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  1. 7 Levels of Humanity

    Several philosophies suggest that there are 7 levels of humanity. One way to analogize this for discussion is the prison construct. Roughly 84% - 95% of humanity are considered Man #1 ( or level 1),…they are in prison, but don’t realize they are in prison (or the dream). Man #2 (a term used by Gurdjieff and Kagyu Buddhism), suspects they are in prison (a dream) and become as prison trustees,…exploiting the prison for their perceived harmony,…This level is said to amount to about 5% -15% of humanity (although I find 2% - 3% more likely). Man #3, who is said to represent about .04% of humanity, understands that they are in prison, and seek way to get out. To get out of the box, so to say. Man #4 has a consciousness that pivots from out of the box. The higher levels of humanity are of no concern here,…because 99.6% could not understand it if someone at that level were standing in front of them. Lao Tzu said, "To attain pure Tao you must understand and integrate within yourself the three main energies of the universe: The first is the Earth energy (Man #1). Centered in the belly, itexpresses itself as sexuality. Those who cultivate and master the physical energy attain partial purity; Second is the Heaven energy (Man #2). Centered in the mind, it expresses itself as knowledge and wisdom. Those whose minds merge with the Universal Mind also attain partial purity. Third is the Harmonized energy (Man #3). Centered in the heart, it expresses itself as spiritual insight. Those who develop spiritual insight also attain partial purity. Only when you attain all three - mastery of physical energy, universal mindedness, and spiritual insight - and express them in a virturous integral life, can you attain pure Tao (Man #4)" I posted this in the Pit,…because at least 1 moderator here is a hardcore Man #1, meaning, fully enclosed in the “box”…and will likely toss it into the Pit anyway,…because it doesn’t meet with their Western media-ted theocratic opinions. For the few open-hearted enough to get the point,…that is, those who realize the delusion of the “box”…and instead, wish to know the Tao, which is not in the box,,…the 7 Levels of humanity points to a consciousness that is outside the “box”…and a very different way of viewing things,…which Man #1 and Man #2 will see as an extreme threat to their ego beliefs.
  2. Flying Phoenix Chi Kung

    This is absolutely true; I've entered lucid dreaming states to the point that I could close if I wanted to and still remain in the dream, or close and then go into deep sleep devoid of dreaming too.
  3. Frankly, I just let nature to take its course if it should leak jing. If you fight it, you going to have some strange dreams...hehehehhee.... Well, they do teach you but only in your dreams and consciousness...the most direct transmission...isn't it???? Most people can't learn anything even sitting in a classroom with a teacher. Judging with numerous beings and figures I have encountered in my dreams, when they appear, they are as real as a real form. I once dream of myself sleeping in my own room and I saw this blonde hair, blue eyed figure showed up by my bedside. Not only that, I held his hand and really felt how rough his skin was.....It was so real that when I woke up, I looked to my right of my bed to see if he was still there....real or not real...I don't believe it is that important for an immortal. What is matter is how your mind perceives them. Then, there are the faces I saw in my meditation...hehehehhee..
  4. Of Mind and Matter

    Naughty marblehead, making people feel they are not welcome.... that doesn't sound like you.... Isn't this question the same as the objective/subjective world question? You mentioned 'universal consciousness' above and that you don't subscribe to it, by universal consciousness do you mean essentially 'God' or something else? Otherwise it's difficult to discuss because I'm not sure what certain words mean to you. In answer to the above question in the quote I would say that there are many levels of consciousness and it's difficult to define which one your'e in unless you become conscious of another level and can kind of look backwards at the other. I still remember what it was to feel like a child, I can remember my level of consciousness and although at the time I couldn't have known, later as I grew, I knew how little I knew, yet, there was also something quite perfect in that, which I attempt to return to with the awareness intact... if that's possible in fact(I think/feel it is). I think there is a certain 'dream within a dream' thing going on, the brain has its functions but also acts as an inhibitor.... so I've seen you do believe in chi(surprised me actually), I probably shouldn't say believe, I should say experienced.... so there are some who say they can see chi, usually having got that ability through 'stopping the mind'....lowering the brain waves..... so I guess the question is can you consider that possible? If you can then it stands to reason the brain acts as some kind of inhibitor, covering up one level of 'the dream/reality'. edit/ps: my my, I just took a look at that thread...you have been busy
  5. OBEs, Vibrations, Lucid Dreaming

