Songtsan

I was thinking of some really hardcore eastern/Asian guys who spent so long in full lotus that they crippled themselves permanently...I can only maintain full lotus for like 5-10 minutes before the pain is excruciating...perhaps if I trained everyday, but I don't care to...I think it's cool looking and all, but one can achieve any desired attainment of meditation/cultivation, in any position - standing, sitting, walking, lying down, or twisted like a pretzel. I admit it does create an ideal seat that is extremely stable, but I personally go for those little zen benches, or half lotus. I just don't believe in damaging the body for appearance reasons. It has no special energetic effects, although plenty will argue with me. Mudras occur in the mind, not in the body. Mudras are simply 'attitudes.' I am not preaching against external mudras, just leaving a warning to those who go all out without thoughts for tomorrow. I dont do mudras at all anymore - kechari mudra, hand mudras you name it - completely unnecessary in my opinion. Again many disagree, but this is my experience.

Definitions that we use are ideally shared thought constructs, agreed upon labels for things, etc. Unfortunately, in the real world, it doesn't always work like this. When disagreements occur, a lot of the time, it is due to misagreements betweens definitions, although it is not always apparent. So it is important to always and constantly refresh ones memory of the definitions of the words one uses in order to avoid misdirected energy expenditure arguing over said definitions. If you ever feel vague about a word you are using, never hesitate to go check it out.

Forget: -God -Buddha -Allah -Jesus -Satan -Krishna -Avalokitesvara -anything else that equals whatever you think you should become... then. Who are you now? (once you have forgotten everything in this mind?)

Also, there is this: I basically mirror everybody. If someone judges me, I judge them back without thinking about it. I reflect the energy that is sent out to me. It is my spiritual path, and I have been designed this way by shakti herself, as this is how she treats me. I am a mirror.

if you figure that out - let me know - I have been trying it for all my life.

I don't like those kind of comments personally - it's very stereotyping...I am not the one to say things like, "There is too much estrogen in the room for me," etc. To me those are passive aggressive forms of derogatory gender stereotypes. I am not, nor have I ever been some kind of frat boy mentality. I guess it simply is what it is. Why I find it disrespectful is this: having studied evolutionary psychology, it has become very apparent to the educated that men and women are the way they are because Tao/Nature/evolution designed us this way because it was the best fit for the environment. To demean someone because of their Tao/nature is a form of disrespect for nature/Tao itself. Men are simply more hyper-sexualized because that is what best managed the species for fittest survival. If you are a woman, you simply do not know what it is like to have so much testosterone in the blood...it is not simply a matter of chemical levels, but is in fact a lifetime of said chemical levels shaping one's very brain (and nature). So when you poke fun at my nature, you are poking fun at the Tao of Songtsan and the Tao of men in general. Let's just say this is a hot button issue for me, as I have been the victim of gender discrimination far too often from well-meaning, but deluded men/women seeking to justify their own petty world views. I am sorry if this hurts anyone, but is my truth and I stand by it firm.

Well - it's also that I consider it a form of sociocultural discrimination, and even religious discrimination. I have worked hard to accept myself the way that I am, and when someone else comes along and says that I am unacceptable, it really gets my ire up. I have taken classes in the psychology of human sexuality, and also studied other cultures and what I am would be perfectly acceptable in many cultures, so therefore this is almost a form of both gender stereotyping and gender bias. I am not aiming my anger at you personally, just at the aggregated female cultural norms that exist in western type societies. As much as women say that they have been subsumed into a patriarchal society, they often fail to realize that men have also been subsumed into a matriarchal society, and that the battle of the sexes is ALWAYS a two-way street. I cannot afford to be misled anymore, as I am serious about my spirituality, and sexuality is intimately combined with spirituality in every way. To deny someone else their sacred beliefs is a form of heresy against wo/man, and also an extreme hypocrisy. I basically refuse to accept, as I have stated, and I am obviously not a lewd person as the term 'lewd' generally applies - I am simply far removed from social norms, and its important to have people like me (if you want to call it extremist) in order to balance nescient attitudes that have become ingrained in society due to gender socialization. Women aren't born being as women are, they are made that way by dominant trends. I personally do not like being programmed. I think I can do better than those who seek to program me. And please know RV, that I will never turn my back to you...I will always like you no matter what, so feel free to get down and dirty with me, and know that I will not be mean to you, except as mean = being directly honest...because that is the best way to maintain any form of relationship IMO. One of the few things I don't tolerate is intolerance, and of course this is the snake eating its own tail, but I am used to that.

