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I appear to be experiencing resistance to doing this. So I may not doing it after all. I know everyone here was really looking forward to my stirring rendition of, The Impossible Dream." I am sorry to have disappointed you. Perhaps I will still do it someday, we shall see...

No ... what , where , how ? What is an M sign (which is weird , as I was just reading a debate about an M symbol If I was a boss or worker and I got an email to the company about a worker from some guy that met at her at lunch and wanted .... well, wanted what ? You could: go back to the same place for lunch, or go to where she works on business ( an hope to meet or see her - not go there and ask for her , should have got a contact in the first place (I know, that's a useless suggestion at this stage , maybe you will get another chance ) ... I dont know how it works there, but here one is not supposed to give out any non-work related info or contacts to the public, about staff. Its a privacy thing. Otherwise, guys would be hunting women via their work place. Even for other reasons, even 'emergencies' one is told 'Sorry, we cant give out information about our staff." Did you get a reply email from them ? The 2nd thing, you seem determined to drop this drug thing in their laps, no matter what advice people give you, you just create another version of it. Hand up how many women out there want to meet a guy to trip with ? You could start on a simpler more realistic plane, like a normal date. I dunno, it just seems weird to me, why have partner to explore your own internal spaces ... and why your 'dream date woman' instead of a Shaman or guide - no, I dont need an answer, I jam just suggesting a ..... 'topic for meditation'. I would suggest being general and say you have a wide range of interests , including ' exploring consciousness' - I would not take it further than that. That 'covers you', declares your interest and doesnt go too far. You can always get right out there later, if that is what develops. Lets not forget ... you were after a date .... you are not experienced with women relationships and sex, perhaps you should be content, at first, to be a little less ..... ummm .... 'specific' ? Dont start getting so much into the details of what you ultimately would like and project that. If a good relationship follows, the dynamics of that alone may be different enough for you .... I recently had an A M A Z I N G experience like that ... would not trade it for a hand full of pure Swiss 25s ! And would rather have had that experience than a 'mere' trip with her.

Always without desire we must be found, If its deep mystery we would sound; But if desire always within us be, Its outer fringe is all that we shall see. There once was a poop. The poop was not so happy that it was a poop, because it stank allot. It did not even like its own scent. Even though he was the poop himself. Don't worry though, this story isn't going to be sad all of the time. But for now, it was pretty sad, yeah... No one liked the poop. All those other people, who were normal people, who didn't stink... Well... They were loved, and appreciated. However... This poop? Not even an inch of love was given to him. What made all those other people more deserving of love? The poop grew tired of all this time, spending, being a poop. He just coulden't take it anymore, so he planned to take it out on all the non stinky people. So he went to their parfume closets, and began hugging all the parfume, untill they all became stankey. Even while the people were dissapointed to find out their parfume were stinky, it didn't change much for him. They were still more happy than him. And he was still a poop. So this just made it more obvious how stinky he was. Not a good plan... Whoever created him, made a mistake of making him so stinky. He coulden't help it being so stinky, and he never asked for it. However, the creator of this poop, surely, they are the responsible of all this stank. Do you think the creator could undo his stank? What if he would remain this stinky for ever? He could not waste anymore time, before it was too late, he wanted to undo his stank, maybe it is possible to still do it. Maybe an eternity of stank is not deemed appropriate, maybe there was a cure. He just had no clue where to find his creator... Oh, what a waste of thought, now he was a stinky poop with an impossible mission on top of the already heavy burden of being shtinkey. Oh, what is he going to do?! There is no way to turn to, no direction to face, no where to begin the search. No where to take refuge from his own stank. Where he went, his stank went right allong with him. He grew tired, and thought about visiting a parfume store to spray parfume on his stank. However, that would make things only worse. A parfume scent blended with the scent of poop was disgusting to even think about. Certainly, that would meet him with his ultimate doom. Nothing seemed to work. As if any possibility of something working out for him ever was revealed to him... No, it was not. He might just remain a poop for ever, and the time he has been a poop already has taken too long in his opinion. He didn't want to be a poop any longer. This life of being a poop, it was not exactly the most fantastic life. He had to avoid people all of the time to avoid shame. He had to wrap himself around in plastic wrapping foil, to prevent the scent from spreading. He had to cover his ugly sight. Life was such for this poor fello... Day in day out, it was the same story. Always the same story with his life. There was not much change. He was always worthless. Has always been the same kind of worthless. Today was not going to be any diffrent. There was a certain comfort in that. That atleast circumstances stablized around his identity. He began accepting his relation towards others. He was beginning to grow appreciation for the people around him, and happily wrapped himself in plastic foil, knowing he could save them the burden of his scent. He felt a certain responsibility towards them which he carried with eagerness, each day. He felt at home with his circumstances and life and relation towards others. This was his life, afterall. This was his life. And it was good. So what, that he stank, atleast he could live his life. Be it unique, it was still alive. He enjoyed many things in his life, such as watching the trees blow in the wind in summer times. Feeling the flies tickly on the surface of his being a poop. Feeling the wind cool down his warm and hot steamy stinkey poop under the sun. This was pretty fantastic actually. He wanted to become at one with nature. He liked nature so much. The journey the wind and weather took, was something to be admired, from his point of view. He knew that even a single water particle in the air, had a perspective, so beautiful and magnificent and full of grace. He wanted to become at one with nature and join their evermore joyful journey through the planet, seeing all the sights, undergoing all the adventures, such as they are doing. Nature was never out of place, never stank, but was rather all pure and appropriate and full of life and joy and never ending variety. Always new suprises to be found. It was easy to let the wind carry him away. His scent already took off in whatever direction it was headed, and he knew, he was the platform from which these knew wind particles would launch into their evermore joyful journey through the air, a never ending stream of appropriate life, in tune and harmony with nature. In complete surrender to the full nature of their being, wherever it may lead them, they would fly there happily, without any form of resistance whatsoever. They simply had no choice other than being the one they are. And they tried not be anything else, for they knew not anything else. 'T was easy for them. Life was good and easy for them. Such as it could be for this poop aswell. He lay down under the sun, on the sidewalk. And he was ready to take on that journey. The sun was already evaporating most of his scent, and his hot steamy water particles were dancing in full excitement, eager to get out in the open sky and fly away to their long awaited journey into the life that is theirs for ever more. He lost awareness of his poopy body, and left it there, to be tickled by the flies that danced around it, in celebration of his departure. This was the appropriate thing to have done, and he knew it. For a last time his gaze met the many people he appreciated so much, and for the first time perhaps he found real peace. And it struck him. The people were his creators. He was made out of the very thing he appreciated so much. They were both one and the same in the grand scheme of things. In heaven they would meet again... And he flew off, onto his heavenly destination, one after the other, always entering a new delightful existance, in evermore expansive ways. There were no words to describe the rest. Other than, he lived happily ever after. And even better than that. But there are no words to describe that. So hush and go to sleep now. And dream of the poop, that flew away on the summer day, and you shall meet him in your dreams and his dreams aswell. And he will tell you all about it, and he will show you the heaven that shall be yours one day aswell. The poop that can be spoken of, is not the enduring and unchanging poop. The essence is there, only to be seen, when you enter your own essence, through which you shall be the resonating witness to all of the many essences.