    Yeah I was studying Robert Bruce Astral Dynamics on this. I determined some interesting things. 1) He said his first OBE experience was when he was dreaming as a child. 2) Later he trained himself to do "waking dreaming" -- OBE while awake but he said this was actually not the astral body, rather it was the etheric body. 3) He says when he does an OBE while awake he gets the tingling sensation. This is the jing energy. When you have the OBE etheric connection or what's called "Fa Jing" in martial arts -- you are aware of information that is in the area where your etheric body is connected while at the same time you maintain waking awareness in your physical body. 4) Robert Bruce says that at first his heart would get major pulsations -- but in fact it was not his heart only his heart chakra. This has been studied in OBE lucid dreaming tests. It's been determined that in a lucid dream as an OBE a person has the physiological reaction of REM sleep which means your heart rate speeds up. 5) If you learn to have a REAL OBE as astral projection this is actually much much more advanced. The same study on OBEs as lucid dreaming determined that if someone trained through meditation they could consciously register in their sleep the experience of an OBE but they could then maintain a slow heart rate and pulse. In fact real astral travel is only after all the chakras open up and nirvikalpa samadhi is achieved -- it's a very advanced state of yogic meditation. You can begin to have astral OBEs but usually there is confusion about "who" is traveling and then you wake up. Sounds like this is what happened with you. I've had this as well. 6) So what is called OBEs in the West is what is called the "Astral Tube" in the East versus Astral Travel. The Astral Tube is when you have an open third eye but it's not fully activated -- there is a long distance connection but it's more through the jing or electrochemical or etheric body rather than the chi body or the shen body. Still in the Astral Tube you can have precognition -- once I had a precognitive dream which came true in great detail -- THREE YEARS LATER. Also when you have a dream that is precognitive it is like a samadhi vision -- it's MORE REAL THAN BEING AWAKE. 7) So being awake is also a type of holographic dreaming. This is the final state of dreaming. I highly recommend you read a book called http://transcendentdreaming.com by Dr. Christine Donnelly. In this state reality is holographic so that external travel is actually a reflection of internal body energy in the chakras. It's also called the rainbow body of yoga or the rainbow vortex of reality. It's a post-death state -- very advanced -- and from this can be telekinesis and eventually the yang body or other physical body is created.
  6. Jeff isn't dangerous at all I've confirmed that for myself, when I met him I had some doubts about him and even tho I didn't quite agree with him I witnessed for myself who and what is he about in astral dreaming where I met him as well. Actually its on astral levels where I found out more about him and I even confirmed some things that he spoke about in the waking hours. I saw him as a beam of energy as well while he personally explained to me what I'm seeing, these experiences were real and not regular dream projections as some idiots think they might be. If you really knew who Jeff was you might actually be sorry for thinking he was dangerous as I witnessed for myself in astral he helping quite a few people. I'm just being objective here.. So far given this thread its obvious Jeff isn't a problem here but the real problem lies both in those that hate and him and those that follow him, both parties are obsessed with Jeff and portray the attack-defend syndrome which throws them in the same league. Its just self importance in different disguise and its all over the place. Both parties should be thankful to each other since so many issues are out in the open for them to deal with. I asked for this thread to be moderated but unfortunately nothing happened and I had to go trough pile of crap by myself to post and since Sean isn't available the only one I could contact about it is Jeff since he seems to be the real boss here since admins are his followers. No offense guys but the forum is full of such threads and full of passive aggressive junk and most of us really have to be crap friendly to go trough the forum and this is just a product of lousy moderation. I hope you can handle the truth guys and do something about it, something constructive. if nothing you can always mutterate my off topic post here
  7. The Nature of Beliefs

