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On a different note.. What exactly is the difference concerning OBE's, Lucid Dreaming, and Astral Projection? From my own experiences. Going out of body has always been unwillingly in a dream state. Such experiences were usually to show me something or to tell me something about my life here on earth. The back ground in the dream is different compared to a lucid dream. I am literally out of my body floating around in this space and time, compared to a lucid dream where reality seems to be highly makeshift, An example would be different buildings tend to make shift into one another as well as random people and things appearing in the dream. I have also noticed that during lucid dreams I seem to be in a mid-way state between a dream and this realities space and time. I have literally seen higher beings come into my field of focus while dreaming, as if they are stepping through the veil, so to speak. I have also had experiences where I have been in a dream like state and have noticed certain people thinking of me by seeing their picture in the dream and then recieve a phone call or text message a few minutes later, very interesting. Another difference as well is during my dreams, which are mostly ALL lucid these days thanks to constantly meditating. I have noticed that I am able to do things that are physically inconceivable in this space and time. Such as flying around, levitating, shape shifting, manifesting objects out of thin air, having sex with random people (which isn't inconceivable in this space and time, but it looks REALLY weird in the dream state), and playing with energy, which all feels very real. So I am guessing astral projection is the ability to roam in a 'spiritual body' of some sort in real time? Sort of like remote viewing and bio-location? Which I am assuming takes some time to cultivate, which some how relates to Shen? I am also assuming that such a gift isn't developed freely but usually bestowed upon the individual, unless they take the easy way out and harnesses an entity that allows one to do so freely. Sorcery. Witch craft etc. But what one thinks, they become So I wouldn't advocate such practices! But what is the difference?

Rant: Knowledge is power, as well as a double edge sword. Power/abilities mean nothing without knowing one's self. You can only blind yourself further it seems. None the less, the Truth is always there and one can choose to realize it the 'easy' way or the 'hard' way; which is what seems to take lifetimes in my opinion. Greater ability allows for greater insight and thus greater Truth is realized. Whether one chooses to use their abilities for good or bad, usually depends on the influence of one's own surroundings and conditioning as well as past life 'karma'. One can discuss the proverbial circumstances of past lives, but as long as your reaping what you sow and are willing to acknowledge such a truth in light of others and their choices, whether that be family, friends, acquaintances, everything will work out in the long run as long as one is willing to be responsible. But in all honesty I must agree with ChiForce on this. If you ever do develop 'powers' make sure you use em' for the benefit of others. You will only cultivate more misery for yourself and others by not doing so and no one can save you from yourself in the long run. Hell is a interesting place mind you, you can travel there astrally( Mind you, I have never done this, but have talked to people who claim to have done so). Many find themselves in hell not because they have chosen to attend, but because they keep running from the Truth; which ultimately depends on the individual and their vices. End rant. My 2 Cents.

You do realize that their are shamans who live in the Andes mountain range of peru who consume herbs daily and who are able to testify of reaching and experiencing 'enlightenment' all throughout their lives. Shamans who are able to go beyond the body and visit other realms and worlds. Shamans who are able to converse with spirits of all kinds, benevolent and malevolent. Reaching enlightenment is NOT about merit, it is about what YOU choose to cultivate and become through out one's life. Enlightenment isn't about getting some where, it is about becoming. You can not realize a state of awareness until you become it. This 'door' you speak of is simply a metaphor of one being able to realize what they have become. Furthermore, you think Buddha reached enlightenment because he was Buddha... NO. Because he willingly chose to throughout several life times, to become enlightened, and in each succeeding life he was able to grow spiritually and morally to then become Buddha. Mind you, if this last explanation does not cause you to stop and think, I am done conversing with you.

No. You will learn what I mean, EVERYONE is capable of obtaining good merits, that is a no brainer. Not to sure how you have chosen to define dogma, but this is how I see dogma.. An example based on Christianity... "A principle or set of principles laid down by an authority as incontrovertibly true: "the Christian dogma of the Trinity". Feel to plug in whatever religion or spiritual philosophy you like. For example: "A principle or set of principles laid down by an authority as incontrovertibly true: "the Tao is the only way". "A principle or set of principles laid down by an authority as incontrovertibly true: "only Buddha was right". "A principle or set of principles laid down by an authority as incontrovertibly true: "one should only worship Kali because she is described as the mother of all...". "A principle or set of principles laid down by an authority as incontrovertibly true: "one should only follow Jesus Christ because he died for us all". and the list goes on and on etc...

