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Yes, agree. FP is very subtle and sublime. It does something for me def. I would say I am more total. And somebody asking me few times in PM about sleep. I say just to add delta waves before sleep. This works VERY VERY cool for me, sometime go to bed at 1 a.m. and wake up at 6 - 7 am. Cant recall when I had bad dream, much less negative emotions. That's said let's practice and stop indulging! P.s. I am not sure yet about mixing SYG and FP. I continue stand for one method until it well established. They have diff alchemy. I would better practice the basics of vol.1 of FP than going for SYG and back and forth... But as you have huge experience in meditation might be it is good for you. FP is huge system. Even there loads of stuff to do.

We are constantly bombarded by evil thoughts in modern society -- t.v., online, etc. So that's why I have to sit in full lotus as much as possible. But still - like the MCO is for - even if you build up the chi - like if I don't cycle it - to refine it more into shen energy - then it can still be deconverted during sleep. ummm... If I am dreaming than usually I will wake myself up from a dream before it is too late and then my pc muscle is flexing and I just go into full lotus. Sometimes though the loss is from no dream that is remembered, etc. So yeah it's stated that lust and over eating can be neutralized through meditation but if there is drowsiness then that is the worst. So what I do is I go into full lotus and then I just fall asleep in full lotus. So I figure then that makes sure to purify the energy. But yeah that chapter 10 exercise is a great help -- cycling the eyes -- I can really feel that pulling up the energy and purifying it - with the mudra. You might want to try fasting - you are already vegetarian right? So it just depends on your age, how much you exercise, etc. but if you can meditate more and then maybe try fasting. I did a 8 day fast and that's when my energy was the strongest - real strong electromagnetic energy.

O.K. let's be clear. UFO does not meant E.T. alien. Care to share more details about your MILAB implant experience? Did you get the implant out? Any photo of it? For example a lot of the alien abduction stories are based on hypnosis using leading questions. So the hypnosis method for "revealing" alien abduction is not to be relied on for obvious reasons. Either the hypnotist is pushing an agenda or the person under hypnosis is influenced by their own agenda. Basically a person has "missing time" -- they think - and goes to see a hypnotist -- and everyone knows that the reason you go to see a hypnotist about missing time is to reveal your alien abduction experience. haha. Another issue is sleep paralysis. Also minor OBEs get confused for alien abduction. For example a person called into Coasttocoast saying that they felt this heavy being on top of them at night and then they could see themselves on the bed and then suddenly woke up. So I knew that the person had a minor OBE experience - the heavy being "on top of them" was their own spirit witnessing their sleeping body - just before self awareness kicks in. So then when I listened to that show I was in full lotus and then I fell asleep in full lotus and sure enough I suddenly witnessed this heavy being on my bed. Then I suddenly realized I was seeing myself from outside my body and then I got sucked back into my body. So the thing is that if you see a UFO and then you have a dream that little gray aliens are peering over you while in your bed -- does that mean the e.t. aliens were in the UFO? Nope - it means that your subconscious associates UFOs with little gray aliens. The whole Whitney Streiber thing is another issue - he's promoting his story but that's all it is -- his story - and people get into it because it's creepy and people like creepy stuff - like the SciFi channel is all creepy stuff - "disaster porn" as it's called - that's also what the MSM news is. People like to have their lower chakra activated by fear because it is the kidney energy so it also activates their sex energy. but this is a way the energy is stolen from people. So really as Stan Gooch argued - the aliens - the little grays - are literally are subconscious projections from the technological apocalypse further relying on projected energy. Actually Nandor Fodor argued this also. In other words the little grays are literally are cerebellum brain subconsciously projected. This is also why people see e.t. aliens when on DMT - my friend had this experience but it was right after I told him about interdimensional spirits from other planets that were tall -- and so that is what his DMT vision was - only it was interactive, alive, talking to him, etc.