That's just sexist. My post was no more flagrant than the original post. People can dislike me all you want – that is your choice, and you must pay the karma of your actions, by dwelling in your hate. I am simply being me. And you are simply being you. Judgers judge, haters hate. If you grew up in my shoes, you would be me too. I grew up in the school of hard knocks, no silver spoon in my mouth. Life made me the way I am, and I have learned to accept life, and myself, by becoming divine in all my excess, for to try to do otherwise would only result in self-hate, just as you hate me. It takes all kinds. You say to yourself that you want to be a lover of humanity? Then start loving instead of hating. Because really all you hate in the end is yourself, as what you see is just a reflection of your own perceptions. I can’t help you there, except to be real when you come to me and start complaining about who I am. I didn’t start this, you did. I simply finished the game by re-starting it. Ball is on your court now. Try to do better next time. You can’t beat me, because I am 100% honest with myself, and not afraid to die in misery and pain. You seek a way out of pain by trying to force me to become anhedonistic and to hide my true self, as if I should be ashamed that I am me. If you don’t like me, then don’t like me, but if you don’t like yourself (which is also me), then perhaps you should figure out why, instead of trying to place blame somewhere else. This is a forum for adults, not coddled school children. And you thought you knew what I meant, when I was actually trying to spread positivity. You don’t know or understand me at all, yet you judged me, so you basically made yourself look ridiculous. This is not aimed at anyone in particular, just the haters. And please understand that I am upset, and that my feelings were hurt. Just because I am a male doesn't mean you can walk all over me. I am tired of people who think that that their way is the way everyone should adopt. If you want to label me, that is fine, but you are only going to create discord in the universe by trying to enforce double standards...saying that your way is more beautiful than mine and that I should be ashamed for who I am. I can't allow you to do this to me. Unacceptable. I am, simply, this way. please don't try to control me or shape me to make yourself feel better or superior. You will probably naysay all of what I am saying here, but this is how I perceive it. I am probably more woman than most woman are man. Think about what that means. Think about what it means to be balanced between Yin/Yang, male/female, Ida/Pingala, whatever way you want to put it. It means health. There are plenty of other posts in this board expressing in way more detail things of a sexual nature. If you want to start policing, I suggest you become a moderator and get to work, and then you can alienate a significant percentage of the board. If you aren't comfortable in yourself, with your own sexuality, there is something for you to work on right there - instead of trying to work on me - which is going to be fruitless, because you don't even know me. To judge someone without knowing them is folly.

haters! shoo fly shoo!

although - I have done this and it isn't necesarily healthy like pranayama can be...you can cause damage - must be careful!

Also, perhaps one should learn to love hate - meaning mix everything together to make a one-ness out of everything...such as this: If I am irritated at someone's behavior, instead of trying some kind of Buddhist thing where I only try to resonate into one part of my being, I additively bring everything into one focus, creating a union within myself, and then come through a point of 'tough love,' where I express myself as being a combo of my love/hate, which might end up resulting in a really wise and savvy teaching self...I'd have to have a specific situation to give a specific example - but I think that this is where I am headed, and its very tantric. Now, of course I know that a person such as this, would be more likely feared and ridiculed by some (as I know that I am...basically I am a left hand tantric of the Aghora variety- very fearless - and very wrathful - not afraid of any self, not afraid to be any self)...I think it is one of the quicker ways to evolution. Fish didn't learn to breath air and walk on land by having some creator God pet them...they had to suffer some pain to evolve - this is basically what I am doing. So people love to hate me, that is for certain, yet I am a natural born killer when it comes to self evolution - I accomplish in years what it takes other decades. I am not preaching my path for others - just kind of indicating that there isn't one way (and everyone knows this of course, but sometimes people forget it too, when they fall in love with their comfort zones). This = crazy wisdom!

