Songtsan

When someone criticizes you, there is often a good reason why...so it's important to think about their statement. However - if you already have heard the criticism a thousand times, and you are choosing to be that way, then you may feel righteously indignant when others continue to be a certain way. Sometimes, people may criticize you because they really think that you didn't know something. When you already have heard that opinion a thousand times and you keep getting hit with it, you might lash out - I just did recently in another thread. It can feel like a bunch of crows are pecking at you - trying to make you hear them, make you take their advice and change your ways. The pressure is like being hit with pebbles all day...it leads to emotional/energetic armoring - a sense of cringing or being shocked when people hammer at you so. People claiming to be compassionate beings will rip at each personalities, trying to shape those peeps personalities to suit them so that they feel better. Here is a suggestion of etiquette: "If I don't ask you to try to improve me in a certain area, please don't start trying to do it." 1. None of us needs big "sisters" or "brothers" "If something you do is aimed at me personally and offends me, it is only common sense that I will lash back with a correction for your very own" - this is a fair law and should apply to everyone equally. I doubt many would disagree If I have never personally criticized you and you start criticizing my persona, that will automatically make you a person of "alert" to me - I automatically won't trust you - I grew up in the 'hood - carried guns around when I 16, knives and machetes and shit before that...I've been jumped and robbed and all kinds of shit...I have really really deep conditioning in me not to trust people - my guards are fierce and numerous and they are not being dissolved soon! My point is if you don't where the people you are talking to come from...give them the benefit of the doubt if you can. I am guilty of this as much as anyone, but I think that if we, you know, every once and a while have a regularly scheduled meeting time. A time that we all come together and work on playground rules, sort of like everyone has a house meeting every once and a while, this would be great. Like totally dudes... Remember that this place is a psychic house - a 'noo-house' a 'mental mansion' that we come to hang out at - we should keep the place nice and spiffy...unless - do you like living in a kind of Savage Jungle? Maybe we could still have a meeting every once and a while to let people introduce and do some show/tell, refurb, etc.

Brrr! It's cold in here! There must be some Tao Bums in the Atmosphere!!! It would be interesting to read up on how the brain causes the body to produce a fever - I bet there is some possibility of relatedness of that to tummo

The weakness of posting your ideas in your own private Idaho is that you will not grow through constructive criticism as much...the strength is that you will grow naturally and learn to love yourself as the beautiful piece of art that you are...beautiful things are often easily destroyed by mean people though...in the crucible of life, with its many interactions, beautiful things can also grow stronger and more beautiful through all the stress and strain and growing pains... the middle path is what works best for most.... too little struggle leads to sloth and weakness in the knees and someone who is easily unbalanced too much struggle leads to insanity, giving up, self-hatred, anger/hate, less forgiveness, etc. always aim for the "yellow-orange" zone - not the "green," and not the "red" don't ever listen to the advice of those who think they know it all