The following is collated material, some of it posted on here before...it is approximately what I believe at this moment, but is sure to change, yet even though it is not entirely true, it is useful still: --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First what I want to tell you about is the Kundalini, as I believe that it is in you as well. I thought this many years ago, that it may be in everyone, I do not know for sure, but it is widespread through people of every religion including atheists, and is applicable in many mental illness states as well. This is what I have come to understand through almost two decades of research and first-hand experience. There is a reason that Kundalini is often called ‘the Great Masquerader’ or ‘the Trickster.’ She simply takes your own beliefs and reflects them back at you- you design the puppet on your own mindstage. The Buddhist deity images of 1000-armed Chenrezig, Kwan-Yin, etc. with their thousands of eyes and thousands of hands accurately portray this idealized Goddess. We are its eyes, and we are its hands, we are its minds, we are its voices. My relationship with Kundalini is as it should – empty – contains all possibilities. My working theory is that anything out there, whether its called Kundalini, Jinn, Holy Spirit, Scheckinah, spirit guides, Archons, Dark Force Entities, angels, demons, ghosts, etc etc etc, all have the same basis. Same for all channeling, speaking in tongues, thought insertions, thought deletions, alien contacts, you name it. "Some view that which guides a person as a transcendental being and give It a name such as ‘Prajnaparamita,’ ‘Manjusri Bodhisattva,’ or ‘Amida Buddha,’" ‘Kundalini Shakti,’ etc. – they divinize it. Maybe it is divine; I haven’t made decision as to this – which is probably best, although eventually I do plan on divinizing all things under creation. It is, if nothing else, beyond genius in its understanding, its abilities. “When a person discovers the existence of this ‘something else,’ the paradox of right effort can be solved, because it becomes apparent that there is more than one sort of effort. (I.e. spontaneous yoga/kriyas) The type of effort which arises from this ‘something else’ is more a matter of willingness than of will. It is a willingness to let go of things moment-by-moment: ideas, opinions, wants, fears, ideals, judgments…everything. It is the willingness at all times to learn, to be open to seeing in new ways. It is a willingness to do ‘what comes next,’ shown to us by the ‘something else.’ This is the ‘effortless effort,’ ‘actionless-action’…No ‘me’ is involved, no ideals, no thinking or planning, no control, no direction. The work is that of the ‘something else.’ The direction appears naturally when we stop chattering to ourselves and let the ‘something else’ get a word in edgewise.” I agree that specifically aiming to channel anything through Kundalini is a waste of time because she has proven to countless people that she only tells you what you want to hear – she reflects your subconscious desires back at you. She becomes what you want her to become – but not surface wants…its all based on subconscious desires and roles that you project on her. I have felt more cumulative love and adoration towards Kundalini than I ever have towards any human being. I have offered myself up to her as food to be eaten, in the spirit of Chod powha, where you offer your own body up to the demons in a tantric feast. When I realized that the Kundalini was simply showing me myself, I realized that I simply adored idealized constructions of my own mind. Kundalini makes up as much the ‘me’ process that I am as anything else. But I think that Kundalini simply becomes our ‘self’ to show us our ‘selves.’ Although there seems to be that extra little bit beyond that – that little ‘push,’ which we see from time to time. To go seeking the something extra is a waste of energy. Seek nothing, accept what is given. As far as I can tell, Kundalini is the only spiritual presence I have ever contacted in my life. No other spiritual being ever gave me anything or has shown face. She has also ‘been’ every other spiritual being; I simply figured out after a while that she was behind it all. I only call it ‘she’ because I have typecast her into that role of Goddess. “The merely imputed ‘I’ that I call myself doesn’t exist.” So sayeth the Buddha. Kundalini actually becomes your own ‘I’ pushing you to see your own nature. If my mind is a fragmented mirror, composed of a multitude of small selves, Kundalini is almost like a force that pushes the image of the mirror towards the center of the mirror where awareness lies (or maybe awareness is watching the mirror, I don’t know) and this makes sure you know what your mirror is composed of. Does belief in Kundalini create it? Does it then take a life of its own and gain skills? I think it’s separate, but I would be willing to accept it if this was the case- right now my working hypothesis goes with Kundalini being ‘other’ using ‘tough love’ guidance to direct one towards unity of self. I could always be wrong. The reason I believe its separate is because it has done things that I could never do – physiological and bioenergetic ‘tricks’ that indicate an external control. I won’t go into these now in too much detail, but if you want to know feel free to ask. I started hearing voices and having very clear thought insertions (where thoughts appear in your mind apparently from another source) when I started meditating...it increased remarkably when I started trying to channel my 'spirit guides' around 1998. There is a strong genetic influence to this...my aunt, who used to be a minister at the main Spiritualist church in Rochester, can channel spirits as well - she does readings for people. Interestingly, Rochester is the first city that the Spiritualist movement started in. Spiritualism, if you are not familiar with it, is a kind of Christian-like worship of God, with the addition of channeling, automatic writing, speaking in tongues, etc. It has similarities to Pentecostalism and even Quakerism. Soon, this force could expertly move my hands and other small parts of me. There was a time that I thought it was my Reiki spirit guides. Note that this intelligence could also affect my emotions and my thoughts. The more I relaxed and tried to calm my own thoughts and listen intently, the more this force could penetrate my being and affect me on the physical, mental, and emotional level. I