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Actually, Dao Yin Shu focuses on complete unification, so refinement within the physical vessel is continuous. It ceases when there are no more negative aspects left to revise; then only Yang Shen remains. When we practise Dao Yin Shu, we are always in a gradual process of transformation from Yin Shen to Yang Shen. When there is adequate "unification" of all constituent elements; the Yang spirit can exit the body to continue refinement on a higher level. This takes more time, on the other hand, Yin Shen and awareness projection is often achieved by Dao Yu in the early stages. I know of cases where it happens on the first day after Dao Ying (Initiation). Fundamentally, achievement is endless - such that it reflects the ultimateness of the Dao. However within specific dimentions there are barriers which must be transcended. So there is a form of conceptual segregation on a microscopic level and uninterrupted perpetuity on a macroscopic ontological level - Taiji and Wuji. Maybe you didn't clean your ears - Or maybe it was my bad music in the background? : ) Every Hu Fa Shen has the ability to manifest countless transformation bodies. Each independently conscious as an aspect of the unified source soul, in the form of a Xian Shen or a Tian Shen - depending on what type of HFS was assigned to you. For example, Er Lang Shen is registered through Tai Shang Lao Jun as an authorised Hu Fa Shen of the Celestial branch of Xiao Yao Pai and our clan Tai Shang Men (The Supreme Gate). He instructs many, many, many Dao Yu here on earth as well as in other dimensions. As a simple example, during his ceremonial observance, when a Dao Yu lights incense and invites Er Lang Shen to guide them in a session of Dao Yin Shu, so does the whole school of 140,000 Dao Yu. All at a similliar time on that particular day; and he leads them all simultaneously. Space and Time are not an obstacle in Wuji and even if Hu Fa Shen needs to vibrate down to synchronize with Jing, Qi and Shen in Taiji, in order to interact with your awareness, in case yours isn't yet tuned finely enough to voluntarily exit Taiji and enter Wuji; well, they have more than enough merit (Gong De) to do so. They do it all the time. So, to clarify. Yes, Tai Shang Lao Jun, assigns a Hu Fa Shen to each student. They are independent entities. My Hu Fa Shen was my master from one of my former lives when I lived in China as a poor man. I guess someone likes my bad jokes, because he must have volunteered. The lower self or the acquired mind which forms after birth is not the Soul or it's Yuan Shen projection. Yes it is possible for Yang Shen to project its consciousness, but in XYP your implication would lead to a redundancy error, because what you're describing ie: the interaction of a higher-self with a lower-self - is simply the default configuration of a human. You cannot "assume" or be another soul, but you can share in its phenomenal experience. None of this should be of surprise. Just because in XYP we don't name our movements something flamboyant like "The Tesla Coiler" or "The Spirit Qi Pump" - it doesn't detract from the basis of all movement; the physical and subtle body. Let me clarify myself, while I clarify myself :> What I mean to say is that the physical limbs and torso are limited by the mechanical maneuverability and mobility of the joints. The electromagnetic channel network of the meridians is also pretty much the same in everyone, almost all the time, with the exception of... well, that doesn't matter now. If you move your hand up you will stimulate meridians A B and C if you move it down, meridian J, if you rotate it, push it, tense it, lift it, drop it, swing it - it will stimulate your subtle body in different ways. The body is used to choreograph these complicated symphonies, assuming the role of proxy to the manipulation of the underlying subtle energy within. Life is very mysterious and very interesting : ) Xiao Yao Pai doesn't compete with any system or school. We just want to facillitate the process of cultivation for others by providing support. If someone wishes to fully follow the path of Xian Tian Dao Yin Shu and make this their primary practice, it is fine. If they wish to practice in combination with something else, usually it's also fine, unless XTDYS has already been the main practice for a long time, in which case it's advisable to stay onboard with both feet as there are many things at the later stages that we do differently to other schools. Either way your HFS sees and knows everything you think, do, feel, wish, dream and fear, so you can't run or hide, haha. He/She is always there to help if you care enough to nurture your relationship. At the end of the day, they don't owe you anything and you don't owe them anything. This is freedom.

According to what you wrote, antarabhava is in your mind what guided you to this birth, and gave you "fortunate" circumstances in a Buddhist family and karmic links. You believe you are an avatar of that, you do believe you are a special being, that's the definition of someone believing himself to be special: that it differentiates you from others in the form of a privilege. You might not consciously believe that to the degree of a Messiah, but there is clearly a construct within you that says these things. These are all beliefs by the way. You cannot deny, you cannot affirm. These are words that stem from belief, which you later state that you do not have any of. Your claims to ordinariness sounds just like false humility after what you wrote about your mother giving you a blessed birth, fortunate dream involving prayers, being a continuation from a bardo state, being naturally gifted with conditions for the dharma. To me your claims to ordinariness sound like a mere apologetic stance. The obvious fact here is that you are not ordinary. Anyone can see that from a 450 obsessive, paradoxically an almost self-obsessive book, written by a 21 year old who believe he is now enlightened. And you know this! You know you are not ordinary and now you pretend as if you were. Or you are totally out of touch with what ordinariness is, or yourself. Direct insight to you. Keep that in mind. It was within your awareness that you had a direct transformation. Deconstruction is another form of construction. Those words mean only what they do in relation to one another. But ultimately both are movements of the mind, its transformations. Constructiveness can seem dense and deconstruction less so, but both are transitions. What do you wake up to when you awake from unicorns? Horses? And what makes you believe horses are any realer than unicorns? "ALL metaphysical constructs, and beliefs, and positions"? Don't bullshit yourself. Everything you wrote above is bound in those. Being free from all metaphysical constructs and beliefs and positions is just another position. It might seem like you no longer experience held beliefs, or certain cyclical habits such as your mind returning to the notion of a "self," but that's just a habit now thrown away. Beliefs condition experience, give rise to new habits. You have just chosen to experience life more spontaneously and freely. It doesn't make it any more true or false than a man living with a "self." Please don't quote these things. Speak from your own mind and not borrowed words. We are not speaking about Buddhism. We are speaking about you because I think it's far more interesting to delve into who you are than these doctrines. Can't you differentiate Buddhism from yourself anymore? You don't understand the foremost things about illusion. Illusion does not negate something's existence. If a billion people believed in unicorns and dreamed of them, how can you say there are no unicorns with any certainty? If a person was under the fear of a monster in his dream and that fear was experienced, what is to say that monster is any less real than a tiger you might run into in real life? You are very close minded. Of course, close mindedness is a taboo in our age. Your second paragraph here basically says "I am very open minded, but you cannot change my mind from what I've seen"!! That's the very definition of close mindedness, the unwillingness to change. All along you were just making yourself climb Thusness's ladder. Your interest in Advaita mirrors his interest in advaita. All the vocabulary and methods of thinking you use are based on those stages. Remember when you first introduced ruthless truth? You didn't like that site because oh it "resonated with you" but because you wanted to deepen your convictions in anatta, which happened to be the next stage in the Thusness ladder. Don't bullshit yourself. These teachings didn't draw you within their own context, but only because they were in line with your intellectual and personal commitment to Thusness' teachings. They seem "true" to you because they agreed with you already believed in. You were never opened to the idea of an alternative beyond that. Your entire spiritual journey is just this one directional effort to become, confirm, and experience the ideas of Thusness. You should just give them link to Thusness and tell that that's what you followed. Of course the Buddha's teachings "resonate" with you next. It's what's on the next step. I know it sounds bad to say "I think buddhism is the best and better than all the other religions out there. It will lead you furthest in terms of human potential" but you should say that since it's what you believe, instead of a half assed disclaimer before it, "oh I think all religions are great" with an asterick next to it saying, "but Buddhism is best." Yes, remind yourself that is your your own consciousness' paradigm. And it still is and always will be.