Well, I dream big so...

Let's imagine that you are asleep and half-dreaming. Something happens that rouses you from the dream; now you are awake and lying in your bed as expected. The same sound that woke you repeats. Like a sprinkling of gravel on the roof above you. Also it seems strangely dark. You raise your arms and they immediately strike a hard wooden surface directly above your nose. You realise in a flash that you and your bed have been placed in a large pine box, and are being buried under the ground. The sprinkling of the earth is getting more and more muffled. You are moments from suffocation. How do you react? Do you go into blind panic, banging on the box and screaming for help? Do you realise the futility of panic and so quickly and expertly centre yourself in your own being? Are you already centred and so able and ready to observe your own death? I think this scenario can teach us a lot about our own spiritual progress. Some of us will read this and feel the panic, some will read and feel the bliss of impending death.

I figured that Nungali and Michael Sternbach would weigh in here and overload your mental circuits, so I wanted to wait before making any reply. As a change of pace from some of the things on which I have been working, I thought I might take some time here to ask some annoying questions and point in some odd directions that will make clearer some of the things that I have already posted, in particular my posts in the section on Cornelius Agrippa and his work. So let's start with some annoying questions about this: Can you elaborate on what you mean by that statement, though?: I suspect that what you want is some anecdotes about using astrologer for character analysis, event prediction, etc., which taken as a whole would demonstrate it. I can certainly provide them, but I am more interested in a bigger view and I hope that you will indulge me, and then I may give some interesting anecdotes. This is actually very close to my understanding of what it should be like if we are indeed talking about natural universal forces: There is for example this notion of “universal forces” and you use gravity as an example. Do you know what a “force”, universal or otherwise, is? Let's dig a little deeper into that can of worms that I mentioned. In the worldview in which astrology arose, during the Hellenistic period, a worldview that was largely Platonic/Aristotelian, the logical implications of that worldview were not, “how could astrology work?”, but “How could astrology not work?”. In other words the worldview of the educated elite of the Hellenistic world made astrology a “no brainer” in terms of providing a logical and well formed rationale for its existence and efficacy, the problem was to find space within these implications for things like “free will” and self-determination. In other words, “Where is astrology not going to work, so that I can see myself as free, rather then a slave of some form of astrological determinism?” A very different conundrum isn't it? The whole modern worldview sees astrology as a fantastic and absurd set of ideas that could not possibly be true, because, “How could the position of Jupiter affect me, when its gravitational pull is miniscule in comparison to that of earth?”, but this very framing of the question is based on a certain way of viewing the world in a way in which everything is disconnected, as opposed to the Hellenistic worldview in which everything is connected. This so called “scientific” worldview is now taken for granted by nearly everyone, and is the result of cultural trends which I have analyzed elsewhere and to which I will refer. By the way, this worldview doesn't save “free will”, it replaces it with a determinism of atoms, in which all thoughts are merely a flow of atoms and consciousness an epiphenomenal dream that floats above them, powerless as a ghost in a machine. This view that started with the revival of Epicureanism circa 1600, and grew ravenous with Cartesian dualism, and devoured all in its path until 1900 when its unruly child, science, like another unruly child, Zeus, was to rise up and show the problems with this worldview, a revolution that is still unresolved and is being waged around us even now. So I hope that you don't mind if I dwell a bit on the big picture and then when that is clearer, start telling a few anecdotes which illustrate its details, and yes the discussion will also address such matters of “magic” as are implied in this: As a preparation for this you might find my thread: Agrippa and Aristotle: the Aristotelian background of the Occult Philosophy may help to set the stage along with this quote from another post: And I particular draw your attention to “If one looks at consciousness as a formal cause that organizes information, that solves a lot of problems about knowledge and freewill.” And ask “What happens if you view gravity as a formal cause that organizes information?”