There is no 'merit'. The end result of what one is cultivating is what I guess you could define as 'merit' and to be honest I don't really care for what your cultivating. Life can unfold in an infinite amount of ways. There is no right way. It is all up to the individual to choose what they are seeking. Said choices are beyond 'merit' alone. They can make the path or you can choose to prescribe to a certain religion and follow in a known path, mind you.

@ChiForce, I see dogma. Dogma without taking perception into account. You do realize that their are people who have never studied your doctrine, nor probably ever will, that still have spiritual experiences and awakenings as well? I've seen Hindu's, Muslims, Christians, Buddhist, dare I say even Satanists who have had spiritual awakenings and experiences. You do realize this right? “There are many paths to enlightenment. Be sure to take one with a heart.” -Lao Tzu

I guess that explains why I saw Goku one night in my minds eye. Very interesting.

Very interesting. Yes, seeing what I saw as a child, it was f*cking crazy to say the least. I forgot to mention that there was a second exorcism, just to make sure this entity was gone and strangely enough there was a second out burst, but I remember that the second time was not as bad, the relative no longer suffered from this entity. What sucked was the witch doctor sent all of this energy BACK to the other relative and she ended up having to cope with what she put out unfortunately, to teach her a lesson apparently. Hence, the build up of energy. Very interesting stuff. I am very happy to finally find some answers to this stuff. It always stood in the back of my mind growing up as to what I saw as a child, because most people rarely see such events occur. Yes, I highly agree. Depending upon where I am located through out the day, or when I happen to engage with certain people I do tend to feel a sensation behind my head. I have been able to feel this even more so after keeping a steady meditation schedule as well kicking all the bad habits to explore and remain 'clean'. I even sometimes feel entities while merely surfing this site. lolz. Some times it feels as if some one is tapping into my pineal near the back of my head. Sort of like this diagram. I some times even feel things that seek to attach themselves to my lower dan tien or seek to penetrate it. I had felt a hand once in my lower dan tien, it hurt like hell. That same night I got a vision of chakras. They all had light in them, except the top ones. I felt as if some one was seeking to extinguish them. Strange stuff. How did you go about destroying this entity? I've never destroyed an entity, but I have deflated one once in a dream. I had first saw it in a tree, the thing began circling around my head and was complaining about too much peace of mind and it slowly began to dwindle and deflated into a balloon. lol. In another dream, I had seen another relative who had a black orb floating around her which I shot energy at in my dream scape. I had seen another black orb floating around my room. I woke up out of body and shot energy out of my right hand at the orb and never saw it again. This happened instantaneously without thought. Mind you, it seems I was cleaning up what was weaved by some paid psychics or sorcerer. I have learned so much by just observing my family and learning about all the skeletons in the closet. It's a shame, but you can definitely find light in the dark. I've also been socked in the eye once by a dragon apparently. I wasn't aware of chaos magickians, but after reading about people being able to invoke cartoon characters I had seen Goku appear in my minds eye and protect me. lol. Crazy stuff.

I've read plenty of things about the pyramids. They are supposedly apart of ley lines and how they are apart of the earth's magnetic/energy system. That they communicate with aliens. It is also said that in the left foot of the Sphinx there are records of Atlantis. I've even seen pyramids in my dreams with reptilians and Sumerian God's. I once read on facebook something posted by a muslim friend about the carbon dating of the capstone on the pyramid and how it had direct relevance with the date of the Quran and how Pharoah had built it because he did not believe in the Abrahamic God... etc... In my opinion, the pyramids were some kind of energy structures that were used. Meta-physical/spiritual in nature and were possibly built with the assistance of a higher being of some kind because the pyramids of Giza are very precise concerning the architecture involved as well as meso-america. Thought I would share this find as well..

Funny thing is, my physical back isnt straight. It groves in near the tail bone. Ive always had to do ab work outs to compensate for my weak lower back.

Hrmmmm. I guess. But seeing that lady in my minds eye felt more like an astral attack. I guess i should just accept some things.

Hrmm. Yes I have seen Kuan Yuim as well. One's sense of consciousness is different in a dream though rather than waking consciousness, mind you.