    I think for me it is a sense of loneliness. I want others like me in my dream. I don't necessarily want everyone to be like me. I will be happy if there is even 1% of people like me, but if everyone was like me, that would be fine too. In any case, I like what you said there. It's something for me to chew on. This is a well known phenomenon of hypnotism. Memories seem to be attached to the states of mind. So for example, if you are hypnotized and are told something, you may not remember what you have been told upon exiting hypnosis. However! If you are re-hypnotized, you can remember what you were told in the previous hypnosis session. Something like that. Another possible explanation is that the process of consciousness obscures the hypnotic memory upon exit from hypnosis (as opposed to saying that the memory is attached to some particular state). I am not a huge fan of PUAs. I think some of the things they say are valid, but overall they seem to be mentally disabled to me. To make a science out of picking up women is like making a science out of wearing socks. Something that should be easy and natural is turned into a science. PUAs would do well to remember that the whole enterprise started by modeling successful guys, and the very models for the PUA process themselves know nothing of PUA. But PUAs do not try to emulate that natural ignorance. They become over-self-conscious and their behavior becomes artificial as it is restricted by a myriad of complex rules and PUA suppositions. Another thing I find problematic is that according to PUAs women are all the same, and are thus subject to accurate modeling. I think that nothing could be further from truth. Even non-human animals are individualistic, and what to say of humans who, more than any species I know, spread over the entire spectrum of opinions, mentalities, attitudes and behaviors, from one extreme to another (and are subject to change on top of that). Derren might not be Milton Erickson, or it might be that he's in a hurry to get results. Maybe he could do better if he wasn't under a deadline for a show. In any case, I agree that he's not that powerful, but I still respect his level of skill. For some reason I tend to respect hypnotists. I guess that's because I was hypnotized once and even though I snapped out of it, it wasn't easy to snap out. It felt exactly like trying to wake up from a dream I didn't like (which is an ability I have and use from time to time if I am not pleased with some dream). Well, whether or not you think there is something sinister about it depends on your beliefs about people. Are people separate? Do people have a right to their individuality? If you modify someone's behavior or appearance, are you hurting anyone or anything? In other words, is there a victim? Etc... It all depends on your views on these matters. Another thing to consider is... are we not doing it already? Are we not already all hypnotizing and modifying each other ad infinitum? Yup.
  8. Levels of conscious mind residing...

    Hey Jonesy ! If a woman came to my group and relayed that dream to me ... I would NOT go near her with a 20 foot pole ! Could no one see the significance there ! MY God ! Think it through ! Its a bit like the time I spent a weekend at a girls place who seemed interested in me . first night she was nervous so slept on the lounge. In the morning she tells me she dreampt an ape man came into her room, bit her and she got an infectious disease. No way was I gonna go anywhere with her . I politely excused my self and left as soon as I could !
  9. Levels of conscious mind residing...

    What intimate details? That two months after having any contact with Jeff she has a dream and it's Jeff's fault? One would be hard pressed to connect those dots.
  10. What is love

    Good morning Dada-da, Why 'Oh' only? Shouldn't it be 'Oh yes' at least. There is some element of ignorance/surprise in your 'Oh'. It is said that you are only 50% woman. If you want to be 100% woman, dream on and be The Statue of Liberty (also 100% concrete). Cannot imagine. - LimA
  11. Vivid dreams?