I was talking about his energy work...you dirty minded person you! lol

It's really about letting go of mind constructs, just for a moment, basically we are saying the same thing...to me forgetting = cease dwelling...or letting go, dropping, etc. etc. you got my point, you are simply arguing with the words I am using. Mind fabrications are illusions. Forgetting the mind fabrications for a split second = dropping them.

Its not about that...its an in-the-moment practice to see something (what that is i don't know )...this isn't some absolute thing. I am not trying to get everyone to give up their who-they-are-isms...its just a contemplative technique...basically about letting go of mind constructs...for a few seconds is all...don't worry, if you try it, you probably won't lose your self - your self sticks to you like butter on the griddle!

GHOST CAT! You are ghost cat - don't forget!!!

en espanol?

s'up knochog uma [Haiku chain interrupted by rap verse] You dun like da witch on da brooma? Says you thinks its coola, betta den best da rula, str8 up 2 da foola! Junk fly best wid da rula in da skoola. I don like jests wid da hoola jah fest is da koola best next I eat candy corn on my skoota wil' I text I rest in the chest wid da bedda den da best and I make manifest what I like, because it's chocolate yo! [now back to the haiku chain] back to da rooma skool it now we chant bliss states!

Tao-Yin = Fuckstasy. Seriously, you will become a super-mutant: able to cause girls to explode into orgasm by enabling their 'ginas to go haywire thru tantrika techniques...like shakti zaps bliss. It can cause dem to orgasm just from being around you if you know how - takes years of intense cultivation of course, there was a student of Glenn Morris who could instill his Yang chi essence into his girlfriend from a distance and cause her to have orgasms basically by cycling his dantien and then touching her meridian channels with his fingers (light touch, shakti-zap), influencing her to have excess Yang chi too, which caused all her systems to explode in ecstasy. She completed her own microcosmic orbit without his help later, but came back begging for more. That's all I am saying. Don't over sublimate tho - you can't reverse the wheel if you fuck up - play it safe - don't pollute your system with dead cells - remember - takes time to learn so don't be impatient!

I think you are doing great really - I am just trying to throw in a few knowledge bites...Basically, too much testosterone/dopamine in brain creates Yang chi excess, which feels good half the time, but the other half feels like you are going to head explode. 1-2x a week isn't bad, all I am saying is listen to your bodymind and know when its a good time and when not - don't set yourself a schedule basically...if you can go two weeks without a sweat, DO IT...but don't hit yourself over the head. btw I am not just talking to you, I am making posts so search engines can find this shit so other people looking can know too. You really are doing great, just stop thinking so much and start practicing Jing retention is all I am saying...do you know Tao Yin? look it up and memorize the theory..you ARE going to be a back-flipping ninja I can tell, and yes you are right - i am an old fuddy duddy...I wish you were I when I was young and I was you when I had me, which basically means I wish I knew all this shit from a young age so I didn't waste so much of my chi energy fucking chicks and then losing essence. It takes years to become a master ninja and I hope you do it because you are already doing it and i cant imagine that you won't do it. Help us combat the system bro - don't let other boys and girls waste their Tao Yin, or else they become slaves to sugar and candy and netflix and shit - seriously, no joke...just trying to help out my other brothers from other mothers all around this space we call candy-land. Yep.