"In fighting to teach, we teach to fight." As we are all role models for each other (i.e. we all take those things that we like in others and make them our own), it is axiomatic that we also pass on our bad habits to our students (who are us). Now, I am a believer in evolutionary psychology as it applies to personalities and ideas as well as biological adaptations...I can see that competition is good in that the best, strongest, most adaptable ideas will tend to be the ones that dominate the minds of the peeps. Still - what a lot of lack is in fact knowledge of the root behaviors behind our actions. I have looked deep into my root desires, and have found it plain that it is nothing other than selfishness... here is how it works for me: I want to be respected I want to be known for who I see myself as I seek to continuously disavow others of their beliefs about me that I see as erroneous (and this is going to happen all the time...even if you are right in your perceptions some of the time about me - you are going to be oh so wrong a big percentage of the time as well) People do not like it when other people label them as something they are not - it infuriates them and invites discontent and rebuttal people get into "You are this!" followed by "No I am not this! I am that!" It just goes around and around as everyone says, "I view you as this..." Then that person comes back as "No, that's not what I am - I am this way....it is you who is such and such.." We waste time, get stressed, etc. I have seen every single damn person here do this - no one has not done this....not a single person, including moi... So, as much as we all talk about not labeling, not creating mind fabrications, we are all being hypocrites... the true fact is that not one of can truly know anything about one another - there are too many layers and translation devices in the way... Why bother letting delusional fantasies of the mind (your fantasies about me or that other person) cause your own delusional fantasy of who you are have an argument with my own delusional self which has its own delusional fantasy constructions of who you are, based on limited data that I have perceived through a computer screen get into twisted puzzle-knots of arguments that are all essentially about nothing whatsoever? We can do better! You can do it! I can too! If I wanted to - and I had the discipline to do so, I could simply avoid getting into these foolish arguments - it is simply because I care about people as individuals that I take the time to reply and 'go there.' So, assuming you are the same - you care about me, we all care about each other - we should see this and remember first and foremost that we are all here as enlightening beings and that we have the same overarching goals (generally speaking)...and so if this is the case we can find a way to work together better during this process...believe me you: you are not yet a perfected being - I ain't seen no one who is...there is no such thing probably, unless it is that being who can deal with any issue, at any time, in the most fluid of manner, without attachment. I can smell the attachment on all of you guys here...we all reek of attachment. We all see this in each other - there are no secrets in this regards... I am not saying that there is no place for giving or getting a psychic bitch slap, but why get dirtier than need be? I like the journey as much as everyone, but I am finding myself more and more impatient as I grow older and find that there isn't as much time for playing in the sandbox anymore...welcome to my attempt to fix this issue within myself....by offering it to be seen by y'all and with obvious hopes that some others will work together to become better Buddhas. Less of: Angry Buddha Stilted Buddha Demeaned Buddha Angsty Buddha Insulted Buddha Buddha of Righteous Indignation ...add more infinite Buddhas to the list (burn the list when you are done)

....my thoughts: obviously, everyone knows how this stuff works...what I would like to do first: 1) Identify problem - very detailed look 2) examine the costs (energy waste, stresses on kidneys, ruminating, all that stuff) 3) Determine root of the problem (attachment, ignorance, etc.) 4) Delimit the issue 5) Co-create hypotheses, theories, etc. as to how to deal with issues more efficiently 6) Discuss discuss - use our combined talents to figure sumtin out 7) co-create a unified system and test it out 8) go back to planning 9) re-test 10) loop loop last few #'s to refine or not... instead of all this fruitless trying to change each others views, maybe we can use our energy/time more productively somehow? We are like computer programs trying to reprogram each other to each others ideal of perfection... its the battle of the computer programs - thats what minds basically are - we are algorithmic, networked, we have subroutines, even have malware and viruses in our minds (like the djinn!)... Let's psycho-analyze this shit Why the hell not?

This is the school of life forum! This is the school where everyone is a teacher and everyone is a student.. those who think that they are not both teachers and students I say are liars! My next contribution to the community is going to be named "Why we fight to teach each other..."

doesn't mean that you don't have a psychology though ask Deci Belle by PM or else look up her definition of what the self-reifying psychology is...it's a neat concept!