Animalwise: A Parable for Wayfarers Let me make it plain from the start. I‘m a proud and tough possum fending for myself in the wild. My one quirk is an uncanny interest in the strange realm of humans. They fascinate me. There’s a rustic old hermit’s hut with plenty of trees nearby within my territory that I like to regularly visit. It’s an easy climb up onto the iron roof. I love to run around and make a racket when I'm in the mood. It annoys the hell out of that peace loving hermit. Even better, I regularly sniff out small gaps and squeeze my way inside. There’s so many mysterious things for a possum to explore. A few nights back, whilst hot on the trail of freshly baked sourdough bread, I chanced upon a book lying on the table. Mind you, that’s not unusual. This old hermit is a cultivator of the Daoist and Buddhist way and has many books on the subject. I’ve browsed some of them while he sits oblivious in mediation, and I can tell you it baffles me why he needs books when we are all intrinsically of the Way. Every animal knows that, expect it seems it’s lost to humans. But that’s a mystery for another time, and this book wasn’t one of those anyway. It was a children’s book. There’s something about the look and smell of these battered, big type, brightly coloured hardcover books that touches my heart. Maybe it’s a memory of a simpler time. A time of wonder and easy enchantment when I too was child-like. I nibbled that very tasty bread, and pawed open the cover. It was a book of riddles. My eyes came to rest on a familiar conundrum. It totally grabbed my attention for an instant, until the sound of danger jolted me. That old hermit was on my tail wielding a broom. Humans! Now there’s an enigmatic species for you. Sometimes I despair of ever understanding them. They have so much yet never seem satisfied. Back with my daughter in the safety of my Tallowwood tree the riddle stayed in my mind. “Which came first, the chicken or the egg?” I’d heard it before except in our possum version it’s an eagle chick. When I first heard it as a youngster in PossumTree school my imagination was stirred and my reason challenged. I was drawn to its koan like impossibility. Now the riddle had become almost a cliché for “don’t even bother to try to understand this one”. It reminded me how easily curiosity about life’s mysteries fades as one grows older. I was chewing it over the next evening with some of the local wallabies. Wallabies are the true sages of us timeless ones; wise but invisible in their actions, helping but not intruding, absorbing cruelty without becoming vengeful. I have a lot of respect for wallabies. Most of us wild animals live a life Zhuang Zhou could only dream of. We have no possessions. When tired we sleep, when hungry we eat. We are masters of living in the moment. But within this tradition wallabies stand out. To me they’re bodhisattvas, though they themselves shun all labels and tell me that they are simple followers of the way of nature. Anyway, our discussion of the riddle soon led to the revelation of knowledge which is apparently well known within the wallaby lineage - but was certainly new to me. They gave me some interesting insights. Interesting enough to stir me to write them down. The wallabies have their own story on the purpose of human life. It’s told to all joeys at an early age to help them understand this strange and sometimes aggressive species. Considering its ancient origins I was surprised that, to the best of my knowledge, no possum had ever heard it before. But then that’s what wallabies are like. It takes patience and a Zen like empty mind for their stories to unfold. If you approach them with strong opinions, which being a possum I can't help but do, they'll scarcely dispute you. It is their nature to go along. So in my ignorance I often thought the wallabies agreed with me. It is only now as I grow older and less sure of anything that I’m able to see them in a different light. What I perceived as passivity and ignorance is in fact a manifestation of the contented detachment of true Daoist sages. For ones that lead such humble lives, the level of abstract thought that pervades the wallaby kingdom always surprises me. My encounter with this extraordinary analogy, which is after all just part of a parable for joeys, only reinforces my admiration for them. The wallabies liken human habitation on our planet to that eagle embryo growing inside its shell enclosed biosphere. Their analogy underpins major issues that wallabies, indeed all us animals, face every day as our habitat - indeed our very lives - continues to feed human growth. We are being eaten up, just like that yolk. But to my dismay, rather than condemnation and anger, I heard a worldview shaped by an entirely different paradigm. Old Longears, an elder (pictured meditating), explained further. “That eagle embryo uses the yolk to grow and eventually breaks out of its shell into an unforeseeably large world as an eagle chick, and then grows into a magnificent eagle able to soar through the skies. This is how things are; the joey grows from an egg, the tree from a seed. So too a similar process is occurring on an abstract level. Humans are experiencing remarkable evolutionary change. It is a difficult era for them. Their collective consciousness is like the embryo of a new life-form – one that's invisible to our eyes. It is a subtle entity, honed by intelligent reason, with empathy as its heart and the creative arts in its blood.” “They’re using the resources of our planet to build a web of interconnections between living minds. The larger the consciousness, the more energy needed to power it. I tell our joeys this is the way of things. It's neither right nor wrong - it just is. Like how our brains evolved from single celled organisms, constantly growing in energy needs along the way.” “Human consciousness is a part formed, resource hungry thing. At the most basic level those countless interconnections mean massive infrastructure. Many thoughtful people understandably feel anxious inside their finite resourced biosphere, aware of their growing numbers and ever increasing appetite. There's consternation too at pollution caused by clumsy technologies, and of the competition and greed that energizes much of the growth.” Old Longears continued in the seemingly nonchalant manner that I’ve learnt belies the natural wisdom and profound trust in the Way of these earthy macropods. “I‘ve heard the present period referred to as the sixth great extinction. This one caused by humans. So many of our fellow species are being lost.” “I tell our joeys in this difficult time our role is a simple one. We must live as wallabies have always lived. We must carry the knowledge of our possible destruction lightly and behave as if we live in blissful ignorance. We must help keep environmental stability in the midst of human flux by maintaining our traditional way of life. It’s our role within the great Way. We eat grass, we nurture our young, we play. We flee from danger. In death our bodies feed dingoes, our rotting carcasses, goannas. Our life is clearly delineated by our wallaby instincts. Our presence could be a marker for humans of the vital diversity of organic life, of the evolutionary wisdom we all embody. We are a tiny part of this intricately interwoven ecosystem, complexly alive on levels humans are as yet unable to comprehend. Our world is their world and all life is interconnected.” To me it sounded like gross injustice. “Why should humans occupy centre-stage? What about our rights?” I wanted to talk about a more secure future for animals, about actions we could take to protect our way of life. You know – protest! I was already thinking of all the roofs I could stomp on in the middle of the night. But their lack of response reminded me wallabies aren't ones for confrontation. They've been around a long time, just listening; watching the world unfold, solid in their wallaby nature. Old Longears said, “Think about the parable. All new life is needy and only knows how to take. It needs wise, warm and sometimes tough nurturing. Consciousness is no different. Humans like to think it's about them but really it's about the ongoing evolution of life itself. It's a fundamental wallaby belief that a healthy consciousness must eventually embrace the totality of biological life which hosts it.” I wasn't so sure myself but I knew I was still hungry. And food was all around. After a long period of peaceful eating in the noble silence so characteristic of us animals I came upon Zirana (pictured above, left). Her joey had just been on an adventure outside the pouch and her face still glowed with the excitement of it all. Old Longears once hinted that she was their wise one but I'd never heard her speak. So it surprised me when she said, though seemingly with reluctance, “Have patience dear possum. We're witnessing evolutionary change here and that's millenniums slow. Each retained adaption is the survivor of countless blind alleys and failures. Consciousness lives across the tensions created by difference. It needs meaningful dialogue between opposing perspectives in order to develop healthy and strong. It thrives on tackling appropriate levels of problems and conflict.” Us possums are always fighting over our territory and our mates so I could relate to that. We never seem to learn anything new though. Maybe lack of dialogue is our problem. But at least we're stable in our wants, unlike humans with their never ending need for more. “Zirana, your notion of our planet as somehow nurturing an emerging transcendent consciousness may be all very well for wallabies but I want to live my life my way, for me. What if humans bring catastrophe on us all?” She looked at me as if I was a joey who still didn't understand, “Human exceptionalism creates a tendency towards hubris, it's true. That power bestowed by enhanced awareness is a gift but also yokes them with a great burden. It’s lost them their innate animal wholeness so they can no longer live simple, spontaneous lives like us. They're increasingly feeling uncomfortable with the consequences of their actions because their empathy sphere is expanding too. Concern for the welfare of our whole planet is slowly gaining traction. We don't judge them harshly. Consciousness thrives at the edge of chaos. Truly, dear possum, consciousness is the new form of complex life evolving here. It has its own evolutionary imperatives, its own will to survive. Individual wishes count for only a little within the great pattern of life. We are all like straw dogs in this game” The encroaching dawn brought an end to our nocturnal ruminations. I was glad too. Interesting as it was, there's only so much a possum can accept. As I climbed up into my favourite Tallowwood tree hollow for much needed sleep, the thought foremost in my mind was “I shall do my best to survive, proudly, as the autonomous individual I surely am.” The Possum

Cool, yeah! I have a dream where I died and the dream continued: I drowned down a dark ocean, in a sinking boat. It was flooding with cold salty ocean water. Fear, panic. Trying to fight it. Then I coulden't keep my breath anymore, so it overtook me, I had no choice anymore. No choice, completely powerless. I was holding on to my breath so tightly, and it was so hard, it took allot of effort. The energy was building up, it hurt, I coulden't take it anymore. I let go of everything, and drowned. And as the ocean water flooded my lungs, instead of feeling like I was choking, the whole dream relaxed, the moment I let go and stopped fighting and surrendered. I felt a peace of such grandiosity, surrounding all over me and all throughout the dream and everywhere all around and everywhere. My entire body became light again, free, and a feeling of tremendous peace overtook me. The sun was filling the ocean with radiance of magnificent kind, as the dream began to reflect my new state of being. The ocean temperature was perfect. The people around me, in the water, were happy. They were talking to eachother, greeting eachother. I've never seen more alive people, and Ive never felt more alive. I was under water, did not breath, but I did feel my breathing, but it was not my breath, it was the breath of my body in my bed. Slowly I was regaining consciousness of the fact that I am still in my bed, even though I was in this dream and everything was so real and beautiful. I wanted to stay there, but it was beginning to fade away. And slowly the heavenlike place I was, underwater, was fading away. I was about to talk to this other person who just came over to the other side, as he had just "died" like I did, and we were in a conversation, we were so happy and so excited about this new place.The dream faded away. I was slowly coming back into my bed, my body. And regained full awareness of my body.

