for or against, neither giving nor taking. If you find this place you will have the freedom that you desire. The world is rife with stories, but they are all false realities. Know that the stories you tell yourself in your head about everything are never factual. They may be close, but never hit the mark. If you could get out of story telling mode, and stop the mind from being your host, and you the guest - instead switching it so that you are the host and your mind is the guest, then you will have gained a measure of realness....its hard to do, yet easy to do.

Do you think/feel that every thought one has ever had is somehow recorded? It would be easy to do. Spirits seem to be able to see our most private thoughts and even to be more aware of our unconscious than we are....I imagine that they exist on a different time continuum than we do....I often get the feeling that I will be judged and weighed for every little action I have made in this lifetime....

It is not some ethical/moral thing, it is simply a matter of pragmatism. I would like nothing more to have a few million dollars lying around to play with. The point is that if your ideal life requires mansions, then you are probably screwed. Everybody and their brother wants to be rich. By adopting a system of satisfaction with very little, you can still be in great bliss, if you follow the practices, which are many, to be so. The shortcut to bliss is in mental cultivation. Detachment equals bliss, if done right. Bliss is a trick. It's alchemy. Your posts indicate dissatisfaction. I recommend a way that requires no outside support. It is simply something you do with yourself which is free and always available. Accept what is easily attained, and limit desirous attitudes towards excess, If excess is naturally become yours, then do as thou wilst. Do not wait for external forms to meet your expectations. Find the bliss that always is available and exists within.

Money saved is money earned. Learn to live with less: less food, less clothes, less "empty calorie" entertainments such as video games, netflix, etc. Eating less food, you will weigh less, and move around more freely, and live longer. Find satisfaction in simplicity, no need to have extravagant hobbies or distractions. The less you own, the less you are owned by your possessions. So a spartan lifestyle, with a devotion to health, longevity, cultivation, etc. will make you more free and adaptable. If you currently have no income, you could apply for food stamps? And the 'Obama phone' - free phone: https://www.safelinkwireless.com/Enrollment/Safelink/en/NewPublic/index.html - I have one and its good enough for me.

I've often wondered, but they also seem to have information and abilities that I dont possess. Too many stories of people with spirit familiars who have siddhis because of their connection to them....I never rule anything out Yes and no. If it was true, I might make virtuous deeds more important in my day to day, vs being more self centered

'spirits of air'?

This sounds like it could also be a condition with the nerves or somehow related. The movements you describe dont sound like traditional kundalini kriyas, they sound more medical in nature. One way you could find out is to purposefully practice kriya yoga by completely relaxing your efferent nervous system and allowing any spontaneous movements to occur and noting their type and nature. Kriyas caused by kundalini are usually more intelligent in nature, not some random twitching...that sounds more like tardive dyskinesia or somesuch. Wouldnt hurt to visit your primary physician and having a complete blood panel, check thyroid, liver, kidney function...that'd be a start....

Are you taking any meds currently?

That's not necesarily kundalini related...but yeah, start a new thread and give us more details

Awareness of breath is a typical object of focus. Keep the mind on the breath and the breath on the mind....

thats neat Yueya...lots of good stuff there, for men too

Entheogens, etc. can be pivotal in teaching one the nature of delusional thinking. Whole delusional fantasy beliefs can be experienced, and then afterwards negated upon inspection. This is useful in everyday ordinary reality, in that one can then keep in mind the limitation of our electro-chemically mediated experiences as far as giving us a view of 'what is true.' We are always limited, and our belief constructs are only best fit models. I would recommend fast acting and short lived entheogens such as Salvia Divinorum, DMT, etc. to quickly enter and leave the delusional realms and experience the rapid shift that chemistry can bring. Also, disassociatives are great 'cheats' for experiencing what pratyahara is like if done correctly. There are many legal means for such quick entry into the noosphere that exists when senses are withdrawn. you can see the everpresent chaos/insanity which exists in the subconscious...

Pataknjali's sutras mentions the use of 'herbs' for spiritual gain... "Five ways to thin the veil: Five methods are mentioned by which that barrier or veil of ignorance (2.3) is thinned, or eventually removed entirely, allowing Self-realization (1.3) and liberation (4.26). Here's the five ways of thinning the veil: Birth (janman): Some rare ones are born with a natural ability to drop the veil between the conscious and unconscious. Recall that in sutras 1.19-1.20, two kinds of people were mentioned. First were those who naturally are predisposed by virtue of having attained a high level of experience in a previous life, though that experience was not complete. Second, were those who (like most of us) need to follow a path of faith, energy, memory, concentration, and knowledge. Here, in this part of the sutra, it is simply being acknowledged that some experience beyond the barrier or veil by virtue of birth. Herbs (ausadhi): There is said to be an ancient elixir that when ingested, breaks down the barrier. It is also said to be an inner elixir, in the subtle aspect of our own being. At a more surface level, we are all familiar with the way in which various drugs or chemicals break down the barrier between conscious and unconscious. Throughout spiritual and religious history of humanity, herbs have been used responsibly in this way by many cultures. While we are not suggesting drug use here as a means to spirituality, it would not be complete that it not be mentioned as one of the ways people can remove the barrier between conscious and unconscious. In light of herbs as a means of removing the barrier, it is imperative to remember that the foundation principles are of non-attachment and attaining a natural state of stable tranquility (1.12-1.16). The way in which the ancients used such herbs is vastly different from drug abuse and addiction. .....etc. etc.

I've done most of the major psychedelics....only lacking in mescalin, ibogaine, datura, and true Ayahuasca (I did psuedo Ayahuasca DMT + harmala) of the main ones....

Sometimes anxiety can also just be physiological, with accompanying sensations such as feelings in the chest (probably overactive vagus nerve? not sure though), and although you might start thinking fearful, negative thoughts surrounding the feeling, in actuality they are just associated feelings with negative mind constructs. As in, what came first, the chicken or the egg? Did the physiological correlates begin first and lead to anxious thoughts, or did anxious thoughts lead to the physiological sensations? In my therapy groups, we learned to not focus on what we were thinking, and instead focus on what we were feeling in our energy bodies. Then we start to work on diffusing and relaxing them by noting where the sensations lie, not attaching any meaning to them, and maybe using the breath and awareness of tension and then going for even the slightest relaxation of the nervous tension....

I am a 5, both from my birth name (gematria) and birth date (lifepath)...there is also a synchronicity with my horoscope (double gemini - double #5)... I used to see 11:11 a lot, but I long ago realized that I started looking for it too...

Magnesium has shown some promise for anxiety. Also you can take GABA, L-theanine...

I like the Secret of the Golden Flower...

I hear you. But it also seems that there is so much stuff, and so much stuff going on at any one time, that synchronicities are to be expected and nothing special.