It's got good stuff for sure...but the whole point is to convince you to lay off the ejaculation. It's that simple. Now, when you say you get angry, please realize that is because your testosterone receptors are picking up the extra pieces of testosterone and thats GOOD. You have to learn to channel your anger so that your power builds and then you become a fucking ninja expert. Seriously - no dope. I have done this before many times and I wish I knew then what I know now. I am not saying never ejaculate - just let the pressure build until you KNOW the time is right to expend - you can feel this not as a want, but as a need. Basically the need is saying it's time to ejaculate because the vas deferens is full of pollution and it needs to get wanked. Now wait a minute, there is another way too! If you are man enough that is. I try to teach this because I ended up learning the hard way..I came down with chronic abacterial prostatitis, from practicing non-ejaculation, which means essentially that my prostate became infected by itself, because it was so full of dead spunk (coming from the vas deferens tube) that it started hating itself alive. Meaning that it became inflamed. Now I have to do a self-prostate massage about every day for 2 minutes a day- which is good for older guys anyways, because essentially 90% FUCKING percent of men get prostate problems in their lifetime, 10% of which go hard, and I am not going to talk about that (but it involves surgery). So. End point is learn your tube stuff, but still don't jack off too often so you can BE super-mean and POWERFUL like a fucking dominant bastard that kicks ass like a NINJA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep. I know everything. EDIT: BTW I am 37 yrs old...but I am really just about your age in my head. Let's dominate the whole fucking world, like flying samurai warriors who have their Jing essence under control.

really it's like dees: wood u rather have a dollar a day, or ten dollar a day? hmmm....stop cumming = $1000 a day! I practiced performedpollutedmyselfforyearsdoingthisstupidstuff. Just maintain your vital chi essence and thrive and you will become alivex10! Just don't hate yourself if you do come accidentally. You might want to try this: stop fantasizing about girls in your head until you become more manly, and then blow dem girls up wid da sperm (maybe once or twice a week at your age though)...just make sure to keep the dopamine wheel running. If you like sex magic, wait a week and see how you feel, then you will know bliss.

That sounds awesome. I think you are on the right path. Keep researching and don't forget to believe in yourself from time to time. I think Taoist practices are great. You should understand the chemical imbalance stuff better though...When you stop cumming, you gain chi essence, which is really positivity. Keep researching subjects such as Karezza and non-ejaculatory sex and I am sure you will confirm for yourself that testosterone does increase when you stop coming and so does dopamine. Prolactin spikes can cause mood shifts and this leads to deeper depressions after a while. I am sure you have experienced this before, when you come and then suddenly lose interest in all sex stuff. Basically, we are made of chemicals, and if your chemicals are awry, then so are you. Don't ejaculate so much and you will feel bliss statesx10. Your energy wheels are amazing. Keep up the good work. Work her good! <wink, wink>

I am all about spontaneous movement - it rates #1 in my book

I do like objective research...but I also like my own opinion especially on things that haven't been researched much...if the available research outweighs my own opinion on something, I am most likely humble enough to accede the point. I have also tripped like crazy...10-hit LSDs, ayahuasca, dmt, and dozens of other things, especially research chems. IMO, they are useful in moderation - like maybe once a month max...I tend to use them every few days during certain phases, and then stop using them for years. I like the abrupt personality changes that can occur. I should make a point to never speak in absolutes - its intended, but out of convenience I often fail to state a caveat emptor...so entheogens are clearly not for everybody, and there is advantages to the path of discipline and purity too. Advantages to everything really. I am pretty much exhausted on this topic now as I have said pretty much anything I could say, and its becoming circular. All points good/bad, those who know say nothing. To thine own self be true. Thine own self is an illusion. To thine own illusion be true. Illusions change all the time. To thine own illusion, constantly changing, constantly be the changing truth. Truths are illusions. Mass-truths are more likely to be really true, but definitely not guaranteed. Scientific studies that are compounded more likely to be truer. (why I like meta-analyses). Never stagnate. Beliefs are true lies. Truth never stays true for long. Opinions aren't worth a damn. I like my opinions, but they always are changing. Seek not to hold to opinions. Those who know, say nothing. This is my opinion. For now.