I guess the reason I had to say something was that I like you both and so I hate to see you guys arguing all the time as I think you are both worthy and honorable individuals and that you guys maybe could use a mediator of sorts? Well, maybe you don't - but I always thought it would neat to be that role - you know heal the psychic atmosphere between people who are fighting together and whatnot...but seriously though...even if you both are deluded as far as to the level of your own gnosis or what you know, can you guys also try to remember that your goals are approximately the same at that - you are both very spiritual and aware people and that you both are trying to refine yourself and whatnot. It also doesn't escape me that you guys believe that you are trying to help each other grow - which is what I am doing too - actually we are all trying to help each other grow here - but sometimes our egos get in the way and then it just becomes ineffective as we put up our guards. So - perhaps we should use our mighty brains to come up with a systematized, group-created system of agreed upon techniques, methodology, syntax, procedures, process, etc. as to how we can better help each other in this relatively new arena of non-local communication that is the internet. Things are different when you cant see and don't even know the person you are talking to - the thought constructs we possess of each other are way the fuck off - way more than usual - because this is all so virtual - so we need to take that fact into account here... let's plan a system let's contemplate this very situation this argument bullshit keeps happening here over and over and wasting peoples time and setting off karmic bullshit chains - let's all motivate and devote ourselves into forming some better guidelines we need to get deep and specific and detailed here if this place isn't a sangha I don't know what is every sangha has detailed rules of engagement point made someone else pick up the torch for now this is an order! EDIT: this seemed like a good idea at first - but then I thought: well, there really aren't any rules in the real world so its stupid to even bother...but then I thought it still might be interesting to look at the psychology of philosophical/religious/spiritual disagreements and see if we could somehow make it more efficient... somehow it seems like everyone is always trying to change each other here. people don't like it when other people try to change them - even when it's for their own good... I can sense a new thread coming soon! lol

then we shall have peace 'tween you and I my brother...I will clean up that last post too - as its messy looking. fyi everyone - I am in a manic irritable/aggressive phase right now - its nothing personal if I get angsty - but I think that this is also who I am as a person so I will not fake or hide...but please don't worry I still love y'all...just really frazzled by chemistry and life and stuff

How do you know I am not? lol...in fact I am doing something very meritorious these next few years...your problem is that you assume way too much about me while having had way too little introduction to who I am...I think that you should relax on the formal lecturing unless I ask you for advice...you are only making yourself look silly. You have far too little of a picture of anybody on this site to be coming around offering unsolicited advice...If I post asking for advice or indicating that I have had trouble - by all means go ahead...but in this particular thread I was stating my stance - and you and others come in and try to derail me from my stance and that is sorta rude....I wasn't putting it out there for criticism in the way you are criticizing - If you are going to try to completely negate my modus operandi why dont you just basically try to convert me? Because it seems thats what people are trying to do - they say "Your way sucks, you dont know what you are doing, you should try my way and dont even think you know what you are doing!" As if anyone here knows what I have been through or learned enough to even get that deep with me. I have had to basically start ignoring people before because of this very thing. I am a grown ass man been too prison grew up in the hood...lived all over the country, been a serious healer for years and my background blows most people out of the water...its on this site if you search my content you will see that I am a serious cultivator - I dont have anything to prove to any of y'all - but if you seriously expect me to keep treating you with respect, I suggest you go do your homework first - this to Yascra, 9th, RongzomFan, CT and anyone who assumes to continually try to chip away at me when I am so damn busy and stressed out as it is.. All I am doing is basically blogging my views and styles and methods as a medium of storage - I suppose I could retreat to my personal practice forum, but even when I do that people chase me and try to tell me I dont know what they know - then they pull me down into their petty arguments - I used to have a hard and firm rule to never ever argue religion or spirituality with anyone - because as soon as you put your views out there a zillion ants boil out of the cracks and try to change your views... not saying that I am not guilty of this to because I am... what I am trying to do is guide those who seem very confused on this site and I dont mean any of you I also may say something about my experience if I think I have something in common with others experiences as a way of connecting with people...like I did in your intro thread Yascra Basically I dont like getting into stressed out back n forths with people here, except with Deci Belle because she usually tops me and can actually teach me a thing or two.... There are only a few on this site who I respect as above me and they know who they are - I haven't been impressed by any ot the others I have named in this post as of yet - I don't know you guys well - you haven't earned my trust yet - you just come in flaming and fighting and ready to brawl and you dont scare me - I think I could whip you so far ...I would hate for the time/energy to devolve into wastedness - so please! If you think you have something to teach me - go do your background research first on me! my shits up on this site....is yours? I am NOT gunning for you at this time...keep that in mind...my platter is full...I got at least 3 people I am teaching right now on a serious level and this doesn't even include my own self-cultivation...so I am not trying to school you seriously....I dont think you even want that right now... so the bottom line is - quit inviting me to thrash you - even if you want it - because I am pretty stressed right now and I dont have the patience to be nice...I am possessed by djinn and have been for most of my life and probably way before that and I am a mean, bad ass killer of mice and men and all of there plans and I can make you hurt big time without ever telling a single lie...believe me I am cruel and I don't mind being so - ask anyone here - there are people here who are scared to even interact with me because they know that I dont fuck around. I am part black magic sorcery style- snakes and spiders...creepy shit runs in my brain...I pity the fool who thinks that they can scare this one.. I am a mofokin demon, like Shiva...I will drop burning fire on you if you try to cut off my dick...its way to big on the astral realm - yes I am an asshole and you wont be able to tell me anything about me I don't already know.... Namaste I am at the pivot of good and evil, male and female, black and white, soft and hard, and all other extremes - compassionate to those in need and just straight up spiked and wicked to those with arrogance steaming from their noses