Wow, actually I wasn't sure of this before, if they could induce dreams. I am wondering I had a sexual dream when I was 16, one you could say that played a key element in what led up to my possession. Do you believe that could have been an entity at the time? Also, could entity give you probably very sexual dream to increase sexual desire so as to pressure you into releasing? Ok, this might be going a bit of topic. Everything in this post is purely theoretical. However, might prove interesting for some. The main difference between demons and other entities is that demons work together. Their purpose is spreading darkness and fighting the Light. After observing and thinking I have come up with the idea that they 1) use the collective karma for their own vile purposes, like was the case in germany during WW2 2) They don't chose their targets randomly for the most part. Since they fight the Light, everyone who might become a light worker is a danger. We can recognize these people by the light in their eyes. The more light the eyes emit the stronger the spirit. So if they can't possess those people directly what they do in my opinion is use the people around them to hurt them, to try and dim the light. They attack people who have good Karma?? THIS IS ONLY THEORETICAL Take this with a grain of salt, not that it matters anyway

seek and ye shall find. But first you have to seek, and before that, you have to actually want to seek: http://contrailscience.com/contrail-photos-through-history/ What has most certainly changed in the past couple decades is the amount of air traffic (thanks, Ryanair!), and that's enough to explain the current frequency of this phenomenon. More air traffic means more planes flying at varying altitudes and more chance to spread CONtrails in places where they don't disappear quickly. This whole "conspiracy" is pathetically juvenile. Here's another angle the head-bobbing believers have trouble explaining away: What happens to the air inside the planes that are flying though these supposed toxic clouds? Planes don't carry their own supply of compressed air, like scuba divers. The air in the plane comes from the atmosphere the plane is flying in. How do they avoid filling the cabin with these mysterious environment-destroying poisons? (or heavy metals or whatever it is, depending on which head-bobber you happen to ask). And don't take me wrong. I really hate these skies, they're fugly and depressing. I often look at the milky slop up there and feel like it's time to give up on humanity altogether. The most beautiful skies in my adult life were during that week a couple years ago, when air traffic was shut down due to the Icelandic volcano. The sky was such a deep blue, it was something like a dream, for four or five days straight. And I was far from the only one to notice and enjoy it. edit: just now saw that theLearner posted the same link. Well, it's a good one, lol

Here, mostly 'he' is a snake - the Rainbow Serpent. Australia, having originally around 600 different cultural groups there are many similar and different traditions about the rainbow and the Rainbow Serpent. Here is a sample from Wiki The Rainbow Serpent (or Serpents if there are more than one) is known as Borlung by the Miali,[2] Dhakkan (or Takkan) by the Kuli,[3] Kajura by the Ingarda,[3] Gooriallaby the Lardil people,[7] Kunmanggur by the Murinbata,[2] Ngalyod by the Gunwinggu,[2] Numereji by the Kakadu,[3] Taipan by the Wikmunkan,[2] Tulloun by the Mitakoodi,[3] Wagyl by the Noongar,[8] Wanamangura by the Talainji,[3] and Witij by the Yolngu.[1] Other names include Bolung,[4] Galeru,[2] Julunggul,[9] Kanmare,[3] Langal,[2] Myndie,[10] Muit,[2] Ungur,[2]Wollunqua,[2] Wonambi,[2] Wonungar,[2] Worombi,[2] Yero,[2] Yingarna,[11] and Yurlunggur.[2] Locally, in Bundjalung lingo - Yumbar. Two of my fav stories are one of the creation myth stories about the Rainbow Serpent ( here there is a 'pairing' or 'bridging' with a celestial snake, via water ) and another that has more to do with the appearance of the rainbow in the sky as a 'nature event' . Before the Dreamtime the earth was a flat disc of sand with no features, on it lay Ungud the Earth Serpent and overhead, the stars. That's it, nothing else. So Ungud would lie there looking up to the stars and at Wallenganda, the black snake, who was (the black space running through) the Milky Way. Her body was a river running across the the sky and either side of it where lots of stars, the camp fires of her children, camped along the banks of the river up in the sky. Well, Wallneganda saw Ungud staring at her; "What are you looking at ? " "I am looking up at you", Ungud told her. "You are up in the sky and look beautiful, and you have all those beautiful children around you, But I am down here and alone. " So Wallenganda felt sorry for Ungud so she spat some of her water down onto the earth and Ungud gathered it up together and dove down through the earth and took it underground and made it deep - at Uluru. Where he dove down through the earth, he made a big sandhill and that turned into Uluru (the spiritual heart of Australia ... " Ungud gathered the water together Underground and curled up in it and went to sleep. And then he had a dream. In his dream he multiplied himself into many Rainbow Serpents and they went out in all the different directions, and where they went the water followed along behind them. It made underground streams and where the serpents came out the water followed behind and made springs. Where the serpents crawled along the ground, their bodies formed the valleys and mountains and the rivers flowed behind them. When they dove down, back through the earth they made soaks. All the way they went to the edge of the earth and the water followed behind them and came out and made the oceans, all around. ...... * ...... One day, that big snake under the ground, he is going to wake up and the dream will end .... and all this will end too - finished. ( * there are further complications with Wanjina - rain spirits and the original forms of life and people and animals being created as cave paintings that hold the patterns and 'broadcast' them forth from increase sites and other places to make the animals plants and people - life )

i thank You God for most this amazing day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes (i who have died am alive again today, and this is the sun’s birthday; this is the birth day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay great happening illimitably earth) how should tasting touching hearing seeing breathing any–lifted from the no of all nothing–human merely being doubt unimaginable You? (now the ears of my ears awake and now the eyes of my eyes are opened) --e.e. cummings

that makes sense, thanks. our spirit is constantly active in the subtle realm, though when we go to sleep, our awareness shifts from the physical to subconscious. there is another world where spirits interact. if a person's soul has not developed awareness of the subtle realm, it has no control over the "dream". you can see a whole mixture of people's experiences being recycled when in the sleep state. there are also beings that have completely shifted their awareness into the subconscious realm, so are 100% in control, while us are tied to the physical body. so enough awareness is not kept on the body it dies. that's why a lot of OBE/NDE end up with an unprecedented instant shift back into the body