    In your dream, so long you realize that you're dreaming, you can control your dream if yout want. At very least, you can fly. In your daily life, I don't know how you can wake up from that.
  12. There is so much information about the higher chakras, or energy centres, that I thought to 'put out there' some of my experience with the other chakras. There are many students of chi who make the mistake of pushing chi / energy into their head centres before they have developed the ability to discharge excess chi back out of it. They get themselves into all sorts of trouble which could be prevented by safe practices, but the lure of the wonders of the higher chakras is sometimes just too luring. Firstly, there is no difference between astral travel from the head centres than the dan tien than the base chakra, once you are 'out there' thats it, it doesn't matter how or where or why. Simple How to... I start with deep physical relaxation, then abdominal breathing. I bring my mind down to my navel and then centre the breath behind it, in the dan tien. The next step is to go even deeper into a relaxed state, deeper and deeper until you can lose consciousness. On the way to these deeper states I bring my awareness to my Base Chakra. The Base Chakra is located, in the male, at the Million Dollar Point, between the scrotum and the anus. For a woman it is the G-Spot, just inside the vagina and to its front on the bone wall. I place my awareness at the Base chakra, imagining a beam of light, warm and buzzing, which flows from beyond my feet (and I am lying down on my bed), and connected to the Earth. It is about the diameter of a ping pong ball for me. By this stage I am quite relaxed, deeply relaxed actually, almost asleep, and I imagine this light beam being drawn up into my Base Chakra and into my dan tien. There its roars into the furnace and pours warmth into my abdomen. As I slip deeper into the unconscious state at this stage, I will be wavering on the edge of consciousness and unconsciousness. When I tip over into the unconscious, into my dream world, I am able, not all the time, but sometimes, to be able to jump or enter the dream I have dropped into. By this time the beam of energy into my Base Chakra is warm, even hot, and buzzing, and I can float about the landscape on a beam of light, from my Base Chakra. I can bounce around, and I can fly, with that beam of light blazing behind me like Astro Boys feet. It is a joyful experience and much the same as any other astral travel experience. Sometimes I will shift to dan tien movement, being drawn by the dan tien, or the head chakras will be open, automatically, and I can move via that as well. I am no longer limited by my Base Chakra, it is just a means to get in there, a safe means. This practice is simple, and very very safe. One way to practice is by doing PC crunches (pelvic floor exercises) maybe up to 50 crunches at a time during the day, you will sensitise your base chakra to chi. Both men and women can do these, just tighten up your base chakra, you will feel it when you tighten up your abdomen and vagina / penis muscles. It does NOT induce excess sexual urges, in fact it is not all that sexual at all, unless you want to, and add lots of chi to it. Then it feels nice, warm and humming with energy but does not necessarily induce a desire for sex (thank goodness). I suppose if you over worked it then you could, but it is not much more sexual than the dan tien. Anyway, I welcome comments and your experiences, maybe this will help those students of the spirit, to explore other means of spiritual projection. Astralc
  13. Dream Work

    Simplist things that come to mind: Before you go to sleep bring to mind a dream in which you can recall. Perhaps the most vivid dream you can remember. Play through the dream as you drift off, this will put you a step closer to an active dreamtime. When you awake write down your first waking thoughts, often times these will be blurred with dreams, bringing you a step closer to recall. Waking up slowly over a period of time vs. quickly and rushed makes a difference. IIRC Vitamin b12 increases dream intensity. Spectrum
  14. Flying Phoenix Chi Kung

    MSW meditations definitely impact my quality of sleep and dreams. Sometimes I feel like I'm plunging into a different world and this is the dream itself when I awaken.
  15. Do entities really hang out in certain places?

    Ok, looks like you are sensitive to spirit beings. First, you must not attach to appearances. Regardless if the entities are from the lower or higher realms. Frankly, you don't know or it does not matter as soon as you are interacting with them. Learn to see them with your third eye. I dream of ghost and spirits plenty. My latest encounter was a pretty tall woman. I supposed she was attractive but I didn't look at her face until I told her that she was dead. Apparently, she wanted me to go to Florida with her. I realized that that was not possible because she was already dead. If I actually go to Florida, I would be actually going there by myself. Isn't fun. In this dream, I even had to show her that she was dead. Putting her hands on a hot stove and she didn't feel a thing. You must have compassion. See the entities the way they truly are. Don't judge them by the appearances.
  16. Can someone explain this feeling?

    This is similar to sleep paralysis -- when you wake up from a dream where you were falling -- or if you wake up in the REM state and can't move but still are in the dream state. It's more common when falling asleep and suddenly the body jumps because the nerves or electromagnetic energy is relaxing. It is activated by the chi and also by the shen (the holographic laser energy) -- it's a minor form of astral travel since we do astral travel in the dream state.
  17. Is there an objective world?

    When you find yourself in a dream universe, it does seem like it has always existed. But when you wake up and realize it was just a dream, you know better. Then you realize that entire universe was just a dream and hasn't existed as anything more than mind's emanation. It shows how mind can make something like the universe in the blink of an eye, complete with its past and all kinds of interesting and very believable characters in it. You wish. You are the center of your own universe. Just try to step aside. Ah, there you are, at the center again. Try to step away from the center. The best you can do is imagine the center to be outside of yourself, but that's nothing more than imagination. The truth of your being is always there with you. No matter where you go, there you are. You are one center you can count on. You can't count on Florida or New York being where you are, but you can always count on yourself being where you are, whatever it is you are at the time, there you are. And you cannot run away from yourself. And you cannot step aside even. You can't even more 1 inch to the left.
  18. What made YOU laugh today/tonight ?