stated!

yes they can - and you are fortunate to have met them...but I am talking about conceptual Buddhas vs. real-life Buddhas...when you kill the Buddha, you realize that you are killing that which is completely unkillable in the ultimate sense - you are killing your own illusionary conception of what Buddha is so that another, more perfect one may appear in its place. So keep killing the Buddhas every day, so that tomorrows Buddhas may be forever more enlightened in your view! oh and do this with your view of self too - so that tomorrows view of self is also better! kill yourself daily so that you are reborn daily as a new sparkly being! destroy the self-reifying psychology! ask Deci Belle to explain it to you....she has taught me this stuff...tell her I sent you

cutting the tongue is a superstitious thing - amrita nectar is cerebrospinal fluid and is nothing special - its been validated by more than this one - I promise you I will support this soon with some more information - but I dont have time right now - I have to go do some work of the physical type...

I think kundalini=maya=djinn=mara=scheckina=spirits=ghosts=inner guru=higher self=succubus/incubus=aliens=spirit guides=angels=power animals=groupmind=etc etc it may even be the taomind heaven forbid someone has a new theory about things - I mean umm...its not as if things are working out all that great in the world as it is, obviously there is no perfect system or everybody would be following that one - the fact that there are so many competing systems shows that we are still in a stage of evolution and haven't attained the 'way that works for everybody' yet. As there are endless beings there may be endless ways in the beginning - but they will all merge into one way in the end...many many years from now- there seems to be room for improvement - Buddha can evolve some too - he was not omniscient no matter what anyone says (I will include arguments for this later)..you guys think I am trying to recreate the wheel and that is silly - I am the wheel! I am in it, of it, being rolled by it and I am looking right at it right now! hehe - do not think you are more realized than moi? Are you condescending to teach this one? Are you sure you are prepared for the beat down? Please go and read every post I have ever made before you even think about getting in a land war in Asia I will destroy you!!! hahahahaha! Just ask Deci Belle or BaGuaKicksAss or anyone whose known me and you will see that I am a Clown Ninja Assassin of minds and beliefs...this is a friendly warning to those who do not know the me - you lengths that I will go to enact a spiritual ass-whooping. I am not mad at y'all for questioning me - I am in a manic phase and very egomaniac and possibly even megalomaniac right now - just be careful with me as people have had their egos bruised by me here before...I DO care about you guys...for realsies...but I change so frequently that its a scary thing and people who have been here for a while know this...I make no apologies for who I am for I am a product of this world - I was co-created by this existence - so reality has no need to apologize to any man, woman, or child.... Namaste I will have an article coming about soon - and I may be writing a book in collusion with the guy who has the dangersofchi website my beliefs are different than you guys - I WILL not try to proselytize you though - I promise...I would ask the same courtesy of you...I will state my professional opinions soon enough so you can see where I am coming from and why. It may be educational for you in fact. It will include much of my personal story as well.... stay tuned! really and quit arguing for now - save it for later! I will engage in defense of my theories later! later later later!!!!!!!