Mere elaborations of my basic statement that my path and motivation lies mostly in faith and experience. Antarabhava is not a guide. Antarabhava means intermediate body, or the being in bardo state, i.e. my 'soul' or in more Buddhist sounding terms, 'rebirth-consciousness' or 'linking-consciousness'. I don't mean to say I am a divine avatar, a special being taking birth to 'save other beings'... That is the least of my intention to convey and to me, the least empowering idea - that my enlightenment is already 'predestined' and that I am just a Messianic god coming to save 'lost souls'. I am just an ordinary person who with interest, guidance, and practice, was able to realize this. I am not any more special than anyone else. I think this is a far more empowering notion - that every ordinary person like myself is able to achieve this, not some special avatars. And anyway I don't think I am some emanations of a great Bodhisattva, if I were, I would not have fallen under the chains of afflictions (before my awakening anyway). I am really just an ordinary person in almost every ways - except that I was able to find a way that leads to liberation. But I can't deny that I have some karmic connections to dharma from previous lifetimes. This karmic connection and probably intention or aspiration to attain awakening probably has influenced my birth in a conducive environment for dharma practice. But as a matter of fact, it is not a matter of faith anymore after I had direct insight. But yes my journey did have its beginning with faith. As a matter of fact this is not true. Why? Because my experience is not constructed - it is a realization that deconstructs, not constructs. It sees through illusions, not add constructs to perception. It wakes you up from your dream of unicorns (i.e. illusion of self and objects as being independent or existent), frees you from ALL metaphysical constructs and beliefs and positions. I have to repeat this again because it basically sums it up: "The great 11th Nyingma scholar Rongzom points out that only Madhyamaka accepts that its critical methodology "harms itself", meaning that Madhyamaka uses non-affirming negations to reject the positions of opponents, but does not resort to affirming negations to support a position of its own. Since Madhyamaka, as Buddhapalita states "does not propose the non-existence of existents, but instead rejects claims for the existence of existents", there is no true Madhyamaka position since there is no existent found about which a Madhyamaka position could be formulated; likewise there is no false Madhyamaka position since there is no existent found about which a Madhyamaka position could be rejected." ... As Thusness have said in A casual comment about Dependent Origination Dependent Origination is too a raft; it is like the stick that stirs the fire and is eventually consumed by fire without leaving any trace. Loppon Namdrol have said elsewhere: "In other words, right view is the beginning of the noble path. It is certainly the case that dependent origination is "correct view"; when one analyzes a bit deeper, one discovers that in the case "view" means being free from views. The teaching of dependent origination is what permits this freedom from views." I no longer have beliefs of a metaphysical sort (pertaining to existence of self, reality, etc) - beliefs are unexamined positions, but what if you have a direct insight and realization that all such positions are entirely illusory. You no longer have beliefs. This is what Buddha calls Stream Entry, which also means the end of Self-View - sakkadayaditthi. It also ends doubt and attachment to rites and rituals. The ending of these fetters is a permanent attainment - and the realization is permanent, once seen cannot be unseen. As I said before: If someone else is able to point me to a deeper experience apart from what I have already experienced and is able to give valuable pointers to my practice, of course why not? I'll be glad to learn whatever I can. I am not as close minded as you think. I visit bookstores to find books from true practitioners often. I don't say "I am the most enlightened person in the world" or "no one is more enlightened than me". But what's seen is seen - you cannot convince me of something there is no doubt or illusion about due to my experiential realization. For example, you cannot tell me 'self exists' - this is bullshit, as illusory as the notion of a santa claus or a rabbit with horns. I've already woken up from that dream and there is nothing you can say that can make me go asleep again - what's seen cannot be unseen. Try as you may, you are like convincing someone who woke up from a nightmare that the monster he saw actually is real - it simply will not work. p.s. Something I wrote to someone a few weeks ago: "Anyway, on a sidenote, this is all part of the process - when I was in I AM phase, what really drew my attention (despite my being Buddhist and having taken formal refuge in Buddhism since I was 2 - I definitely do not limit my learnings to Buddhism) was really those Advaita teachings, Ramana Maharshi, modern teachers like John Wheeler, some Zen teachings like Ch'an Master Hsu Yun on self-inquiry and so on. Then when I got to non-dual, much of the neo-Advaita teachings, some Zen teachings and so on start to attract me a lot. When I initially got to Anatta (or even slightly before), the AF teachings really interest me a lot - I started reading a lot of their articles. Why? Because we are all drawn to different teachings based on our experience. When something we read resonates our understanding, experience, and so on, when we feel a heart-to-heart recognition of the message in it, we will naturally be drawn to it. After undergoing more deeply the twofold emptiness, what draws me is the suttas, the sutras, the traditional teachings of the Buddha, etc. Who knows what may draw my attention or attract me in the future - I don't know. But right now, it seems that a lot of the traditional teachings are really clear, speaks to my heart, etc. I'm not saying you should start reading sutras (maybe you already had) - in fact if you want to realize I AM, I will not tell you to read Buddhism, for example I passed a friend all my Advaita books because he wanted to realize I AM. So that is where you start. So if you want to attain AF, then go for it and practice AF, but don't limit yourself to AF. As I hadn't limit myself to Hinduism, to AF, or even Buddhism, I am able to utilize whatever resonates with me at that moment, and that may change as my practice progresses and moves on." Of course I know this. When I said 'Presence', I didn't have Buddhism in mind (well of course Buddhism talks about it too and profoudly but I didn't have Buddhism in particular in mind). In fact as I said - Advaita was what interested me in those days. In fact before Advaita, Eckhart Tolle's teachings interested me a lot. I find the Power of Now (found it in early 2006) very practical and inspiring and life transforming, a great text that has great power to transport readers to a deep state of Presence. These experiences has in turn inspired me to really go deeper into spiritual practice. Having this in my memory, I have recommended his stuff to many people including my mother and some others. I have attended all the lessons Oprah held with Eckhart in 2008. Unfortunately his teachings are too commercialized nowadays. So anyway, I never said only Buddhism can lead to true life transforming spiritual experiences. I think all religions should have their own ways and practices and are worth learning. However there are aspects of Buddhism that is peculiar or special. And to quote Buddha's own words which matches my observation thus far: The Buddha said, 12. "Though certain recluses and brahmans claim to propound the full understanding of all kinds of clinging... they describe the full understanding of clinging to sensual pleasures, clinging to views, and clinging to rules and observances without describing the full understanding of clinging to a doctrine of self. They do not understand one instance... therefore they describe only the full understanding of clinging to sensual pleasures, clinging to views, and clinging to rules and observances without describing the full understanding of clinging to a doctrine of self."* - http://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/mn/mn.011.ntbb.html *"8. This passage clearly indicates that the critical differentiating factor of the Buddha's Dhamma is its "full understanding of clinging to a doctrine of self." This means, in effect, that the Buddha alone is able to show how to overcome all views of self by developing penetration into the truth of non-self (anatta)." All views of self lead to suffering (clinging, effort, seeking, desire, craving, and other forms of suffering). If you were to achieve mastery of samadhi and abide as the I AM 24/7, which can have profound life transforming effects, nonetheless you cannot overcome the subtle clinging and achieve liberation. Even if you sit in samadhi bliss all day, this is not the same as liberation - as Buddha left his previous teachers who were masters at samadhi and had their own insights. When you achieve higher insights, your clinging lessens and disappears, your effortlessness increase. You also see how deeper insights are a natural progression of your original experience - the I AM is not denied, but now experienced in all manifestations in all conditions, effortless and spontaneous, without any attempts to re-confirm or any effort needed to sustain any experience. As I told Thusness: I just realized that the four aspects of I am are not just four aspects of I am They are also four aspects of non dual Four aspects of anatta Four aspects of shunyata Etc Those four aspects are refined in every phase as an example: seeing through the need to abide in non dual and dropping it - notice the tendency to reconfirm nondual by giving rise to thoughts like "the sound is as much you as the thought", seeing how ridiculous it is when always already in seeing just sound, in thinking just thought, all thoughts to reconfirm nondual arise due to falsely perceiving there to be a self to be nondual with "that" which turns into one mind and worse still it presumes there to be a subtle split that needs to be resolved when that notion of separation is entirely illusory. The entire movement to become nondual is illusory when anatta is fully seen and all self notions are dropped Intensity of luminosity in non dual - peak is in "no cold no heat", no mind, pure transparency, luminosity as textures and shapes and forms and all details of manifestation Effortlessness - when all latent views are replaced with right views then there's effortlessness of nondual Impersonality - even in nondual and anatta, impersonality must be matured Etc... Thusness replied me, This I have told u. I have told u that later u will understand. (though I didn't remember him telling me - not that he didn't as I'm sure he has, but when I heard it then, I probably didn't understand it at all) He also said, U must also understand that the four aspects are conveyed to u so that in the event u got lost In "I Amness", they can lead u back to the deeper insight of anatta n DO. So as you can see, each arising insight leads to greater freedom and liberation, greater effortlessness, greater bliss. I had seen things from that paradigm. For example when I'm in I AM, to me I took I AM as unchanging, independent, permanent etc... because it really felt that way due to my paradigm and experience. But through contemplation my view progressed. You need to read my e-book.