I was accidentally pulled a lady's spirit out of the top of her skull - without touching her. I had just finished a fast so didn't think my qi energy was that strong but it was the strongest it's ever been and she was a little old lady. I felt this heavy electromagnetic blob get pulled out of the top center of her skull. She couldn't see what I was doing as she was sitting and I standing to her side, she looking forward. As soon as I felt that heavy electromagnetic blob get pulled out of the top center of her skull she just started bawling and kept bawling for at least 15 minutes while someone else comforted her. So then I remembered the qigong master teaching to never pull out "energy blockages" out of the top center of the skull. Another OBE experience I had was around the same time - I was in my room meditating, again my qi energy was very strong, and the room began spinning around me - but it was a spacetime vortex. I went into the Emptiness and had this experience that I can only define from what I felt after I came out of it. I really felt that who I was definitely was not my body nor my mind - and so I got rid of this Yan Xin meditation cassette tape since I didn't feel like I needed it - again I knew very well from experience that the real me was not limited to listening to some physical cassette. Also I recycled an old journal I had that covered about 5 years of my life - because again that was not the real me - the real me was not identified by my body nor my mind. So actually it took me many years to discover in the book Taoist Yoga: Alchemy and Immortality that if your spirit leaves your body without enough qi energy enveloping the spirit then it causes dizziness. So the remedy needed is to store up more qi energy in the lower tan tien - behind the belly - and that qi energy surrounds the spirit light body. Also I came across this same experience for astral travel - the spinning experience - from other sources. One was Peter Kingsley referring to ancient Greek Pre-Socratic documents on going into trance - for real meditation - having that spinning sensation first. Then Robert Bruce discussed the same spinning sensation for the real OBE experience. Robert Bruce, Astral Dynamics: A new approach to Out-of-Body Experience (Hampton Roads, 1999), p. 411 Both Bruce and Robert Monroe emphasize the energy of the lower tan tien - or behind the belly energy needing to be built up first. The Bushmen, the original human culture that are the source for shamanic training - also describe this spinning issue and say to focus the energy more as the N/om energy - again the behind the belly energy. But anyway during that same time again when my energy was very pure and the qi very strong my third eye was opened I also saw the qigong master continually create "yin shen" spirits out of the top of his head while he was sending out healing energy in full lotus meditation. Then the other qigong master said that the qigong master was sending out individualized spirits to go heal people - each one created individualized for a special person. So - that is a very advanced level of astral travel where you create - one person - multiple astral bodies that go out and travel around at the same time. On an even more advanced level it could be done with "yang shen" or physical bodies. Normally the "yin shen" can not be seen by other people. For example one time I had the qigong master doing healing on me and I could feel his spirit healing me while I was in my bed at my house at night. It was a bit strange but anyway - so since my third eye had closed up I wasn't able to see the spirit from his astral travel. There are different levels of astral travel - a lower form is having your "yin qi" leave your body - that has to use your "yin shen" as a kind of guiding pilot wave - alchemically the qi and shen are combined. But this is more like etheric energy dealing just with the lower emotional blockages being healed - still that energy can go through walls, ceilings, through the wind, long distance - it's a type of psychic energy, not real "yang qi" spirit energy for astral travel. So again for real OBEs you have to build up the qi energy so it is yang qi and this ability is actually quite rare. Real astral travel is an advanced state, contrary to New Age claims. This is also clarified by Shri Dhyanyogi-ji in his memoir: This House Is On Fire! Oh yeah and even the qigong master mentioned recently that once he had done too much healing on many people and so then he got the same dizziness as a spacetime vortex and so he had his advanced students teach a qigong class for him - so he could meditation to recharge his qi energy. I did have another OBE type experience from qigong. I was in full lotus listening to Coasttocoastam and this person called in saying the were frozen in their bed and they couldn't move but they felt this heavy weight on themselves. I knew that what they really felt was the weight of their own body - but they were experiencing it externally and so that's why their own body appeared to be an external experience. So then I fell asleep in full lotus and suddenly I woke up wondering who was in my bed and I had the same sensation where I could feel the weight of a body in my bed but I knew it wasn't me and then just briefly I could see my own body in full lotus and as soon as I saw myself - my spirit quick shot back into my body on the bed in full lotus. haha. I've also had precognitive dreams many times - and so that is also a type of astral travel - but it's difficult to say - since you can't really do a "double blind" standard on the source of the consciousness that is having the dream. As people have pointed out - if you leave your body - who are "you" to leave? If you have a dream of the future that comes true then your present state of being awake in a body is also a dream. And so which one of you is more real? What enables your future to come true in great detail? There must be some impersonal formless consciousness that is beyond spacetime and that is the real you. One last qigong OBE experience - I was testing Salvia against the qigong third eye full lotus energy. So Salvia is considered one of the strongest psychotropic psychedelics - it's not technically a psychedelic - but more like super super strong pot and the most common reaction people have to one strong hit of Saliva is that their spirit flies out of their body! This freaks people out so badly that even very experienced strong psychedelic users are afraid to take a 2nd hit of saliva. I read about this happening to people online and then I met 2 people personally who had that happen. So when I tested salvia - I didn't take the strongest dose possible but still I was in full lotus and I would black out if I took a very strong hit. The first couple hits I had very strong psychedelic experiences where my whole life seemed like it had been a dream. But anyway I also had a third eye opening experience from the salvia where I could see this rainbow aura around my hands - even though my eyes were closed, in a pitch black room, with a dark winter hat pulled over my eyes. But anyway Salvia wears off fast - and one time I took a strong hit sure enough Salvia tried to pull my spirit out of my body - only since I was in full lotus flexing my pineal gland - the electromagnetic qi was stronger than the Salvia. So instead of flying into the floor or some nearby astral dimension - my spirit was stuck just half way out of my body. So for a while there were "two" of me - my left brain awareness laughing at the Salvia - while I'm in full lotus - and then my spirit half out of the top of my body but at an angle. It was a very strange sensation but it didn't last that long. I was glad my qi energy was stronger than the Salvia because I wouldn't want a plant substance controlling where I would go in the astral realms.