Interesting interpretation. I remember falling asleep upstairs and briefly imagining a pentagram on the floor with canldes, but I figured it was a figment of my imagination. Possibly a portal of some sort. Needless to say, I felt that this dragon needed to be balanced or else I could have ended up hurting some one if I was a selfish or careless person. I still feel that this dragon I was given was a dirty trick to harm me, to desecrate, the act of depriving something of its sacred character so I could then be vulnerable to attack by those crazy witches. Reason being, I once talked to a channel-er who had told me about a gold dragon from a past life. I have also had dreams about wu-tang and how supposedly there use to be a fued between blacks and asians. That was another crazy dream, because there was a bunch of foot soldiers in that dream. I dont know if it was past life stuff I was digging up or what, but it sure felt that way. I had another dream about another man fighting and killing others in a sports like fashion. I believe this was wu-tang. The victims blood was then used to paint the patio where this man and others would meditate. Strange stuff. Any ways, thank you Horus for helping me in a vulnerable moment. Whether it was past life stuff or not, there are some crazy power hungry people out there in the astral realms. One thing I have noticed as well, I was born with a keen sense of awareness. When I tend to hang around certain people and places, like bars, strip clubs, etc. This gift gets fuzzy and I can literally feel the difference in my brain. I guess darkness does that to the mind. I guess Horus sort of explains why I always see the Falcons when I am outside. Very interesting stuff. There is so much more. A lot of this stuff stopped after I saw KwanYin the Goddess in a dream state. I remember when I took my mom for acupuncture and had fell asleep in the car, probably because I wasn't grounding myself properly. A women had came into my field of view and was pissed at me apparently. No idea why. She was wearing oriental clothing and said she was going to be working on me. The next morning I had a dream where I had find myself with some old friends and we were smoking weed. I had felt the effects of the weed in the dream. I was wandering around and had happen to swallow a whistle in the dream and literally felt it as if it was real. I woke up and had heard some one say "materialize" but the sensation went away. It was f*cking crazy. I was very confused as to why visiting my mother's acupuncture therapist triggered an attack on myself to say the least.