This guy, Greg Goode, is someone who has a very deep karmic connection with Buddha. This is why even though he had deep insight into I AM and One Mind through Advaita practice (focusing on Sri Atmananda's Direct Path teachings), when he saw the Buddha, he felt intense devotion, resonance and connection with the Buddha and he 'broke down crying'... Now he is studying Madhyamaka, Dependent Origination and Emptiness, taking Buddhist teachings very seriously. Those without karmic connection will not see it so easily. My karmic connection to Thusness is so strong that he was able to teach me in dreams, very profound and important things that aided me in realization - messages that foretold and adviced on what I am going to experience and realize in the following weeks to come, especially during times I do not have much time to meet up with him or talk with him (such as during my basic military training period). This is not possible if I had not had the connection with him - he informed me it was only possible because I had a sort of connection with him similar to Vajrayana's guru-student mind connection. Chogyal Namkhai Norbu Rinpoche talks about this sort of dream-teaching [how he was able to receive teachings from his guru and other awakened beings in dreams] in details in his book 'Dream Yoga'.

I must admit, I don't read any Buddhist or Vedanta or Taoist texts anymore, well not often and not unless there is something specifically unique to merit my attention. For me the best way to understand what's happening in this world and our place within it, past and present, is to experience it without having an ideology corrupt our perception of it. In that sense I am of the school that the world would be a better place without religions, but also I believe that religions tend to fill a need within the psyche of man. In regards to the ego and mind, I used to believe that awhile back, but what I've come to understand since I have had my experience with "light" is that there is no ego and no mind, neither are real in an ultimate sense, but rather they are the creations of this world that is very much an illusion. If anything this world is a dream brought about by an ultimate consciousness. We live each day believing we are real, but in fact we are simply the dreams of this being (and I use that term loosely). That's not to say that we should not endeavor to be kind, compassionate, and understanding of one another, in fact the understanding of this fact should prompt one to be more so, for it is only when we have all awakened to this fact that this dream can end, suffering can end, and then it can all begin again. For me this original consciousness is non-duality, the one that beget two and then three, the creator of heaven and earth, whatever you wish to call it. Mankind has been aware of its existence for millenia but we have always struggled to understand it, simply because it does not exist within the five senses, or even sixth sense of awareness. When one does touch on it, and I have, and I could care less whether other people agree or disagree, then it is even more difficult to explain because the experience cannot be interpreted in a physical sense. I tried over and over to do this but found each explanation more lacking the previous, simply because it is a place where self ceases to exist and your sense of self fades with each passing moment, even then that isn't a correct way of saying it, because there is really no sense of anything passing at all, but rather a stillness where nothing happens. You could say it is quiet, placid, and neutral, but that would not be truthful either. In fact for me it was as if I was nothing and everything in one instance that was every instance. The profound effect this had on me caused me to question much of what I believed, in particular regarding the nature of compassion, love, and knowledge, that somehow all of these were pointless, but what I realized was that my understanding of these concepts up until that point, could not be rectified or compared, that true compassion is something that is done out of a sense of selflessness. The highest form of compassion is not inspired by the heart, but by an innate understanding that you are connected to everything, but you are not everything, that we ease the suffering of others, not because of a vow, but because we understand that allowing another to suffer needlessly is the absolute worst thing one can do to another being. It is not empathy that drives this, but rather sympathy. I'm sure if I wanted to I could make a great deal of money writing a book about this experience, but in the end it would be senseless and a waste of time for anyone to read it, simply because the discussion does not explain anything about it, since the only way one can truly know it is to experience it. When I hear people talk about dependent origination, non-duality, and many other topics, the conversations always ring hollow, simply because nothing they talk about seems to correspond with the actual experience I had. The closest explanation I've found regarding it are within Vedanta and Zen texts, perhaps because they are less inclined to define it and rather simply explain that it does exist. With that said, there is nothing inside me that urges me to share this with others in an attempt to ease their suffering or bring them closer to enlightenment, simply because I believe, one way or another, we will all become aware of "it" when it is our time. I once had a being tell me, "you are here to learn a lesson and when you learn that lesson you will stop coming back." I believe that wholeheartedly now, but I also believe that even what I have learned may not be enough, that the one lesson, the singular truth you talk about, is not true at all, because in order for something to be true, it must also be false. So the lesson I need to learn cannot be true, it cannot be the one and only realization, but rather it is a realization of everything that allows me to say, this is neither here nor there, it is neither hot nor cold, ugly nor beautiful, rather it simply exists within this moment and that this moment is neither past nor future, nor does it depend on time or observation to exist, rather it simply is. I'm not sure if that makes sense to you. Anyways, I was wondering if you ever had the chance to read Allan Watts' "The Book – On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are"? I think you might enjoy it. If you ever do get a chance to read it, I look forward to hearing your thoughts. Aaron