http://www.formosahuasca.com/index.php Be careful what you ask for but yes there are ways to get a taste of what it will be like. Trust me - you're glad to come back to life. When I say life - I mean the left-brain ego dominance. To say that dreams are just part of the mind is not true - some dreams are precognitive and so this is, actually, our spirit making contact with our soul. If a dream can come true in great detail 3 years later as it did for me - I not only wrote it down in my journal but said I thought it would come true - so that has to mean that our current waking state is also a type of dream. In fact if you do have a dream of the future - it is more vivid with stronger sense perceptions than our current waking state. What does that tell you? In fact if you do the qigong training intensely then your sense of perception is much greater - smell - you can smell cancer, just like a dog can be trained to smell cancer. The qigong masters can smell over the phone. So - from studying the NDE experiences - people definitely have much stronger perceptions when they die. So it would seem our spirit tied to our body actually deadens our senses despite the left-brain ego as dominant when tied to our body. To leave our body is also to go through a spacetime vortex - again we can access our future. So if time is malleable like that - the future and past are still events of our individual spirit. Yet what enables our individual spirit to perceive things in time is an impersonal eternal process of energy creation. It is said that you can't "see" God - and in the Emptiness it is said there are no perceptions of senses - only the sense of being remains. A kind of deep blissful being. And so yes deep sleep is very much like this - only an awake consciousness of the deep sleep state remains. So being passed out and waking up confused as to how long you were passed out or why you passed out - what happened - this indicates a lack of internal qi energy that guides the spirit energy. For example if you leave your body for astral travel before your qi energy in your lower tan tien is built up enough - what happens is there is a spacetime vortex that spins around you, causing great dizziness. I know because I had this happen to me - but it was only after years of studying that I found the Taoist Yoga: Alchemy and Immortality book explaining this - the solution is to store up more qi energy in the lower tan tien. So it is the qi energy that enables self-awareness after death. I would say that otherwise we go through a lot of confusion at first before we realize we are dead - as this is described in NDES. Since our perceptions will be much greater - also we have a life review since all our perceptions are stored subconsciously and holographically. So when we meditate deeply it activates this qi energy for self-awareness as a mini-life review. But if we have a big heart awakening then we can get a full life review - it is a vision that unfolds before us but our life is not played out chronologically, rather events happening years apart are connected as the deeper meaning of how the later event resolved an energy blockage from the former.... And so if the above link is considered as enabling a post-death type experience with that deep heart awakening - what happens is that anything you experience as an external perception is always-already a projection of your spirit, your astral body's internal blockage getting resolved. As soon as you make that connection between the difference of external and the internal meaning - the two collapse into their eternal holographic substrate of the astral realm - the impersonal energy that is eternal created from the process of complementary opposites. So for example when a qigong master sends a dead person's spirit back to the Emptiness - it would appear to be like as described in the end of the Taoist Yoga: Alchemy and Immortality book - the spirit is basically sucked in and transformed via the Emptiness spacetime vortex of the qigong master and then in turn the qigong master is taking that transformed energy and turning it into a healing yin spirit that is sent out of the top of the head. It would then seem that our individualized spirits can be recycled like that via the spacetime vortex that can not be seen but is the impersonal energy creation process itself. When we have visions of the future - that is our own personal recycling of our present perceptions - recycled and cleansed into the Emptiness via an astral realm of stronger perceptions - a higher dimension so to speak. And so when the future then "happens" and it is just a repeat of what we already experienced - thereby enabling us to be emotionally prepared for it - then our spirit is not damaged by the experience and we remain in the blissful being state that is eternally creating new energy. It's a kind of black hole that is turned into a white hole - via a spacetime vortex - that is what precognitive visions are as astral spirit travel. It's stated that the first Enlightenment experience of the Tai Chi which is our immortal spirit before birth and after death - coming out of this creates a state of confusion. In fact before that experience you already obtain spiritual powers and if they are used - then you lose the harmonious resonance with the Emptiness and so you fall back into worldliness - into the mundane reality of normal 3-D materialistic spacetime. But if a person is lucky enough to have the experience again then it may last longer and stabilize until the third eye is finally fully open. That enables a very fast healing time for spacetime travel - so that past blockages can be healed by traveling into the future essentially and bringing that information back into the present to transform the present. Or alternatively a spirit can travel into the past and travel before the blockage happened and then actually prevent the blockage from happening in the past, thereby changing what would be the future - that is changing what is now the present. The qigong masters do this all the time and so already have achieved a type of immortality that means literally putting their lives on the line everyday. But what enables them to do is the impersonal formless awareness as the Emptiness which itself is the eternal process of energy creation and so it is the real immortality that we all are a part of already. You can get a taste of this at death when it causes a huge opening of your heart energy as the spirit source and so just as with deep bliss from sleep - at death even more love as deep bliss is experienced - more so than at any point while alive. And so we as spirits realize that we weren't actually that alive when in our physical bodies. Of course if a person dies with very strong negative emotions - this can cause confusion and hold the spirit to earth to be reincarnated much sooner. the tibetan monks would feel the dead body of a person to see which part of it got cold last and that indicates where the spirit left the body based on where the qi was most strongly focused in the body. If the pineal gland had not been opened up based on a strong heart-love connection then the spirit may not leave via that emotion of eternal heart love. Or if a person was not very religious - the real intentions of a person are this electromagnetic energy that originates from the heart as the "yuan chi" or prenatal qi energy and originally was unified with the heart's spirit energy. I would say if a person's yuan qi is strong enough then even if their spirit leaves their body the yuan qi is going to pull the spirit back. And this connection will be conveyed by other spirits encountered as happens in NDEs - or by the Emptiness itself as the message of the Sadguru - Jesus, God, insert spiritual master here. But when we die for real then our individual spirits before reincarnating first get recycled back through an impersonal soul energy state - and this is why we don't remember the previous incarnations - unless of course we first build up our qi energy so that it can also be unified with this impersonal energy state via the heart, which originally was unified with the impersonal energy state in all of us - the spacetime vortex itself. ghost pollution is a very real issue and the qigong masters are constantly sending ghosts back to the Emptiness - to heal the ghosts - and so they get sent into a brighter light which means a spirit energy that has that stronger qi energy unified with it, as is the case with the qigong masters. But then if the ghost is not confused and attached to their lower emotions - sometimes the qigong master is enacting with other spiritual masters called down to help do the healings - spiritual masters who also have strong qi energy and so remain self-aware after death. It is kind of like with our dreams - often they are confusing and we don't control our dreams - but other times the dreams are wild and yet we understand them in real time - and then we can become lucid of the dreams we were are somewhat awake while dreaming, directing what happens in the dream. But then when we have a dream of the future - also we can dreams that physically change reality. This is detailed in a book called Transcendent Dreaming - and the person would wake up with those physical transformations intact, brought back with their astral body with such strong qi energy that it transforms their matter. So we can see how that is what the qigong masters do when they heal us - and so it is actually easier to heal a person when they are asleep since their left-brain ego doesn't get in the way and more so - even their spirit could leave their body so that it is easier for the qigong master to focus on healing the body. For example a qigong master shared how when he healed this dog that was about to die - the dog would leave its body so it was easier for the body to get healed. Since the dog didn't have left-brain dominant ego it was easier to interact with the shamanic visionary realm. You can - the qigong master shared - how one client was healed of strong brain damage - although they were barely cognizant with left-brain awareness the person being healed could actually see the angelic spirits that had been called down to help in the healing - while the supposedly normal adults in the room were not able to see the angelic spirits. And so a person seemingly brain damaged actually was able to be more spiritually aware once their body's qi energy was activated to harmonize with the spirit energy. We can leave our body on different levels - leaving the body via the yin chi energy is just our spirit energy using qi energy to transform the lower emotions of the people around us. So that when the qi is unified with the spirit then there is a small spacetime vortex that reveals the impersonal holographic truth of eternal energy creation - what we perceive as external "other" people around us or live forms actually manifests internally as yin chi energy emotional blockages and then when we transform those blockages internally in our bodies - we have at the same time, like a mutual orgasm, also transformed the other person's internal emotional blockages. And so just with yin chi energy there is already a type of post-death reality experienced with stronger perceptions from the third eye-heart connection. There are stories of yogis who at death leave their body but then go into the body of a younger person - essentially possessing the person or adding to their spirits. At the same time when the qigong masters do healing they send out a personalized yin shen spirit which then heals the person. And so in that way the qigong masters are holographically - astrally - within the people they have healed. From that experience we realize that people and life grows from the inside out - and so since physical death is actually an external event - what happens internally with the qi and spirit energy can be a very different matter. For example it's possible for a person's spirit to go out of the anus at death - why? Because their qi energy was not strong enough to focus the spirit out of the heart through the pineal gland. But I think for most people who work to be decent human beings - who are sincere about the real religious teachings of forgiveness and kindness and compassion - and so then when the spirit leaves the body the focus is on the eternal unification with the qi energy which is the secret source of the physical heart - the unified spirit-qi energy. We can not visualize eternity but we can listen to it. It is heard as a loud OHM sound emanating out of the heart-universe.