Not to sure where to start this rant. But I would like to share what I have expierenced in the last year or two, to hopefully help others learn from my expierences and hopefully gain some light from all my trials and mishaps. Since I do not study under a master. I began studying magick after witnessing a relative of mine (brother) got involved in some dark arts, due to his poor health and not knowing what else to do, it seems he caved into the 'dark side'. This was after the fact that I had learned he was doing such things in my home and was already kicked out. All I remember before I had learned about his doings, was I remember coming home one and feeling very depressed and negative. I was crying for no reason and was not aware of what was going on in the other room. My brother had complained of hearing pounding on the walls at night, while no one else in the house heard anything. Eventually my mother had found some candles and some sorcery/witchcraft stuff hidden in my brothers closet with her name on it and decided to kick my brother out of the stuff. Apparently he wanted to harm my mother because he felt she was the cause to all of his issues and problems in life. Not very logical or sound thinking. Needless to say I was already studying esoteric teachings such as eckhart tolle and reading into hermeticism and what have you. I ended up finding some people online who were also studying magick but I ended up with more questions than answers. I did not care for the dark stuff, since I grew up in the catholic church as a youngster and had seen some exorcisms of people who practiced voodoo and such. Needless to say, I was scared straight. But after my brother left I did feel very disempowered for some reason. Apparently my brother had been paying a mage of some kind to help him get what he wanted in life. Which was to disempower his own mother and since I decided to agree with my own mother, myself as well. Typically bs these days. Where my personal journey really starts was after I had got in touch with these people who were studying magick. I remember one night in a dream I had seen a black figure with static energy surrounding my field of consciousness. Sort of freaked me out. I was also heavily addicted to porn at the time as well. I was feeling hapless since my father decided to leave with my brother. Luckily whatever that was went away. A week after or so I remember having this burning chi sensation near my balls. I felt as if my balls were going to go into my stomach and it f*cking hurt. It burned like no other. I thought I was going to die. Luckily this went away as well but I was at the mercy and knowledge of the group I was studying with. There was some people in the group who were good and some who my intuition told me to stay away from but I failed to listen since I wanted to understand WTF my brother was doing. My dreams began to get even weirder. I remember waking up to a black cloud over my body. Luckily that went away as well. I remember hearing other people, who I felt I couldn't trust asking me what it was I desired. But I would wake up before anything could happen. I had plenty of good and bad dreams. My most memorable one was when I woke up one morning and saw the image of an angel in my mind's eye. It was curled up in the fetus position and it began to stand up and a ball of light began to shine with it as it expanded its wings. I remember hearing a womens voice saying it was time for my awakening. No idea who she is. I began meditating regularly in the shower and now have this dim violet ring of energy around my minds eye when I meditate. I now have plenty of visions and dreams. I had to stop all drug use sicne the last time I smoked marijuanna I felt my self come back into my body as a jolt of electricity on my right side of my brain. It was trippy and scared me straight. No idea what I did or where I went as well. I've had plenty of other OOB dealing with the magick of my 'family'. One night I was attacked by a witch astrally. No idea why. But I remember seeing the image of a witch in my minds eye. It was sort of like an avatar at first in my minds eye of a dark green skinned witch with black clothing. I was then looking at a chunky woman who had these galaxies in her eyes, I felt mezmorzied, who then 'pushed' energy onto me as she seemed irratated with me. No idea why. It felt cold and disillusioned. I then witnessed a tribal group burn a dog and direct the energy at me. I believe this was animal sending. All I remember hearing from a higher being was, "just love". It was all I could say that night. I remember waking up from work and trying to meditate this thick grey energy off of me and my aura. I was shaking violently. I had heard a voice within ask me if I needed deliverance and I replied with yes. I then felt fine and went to work that day without any further problems. I began to have plenty of dreams and encounters. I kept in touch with one person from the group I use to talk to. I began to not eat and became very sensitive to energy, and had failed to ground myself. Needless to say I felt as if I was stuck in the astral realm. Sort of still do feel that way. I traveled to other worlds and planes that I dont really remember. Higher realms it seems. But they were really cool. I was having dreams with other people and even recieved some help in exorcising my own home at one point from some people I have never met in my life. I had traveled into my brothers room and had noticed a homeless person's soul was laying on the bed with a news paper over its face. Which is why I think my brother was involved in sorcery. I told that person to leave in the dream. I had also witnessed reptile like spirits in my home, one of them being very malevolent, I sought to kill these beings but I woke up. I ended up going to the hospital due to not eating and having a low blood count, aka psychosis. I am better now. But during my visit at the hospital I kept going OOB and had some interesting dreams there as well. Some people in the hopsital had dark pitch black eyes. I was going a bit crazy and wanted to assisinate the pope. I felt i was working for the government and could use telepathy to activate a rogue to kill the pope. (dont ask). I was pissed at the pope for ordaining the 'saint of death' as a real saint. I felt it was sorcery and witchcraft. While in the hospital I had a dream with two Goddesses who helped me settle down and simply acknowledged my anger for dogmatic religions. One had these really majestic eyes and the other was literally levitating when I saw them in my dream scape. I also had dreams of flying around in light space ships. It was freaking awesome. They were orb like ships. After being in the hospital for two weeks. I then came home and had several dreams as well. I had one dream about the saint of death and I witnessed a table full of candles and a woman like witch who was watching over these candles. I saw plenty of statues as well. But luckily after praying she left me alone. I had another dream where I witnessed a sorcer's frustation with me since I did not care to cooperate but to only observe his ways. And then my last and final dream in which everything seemed to clear up was with the Goddess Kwanyin, or atleast it looked like her, even though I had never prayed to her in my life. I had felt asleep in my mothers bed. I remember falling into a meditative state and went OOB with her. I noticed a man sleeping on the couch where I was sleeping beforehand who had blonde hair. I remember going into my brothers old room and feeling the energy there being a bit heavy but nothing was there. I then remember hearing a woman's voice with a deep OMMM mantra plugging away at my heart. I heard Kwanyin say I wasn't suppose to be here and I began focusing on the meditation as it was resounding and loud in the dream. It felt great and then I woke up. Now my dreams tend to be normal. I still happen to stumble upon people who tend to be vampiric now and then, but I still feel stuck in the astral. The last cool dream I had was when I traveled to this other star system in a light ship, and it was almost like star wars with other ships there. It was cool. Needless to say. These other realms are real as well as the higher beings. We are all spiritual beings it seems. There are good and bad groups out there. From my own expierences I have found that many are seeking power to understand themselves and fulfill their desires and ego. Some people use magick as a 'technology' while others are looking for ways to 'get back' at others secretly, to empower themselves. It's rather sad though. It creates a endless cycle of suffering and pain. I see why one should possibly study under a master to learn etiquette and self-mastery. One can learn alot more if one practices restraint and compassion towards another than to attack back. I am more focused on my health these days and bringing balance to my body. Since most of my chi has been focused to my head. The astral body still needs energy to operate. Which I am assuming is shen. Oh yea, I also got to witness some immortals. They had really huge heads, but they were nice. After all the traveling and trials I have expierenced, I am a bit more laxed about my journey. I feel things will happen when they are meant to happen and that one should not rush into spiritual pursuits to fulfill one's own sense of self. There is plenty to do here on earth to reduce the suffering of others and one's own sense of self. Escapism is not the answer, lol.