good point. and i also liked this very much 1.The Ultimate Teaching cannot be taught through the senses, however, by metamorphesizing a winged inner sense, metasensory Gnowing can reveal, this mystery to the Heart of our Essence. 2.Space is not understood, but merely perceived as That, which is filled and unfilled with form; the Ultimate Teaching is not dependent on object-ivity, the Whole can only be realized through Wholeness. 3.can a hole be defined by what's around it? that's not describing the hole; likewise, Wholeness is unrecognized outside itself, concepts and forms obscured through illusion. 4.to have a center there must be an boundary, as the ambits dissolve, the center disperses with it; the here becomes meaningless without a there, then the truth of Mind is no longer unfamiliar. 5.what shape and colour is a banana? absorbing all spectral light and reflecting yellow doesn't make it yellow, while under a microscope, neither has it a shape, until we think one is there; the Unborn Mind's essence is beyond shape and form. 6.the predispositions of a thousand eons is incapable of concealing the Still HeartLight of Life; similiarly, the self-imposed cycle of suffering has no power to cloak the HeartLight of Mind's Essence. 7.there is no void nor vaccum in space, it is either defined or undefined; although the true essence of Mind is Light, that StillCauselessLight cannot be seen, only gnown. 8.the essence of Mind resembles space, in that it embraces all that is perceived; Rest, and Be a Silent Witness, for through Love's Stillness, all worlds dissolve. 9.look at the body/form through a microscope, the Mind which you do not see, transcends that Duality; Rest Effortlessly upon the hidden jewel that's you, Letting Go of object-iveness uncovers the Ultimate Teaching. 10.the HeartLight of the Ultimate Teaching cannot be revealed through New Age discourses or preceptual Scriptures, neither from the Mantravada, Paramitas or Tripitaka; the HeartLight of Mind is shrouded by concepts and whimsy's. 11.attachment to morals or immorals cloaks HeartLight's resplendence, yet by holding ones tongue still, the intellect quiets its fears and hopes; then the Causeless fulcrum is embraced, and the efforts of Duality's struggling seesaw vanish. 12.free from the bondage of beliefs, the fiction of discourse and Scripture become apparent; the Ultimate Teaching unbounds the bonds of self-repression, useless suffering and useless pleasure fad away, and the DiamondLight of the Ultimate Teaching glistens authentically. 13.ancestral fear driven zealots deride the Ultimate Teaching, theirs is a life not experienced directly, always viewed from a predisposed past and anticipatory future; Real Compassion and Authentic Teachers do not avoid, when either touches your Heart, ecstasy will unfurl. 14.Joy is realized only by Letting Go of the desire for Joy; desires arise from ordinary knowledge, they want for things which are not; In Reality, everything already is. 15.transcending the effects of Duality, all struggle ceases, the Still Nowness of Life reveals the HeartLight of Mind; embraced by zero, the origin of ecstasy where fear filled pasts and hope laden futures never existed. 16.Unborn Mind and Truth are synonymous to seek truth is to believe there is a lie; the intent of a path is to get, not to Let Go. 17.Enslaved to illusion and its transient conditions, Duality, is like a projection on a theaters screen; belief in the dream entanges the believer in a space-time construct, yet nature's melody does not exist outside of things. 18.renouncing all social and moral rules, liking nothing, hating nothing, and repiring in amoral innocense; aware of Effortlessness is the Sly Man's way to uncovering who we are; walking without footprints, the Ultimate Teaching is realized. 19.we divide life into self and not self, the here and there, subject and object; and then try to intregrate illusion with reality; Enlightenment is the awareness that there is no Duality. 20.Light is not seen, only the conditions which keep it obscure are seen; the Light at the Heart of Essence has no beginning nor end; zero dimension, razer of logic, is the Holder of the Whole, through Unborn Mind, the illusion of motion is evident. 21.Truth is not a path, but a Stillness, a passivity not realized through concepts; concepts are derived and inferred from perception, perception validates only illusion, not Truth. 22.there is nothing to discover, but only to uncover, positive and negative do not exist outside intellect; all situations are neutral and impersonal, in CauselessNowness the Ultimate Teaching becomes clear. 23.Perception sees itself as the center of the universe blindly seeking a complete unification with separation; identification with the universe is an attachment to the dream. 24.Divested cogitation can gaze upon the Unborn Thought, divesting useless suffering invites Peace, divesting useless happiness welcomes Love; fear clings to past as hope clings to future. 25.The nature of a river meanders, reposes, curves and winds, yet because Nowness is believed to be useless, predisposition demands that the current follow you, instead of you flow-ing with it, through that behavior, fulfillment remains elusive. 26.Triggering transformational experience is not difficult; Connected Breathing, when activated, can jump-start an atrophied thymos, Fixed Gazes, with auric vision, can open time to be seen as one, holding the tongue still, can bring Stillnes to thought's sense. 27.Through unfeigned surrender, HeartLight itself, resplendently springs its metanoia; clear rapture coalesces from tranquility and insight, a continuum of awakenings dawn real Compassion, thus Birthing Human Beingness; Ascension is merely the Letting Go of the descension. 28.Then gaining long-life and eternal youth, waxing like the moon, Radiant and clear, with the strength of a lion, You will quickly gain mundane power and suprem enlightenment. May this Ultimate Teaching, Remain in the hearts of fortunate beings. vicente 1988 0

Today's full lotus two hour session was strange. I spent the weekend entertaining my brother-in-law and he's got a perv lower chakra blockage. He's a number 2 as per Gurdjieff's rating -- not a number 1 full on perv like my other brother-in-law. Anyway so then today I was tired from lack of sleep and I had eaten food but it had been a couple hours at least. So I go into full lotus and I am kind of sleeping but I get really sleepy where I really need to lie down. For some reason I really needed to have my back resting so I could sleep. Determined to stay in full lotus I just laid on my back while staying in full lotus with my legs in the air. O.K. this worked for a while and my back got rested so I went back into normal full lotus. I slept a bit more but still needed to lie down again. So I went on my back again staying in full lotus with my legs in the air. But then I rolled a bit onto my side so then my legs were still in full lotus but now more sideways - supported by the side. O.K. from that position I fell into deep sleep. I then dreamt of full on sex -- which I don't normally dream of at all!! But my brother-in-law was being really crude and I was entertaining him so I just sat in full lotus with him and joked back with him. but I had not been able to empty out those sex thoughts before I slept. So then I woke up from my dream while I was dreaming I was having sex and climaxing but I then went back into full lotus on the floor with my back straight up. So then the semen shot up my back as my weiner was under my legs, pulsating, boner, whatever. So then the sex fluid was going into my skull and the same kind of cracking and snapping noises occurred while the pulsing now was in my neck with the sex fluids being pumped up by the vagus nerve and carotid artery. O.K. so I just stayed in full lotus but then my concern was that now I had to take a piss but I still have a half hour left of full lotus. I had slept for at least 20 minutes in full lotus while on my side. haha. So anyway I stayed in full lotus as long as possible until my bladder was exploding. So I quick pissed and I was glad to see it wasn't foamy at all which meant I had not gotten the semen stuck in my prostate -- instead it went up the spine. So then back in full lotus I had to work on purifying the sex fluids into chi energy. So the brain chi electromagnetic energy kept increasing but then I worked on lowering down to the lower tan tien. I was still sleepy though and so near the end I did another hand raising while in full lotus -- holding the body elevated, lifting the body up. I could only hold it less than a minute. Then I stayed sleepy which made the time go by fast. So I finished the two hour session and then I went to sleep for another 45 minutes.

sheng zhen> I already read it. I don't find it provides helps because I know what I'd do if I was one character of a dream... Anyone I don't know how would we can?... Perhaps it works when we have enough intuition (but I nearly don't have anymore consciously). Anyway, if I can't get asleep consciously I'll can change this dream or even interview the people of my dream? When I could practice relaxation and meditation, I could to do the practice I have mentioned but I now I can't... I don't see about what this "sample session" helps you...

Before you go to sleep at night, consciously remember to look at your hands in your dream. Then when you look at your hands in your dream, you will become lucid.