noticed that the types of movements usually corresponded to whatever spiritual path I was interested in at that time. For example, when I was initiated into Kriya yoga, from Babaji, Yogananda etc., the intelligence would start to perform certain hand mudras and yoga gestures - things that I did not know and had to look up the meaning of afterwards. I also have to mention that during these years as my contact with this 'presence' was growing stronger I was actively trying to engage it in mental conversation. To hear the words of this intelligence in my head at first was difficult and was basically a meditation in itself. I used the same techniques as any other channeler would use by the way. Eventually as this presence was able to more fully enter into my neurological system, the effects became clearer and I was able to mentally hear specific words on a frequent occasion. I began querying this presence and received usually one word answers - which were mostly complex multi-syllable words which I did not know the meaning of and had to look up in a dictionary. It was during a 2-3 month period of intense emotional purging that this intelligence was able to completely 'enter' my neurological/nervous system. During a short period of time in the summer of 1999 I experienced most of the more 'hard core kundalini awakening effects' such as energetic pulses going up and down my spine, strange pressures in all parts of my brain, feeling as if I was breathing through various parts of my brain which corresponded to chakra locations, rapid body heat changes, visions of such complexity that I knew that my mind wasn’t the one making them, times where one or the other of my nostrils would close or open, and I would be breathing out of only one, then it would suddenly and quickly switch...I also experienced ecstatic feelings of love and bliss in many different forms, which were far greater than any kind of drug experience I could possibly have had. I am quite sure that I also had various hypertensive effects - rapid blood pressure changes, lots of scary effects that made me think that I was going to faint or have a seizure or something. At this point I was now constantly in dialogue with it and it was continuously working in my body 24 hours a day - even influencing my dreams. After my last trip during this time period, I spent about the next month feeling what I call the 'sparklies' - which felt like intense little shocks throughout my nervous system - most of them small, some of them large and corresponding to major chakra points - especially the muladhara chakra. Also after this major awakening event the intelligence had full access to my nervous system - it could physically move me around just as easily as I could. It could lay on any emotional state or feeling in my body, play any kind of mental imagery across my inner picture screen that it wanted, and a month or so after the 'sparklies' ended it could also talk through my mouth just as easily as I could. Kundalini passes from person to person much like a ‘spiritual virus’ (it may already be in everyone, but the 'awakening' of it or 'encouragement' of it is what passes from person to person). Basically, what is 'awakening' is our connection with what has been called the OverMind (sometimes called the 'Conscious Collective'). I think the OverMind is exactly the Tao, or exactly ultimate reality, or exactly Gaia mind, or exactly Christ Consciousness, etc. It's like how they can link individual computers to create a supercomputer with amazing processing capabilities. The supercomputer is like the Tao, and when we link our own computer with the supercomputer, we gain the truth and the power of the entire network. Instead of analyzing the supercomputer from a distance and trying to infer what the master program looks like, we actually allow the program of the supercomputer to be placed directly into our hard drive and to subsume our own programs. Kundalini use the identities that we create for it, and animate these identities in our heads, fleshing them out, making them more real, and then presenting those faces back to us. It tries to make us see our own programming, so that we can re-program. You might ask why it doesn’t just create a new program for us…I don’t know, but I have ideas. One is that the programming is based on lifetimes of Karma and can’t magically be updated. Another time for that though. I do know that Angels and Demons are all from the same source- us. Gods are demons. At least Gods of the mind – they are ‘thought constructs’ – at least that is what your mind knows…God is really out there, but the mind cannot know God without becoming God…and when that happens there is no more mind, there is only Godmind….so really, the mind cannot know God. So if you think you know God- you don’t. Because of this, the God you think you know is also a demon – because demons are false creatures – they lie…but the demons are you of course – it’s the ‘you’ of your mind creating a false God, and then because it’s false, it is also a demon. Demons are irresistible and are created by exacerbated symptoms of the mind. We cannot help but be attracted and repelled by them at the same time. SIDE_NOTE: Personally I am not in agreement with the theory that Kundalini 'awakes' in the muladhara chakra...I think it simply and directly integrates with the brain. I am not sure if it’s endemic to each and every human being - I think of it as an external super-entity that seeks out specific individuals to integrate with....perhaps because they are available or because they are chosen as wayfinders to help distribute knowledge to the rest of us. Kundalini "comes in" through the brain only and stays in the brain...the reason I put 'comes in' in quotes is because there really is no actual entry, there is no barrier to kundalini from touching ones nervous system. Matter presents no barrier. The reason that you feel various effects within the body is because kundalini is moving through various areas of the brain that control these areas and integrating with them. When you start having spontaneous movements, this is because the kundalini is getting access to the pre-motor and motor cortex areas, which control all sensation of kinesthesis and all voluntary movement respectively. Kundalini is an intelligent entity, perhaps electromagnetically based. The brain is a bioelectromagnetic powerhouse. Skin, muscle, bones, organs (i.e. gross matter) present no obstacle to kundalini as matter is 