    I found this ,, , but I don't endorse its veracity Bubble Bath To dream that you or someone else is taking a bubble bath indicates that you are totally at ease and feel comfortable with your life. You no longer have any anxieties or troubles, and your mind is full of optimism and hope. Alternatively, dreaming of a bubble bath suggests a desire for a loving, romantic encounter.
  19. What made YOU laugh today/tonight ?

    I had a dream last night that I was talking with Donald Trump while he was taking a bubble bath ( I was not in the bath ). I can't even begin to explain why my unconscious would make me experience that... Does a cringe count as a laugh?
  20. Black/Grey Orbs

    Cool topic! Once I was emotionally disturbed and have fallen asleep in that state and I had a dream I'm in my room surrounded by all kind of orbs, the red ones were the once not hesitating to bump into me, their energy seemed piercingly clear and it felt like a pierce on my energy body. I did protection techniques in the dream and they didn't come near me anymore. What I like about seeing inorganic forces like orbs is that the mind doesn't interpret them as demonic/evil, instead they are just energy orbs which can be treated just as energetic impulses. Of course that can be a bit deceiving because we only see a tiny glimpse of whats really behind these projections. Usually they are preying on our energy, so a good way to clean the space out of them is to ask them "do you believe in Allah/God?", this will make the parasites flee away. Not that all "orbs" are dangerous, some are friendly inorganic beings and I usually see those as whitish transparent orbs (silverish). If you let those orbs come into your aura then you can have a "conversation" with them, I immediately hear a friendly voice talking to me so this is always a good chance to ask about all sort of things about dreaming events that are happening to me. My point is if you want to have a more clear conversation with an inorganic being the distance between you is of importance.
  21. Meditation driving me nuts

    I'm with Scereneblue and Drew in suggesting other ways. For energetic reasons I could not do the breath observing meditation for a year and a half. I got into mantras (silent in head ).Vajrayogini practise, is where you have a pretty long mantra and you can (try) also visualize a very interesting red naked woman as per the photos. Theres more instructions out there in google-land, although its supposed to be secret high tantra. A very interesting thing happened this morning, is I became lucid in a dream and decided to do this practise, like the monks do. My mantra voice changed to a kind of female echoey radio voice, and I became aware of my body, which was kind of a gelatinous snakey thingy in space, meanwhile I was trying to change myself into Vajrayogini, with little dream partial images , sort of like a crappy reception on sattelite tv, trying to get there. But I just ended up tying myself into a knot of sorts, like a kind of retarded eel. Ha ha. What Im saying is, it can be more fun than video games. Well, if you've meditated yourself into a lucid dream then you should stick with whatever you were doing to see if it can happen again. BIG LESSON there, do what works, man, not necessarily what they tell you. Like the Woody Allen movie, "whatever works". Its the way your body teaches you, more efficient than having an external teacher. If your mind is too active, well, what I do is switch temporarily to one pointed focus (like the big toe example or 3rd eye), or mantra (my failsafe) I dont hear people talk about switching, but if somethings not getting me down there fast enough because Im thinking about stuff, why not switch. If you have nothing to switch to because you suck, then you had better get good at a few other kinds:)
  22. Healing Sounds