I don't affirm hearing or seen. There is just, as Buddha said, the 'suchness of the seen, heard' without cognizing an object seen, nor a cognizer. Of course even 'suchness of the seen, heard' is not inherently there - it's just a label for direct experience, but there is no inherent existence whatsoever. So yes, any label is fine - Suchness is fine, Buddha-nature is fine, God is fine, Satan is fine, but then the problem is that usually God is taken to be something inherently existing... so it is kind of meaningless. Of course, seeing, hearing can also be taken as inherently existing, but that is not what is meant or intended here... I'm just pointing to the unreified experience of suchness. Ultimately, there is no seeing, no hearing, no eye, ear, nose.... etc as what Heart Sutra says. But that does not deny luminosity or suchness of experiencing, since emptiness and luminosity are inseparable. Oh yes of course. Six sense consciousness arises dependent on six sense objects and faculties... the eighteen dhatus are completely empty. No. There is no awareness, no source - those are ideas of a Self (especially when seeing is just the experience of sight). There is not even a seeing, a seen, a hearing, an eye, nose, etc... those are ideas of Object. Everything is illusory like a dream, though vividly appearing. For me I concur with the Buddha: in the suchness of cognizing, I no longer conceive of a cognizer, or something cognized. Substantial non-dualism. No. Dependent Origination has nothing to do with a universal awareness or God. Your arguments show no understanding of dependent origination. You conflate dependent origination with substantialist understanding of something inherent and independent - some universal substance of awareness in which everything arises from or as. No comments but I am quite familiar with Advaita. It is not my intention to debate on superiority or inferiority of Buddhism or Advaita - I only talk about my experience. Self-Inquiry is Advaita. I practiced that for almost two years before Self-Realization. I also studied something called Actual Freedom, which appealed to me at some point, but as insights developed I saw how incompatible it is with emptiness, so I dropped it. Now the suttas and sutras resonate with me due to my current experience and insight. I only speak what I see, and just because I adopt Thusness's terminologies does not mean I do not speak from experience. I am not convinced because I had faith in him, or because it sounds intellectually sound. I am convinced of what he said because I've seen it. I can speak in Thusness's terminologies many years ago. I totally understand anatta and non-dual many years ago. Yet what attracted me was the Advaita teachings and other teachings... especially in the I AM and substantialist non-dual phase. I go through those stuff myself. (Between 2008 to about mid 2010, I mainly read Advaita stuff and am really attracted to it.) I have to see things for myself. Whatever I learnt from Thusness, while intellectually I may get it, still, unless I see and experience for myself, they don't mean much really. If someone else is able to point me to a deeper experience apart from what I have already experienced and is able to give valuable pointers to my practice, of course why not? I'll be glad to learn whatever I can. I am not as close minded as you think. I visit bookstores to find books from true practitioners often. I don't say "I am the most enlightened person in the world" or "no one is more enlightened than me". But what's seen is seen - you cannot convince me of something there is no doubt or illusion about due to my experiential realization. For example, you cannot tell me 'self exists' - this is bullshit, as illusory as the notion of a santa claus or a rabbit with horns. I've already woken up from that dream and there is nothing you can say that can make me go asleep again - what's seen cannot be unseen. Try as you may, you are like convincing someone who woke up from a nightmare that the monster he saw actually is real - it simply will not work. p.s. Something I wrote to someone a few weeks ago: "Anyway, on a sidenote, this is all part of the process - when I was in I AM phase, what really drew my attention (despite my being Buddhist and having taken formal refuge in Buddhism since I was 2 - I definitely do not limit my learnings to Buddhism) was really those Advaita teachings, Ramana Maharshi, modern teachers like John Wheeler, some Zen teachings like Ch'an Master Hsu Yun on self-inquiry and so on. Then when I got to non-dual, much of the neo-Advaita teachings, some Zen teachings and so on start to attract me a lot. When I initially got to Anatta (or even slightly before), the AF teachings really interest me a lot - I started reading a lot of their articles. Why? Because we are all drawn to different teachings based on our experience. When something we read resonates our understanding, experience, and so on, when we feel a heart-to-heart recognition of the message in it, we will naturally be drawn to it. After undergoing more deeply the twofold emptiness, what draws me is the suttas, the sutras, the traditional teachings of the Buddha, etc. Who knows what may draw my attention or attract me in the future - I don't know. But right now, it seems that a lot of the traditional teachings are really clear, speaks to my heart, etc. I'm not saying you should start reading sutras (maybe you already had) - in fact if you want to realize I AM, I will not tell you to read Buddhism, for example I passed a friend all my Advaita books because he wanted to realize I AM. So that is where you start. So if you want to attain AF, then go for it and practice AF, but don't limit yourself to AF. As I hadn't limit myself to Hinduism, to AF, or even Buddhism, I am able to utilize whatever resonates with me at that moment, and that may change as my practice progresses and moves on."

Sounds like you're making great progress. Really. You can learn a lot of secret things from the darker parts of the dream world that will help you in your spiritual practice. Savor this time. Remember that you are good, pure and light...and just visiting these realms. It's like an adventure. Sometimes a lot of it seems meaningless though. Maybe keep a dream journal to help sort things out. Zhan zhuang does have the effect of purifying at very deep levels, and will definitely put you "through the ringer". But purification is good. The unconscious that is stored within your body becomes subconscious, and you have weird dreams...then it becomes conscious and is released as your emotions, or just as extra purified energy and awareness. Breathing continuously helps transmute the negative into positive. Your positive choices and intent shape who you will become as energy is released for your use...be good, pure, simple, happy, loving. Some ideas.

sorry k, could you elaborate a bit, not sure what you are saying? two nights ago, I came out of the dream world, totally disoriented, not sure where I was. I had to roll over and physically touch my wife, then the realization that I am here in the physical world, a husband, a father, a job! then I dived right back into the dream world again

Oh, you mean the questions in Dream Yoga? After all is answered you have a lot of informations and ways to help yourself. It all comes from the way the questions are designed. If you try it you will see for yourself. To give you an example: I dreamed I was at a research station on a military boat on the ocean researching DNA manipoulation on sharks. One shark turned bad and didnt stop growing and got more and more aggressive. At the time I thought this dream was a warning that I did too much qigong, that the energy I got from it was too much for me to handle. But during the Dream Yoga interview I did with the shark he said that he was actually there to help me deal with the energy. He told me not to cut down on qigong, but to imagine myself being the shark while doing it. That helped my body and mind to ground the energy and being able to deal with it without spacing out. Because I interviewed the shark I realized it was not really aggressive. The image of aggression was something my mind created because I have a subconscious fear of being so full of energy and lifeforce that the qigong gives me. The shark itself was there only to help me integrate the energy I get from qigong. Normally we spend a week with the character we interview to integrate that aspect and what it brings to our daily life.