99% space. It has no need to enter at a specific point. More to the point it simply attaches, makes contact, or 'gloms on' to your bioelectric nervous system as easily as you would reach out and touch someone. Its main area of influence, as stated above, is the brain...it goes there directly....I use a technique called 'Occam's Razor' see: [link to en.wikipedia.org]....The problem with mysticism is that it relies too much on anthropomorphism. Kundalini is clearly a noncorporeal intelligence, thus it has no gender, no form, and no limitations by the physical laws as we know them. So like I said, it would not be limited by our physical structure...just as radio waves, x-rays and other portions of the electromagnetic spectrum can pass through our body as if it isn't even there, I am quite sure that the Kundalini can too...The problem with kundalini is that it increases emotionality which can lead to false belief systems which much resemble schizophrenia-like hyper-perception of synchronicities. One becomes very sensitive to stimuli and notes things that other people wouldn't see and one can read too much into them. The Kundalini will not disavow us of our belief, it will leave us alone to form our own opinion, or even support us in a false opinion. That is why it often called, 'the great masquerader' or 'the great trickster' as I said- in a way it plays games, but not really - all it does is take our own belief system and send it back to us magnified until we burn through it....years later, in retrospect, I saw that the kundalini had been with me almost all my life - influencing my dreams and perceptions from a young age....Just a quick explanation about the pre-motor and motor cortex - all movement is initiated from here. When you decide to move something, a rapid relay of information travels back and forth to/from the area you are moving to the corresponding areas of the motor cortex. The pre-motor cortex area senses/receives, and the motor cortex stimulates/sends the commands to the body part. When you feel something touch you, in essence you are not really feeling it at that body part, you are actually feeling it in the brain, specifically in a kind of kinesthetic map which is called the 'homunculus' which is like a miniature model of your body. Even intense feelings like orgasms are actually 100% experienced in the brain in the appropriate area of the homunculus (If you don't believe me then Google it). Nothing is actually experienced in the body itself. The signals are sent from the corresponding area of the body and then experienced in the homunculus. See this page: http://truebluehealer.blogspot.com/2008/10/lay-gnosis-post-kundalini-signalling.html I came to the same conclusion as they did separate from them. I only saw this a few weeks after. That gives me some more confidence in it. With Kundalini playing with your ‘homunculus’ self, you can feel as small as an atom, and as large as a mountain. I have felt my body seemingly morph into different shapes, such as my hand becoming a mallet. One time in a lucid dream the Kundalini changed my entire perception of myself - it made me into a shape of a Ficus tree. I felt like my body was shaped like a Ficus tree. So you see, kinesthetic sensations are malleable...and they all happen in the brain. Think of the phantom limb effect when someone has one amputated. It would make the most logical sense that the kundalini does all this through the brain. Even if you feel a certain 'chakra' being stimulated, it is my belief that the kundalini never actually leaves the brain, as it doesn't have to. Occam's Razor leads me to this belief. Yes, maybe it could modulate the signals coming from a body part at the source, I am sure it could actually...but it makes so much more sense to go to the sources of perception and signal relay and affect it there. Kundalini can influence your brain chemistry to create any emotional state you like. When there is the unknown there is room for gathering data about the unknown. I like to explore models of truth by staying empty and flexible. I empty myself and try different things experimentally because it’s a really good way to find out the truth. I look for patterns behind the patterns. I don’t currently accept any of the reigning theories about Kundalini…I accept parts of them as being most likely. There is a scientific explanation for all things spiritual and a spiritual explanation for all things scientific. BACK TO THE STORY: What are illusions? The term is usually used to define something that is temporary, but as all things are temporary are not all things illusions? Since everything is constantly morphing and changing, and nothing stays the same how are we to define anything as permanent, or as being true (except perhaps that change ever is and this is unconditional)? As soon as the thing has been noted, it has already changed from the original perception. What is most unreal is the model of reality that is known as ‘mind.’ The Tao is constantly changing, so is illusory, yet it is also the most real illusion that is. The mind is always slightly different from what was just perceived. Therefore, all things are both real and yet not real, with the mind being the least real to varying degrees depending on the person, but always less real than the Tao. Words are misnomers, they are just ideas, symbols they don’t actually describe physical reality they describe a mental reality of ideals. They are all relativities…No relatives exist in the absolute, which is the Tao. Neither true nor untrue, true being a mind made concept – an illusion. How can an illusion ever be called true, but also…how could it ever be called false? Neither true nor untrue. Everything just is…It has “Isness” -when we look at things and give them relativistic labels such as good bad, pleasure pain, up down, etc. one can try to avoid the things that one considers negative, and this is probably preferable, yet one is also creating thought constructs in the very act of labeling something is negative, which strengthens that their negativity which did not exist before labeling that thing is negative. Our demons: “Spirits of envy and strife. They like pain and misery, greed, hatred, deceit, dark passion, incest, violence, fear, dominating others, hopelessness, lasciviousness, etc. They are parasites. And they are us. They exist in our mind. Let them control you and you will be ensnared. Fail to master them in your lifetime and you are ensnared for life, beyond