    Do you understand the meaning of actions? If yes, your question is gone. If not, you're wasting time probing sound, when you need to focus your energies in a more higher order way. Namely, instead of investigating the meaning of some sound, investigate the meaning of any action. This will give you the keys to all actions, including sounds, but not limited to them. On the other hand, if you make your thinking very concrete, and limit it to one sound, you'll just be wallowing in your belief networks without understanding what's going on. You'll be caught in your own dream, without knowing that it is a dream and without learning how to dream. For example, what causes disease? Next time you get a flu, contemplate it. If you never get sick, you should get sick on purpose, so that you can contemplate sickness. Once you understand sickness you'll begin to understand healing too. When you understand healing at a high level, you can understand all forms of healing naturally. On the other hand, if you apply some technique in a detail oriented way, you'll never understand anything. One more example. If I give you a recipe for soup, and you follow my recipe to a T, you'll never become a chef. Even if follow 10000 recipes, you still do not OWN the cooking processes. You don't own the meaning of food processing. You don't own flavors. You don't own flavor combination vision. A real chef own all of the above. This is why a real chef doesn't worry about recipes. Instead one focuses on higher order concerns: what does heat treatment do to ingredients? What does smoke do to them? What does moisture or dryness do? What flavors are there? How do these flavors combine? What happens to nutritional value during processing? Once you understand this, you can make your own recipe and you can alter anyone's recipe in a competent manner. You'll own cooking. If you follow a recipe you rent cooking. Rent a place to live or build a place to live to own it. See the difference? I'm saying all this assuming you're wise. But if you're a fool I've wasted my time.
  23. longevity - good or bad?

    can’t complain, actually. women stare at me and it can be embarrassing. being male, you would understand those stares from teenage girls when you were 17. it never stopped and i’m 35. i like sean connery (82). he ages well. i like leslie stahl (71). when they are at home; on a Sunday; at 8 in the morning with a cup of coffee and reading the new york times. old age beauty is great health and good grooming. i think both are fairly well-matched, by my reckoning. which 30 something has my dream for a better word: ridding the world of old age misery? this was also a dream of the buddha.
  24. My experience with Chunyi Lin