Something I wrote to the article http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?/topic/21871-experience-realization-view-practice-and-fruition/ : Also, a lot of people think 'The Right View is No View' which is true since all metaphysical views pertain to false views of existence and non-existence, however the way they go about resolving the problem is by 'forgetting all concepts'. They think that by suspending all beliefs, by forgetting all concepts and sitting quietly in a state of pure awareness, somehow merely by that, they can overcome false views. Let me offer something for you think about: every day we go into a state of deep sleep where all our beliefs, concepts, views, thoughts are temporarily suspended. But when we wake up, what happens? We are as ignorant as ever. Our framework of viewing self and reality is still the same. We still experience the same problems, the same sufferings, the same afflictions. This analogy should clearly show you that sustaining a state of non-conceptuality or mastering a state of 'forgetting the self' is not going to result in a fundamental change or transformation or effortless seeing, unless true wisdom and insight arises. I shall offer two more analogies which are related: a person deluded as to see a rope as a snake, will live in fear, trying to tame the snake, trying to get rid of the snake, escape from the snake. Maybe he managed a way to distant himself from the snake, yet the belief that the snake is still there is nevertheless going to haunt him. Even if he managed to master the state of forgetting the snake, he is nonetheless in a state of delusion. He has not seen as it truly is: the snake is simply a rope. In another analogy, the child believes in the existence of santa claus and awaits eagerly for arrival of his presents on Christmas day. One day the parents decide that it's time the child be told the truth about santa claus. To do this, beating the hell out of the child is not going to work. You simply need to tell the child that santa claus doesn't truly exist. In these analogies, I try to showcase how trying to deal with the problem of false views through means of 'forgetting conceptuality, forgetting the self' is as useless or deluded as 'trying to forget the snake, trying to tame the snake, trying to beat the hell out of the child' when the simple, direct and only true solution is only to realize that there is only a rope, and that santa claus isn't real. Only Awakening liberates us from a bondage that is without basis. Without the right contemplation and instilling of right view, you can 'sit quietly in pure awareness' for an entire lifetime without waking up. I cannot stress this point enough because this is a very prevalent erroneous understanding - even someone at the I AM level of realization will talk about non-conceptuality, non-conceptual Presence-Awareness and think it is final. Same goes for other stages. By overemphasizing on non-conceptuality, they will miss the subtler aspects of insight, they will fail to grasp right view, they will fail to tackle the subtler imprints and mental framework of viewing dualistically and inherently. They will not even see their framework of perceiving self and things as false that is causing some subtle effort and clinging (to a Self or to an actual ground here/now or to an actual world), just like you will never see your dream as a dream until well... you wake up. As Zen writer and speaker Ted Biringer says, "Accurate understanding is not authentic realization. At the same time, authentic realization can hardly be expected to occur without accurate understanding. And while an absence of "right understanding" almost excludes the possibility of authentic realization, the presence of "wrong understanding" excludes even the slimmest hope of success. If we aspire to realize what Zen practice-enlightenment truly is, then, as Dogen says, "We should inquire into it, and we should experience it." To follow his guidance here we will need to understand his view of what "it" is that needs to be inquired into, and who the "we" is that is to do the inquiring." Non-conceptuality does not mean non-attachment. For example when you realize the I AM, you cling to that pure non-conceptual beingness and consciousness as your true identity. You cling to that pure non-conceptual thought very tightly – you wish to abide in that purest state of presence 24/7. This clinging prevents us from experiencing Presence AS the Transience. This is a form of clinging to something non-conceptual. So know that going beyond concepts does not mean overcoming the view of inherency and its resultant clinging. Even in the substantial non-dual phase, there is still clinging to a Source, a One Mind – even though experience is non-dual and non-conceptual. But when inherent view is dissolved, we see there is absolutely nothing we can cling to, and this is the beginning of Right View and the Path to Nirvana – the cessation of clinging and craving. So as you can see, non-conceptual experience does not liberate - so we have to use the intellect to understand right view, and then investigate it in our experience. This is like a fire that in the end burns up the candle it is burning on, consuming itself in the process, leaving no trace even of itself. In other words, conceptual understanding of right view, coupled with investigative practice, results in true realization that dissolves concepts leaving non-conceptual wisdom - but without that process of investigating and trying to understand right view, merely remaining in a state of non-conceptuality isn't going to help you get free. People who fear engaging in thought, trying to understand the right view, challenging their views and understanding of things, are unfortunately going to stick with their own deluded framework of perceiving things.

Einstein said, "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile." Consider three ideas: Live for others. Live for you. Live for love. I prefer, of these three, live for love. Billy Graham has frequently preached, "Live for Christ." My point is that there can be some kind of higher purpose or dedication. Know that your life DOES indeed have meaning. You don't necessarily have to intellectually understand it to have a deep sense of purpose. Check out Viktor Frankl's books, "Man's Search for Meaning," and, "Man's Search for Ultimate Meaning." He survived a Nazi concentration camp, and developed his Existential philosophy largely from the wisdom gained from his experience. One more thing. The driving ambition of my life has been to find enlightenment, and this goal has provided me with a profound sense of purpose and meaning. You can have a long-term goal or dream that will endow your life with meaning. Oh btw, both Eckhart Tolle and Paramhansa Yogananda teach that the ultimate purpose of our lives is to awaken spiritually. I'm editing this now to add two things. Einstein also said, "Try not to become a man of success, rather, try to become a man of value." And Emerson said, "To live so as to have made one life easier is to have succeeded." Try to be a blessing to others.

Well at first I tried the hand mudra that Chunyi Lin recommends -- put the index finger on the thumbs to close off energy from leaving the body. Then I tried reverse breathing. But I had a lot of young aggressive females staring at my dick while talking to me to watch it spring up. haha. I mean then I had females making orgasmic sounds at me -- that still happens. Another one was females crossing their legs and pumping their legs so they masturbate in front of me -- I call this "priming the pump" -- while they stare into my eyes. So at first I'm trying to ignore this and be a nice "normal" male. But then I would have to later sit in full lotus to REVERSE the damage -- or else I would have a nocturnal emission. So then I started sitting in full lotus in public. Then this young female stood five feet in front of my full lotus so my eyes were level with her back side -- this is called a "backside display" behavior in primatology. Other female display behaviors include stretching the chest to stick the breasts out -- so the nipples suck up the chi energy -- and then spreading the legs so the vulva can better suck up the chi energy. Other display behaviors I've witnessed is sticking the tongue in the side of the check like the female is pretending to give you a blow job. Also licking the lips lasciviously, etc. Anyway so when I was sitting in full lotus in public and the female presented her back side to me my eyes shot laser light into her and she jumped up and exclaimed wow and at the exact same time sperm shot up my spine and we both climaxed simultaneously. So that's how I discovered the "O at a D." Then I tested it out to see if it was real. After that I just kept sitting in full lotus in public as pre-emptive defense and then the "O at a Ds" just kept happening. And then with some females there were multiple "O at a Ds" so that there was mutual real love -- the heart chakra opened up and it was real electromagnetic attraction like we wanted to have our bodies stuck together electromagnetically. But this is still limited to the lower level of form and the upper realm of bliss in Mahayana Buddhism -- it doesn't get to the realm of formlessness or higher levels of the realm of form. So tantra is limited in that sense. That's why all the critiques of full lotus meditation as misogyny relying on stealing female energy in Buddhism are WRONG - -they are actually male Western projections -- materialist projections -- onto non-western nondualist philosophy. So I've found that females who have the lower chakra blockage -- even if you just get near them without them doing anything then that will activate the lower chakra, deconverting the chi energy into jing and then into sex fluid. So that is damage that has to be reversed. But since they are female then the female orgasm inherently sublimates the energy whereas if it's a male perv they are trying to have an external ejaculation which triggers the STRESS sympathetic nervous system. So a female perv is really not bad at all -- if you just sit in full lotus then there's no need for anyone to have an external ejaculation - it's completely up to the male to take care of that. The female is trying to have an orgasm but her orgasm is internal - and by trying to get the male to have an orgasm she doesn't need for the male to have an external ejaculation -- in contrast to a male perv who needs to have an external ejaculation. So still it can take several hours -- even ALL NIGHT -- to reverse a perv attack by a female. This is just the unfortunate truth. So, for example, last night I got perv attacked -- this happens every day. But I sat in full lotus as long as possible -- while sleeping a bit on and off. Finally I went prostate -- supine -- in bed to sleep. I woke up and then went back into full lotus. Then I had a sex dream but not so bad and was too tired so went back to sleep. then I had another sex dream and I almost lost the load but I woke myself up and quick went into full lotus. I didn't think I could reverse the damage but I sat in full lotus as long as possible and did reverse breathing. Then when my bladder was exploding I went to the bathroom and there was no foam -- so I had succesfully sublimated the sex fluid up the spine. But I still needed to ionize or purify the sex fluid. So I kept sitting in full lotus for another couple hours, taking breaks for the bathroom, etc. So I can feel the "excrement" in the brain -- this is a fourth type of excrement as Gurdjieff points out. As Master Nan, Huai-chin and Bill Bodri point out in tantra you can improve your health but if you're just sublimated sex fluid then that is misdirected waste that will dirty the brain. It still needs to be purified. So the West does not recognize this shit head phenomenon - but in qigong it's taught to just eat until 70% full or else the food "will go to the head" as Chunyi Lin says. So as Gurdjieff says this is a fourth type of waste -- from the food waste and sex waste in the brain. So for me I can feel the impurities and then the impurities are in the skull cavity - and I can feel my brain leaching them as the electromagnetic energy builds up to clear out the blockages. So then there is pressure behind my eyes and my eyebrows and I can feel the fluid that has the impurities in it -- like little bits of waste. then my eyes will water as the impurities are leached out and my gums will get a tingling sensation as the waste leaches out. So then I have to wash out my mouth with soap or toothpaste, etc. So actually as "Taoist Yoga" states that any sex thoughts have to be purified even though they may happen. So real alchemical training has to be done without sex thoughts or else there will constantly be this pollution in the brain. Master Nan, Huai-chin also states that if you need female jing energy from tantra -- taking it in as extra jing energy - -and then transmitting the chi back -- as Bill Bodri states -- then just get hormone shots!! haha. So the mundane and spiritual world really don't mix for advance training. There can be improvement in health by practicing sublimation of sex energy but it is still a "dirty" practice. As Chunyi Lin states there can be no sex thoughts for the advanced training. Still the females need the electromagnetic energy. Of course some females also train to increase their electromagnetic energy. So the answer is just more and more meditation. Chunyi Lin said I needed to eat more food and meditate more and that if I smell bad that is o.k. but if I don't store the chi in my lower tan tien then my transmissions will always be weak. So we really don't have a choice if we want to get beyond the tantra multiple orgasmic level of energy -- which can heal colds and emotional blockages but it is not as strong as the powerful qi healing I was doing previously. haha. Someone PM'd me a question so I'll post my reply here as it's related: The techno-feminists are in left-brain denial - -they will secretly be pervs, making orgasmic sounds, etc. and constantly hit on me but pretend it's not happening. Language is a scam! haha. So my mom was raised a Freemason but pretends to be a Christian -- but civilization is really to keep woman from being raped, using technology as a defense against perv male rapists. So then the secret to real love is lost and becomes a subconscious subversive practice but orgasms are just the lower level of energy healing. So having orgasms for females is not a big deal although they definitely want as many as possible. I have had verbal confirmation and also sometimes the female will touch her clitoris in front of me - just to push the energy over into the climax -- but it's rare for the female to say in public that she is having an orgasmic. I've been told I'm orgasmic -- but only by a female I just gave an orgasm to and then she told her friends I was orgasmic. Then a prostitute said she was "already coming" after she stuck her backside in my face while I was in full lotus and then her pimp wanted her to service a customer. then a homeless female was giving me lap dances while I was in full lotus and saying over and over "do you know what you're doing to me?" I just smiled. haha. Because also I was off-gasing shit smell from this practice because you have to have your internal energy system completely clean as food is an impure source of jing energy compared to sex energy. So then I went three days on no food just having "O at a Ds" mutual climaxes -- but again I was not storing the energy in my lower tan tien so I was just giving female climaxes -- until the heart love chakra opened up for stronger chi conversion. But at that level the trance is too deep to do in public. So it is a limited practice.