the hope for redemption in that lifetime (if Karma is real then you will have to deal with them again another time around). The mind is the parasite if you don’t learn to be its master (i.e. if it doesn’t master itself). It believes as it does-creating a thought loop – “it eats itself,” snake eating its own tail. It tries hard to believe itself, becoming one with awareness. It is a series of infinite trials, a series of infinite jests. It exists to control us through its voices/feelings…It believes as we do – it makes itself up…when mastered, you are the creator of your own reality. When I say control us, I mean that the mind controls itself- different facets of our being co-controlling the whole of our multiple selves. Don’t listen to the voices; they are jinn-spirits (illusions). Kundalini pushes these to the fore so we can deal with them garbage that exists in our minds, deal with the illusions that we are. Don’t believe anything I say either. Don’t believe anything you say. Eat everything that comes in, become empty again… Illusions manipulate illusions. Self manipulates Self. No one person. No two people. Endless beings are all the same. Each one different. Endless truths, one truth. Holding to the truth makes you tired and old, begin fresh by erasing your self...Never say never. Always say always. Drop what you had makes us empty. Pick up what you learn makes us full. After a while the streets get cleaned and everything shines. Choose truths wisely. Chooser, the act of choosing, and the choice become one. “ Buried within you are our minds…the part of us is inherently buried within “garbage DNA”…the scrambled code for evolutions principles…the environment is causing this. Buried within us is our ‘career’ our pathways – the Kundalini told me this...Whatever our environment is brings out specific ‘careers,’ habitual pathways, roles, socially structured or self-structured. See also how DNA’s programs are brought about depending on our environment (social, emotional, physical, and chemical)), it is like this: The mind believes the thoughts because it (is them) interacts with them. In belief lies the career. The mind “careers” us – makes us infallible slaves to ourselves. We are as we believe ourselves to be. Your mind become itself – it assumes the spiral shape, a convoluted donut. Different selves seeing different selves not knowing they stem from the same source. The mind eats itself in parallel, assuming its guise. It believes…as it is, so it becomes. We are all beliefs in ourselves, mind-made streaming energy. Ideas are mental sabotage. Brought on by foreign forces (ourselves labeled as foreign: demons, spirits, fragmented selves, other people). We are foreign to ourselves until we realize that we are all ourselves…Ideas can be merciless things (paranoia example). Ideas about ownership create pain (attachments, wars, hate, etc.). Most ideas are baseless. Evolution is the ‘spirits’ inside of us forever united as energy. Chi is spirit. It is one with the mind. It believes itself. Its performances are legendary to itself. The mind carries the spirits like wind…it incorporates them, it invigorates them. Jinn are self-created jests…Belief in storms creates them as awareness entities in your mind- spirits of the mind that talk to themselves. See this page about the Jinn: http://www.thejinn.net/index.htm they are Kundalini, holy spirit, etc. I don’t believe everything they believe there though, but they have some insight. The mind believes itself because it is itself...it creates itself, it makes itself a legend to itself because it adheres to beauty like a magnet, like a chick following its mother. We are phantoms, states of mind, perception attainments, only allowed because we are willing. We allow all the demons/parts inside of us to exist because we are attracted to their desires...Desire creates the demons/angels. The mind creates itself. Mind is a theatrical device – it makes illusions, plays, and stories. Micro focusing on sexual appetites is vicarious thrill of demons (incubus/succubus). Learn to love the demons. Micro focusing on hateful desires is also our demons. Realize that you already love the hate on some level. Love your demons and school them better. Make them Buddhas. We are all filled with wrathful demons. They are the coolest, once you begin to accept yourself. If you make all your other selves Buddhas (or Jesuses or whatever you want), then you become That. Everything you see is a mirror. You see yourself. Everyone lies. Nothing ever stays the same, so as soon as we speak something, reality has changed on us and it’s a little less true, even if it was just true a minute ago. Everyone seeks – no one finds. As soon as you find what you were seeking, the thing that was found has changed, so it’s no longer what you were seeking. Labeling things in your mind creates false reality. You create a map of the universe, but the map is less true every second, as soon as the map is created (assuming that you created an accurate map in the first place – doubtful!) By basing understanding on a reflection, no matter how accurate - you are always slightly living an untruth, even if it is only by 0.1% error…but when one truly integrates with what really is, one is always true and always completed. As the truth is constantly changing as the wheel turns, the truth does not remain stagnant, but rotates in step along with 'that' The truest truth one can attain - at least as far as I can tell. You have to stay linked with it though- think you are linked with it, and you aren’t. There will be no thoughts if you are. At the same time I think that a full mind is also a constancy of our reality - forever emptying, forever filling. Whether the reflection is accurate because of direct perception, or whether it has become an accurate perception through mental fencing...both have value, but I think in the end that learning to empty oneself as often as possible, one learns far faster than the other. Both ways can bring bliss, but by emptying, bliss can also come far easier as well. The Tibetan Buddhists (in the Vajrayana school I think) do this practice where they view everything in the world as a big mandala, and all the beings as various divinized gods and demons. This is viewing the mind as everything and making the mind a holy place of gods and demons. This is nearly exactly the mind techniques I use. It is unifying oneself to the divine by creating a divine inner reality. But your focus changes depending