To me the ego is something that doesn't know what it wants. It is a mere state of being. That is all. I think Shamatha is enough in most cases, atleast for me. I am not truly familiar with all the buddhist terms, but there is definitely something about 'nothingness' that my soul finds relevant. Something eternal. Also, where can I read up on the Buddhi mind? Besides google and wikipedia... Any scriptures?

Hrmmm. After not having sex, no more porn or masturbation, I do tend to feel a lot of my 'jing' in my feet and lower region. Rarely do I feel I can get this stuff to circulate. I do feel more energized these days since I am not constantly depleting myself. But I have yet to experience what it is like to circulate Qi in a productive manor. I guess sitting in meditation helps me a lot with quieting my mind as well as practicing the deer exorcise and breathing deep into my pelvic floor, but no signs of circulation yet. But I have noticed, when my stomach is not full and my body is well, I can feel Qi in my brain. It is rather refreshing and revitalizing at times.

Haha. Yes yes! I know! I could have been more nice to this soul who was in my brother's old room. I did not have the courage at the time since, I, myself, felt I was under attack and did not realize that the entity that may have been pounding away at my brothers walls was this homeless soul, paranoia took over. Luckily that person did have a comfortable bed to sleep on for quite some time and this news paper was covering this person's head strangely enough. Sorcery is definitely mean in my opinion. I could only begin to imagine how that homeless soul got involved in black magick.

Rant: I remember when I first began meditating, I use to smoke some weed from time to time. I remember coming home one night from a buddies house high as a kite. I feel asleep and awoke around 4 AM that night after I found myself jolting back into my body from my crown. I felt electricity all on my left side. I felt as if I had went out of body and came back. Mind you I was not practicing any grounding techniques back then and this scared the crap out of me. I haven't smoked pot since. Well over two years nor do I care to. Another friend of mine had tried LSD once. She was in college and was in the forest that night. She explained how she could literally see energy emanating from the red wood trees and could see the aura of others as well. This allowed her to realize that there is more to life than meets the eye to say the least. She was happy about her experience, but it did not have a long lasting impression on her sense of self. Metaphorically speaking, it was just a brick in the road. I also had another friend who had claimed to try DMT as well as many other hallucinogens. She had plenty of spiritual experiences and even met Lucifer himself apparently. But her sense of self, the inner 'I', did not evolve or make her a joy to be around nor did it reduce her sense of suffering. It was merely an amusement ride. But there is a interesting book out there known as the 'Spirit Molecule'. I have never read it though. @ChiForce, your idea of merit truly depends on the culture in which one is raised in and is taught in the West, but is not held as a necessity. I can agree to a certain extent as to why using drugs is looked down upon. Having access to a realm in which many people tend to work towards, to earn so to speak, seems like a great way to cultivate responsibility and integrity at the same time. Such traits that tend to be lacking in neophites and drug abusers. I know that many esoteric schools usually train their neophites for a certain period of time to garner self-respect and responsibility before they begin to even study the 'mysteries'. You can read all about it concerning Free Masonry and many of the old esoteric schools in Europe like the Pythagoreans as well as most Shaman sects. But the idea of merit being necessary will obviously not stop anyone with the 'balls' from exploring and seeking. Merit is simply a self-check for one to express integrity as well as virtue. The dangers of playing with energy, working with spirits, and practicing magick are numerous. Hence why there is so many cults and individuals seeking power; knowledge being power and realizing 'God' or the Tao, or whatever name that one identifies with, brings said person that much closer to manifesting a higher understanding of themselves and why they may be alive; essentially finding themselves. It is usually why many people even try drugs, to begin and try to understand themselves. Unfortunately, I have learned that many love the 'power' they may find in practicing esoteric arts, but some people also hate themselves as well, which I am assuming is why MERIT is something that is taught in mystery schools and monasteries. So the practitioner does not destroy themselves, but rather values the idea of self-esteem and self-respect. @Hypnagog, I find it very interesting that you did not want to be 'fully' awakened, I think it scares some people to know how feeble we may be as humans and how close we are to the God's but how blind we are at the same time. From what I have studied and read, awakening never seems to happen on it's own by mere will. Usually a person is either born with spiritual gifts, they are assisted by a higher being, or they chemically induce a different state of awareness through drug use that tends to stick with the person after the drug is long gone. But I have yet to read or know someone that has 'opened' or manifested any spiritual gift on their own. Hopefully i can be proven wrong. Depending on one's school of thought, even in black magick or nuetral schools of magick, there is usually a spirit or entity that is used for gaining access to abilities that tends to possess an individual after a while if one is not careful. But needless to say, opening the third eye to me is something that happens when it is suppose to happen in my opinion. Seeking abilities through entities and constant drug use is something I would not advocate personally, reason being it is not 'my' gift, but some one else's. lolz.