I found it to be extremely hard after the first wave of experiences, first there was alot of bliss and pain one after the other. After that there was just normal life again, and all the repressed emotions from the earlier years.. Sometimes I thought it had all been a dream, not so much now.

You could try to repeating something like "what issues do I have unresolved" as your going to sleep, if you don't have a god, then ask it to your subconcious mind. You may dream it and or resolve it in the dream. Are you in your late teens or early twenties by any chance?

The important thing is to sublimate and purify the sex energy -- people instead obsess over flexibility and the physical level. haha. I sat in full lotus during the night but this morning I was being hit on by a young female in my dream. So in my dream I did reverse breathing -- actually holding in the muscle that controls the urine. So then I woke up and went into full lotus on my bed. I sat as long as possible till my bladder was exploding and then this piss was all foamy. This means I didn't properly sublimate the sex fluid up the spine and instead it went to the prostate. On the other hand at least my kidney energy is strong enough now that I have to convert it to chi energy or else I'll lose the alchemical pill. But I need to meditate more which is a pain. haha.

Hi folks Long time since I´ve been here. I have a question for you wise people: During the last week I have been drinking Chaga tea, and for a couple of nights I have also been plagued with intense nightmares. I rarely have them, and wonder if there is causation and not only correlation. The reason I think there may be a link is that they were particularly vivid, and particularly dark. I have not found anything online that would support this claim. However, I know that mushroom-based effects may, if one "overdose" have a degree of dream induction through it´s high melatonin content. So; if there is a melanin - nightmare link, may I be overdosing on it? h

Greetings.. Stop tearing down solutions that don't preserve the status quo, you only want to protect your own kind.. the system isn't functioning well, it rewards "time and effort" unfairly and disproportionately, and everybody knows it, and.. finally, people are willing to change that system, and THAT is what's bothering those that might have their wealth dependent 'social status' compromised.. you can swim against the flow of change and be a casualty of it, or.. work to build a more fair and equitable system.. I hope you are not suggesting that the life-terms of Supreme Court Justices are appointed fairly.. the appointment and confirmation is political theater, and no less corrupt than the system that writes that script.. Political Parties are simply well-dressed gangs of sophisticated thugs, taking what they can under the guise of representative democracy.. they serve the highest bidder or the most influential potential investor in their re-election.. The American Dream is an amazing potential, but it has been corrupted to the point that it has to radically cleanse itself and restructure its wealth distribution "more fairly".. are you, the one percent, willing to give up a moderate amount of wealth gained through an oppressive system, in order to repair and preserve that system, or.. will your greed clench onto that ill-gotten excess until those that suffered by the system's oppressive policies revolt and take it from you? Now is the time to work together to rescue the American Dream, but all i see from conservatives is resistance, their way or no way.. Change it or lose it Be well..

I had a dream I went to a kunlun seminar the other night, only it was... a bit odd. It was in some sort of auditorium, and any of max's assistants had elaborate dress and makeup on. Almost like those guys in Curse of the Golden Flower that walked around announcing the time of day. People that were getting transmissions lied down and it looked like the spark on a spark plug from giver to receiver. It seemed like there were a ton of people there, but most people couldnt see any benefit to the whole thing and perceived it as some sort of show they were there to see. I was able to sit and chat with max, and though I dont remember what he said, it was profoundly genuine and it made me feel really good, in a relaxed contentment sort of way. I dont seem to remember many conversations in dreams, just more impressions. But max was the most vivid part of the dream. I went and sat back down in the auditorium and a few people asked me stuff and I was like 'nah, this aint bullshit'...and my dream either ended or I drifted off elsewhere that I do not recall... I think that was friday night...because last night I did 2 hours of kunlun & embryonic breathing, then woke up 6 hours later and didnt feel like I needed to sleep any more for the day. I can still get WAY more relaxed sitting cross legged, so I did that for ~45 after I was done with kunlun.

Right, and ain't that the point? (of practice:-)) @HJNT i think that being 11 forever is awesome for science and all kinds of stuff:-) I was going to do a post about the outer changes of dreaming. I thought about it. Then I thought that people wouldn't go for it. Too childish to dream (or weird, or insane:-)) and yet, there it is:-) I think there's a reason for ceremonies for adulthood. I think they change the nature of one's dreams. The dreams were pretty much same old same old, just their portent is different. As a child, not to much effect. As an adult, effective, unless recognized. So now there are people who claim to not dream, nor remember their dreams. But jeez, anyone who has woken up with a rememberance and has not carried that for even 5 minutes into their waking state...must be a siddha.