That's one way of looking at it. To me that verges too much towards nihilism for my liking. I am not talking about physical rebirth rather the continuation of consciousness in the subtle realms after death. There are all sorts of accounts of people receiving teachings from other subtle realms, some historical Tibetan Buddhist masters received their entire training in the dream realm. I myself have had experiences meditating on masters who have physically died a long time ago. You are focusing on what causes rebirth of the ego, but did the Buddha simply vanish and dissolve into nothing when he became enlightened and the process of graspng and aversion fell away? no there was an aware being who continued on existing even when the cause of rebirth of a seperate ego was extinguished

did you ever have a proper out of body experience? can you leave as consciousness at will? have you ever participated in another person's dream? when/if your consciousness was out of body, did other people see you as a "ghostly" figure? could they sense you? them being at a waking state, and you not ? i see your religion is budhism, i would be interested to know what are the appropriate definitions for such phenomena, in budhist terms? since that should be familiar to you saying that everything is really just a mind creation is being an escapist in my point of view. sure, in the whole aspect of things, you could say everything is not real, physicality is not real, its just a mind program being played out. but what good does that bring in perceiving the nature of reality, when you ignore everything that does not fit to your preconceived definition, or someone elses definition for that matter, no matter how important that person was who left those interpretations of the definitions seems like blind faith to me, and it works wonders to reinforce the limited mind's protective mechanisms, as usual

one with compassion may desire to remain in some form and or reincarnate to help others until the end of this great cosmic cycle...for the "dream" is not absolutely real (depending on certain interpretations) but it real enough and exists to an "x" degree to be worked on and with, BESIDES, samsara is nirvana when properly understood...

The journey so romantically spoken of is non-existent. Its all just a play created in the mind. There is no benefit speculating on the future. If you are a practitioner of some significance, the bardo of death will not be any different from that of life... all a dream. If grasping and clinging is present at that point of departure into the moment after the last breath, then the subtle consciousness will seek rebirth. This can be verified now while living - simply direct your mind to something and boost it with some motivational intent, and see what happens. Why would those last moments pre-death be different? Its not so difficult to imagine, in a general sense, the frame of mind of those who are about to depart - look at the faces of those who die a natural death compared to those who die prematurely or violently - completely different. Understanding how each moment evolves and causes the next moment is not about falling under the weight of determinism - its about awareness of certain laws which can be tapped and utilised to extract the best possible outcome with the potential thats there.

Yes, certainly can. Not sure exactly what info is needed, but here's a quick overview: Background: Started meditating as I wanted to get out of social phobia. At the time I saw a psychologist. I got a huge insight into my condition one day, and felt I had gotten over the existential part of the social phobia (still feel that), Next day, the Kundalini imbalance started. Personal practice: I found Michael Winn's healing tao system two years ago and starting practicing it in order to harmonize and ground the energy. Am nearly done with the fusion practices, soon moving on to healing love and the first Kan and Li formula. Do the orbit, pan-gu and standing in stillness breathing every day. Have done all fundamentals. Sex life: None whatsoever right now. Stopped watching porn recently because I don't want to watch women have sex with men that they're uninterested in. Stopped masturbating to save jing. It's going well. Am still dating however. Physical constitution: Good. Healthy, lift weights. Athletic. Social and family life: Come from a loving nuclear family. Have many friends. Emotional/mental: Tendency to hypermasculinity, especially in the past. Need structure, order in many things. Can't force a smile . Social anxiousness gradually becoming better and better. Points of interest:Think I may have a left-right male/female imbalance. The right side of my face looks different than the left (right looks more angry and not as firm). The left arm feels lighter than the right arm. Think I experienced a spiritual awakening around August last year. Feels like there were layers of my body that were scraped off. Since then things have been interesting. Feel like I know what infinity is. Vast increase in creativity. Some nights I almost don't sleep. Much less reactive. More moral about a lot of things. Sometimes I feel I have infinite opportunity to express and manifest myself. More understanding of my fellow human beings. Other than that I'm employed in a corporate job, which is boring. But I'm building my dream career on the side and recently it seems like we got a breakthrough (we're a team). So am happy with that .

Josama, thanks for the story. Man, it was heart-breaking to read.. You've had a tough ride. You've got some heart I must say, and it also seems like you've gotten a lot of wisdom. That makes me very happy . I was moved by the story because I have had problems myself too. I suffered from social phobia for ten years, and then came an unexpected kundalini awakening. I've been in the black depths of life too, although not as serious as you have. Now I'm doing much better. I am on the right path and am building my dream-life step by step. I no longer am constricted by social phobia and my qigong practice is grounding and harmonizing the kundalini experience. I wanted to reach out with some advice, for what it's worth: Regarding your story, I wouldn't want to do a single edit. It's great as it is. You speak from the heart and it's clear to see. It's going to connect with some people. Secondly, if you suffer from possession try and look up Robert Bruce who is an astral travel expert, and also an expert in removing entities and the like. I think his site is called astralbob or something like that. I haven't had that problem myself; I've only seen negative entities (astral critters) and they aren't dangerous. But I can imagine the extreme irritation and fear you must be experiencing. Thirdly, upon reading your story I wondered to myself if you perchance still deeply regret watching that child pornography and beat yourself up over it? Don't get me wrong - child pornography is horrible, and yes, we shouldn't support it by watching it. You did make a mistake. But here's the thing: We all make a lot of mistakes in life. I know I made a ton. There are people I hurt, even when I was subtly conscious of it. There are opportunities I didn't take, even though I knew I had to. And I used to spend years beating myself up over it. Until I realized that there's always a reason for why we do the things that we do - even though we are subtly aware that we're doing the wrong thing. Something inside us - our intuition, our curiosity, our fear - depending on the actual situation - compels us sometimes to do the things we deep down know are wrong. And then we regret it. And through our regret we - at some point - learn not to do it again. There's always a reason for why we did something. And it's important to recognize and understand that. You did what you at that point were capable of doing, and you need to forgive yourself for that. It probably couldn't have been any other way. We sometimes are the person that we are - with the flaws that we have. It's important to understand that, and to embrace ourselves for the human beings we at the end of the day still are. I don't beat myself up over lost opportunities or errors anymore. Instead, I understand my wrongful actions - and by understanding them from the inside out I am able to change them if I should be in a similar situation in the future again. From that point of view, there's nothing to really regret. We did what we were capable of doing at that point. And we gained wisdom from it. Perhaps you already know this. I just wanted to share in case it makes a difference. Other than that, I would like to thank you for your insightful piece. I gained a lot from it. You've come a long way, and with your mindset I am sure you will go even further . PS: Final note: Michael Winn's qigong system is excellent of ridding oneself of negative thought-patterns, once you get to the fusion practices.. just a tip in case you want to widen your spiritual practice at some point

yeah. my style was pretty much based on fighting application Yep .... that's 'fighting application' yes .... but people think I am a bit nuts when I talked about 'dream training' ....but then got confused when I came up with new applications they hadn't conceived of before ( I even got accused of going to another teacher . Some of it was cross-training as well, but they knew I did that - it was more the 'imaginative combination' of principles from different systems than the direct mixing of techniques - if that makes sense.) Well, I enjoy an MA concept rave too ... and like to avoid clashes ... but 'when experiences lack resonance ? ' ?