Hrmmm... The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao The name that can be named is not the eternal name The nameless is the origin of Heaven and Earth The named is the mother of myriad things Thus, constantly free of desire One observes its wonders Constantly filled with desire One observes its manifestations These two emerge together but differ in name The unity is said to be the mystery Mystery of mysteries, the door to all wonders

Hrmmm. Where do I start this rant.. I only began noticing this thing called the inner eye after I began making it a habit to meditate every mornning, with no intent in mind. It came naturally. As well the heightened level of awareness and the interesting phenomeon of quiting the mind. My dreams became more lucid and then this dim violet ring of energy began to appear in my minds eye. Mind you, I had one expierence that I did mention in another forum post where I was told it was time for my 'awakening' while I was in a lucid state one morning. I saw the vision of an angel in my minds eye and the rest is history. Clairvision can be a great blessing to a student as well as a healer who gets to 'see' and get to the root of an issue or discussion. It is also very helpful in studying and reading the numerous esoteric teachings and books that we have here in this world. But with that said, once this eye opens, YOU WILL see the world differently. I had to overcome alot of fear and accept the fact that many do live in a unconscious state and are blind to the spiritual side of things unforunately. Sometimes the very people you love or consider family. But it can also make religion fun as well. lolz. Going to different churches and sites to expierence the spirit there in and to truly see what is going on. Very fun.

My case of dealing with entities. These things are real. They are easily contractable through unwarranted sex, practicing magick, having a weak energy field, living in a haunted home, or being directly attacked with a physical object usually given as a gift to an innocent person. At the age of 10 I got the rare oppurtunity to witness a exorcism of a relative who was severely sick for over a year. This person became highly possessed and their body was producing excessuive amounts of puss and mucus. Surigical bags were implanted in the stomach area to drain this stuff. The doctors did NOT know what was wrong or what to do. It wasn't until the catholic preist at the time, who my family knew, brang over a witch doctor. This women had some very interesting eyes from what I remember, she was defiintely 'special'. I remember witnessing this women recite some unknown language at my possessed relative and the reaction was something no one in the room was ready for. Mind you, this relative was bed riden for over a year and could not even walk. My relative stood up and began to scream and yell like a maniac with a deep voice. Eyes in the back of their head. It took eight men to get this relative to the ground. The preist knocked this relative over the head with the bible. (Go figure! ) I remember the witch doctor reciting something else and then something, invisible, literally knocked on the door. Another relative had opened the door and the entire energy in the room had changed, out went the fear and a sense of infinite compassion came in. The possessed relative fell to the floor and needless to say, the relatives illnesses left as well. The witch doctor said this relative had contracted this entity due to black magick/voodoo on some one elses part (another relative ). A black egg was dipped in a coffee cup and was given to drink to the relative to weaken and possess them spiritually. Some kind of ritual was also done at a cemetry to conjure the entity. Needless to say I got exposed to the 'other side' if I may say, at a very young age. Standing in 'holy places' and staying clean is quite the virtue in this day and age of unwarranted sex and pornography. You can easily feel these entities around you if one has developed a sense of awareness and is open minded to enough to explore. Mind you, I WOULD NOT invite them in. Funny thing is, the good one's will seek your permission for healing while the bad one's will hide their true intention and seek to decieve the being they are seeking to possess with 'powers' and 'abilities' . Seeking energy to avoid the 'second death'. I also got the chance to witness baptism's for the dead recently. I talked to an individual who mentioned being able to see these spirit bodies while his body was used as a proxy to baptise these other souls. No idea what this does energetically speaking. Apparently it is suppose to cleanse the other spirit being. Rather interesting stuff.