    Actually it was turned around for me -- Yuen Biao -- I was very religious as a youth but mostly from the experience of music training and the powerful healing trance experience in music. So also I thought it fascinating that Jesus -- the story of Jesus -- was to hang with the prostitutes and thieves. So being the city and my parents were bohemian somewhat -- into Mayan culture, etc. -- anyway my friends all experiments with drugs -- shrooms, pot, etc. And then later on some friends did everything -- my girlfriend was slipped a dose of LSD without her knowing it at a party. I lived with people who all did LSD when it was someone's birthday. Not me!! All I did was read books and practice music and ponder philosophy. So then after I discovered qigong through Effie Chow -- grandmaster -- and then did further research and then took classes from Chunyi Lin -- only then did I experiment with psychotropics. My friend told me how he had done every type of drug but one hit of Salvia scared him so bad he'd never take it again. His spirit flew out of his body and into the floor. So I read up on it -- Salvia is legal. I wanted to test Salvia against the third eye full-lotus. Sure enough salvia caused me internal climaxes -- it opened up the kundalini energy -- and with stronger doses I BLACKED OUT -- but I was in full-lotus. Before I blacked out I had this amazing experience that my whole life had been a dream and even the whole universe was a dream. I would wake up completely having forgotten what had happened and it would take me a bit to come out of the dream state to think rationally. So I then took stronger salvia while in full-lotus -- again I would have about 6 internal climaxes so it really did increase the kundalini energy. Then when I blacked out I maintained my rational awareness. I woke up while still in full-lotus and I heard myself saying out loud -- "I think I opened my third eye!" I was in a dark black room with a hat over my eyes and my eyes closed -- I put my hands in front of my eyes and I could see rainbows around my hands! It was awesome. That night I dreamt of this old artwork in my parent's breakfast room. I had always stared at this art work as a child but had never rationally acknowledged it or thought about it -- the artwork was completely psychedelic -- with bright rainbow colors! So I contacted my mom -- what was that artwork? Oh that Mola stitchwork. So I googled Mola artwork -- it's from the Kuna indigenous tribe of Panama who smoke cannabis religiously. So then I discovered that Salvia activates the cannibinoid receptors of the brain. Blacking out is the highest you can go with Salvia. Once the salvia TRIED to pull my spirit out of my body. My spirit got half way out of my body but the magnetic force of the third eye was stronger than the electrochemical plant energy transduced up into my brain. So I was halfway out of myself - laughing at the Salvia. Next I did ayahuasca analog -- Mimosa. Mimosa is actually stronger than ayahuasca. This is very very powerful DMT plant experience. It is like the Level 4 Rainbow Meditation -- I did it in full-lotus and i was in full-lotus for 5 hours. It was a post-death experience -- I call it the Rainbow Vortex of Reality because any rational thought you have is sucked back into your body so that the external world is actually a projection of the internal rainbow holograph. When the DMT kicked in the intense orgasmic bliss was way beyond anything from the O at a Ds -- I called it "being fucked by God." My tailbone literally felt like it was peeled up my spine -- cracked open -- with sexual energy. This energy then shot to my brain and I heard gun shots in my head. My third eye cracked open and the light was bright and everything turned into a rainbow vortex. I just stayed in the full-lotus and rode out the experience. I had many visions but mainly they were of other trance healers. I had the Bushmen healers doing trance dance and singing as the soundtrack for the ayahuasca DMT. Then I got messages from Chunyi Lin and Jim Nance. I truly believe that the deep bone healing for AIDS, etc. is done in this rainbow astral state -- -the rainbow body is created on this level. Interesting website -- yes these experiences are based on a deep physiological transformation which is alchemical. The great irony of celibacy is that people assume it means no sex when in fact it's the opposite -- it means more sex. After I have a good "O at a D" session my lower dan tien is filled with female electrochemical jing energy. This is what the PERVS want -- and so then I have to be very careful about the Perv Attack -- I will literally be stalked by Pervs. I call this the "bouncing leg epidemic" -- all these pervs are found concentrated on some places. Unfortunately these people are usually victims of the class oppression. For example my brother-in-law had to join the military in El Salvador at age 14 and he was forced to be a sex slave. So now he is HARD-WIRED neurologically -- his electromagnetic male essence is STUCK in his lower chakra and so he is obsessed with ejaculating and sucking off female energy so he can ejaculate again. This is literally spirit possession of females -- he sucks off their will power -- their electromagnetic essence is brought down to be turned into sex fluid for his use. It's the opposite of what I do. Anyway I'm 38 but age is very relative to how the body energy is used, etc. Doing healing doesn't increase longevity but it does increase health which slows aging. If you want longevity and immortality then it's necessary to "pool" or store up the chi energy -- electromagnetic -- in the lower tan tien and also to convert it to shen for the astral travel. The qigong masters reach this level by making sure females are not sucking off their built up chi energy. This does require some misogyny on males part in my opinion and it's why traditionally qigong masters were taught only after they had finished martial arts training in a monastery. Because you also have to make sure male pervs don't suck you off as well. Basically modern society is so starved for electromagnetic healing energy that if you do have any extra energy then it will flow naturally - be sucked up -- by people around you who need it. The process is impersonal and in a post-death state of trance through pure awareness. I went 8 days on just half a glass of water and that's when my chi energy got strong enough to create enough shen to open up the third eye. But also I got the shen transmissions to the brain from Chunyi Lin. Still my third eye is not fully open -- or a Number 5 person as Gurdjieff calls it. This takes a lot of training again to store up the chi enough, etc.
  25. Unbalance Between Career & Spirituality?

    Thanks for the support, man. Perhaps I may be only dwelling in doubt, because the more I do one, the less I've been looking into the other one. Your questions came at a good moment, because answering them gave me some leads on what to do, and also see the value of both of the practices. What I realized was: 1) I like them both. Sure, I have longer contacts with the art of words, but I should not drop any of them, seeing that both cultivation and writing gives me benefits. Instead, I should look for balance, understanding that writing is writing, regardless of content, and cultivation is cultivation; 2) Cultivation haven't brought me that awareness because, in the core experience of both, happiness comes from inwards (the action itself,) not for the external motivations (i.e.: being praised, getting appreciation, etc). This is one big thing that always got me. We are searching for enlightement, but the "way of becoming a writer" is something I recognize as "earthly." I can't recall hearing that following a dream is a way to shape oneself better, while in comparison, it's not unusual to hear about people leaving everything to achieve (dreams included) to dedicate entirely to cultivation. Thing is, as mentioned, I don't feel like abandoning this dream, as mentioned before. Thanks, Silent Thunder. Perhaps, as cultivation flows, I may experience a change on how writing is done, and the purposes on it. But right now, I'm happy with it the way it is. I just got to find balance. About a journal... perhaps is too soon to start it? I am still focusing on the sole practice of one meditation I posted here in the forums, and I do not know how much it can be of benefit to others. Thanks for your words. Namaste