I didn't mean anything specific. The principle of cultivating the internal here is to develop speed and circularity, which when applied at a high level have very few limitations. People who really develop skill to this level have little reason to use it for fighting. If I can move faster than the strike, then I can simply close in with horizontal power to where the weapon is awkward, where there is leverage. Circularity can be used to step in low while spinning into a twist while bending under a strike (that you are stepping into), even as you snake out a hidden strike, all one fluid change. I like the concept of training via dream meditation, which might be considered an advanced form of opponent visualization allowing for scenarios as realistic as one's mind is able to create, offering potential for greater exploration than physical energy expenditure allows. I prefer to speak of concepts rather than experience to avoid clashes arising when experiences lack resonance.

Yesterday I went for my first in-person qigong master healing at http://springforestqigong.com I mean with the "original" qigong master there. I was referred to him by the qigong master who was helping me out before, the who was trained by the original qigong master. All I can say is it is a very amazing experience to have someone focus energy on you - and you feel a laser like blissful heat focused deep in your body. It is very relaxing and a deep loving energy. So then afterwards he told me where he detected blockages and that was exactly where I had felt him focus his energy with the laser-love bliss heat. So that matched up well. Now in the past I have gotten a phone healing from him - maybe more than one - but when I got the phone healing it was even deeper healing in some sense - it was a deep heart energy. But also when I got the phone healing I had fasted for three days - and so maybe that's why I felt the energy deeper and at that time he said my jing energy was very weak - obviously since I had fasted for 3 days. This time I had a couple eggs with olive oil in the morning to make sure I had some jing energy. haha. Anyway the qigong master says actually it's easier for him to do phone healings since it's more impersonal and so he picks up less superficial blockages. So again maybe that's why the phone healing felt like even a deeper heart energy. But still in person - the energy felt more focused - on specific body parts - and like I said he backed that up by explaining what he was doing. Also he said how he hadn't seen me in a while and it was nice to see me. So that was nice to have some personal interaction. Still I remember the qigong master saying how when people come to him to get healed they often want to talk but the healing really doesn't involve talking and so I just answered back to him in one word responses and didn't instigate any comments or questions. I personally reminded myself not to engage him in any conversations. I mean he started out with a questionaire that he was writing down answers on - so asked me if I had felt any pains or aches and I said no. He asked me, "How can I help you today?" So then I told him a few sentences. He said - so you need to be more centered. Anyway still I had told myself before I went into the healing - when I made the appointment that I would just keep going back until I felt I was really healed. I definitely felt better and he treated things that I didn't even know about. But still I am very sensitive to food and I get the internal tingling from any kind of sugar - like even sugar in milk or sugar in kale. So I plan to keep going in to get healings. I mean my reaction to sugar is not that unusual - since I know from my research it is the qi energy neutralizing the free radicals from the sugar. I do think I am better from the healing I received yesterday. Still I use tea tree oil as a strong anti-oxidant. I know the qigong heailngs are expensive - especially for the 25% of the population in the U.S. making a poverty wage like myself. But still - just think how mind boggling amazing it is to be able to experience something like this - a laser bliss love energy without anyone even touching you. I have had 15 years of experiences with the qigong masters - or at least going back 15 years. Actually the first qigong master I experienced was 20 years ago. Still - I have seen some amazing post-life things like ghosts and yin spirits and precognitive visions and pulling someone's spirit out of their skull and healing people - strangers thanking me, etc. So the main practical advice from the qigong master was that I should make sure to keep my shoulders lowered down when I meditate as this will help to bring my energy down in my body to center it. Other than that - I was in full lotus when the qigong master entered the room where I was waiting for him and he just said - oh just stay that like, that's perfect. haha. I know the qigong master can see inside my body, etc. I know it was 15 minutes of healing - but again it was a very amazing experience. My dreams last night were much more vivid. I had this dream about how if I could see all my past lives then how did I not know that I was not seeing my future life also - like my present life is actually a vision of a future life being dreamt by a past life. haha. I mean I have had precognitive dreams come true many times - in great detail - which just shows that our present awake state is also a type of dream. So why not my whole life as a type of dream from a past life? All I'm saying is I've had a lot of people contact me over the years about qigong with me posting about it online. There's no substitution for just actually experiencing the energy of the qigong masters. I know there are other qigong masters out there - the first qigong master I experienced was Effie P. Chow. I have not got a personal healing from her but she did fill the room with qi energy back in 1995 and had us make qi balls and I could feel a strong magnetic force pushing my hands apart. Then she blew the fuse in the room behind us, as the security guard who wandered in wondering what was going in, informed us. haha. Also I've very thank for the previous healings from the other qigong master who cleared out other blockages for me to help purify me to see the original qigong master again.

THE IMPORTANCE OF PRACTICE AND POTENTIAL HAZARDS "Do not be content with just intellectual comprehension—take the teachings to heart. Recognize the Dzogchen view, and maintain it at all times with mindfulness. Do not succumb to habitual patterns; let all thoughts come and go. See everything as a dream, as a magical display. With this understanding, perform all of your activities with bodhichitta. If you practice like this, you’re on retreat even while you’re working in the big city. There are two stages of practice. The first stage is called the “practitioner chasing meditation.” This means that in the beginning and for a considerable time afterward, a great deal of effort is required. Meditation does not come easily or naturally. Our habitual patterns are still strong, and practice requires continuous acts of will. But if we continue on this path with courage and commitment, we will certainly reach the second stage known as “meditation chasing the practitioner.” At that time, there will no longer be a need for effort—no more, “Oh, now I must meditate.” Now practitioner and practice have merged. Whether we’re walking, talking, sitting, or sleeping, we’ll always be unwaveringly in the meditation state. Even if we try, we won’t leave the meditation state. But until that time comes, we must exercise diligence. We must keep up our practices. We must continue to chase meditation until meditation catches us. While we’re chasing meditation, progress will be made and some realization will come. But if we mistake this for the final attainment and discontinue our practice, whatever realization we have attained will be blown away like a rainbow the moment the stormy winds of habitual patterns return. The teachings say that we must maintain our practice with powerful, hook-like mindfulness until our realization is absolutely stable."" ~ Venerable Khenpo Rinpoches The Beauty of Awakened Mind Dzogchen: Lineage of the Great Master Shigpo Dudtsi (pg 177)