Let me thank all who takes the time to help me with this issue. I will describe as many details that may have something to with my problem as possible, to aid in your diagnostics. Your advice, suggestions, and feedback will be incredibly valuable to me. I've waited a long time to post here to ask this question, hoping my problem would resolve itself, but it hasn't. Here's the issue: I have a physiological problem with my eyes being filled with heat, and I don't know what to do about it, other than around 5 times a day dunking my head in a stream of cold water in my shower until everything cools down. As the eyes are basically reflections of the state of the health of our brain, I am worried that my brain, and by implication, nervous system, may be inflamed to an excessive degree, causing me to feel the sensation of intense heat in and through my eyes after about 3 pm in the day until bed. I will continue talking about this in a minute. First, let me explain something else that I believe is related to this phenomenon (the reason I am here). One of the best resources I have found on the internet on the subject of conservation of one's sexual energies is thedaobums.com. I drew great inspiration from the conversations on the forums that have taken place in the past on here and have learned a great deal from them. I have for the last 12 months successfully for longer and longer periods of time been practicing semen conservation, simultaneous with my practice of meditation, and training my mind to do what I want it to do on demand without delay. Recently, over the course of 4 - 8 weeks, I have for the first time in my entire life felt as though I have made some very real progress in these areas. I have greater control than I have ever before over what I choose to focus on. More and more I am able to look at women, not impulsively as objects to be fetishized about, but as gorgeous beings, realizing how beautiful they really are, and therefore completely undeserving of my sexual objectification and fantasizing. I have more and more dreams as well. They are increasingly becoming vivid too. I actually briefly became lucid in a dream just the other night! I am acing my classes at the university. I have great focus of attention and memory. I feel a sense of power within, a deep self-confidence - I feel as though I can accomplish anything. The world may be in the way of my goals, but by the sheer force of my will I feel as though any obstacle I could overcome. The only limiting factor is my decision to do so. Anyway, the benefits of this practice go on and on. My thought process has been the following: "No more masturbation. I will not do this anymore. If I have a nocturnal emission, that's alright, I will simply put it behind me, and modify my strategies of energy sublimation. The next time I will consciously make the decision to ejaculate/orgasm will be with a woman. I am done taking the easy route and letting my energy's dissipate. I shall learn to control this energy, redirect it, and use this energy to make the changes I want to see in the world." Please know I'm not attaching any moralism whatsoever to masturbation. Of course, there is the formula of the precise frequency of ejaculations one should have based on one's age. (I am 22 years old.) However, it is my desire for good or bad to learn how to transform whatever energy would be lost through ejaculation into something else. (notice I didn't say "higher") So, back to my main problem. I've noticed that the longer I continue in my practice, especially over the last 6 weeks (I've had maybe 4 ejaculations in this time - for me, relative to past frequencies of emission, this is a life record) I have begun to feel intense heat in my eyes. I've been taking cold showers for 6 weeks as well, and during the day when I feel my head get heated I usually turn on my shower, produce as cold a stream of water as possible, and then just put my head under it for 30 seconds to a minute. That always helps for sure. My question is: is this a common experience, this heat in the eyes, causing a slight strain on one's vision even, with men who practice semen conservation? More information: • I sleep grounded via a bamboo sheet made with silver linings running through it. This keeps my system electrically neutral at night at least, and resynchronizes my body's biochemical/circadian rhythms to the rhythms of the earth, and by implication the activity of the sun, because sun -> earth's surface -> grounding -> my body. • I own a medical-grade negative ion generator. In my room can be measured ranging from 10,000 ions per cc of space to 250,000 ions per cc of space depending on how close you are to the generator. It is as if I live under Niagara Falls. • I eat a 90% vegetarian diet, including lots of steamed asparagus, broccoli, some bell peppers, leafy greens, blueberries, kiwis, bananas, grapes, avocados, cucumbers, tomatoes, hemp seeds, carrots, and other things of this kind. I eat only between the hours of 11am - 6ish pm to benefit from the effects of Intermittent Fasting, and also because I noticed eating at these times positively affects my sleep quality. • I eat a handful amount of grass-fed organic turkey about twice a week - that is the limit of my meat intake. • I take nootropics on a regular basis, taking the weekends off from all supplementation to restore brain homeostasis. These include substances in various dosages, usually on the very low end below what is a recommended dose, such as: Alpha-GPC (150 mg once a day) Piracetam (800 mg once in the morning, 3-4 times a week) Aniracetam (750 mg, maybe once or twice a week) Mega Hydrate (Negatively Charged Hydrogen Ions in a capsule basically) MSM (4 grams taken most days) DHA and EPA sourced from Algea Phosphatidylcholine (500mg - 1.5 g a day, taken occasionally) Phosphatidylserine (maybe 300 mg a day) ALCAR (usually less than 200 mg a day) Garden of Life's multivitamin Pycnogenol (100 mg once a day) And finally I take my favorite long term brain health stack called Mind Lab Pro, which contains things like Bacopa (150 mg), Lion's Mane Mushroom (500 mg), Rhodiola Rosea (50 mg), Vitamin B6 and Vitamin B12 at the proper RDA dosages, N-Acetyl L-Tyrosine (175mg), and Vinpocetine. • I have been on a 5 week hiatus from my best friend cannabis, if it matters. • I've used psychedelics, most heroic doses of mushrooms, beyond a year ago. What really hammered home to me that I have this problem with "hot-eyes" was last weekend when I first experienced the effects of 100 micrograms of LSD. At least ten times I had to dunk my head under cold water. My mind was set free and I assure you I witnessed impossible-to-describe three-dimensional highly complex fractal geometric mandala-like diamondal superstructures in the space of my inner vision (behind closed eye lids), and the experience I would rate as within the top 10 experiences of my life. It was fantastic. I learned all kinds of things, especially an awareness of the importance of the posture of my spine. I could literally see and feel my energy field. I was astonished. I wondered "this must be how people get into energy medicine". If I could see what I see on LSD permanently, I would become a healer, no doubt about it. I envision I could single handedly change the world if I had that kind of vision. I wonder if it is possible to gain this sort of visual and empathic access to these energy fields around all objects and living things without the use of LSD. If so, I consider myself a student in training and deeply desire instruction. Anyway, my "hot-eye" symptom seemed to detract from my experience. I could just feel my brain and eyes becoming incredibly heated. No, I wasn't worried my brain was melting. It just felt analogous to what happens to a computer processor when it is taxed maximally. Supercomputers for example require some kind of liquid cooling to keep them from overheating. This occurred to me on LSD. To return to my main point and I ask you all this: Is there a relationship between the heat in my head and especially in my eyes that seems to become felt after midday, and the energies that are building up in my system as a result of my practice of semen conservation? I've been moving mountains at university, reading all kinds of books like I never have before, I'm running often - the point is I'm not just sitting around letting the energy stagnate; I am actively on purpose trying to use it up, because I naturally feel compelled to move and do things with all this energy I have when I refuse to ejaculate. It's very pleasurable indeed. I just don't enjoy feeling like my eyes are on fire. In conclusion, if you have read all this, thank you very much for your time and if you have any thoughts on the matter I will very much appreciate to see them! Peace

Parse the difference between unconsciousness and evasive conceptual thought. The mind that is aware there is no thoughts-is conceptualising 'no thoughts'. If one is unconscious then there are no conceptual thoughts. I learned this early on during meditation, that to see a blank screen, is to conceive and be conscious of a blank screen. This is how the witness arises, how to see our thoughts, to see we are never without them until we stop thinking and we only do that when we are unconscious-sleeping. Even then we have dream states and low level thoughts which we can access if that's our wish. I can sit for five minutes knowing that to think the mind is still is to be in error. When the mind is still, it is unconscious.