If I am to be a witness to this stuff, and it affects my consciousness, then it is true that I have a reaction to it - and so I am just telling y'all how I feel about what I am experiencing - and also...the presence of the indicates that I am taking it lightly and just trying to insert some humor to ameliorate the issue. I care about you guys...seriously. At the same time - you guys gotta do what you gotta do. also - don't be a hypocrite - I just basically did exactly the same thing you did in another thread as shown below ...in which you thought I would get mad at you for butting in - which indicates you thought I was like you, as you do get mad when people butt in, as you have shown in this current post....at least you could offer me the same freedom to butt in - but anyways - don't get mad - it was a joke - and also...you know I get into arguments easy here as it is my karmic habitual reifying nature...so in posting as you did there is no way I could reply anything other than I am thus now - unless I chose to not follow along with my karmic patterns and simply try to get free of those things, which I didn't, so in this case you are inviting me to get into debates with you - which you must know is pointless as I am not afraid to do just this, and so therefore you are asking for more energy/time wastage - in which case you must now argue with two instead of one - and so you are going to stress your kidneys even more and you know this is not good for you....all of I have to say - choose wisely! lol for I am a force of destruction as well as creation and I AM a sadomasochistic as well as compassionate and things could just get plain fucking weird around here if you want to argue with me....as in I am crazy. *reference to post in "creative writing thread"

I know one thing that 'kill the buddha' means - if you have an idea of what the buddha is, and what being a buddha entails - kill that idea. For in the end, 'Buddha' is an idea and an idea only.

its true - but sometimes I wonder whether or not this is actually a limbo of sorts we live in which decides our next journey...what if all of our choices lead up to a result in the 'afterlife' which is based on how cruel we were in this life? Guess I will find out eventually...

I used to all the time - it is not necessary, however, in order to experience amrita nectar - I have experienced amrita nectar many times without engaging kechari mudra at all.

Disagree - much Urban myth surrounding it - many false ideations...

I speak more of Shakti then - that which the Shaivas, Siddha Yogas, Kripalu, Kriya, etc. yogas refer to...and by that I mean the intelligent force which can animate and influence man - that seen in various religions such as Pentacostalism, Toronto Blessings, Spiritism, Holy Rollers, Bon, Shamanism, and all religions which involve interacting with spirits, 'aliens,' demons, etc. I won't get into a big debate about this at this time, as I mentioned to 9th, because I soon will be writing a huge article on it - stay tuned!

I am extremely interested myself - so many different styles of it. I am more interested in the more dicey (e.g. left hand) paths because I would like to master fear...but sometimes I think that the right hand paths would be better for me as I have been too punk rock in my life and the left hand seems to be designed for people who have been too rigid in their ethics (the Indian styles at least)..

I disagree - and its a very serious matter to me. I have more understanding of this topic than most in fact - I have been living with the kundalini for appr. 30 years and I am only 37...I have learned much through direct perception. I will be posting an article on this topic sooner or later. I am not going to get into a big discussion until then about this as it would be a waste of energy...

I do like the Hare Krishnas though - and Krishna himself as a deity...although he is a little arrogant or snobbish sometimes

I know that it is attachment motivated to kill the mice - for I am attached to having counters free of mouse poops, free of bags of food with holes in them, etc. - so it is selfishness that motivates me to kill them in the end. What a crazy world we live in - a place where we must kill countless beings as a way of life.

Our minds inter-exist and twine around each like vines Such a beautiful coterie We mecha-organically cogitate our way to ever increasing and evolving states of Gnostic bliss expérience Fighting with literary swords we shape each other nicely