on what’s going on at the time, so its not one-pointed focus techniques...focus is there, but ever-shifting. Focus is used to create ideal forms, to replace the minds not-so-ideal constructs with better ones, thus replacing the selves with better selves. It flows with what one is being presented with. The mind is like a reflection of the universe. A map of the real thing. So while it is part of the universe, it is also separate...kind of like a Russian nested doll. We only know the reflection from a dualistic standpoint. Everything else but mind is outside of our direct, unfiltered awareness - just a reflection. Most people live in their mind palaces or mind reflections. It is really difficult to meditate and attain Samadhi or absorption. I have only attained brief flashes from working really hard. I may eventually be able stay in that state, but I sincerely believe it is only a perception attainment at the same time, until full and permanent Samadhi occurs - then you are an extension of absolute reality and there is no more 'I', just reality...pre-Nirvana realizations are definitely the most accurate reflection of the truth one can approach. One can certainly shape their mind to most accurately approach true Tao or Nirvana or permanent absorption by using contemplation with thought - lots of evidence for this out there. The reason I am making the tool way down below is to help better explain how the mind works and thus the universe to all those who will not meditate - who see no reason to do so, and yet still want to understand and have as accurate a reflection of reality as they can. I can tell you that there are more people like that then there are people who wish to meditate. So instead of just telling people - "you should meditate and find absorption," I am aiming to help them in the way they are willing to be helped. Saying that you should just meditate to someone who does not want to or feel like doing it will simply fall on deaf ears- give someone a tool that they WILL use and they will use it and it WILL be helpful. Give someone a tool that they refuse to use and they will simply drop it on the ground and your energy was mostly wasted. I know that this is true for I have done it myself ten thousand times and seen others themselves do it ten thousand times. The funny thing is that those who speak of just dropping the mind and seeking unity often have just as inferior mind maps as anyone else...Their mental models of the universe are still incomplete truths. I have talked with supposedly enlightened people who have spoken twisted reflections of reality - people who meditated every day for years. There was this famous Theravedan monk who meditated his whole life who thought that there was people living on the moon. Enlightenment doesn’t necessarily equate with true knowledge – it just feels great. More advanced knowledge can come through enlightened beings than any other source, yet there is value in being a scientist and having skepticism. So a mind construct is like a symbol or an ego creation inside your head... Can any thought or any idea actually represent the true you? We have a mind construct for everything...you have a mind construct that represents me, one for yourself (that you call 'I')...one for every object that you have any awareness of...chairs, garbage, anything. The are aggregated associated memories....Think of a pyramid that contains everything related to a specific subject...say the one for yourself...the tip of the pyramid is the name representing the mind construct...I assume you think of yourself as 'I' mainly, with your name and what you look like somewhere near the top as well. Then underneath is the structure that contains all the associated parts of yourself that make up the 'you' identity (or 'I' in your case)...you know how memories are all connected with related memories, for instance - if you think 'red car' your mind will automatically bring up any red car you ever encountered in your life, if you give it time enough. This is how the whole pyramid works - it is called an 'aggregate ideal.' The whole pyramid of 'I' is the whole of you as a mind construct, whereas the tip of the pyramid is the words that symbolize the whole. The problem with most people is that they don’t realize that all the mind constructs in their head are really themselves because they have separated the mind constructs into self and other...The allow certain others to become closer to their own 'I' such as family members - things they own etc- in which case those mind constructs are collectively grouped under 'me' or 'mine' Then there are things that we consider 'the enemy' such as rapists, murderers, tyrants, big corporations, etc. These are all collectively organized under the aggregate mind construct called 'the enemy' or 'the hated ones' or something like that. When you realize that all the mind constructs are you and yours alone, you start to realize you are everything - you are every part of your mind - you are the devil, you are the rapists - they exist within you as your own self divided from realization that it is one self. So we have arguments with ourselves in our head...you remember traumatic incidents and the 'I' construct relives them and re-imagines the acts perpetrated and has a fight with itself 'I' and 'the assholes who hurt me' not realizing that you are really the asshole now. So we spend all day fighting ourselves and making life hell...thinking that it was that other person who is making us hell - but no - you made more hell for yourself than anyone ever did. If you were truly able to let go of the mind construct war - as meditation seeks to do directly, then you wouldn’t suffer anymore - ever again. But its fucking hard to meditate properly - you have to practically remove yourself from the world and never have any input from TVs internet, other people, etc. See the problem with associative memory processes is that they spark those mind constructs back into reality over and over again all day long. Words are evil things...Let's say you were raped and you see a news report about some serial rapists on the loose. Your mind construct of 'rapist,' which is intimately connected to 'the rapist who raped me' is automatically activated upon hearing about 'the serial rapist'- it has to be or else you would not be able to really understand what a rapist is...your definitions and labels are the tip of the pyramid, what’s underneath is what makes up the body of the definition. So