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Hello OldGreen, Thanks for the advice. Yes influence is a big deal if your a neophite. I stopped talking to said people once I realized that my very own free will was being manipulated, which I did not like at all, for the egotistical fantasies of others. If anything I learned to trust myself even more and that making mistakes can also be the best teacher as well. But I am not aware of the use of purple and gold around one's aura, I guess it is all in the intention. On good days I can sense if I am being read or possibly tampered with. If I am meditating I can sometimes catch glimpses of beings reading me who tend to flash in and out of my minds eye. It's rather interesting seeing these beings that people assiociate with. Some people can begin practicing magick and may not even realized who the entities they are working with or are possibly possessed by. Lack of awareness can be a grave danger, especially in the dark arts. Ive had a couple of dreams and third eye moments where I have literally seen psychics and mages in my field of vision. Unfortunately in the hispanic community, relying on psychics, mages, sorcerers, tarot card readers is a big phenomeon. Many people will come to these kind of people who are seeking 'help' with their desires and intentions, which are not always pure to say the least. The idea of dominance and taking advantage of lessed developed souls is what tends to happen. My entire journey of awakening began because I knew I was being tampered with spiritually but I did not have the eyes to see or the hears to hear at the time. I remember the first night I had stupidily let my guard down (to explore and understand) and I had felt someone shove their hand into my lower dan tian, it hurt! Constantly being hit with heavy energy and dealing with the lies of your own family is no fun. It takes a toll on your health and can give rise to psychological stress and paranoia. I know when a family member is up to something because they usually show up in my dream scape with a candle or an object of some kind or I find I am being attacked by some sorcerers spiritual slave or demon. I have seen the goat of mendes as well a few times. But I have also seen catholic saints, Jesus with a rainbow body, monks, Goddesses, disincarnate souls, etc.. Needless to say, in dealing with such crap, I found that sending whatever energy back into the earth is a great way to nuetralize whatever it may be coming at one's self. I also tend to send ghost to the post-mortal realm, since I don't believe in sorcery and would want someone to help me cross over if I was stuck in a rut on earth after death. I believe they are not suppose to be here and feeding them energy is like having a pet animal. Hence why I said that many who practice magick tend to be looking for power. We reap what we sow, and this I know. In developing this sense of self-defense I have realized that I missed a few things concerning cultivation just so I can be 'aware'. Which sucks. I am hoping to perfect and pursue better health for now and continuously work on learning and cultivating a sense of understanding, every trial being a blessing in disguise I believe.

The only light i notice in my third eye is violet. Sometimes its dim and sometimes it is deep and rich. I also notice white dots of varying size. Sometimes they are other colors gold, red, periwinkle, hot pink, or blue. But that is rare. I do feel i can see shadows as well, they tend to dim the surrounding light, but it is only noticeable when i close my eyes and bring my attention to my inner eye. Also reminds me of something, when i was in a state of psychosis in the hospital i literally saw gold and white orbs with my eyes two times. It was cool.

I felt heat by my balls this morning. It felt like my youth was being restored. Rejuvenation. Lolz. I also find it interesting that i decided to search this very topic today and noticed all of these recent post. Interesting. I also woke up from a dream the other night. Someone had introduced themselves to me and offered to heal me at their clinic. Whoever this is, thank you for your humble generosity. I didnt get the name though, i woke up when i realized i was talking telapathically to some one.