because I cant meditate well - too much of a crazy brain that is too hypervigilant and easily fight-or-flighted by any kind of stimulus - prevents me from meditating in the direct awareness way as easily - I get sidetracked to easily...So I decided to use a different system which is like jnana yoga or Zen koans...you directly involve yourself in mind constructs by basically paying direct attention to them and reshaping your understanding - you create a new mental map....you refine and refine until your mental map most resembles ultimate (truest) reality. You basically recreate your mind constructs without effort (if you are the type that loves to think or can’t help it). You take advantage of your endless thought process and simply direct the flow to reshape the whole mind map. Its more fun than meditating for me....it makes you happy. Also think about this: Have you ever said to yourself, "I wish these thoughts would get out of my head!" That is how most people are...they see themselves as separate from themselves...they haven't realized the unity of mind yet...working with mind constructs means owning them all - never avoiding them…It takes two to argue and by splitting the mind into two (or more, which is the case), you will not reach wholeness - which is ecstasy - you will only continue to section off the brain into fragments - you will end up creating a garbage heap in the bottom of your mind that is the 'unwanted parts' which will fester and create suffering because it never truly goes away - there are no mystical universal mind garbage men who come pick up the trash. We are all walking around with trash heaps in our minds, deserts, lakes, prisons, everything. We say its not us, but it is us....We are actually the snake eating its own tail....there are not more than one snake eating you - just the snake that is you eating your own self...I think that when the snake realizes itself, its stops eating itself, and then the hurting of the self disappears...the snake head disappears maybe even and you become a circle? I don’t know I haven't worked that out yet.... People are creating environments in themselves which are wasting their Eros everyday. They send it to these illusory thought constructs instead of ‘real’ (as real as can be) beings, including their ‘realest’ thoughts. They don’t realize that their thought constructs are themselves so they send this love to an imaginary other, when they should really learn to love themselves first and then real others. We are possessed by our mind. Our own demons possess us. Every day there are lies being spread all around us – by us and within us. We believe the lies and suffer. What to do if you are talking with someone who is a liar, but you want information? …if they are willing to interact look for clues, patterns, see if you can see behind the mask. Use these methods to get to know your many selves. All your selves are liars, because you think they are true selves – they are fabrications of the mind. Puppets dancing on mind strings. Look for basics: -where? -what? (How shaped, how formed, made of?) -when? (Seek evidence of its manifestation…look into the past, track its trail) -Why? (See if you can figure out the reasons for what it does – look at the patterns, figure out its goals, what feelings does it move from – find its seed source) -How? (Research scientific explanations for how these things might occur, never stop learning about mind) “Ultimately an ego is a resistance to what really is...its the ways we create to resist life as it is...its not a thing – its verb…it’s the pushing away and pulling towards…its this grasping or rejecting that forms a separate self.” What we are is awareness- that which is watching us pretend to be a separate being. What we are wakes up from the ‘me’ It’s not the ‘me’ that wakes up, it more like awareness remembering it’s self. Universal spirit wakes up to itself. What we are wakes up from the seeker, from the ‘me.’” – Adyashanti

Dualistic or samsaric good behavior, such as our personal daily striving to show compassion or love gets a bad rap that it doesn't merit. From the point of view of ultimate absolute unconditional love of someone who is realized, its a bit tawdry or synthetic. But the bit by bit, situation by situation, thought by thought, impression by impression, dream by dream, posture, gesticulation, face, eye expressions, those slim little energy impressions that you have in your body moment to moment, all of this counts. Its not about karma, thats just a reductionist expression so we dont get lost in the complexity. Its about redoing your conditioning, and ridding your consciousness and body of those complexes, triggers, knots, of negativity so the love can shine through. Its about noticing the negative parts, stopping, and changing it. The good part of this is, if you are able to change the strong habit energy of one particular situation, there is a kind of elastic band snap effect that allows you to progress in a big way. What I mean is, it helps you more to have had a problem and undone it, than to have been neutral all along. This is why really messed up people are often the ones who can make the quickest progress. Meditation and energy practices do this slowly and thoroughly over the long term. The deeper state of meditation the more garbage gets resolved.

It all boils down to circumstantial priorities. A single person has less responsibilities, whereas a family man or woman have more. Easy for a single person to say F*** it to everything and go off exploring yonder, not so for one who has dependents. Either way, contentment comes from having the right thoughts followed by right actions, in all areas of life. Its all interconnected. If your mind is settled, one will not feel so much flustered by externals. An unsettled mind means no matter where one is at, contentment will be a forlorn dream, or the desire for it can cause one to become so agitated that one becomes blinded to simple routes to happiness, and this in turn can cause one to make rash decisions. If most of the contents of one's mind are rough and harsh, others (bosses for eg) can seem harsher and this in turn builds the level of disdain. The good news is that the mind can be trained, and unfavorable traits can be transformed into favorable ones. The not-so-good news is that even this takes hard work, and is also another cycle, albeit one that leads to brighter things. Choices. Cant live with them, cant live without them...

Well, in this case it definitely wasn't all a dream, because I DID turn the lights on. This night, I had another interesting dream state. Parts of my dreams were quite creative (some comedic scene and some music), and at one point I dreamt I was sitting in front of my TFT and it was flickering like hell. ... Do you know the phenomenon where when you close your eyes you have brightness pulsation in your vision? It can be explained electrochemically, but nevertheless, I had that after waking up from the TFT flicker dream. BTW the comedic scene (doesn't make complete sense, but whatever) was about a cop who got his police car stolen right from under his nose. He was talking to the police station about something and then this dialogue ensued: "Sorry, gotta stop here. Got a car-jacking." - "What type of car?" "... Eh... difficult to say." - "Can we track it?" "... Yes, I think so." The joke was that it's difficult for him to say because he's a cop and it's his police car that got stolen.

Maybe you have experiences with weird sleep states and can share your stories or give some insight. Every few months I have a peculiar sleep-related experience. Interestingly, if I really intend to let energy act freely in the head, I get results, albeit often scary. I'm unsure whether it's a necessary fear-overcoming part of my journey or something less useful. I had dreams. Not really nightmares, just some minor issue with a being pestering me, struggling a little, then regular dream scenes that didn't make too much sense, just some mixed stuff. Eventually I woke up and I don't remember exactly in what kind of state I was, but I felt compelled to turn the light on. Then with the light on and my eyes open, I lay in bed, and suddenly I noticed how insanely tired I felt. Despite eyes open and lights on, I was really struggling to not fall asleep again, and for some reason I did try to avoid that. I guess my controlling mind wasn't at all comfortable with consciously witnessing the process of falling asleep. It was clear to me that I needed to get out of bed and move if I wanted to avoid falling asleep like that, but when I had formed that thought, I already was in a weird state where I saw my room with the lights on just like a moment before, but it FELT like non-lucid dreaming. Just as if someone flipped a switch that said "dream consciousness". That moment felt a bit like endless loop logic, because afterwards I thought I had been dreaming that I tried to wake up. (Don't try to follow that line of logic, haha.) After some reflecting... I might have fallen asleep with my eyes open for a few seconds. Basically, because I was so extremely tired (no idea why) and it felt like something was pulling me back into the sleep state, I couldn't avoid falling asleep, but I could keep my eyes open, because I was more conscious than what would be normal. I would exclude that I had been disturbed in a vulnerable dream state, because my waking up felt natural and there were no noises.

actually I had a dream about jesus today, also about needing to go and find out about some alien group called "insectoids" lol. To me if people are actually going to worship a guru, or align with the energy of another, jesus seems pretty noble and all.

I just experienced a heart cleansing the other day in a dream. There was a being in my dream that was following my mom. A child like being with long hair and was wearing a blue robe. I was pissed off at her in the dream. I was walking around my house and she was telling me I could have whatever I wanted and then I began to ask who the frick was with her and I went into this strange state where I some times morph energy and I felt as if I was going to attack her and the being behind her. But what ended up happening was I had felt this surge of energy go threw me, solar plexuses and heart chakra as this being morphed into a vampire and my mom turned into a zombie, it was rather peculiar. I felt all this grief leave me once and for all as I woke up groaning. I remember as this cleansing or renewal was happening I became aware of this area within me again (heart charka) and it freaked me the f0ck out, so I woke up. My upper chest doesn't feel 'clogged' any more. Strangely enough, females are a lot more receptive the last couple of days. I had been praying for healing lately, I just wasnt expecting to see what I saw.

I'm not a fan of Flowing hands, and I have never spoken with him. You may not agree with how he has approached dealing with people on this thread, and neither do I. However, the essence of what he says is a truth that shouldn't be ignored. Like him or not. Many on this board want access to teachings, to powers, to spiritual experiences, or even to the deities and gods, and yet often there is little respect paid to these things, let alone the actual paths, lineages or teachers that can be gateways to them. There are larger things than the members of this board, and your conduct may be heard beyond the scope that you realise. Seriously, anything to do with spirits and deities should not be taken lightly. Just my experience. [edit] Many are taught guided meditation practices to meet 'guides' of one sort or another, and also teachers, sometimes even deities or gods. These are usually light trance states and not a whole lot more than exploring subconscious realities of your own. This is also how neo/core-shamanism works. When things really turn up, it is often quite a different kettle of fish. Entering into relationship with a diety is not the fantasy or dream many hancker after. Same with finding a good teacher! Whats the saying "look before you leap..."? Just a coupla penneth worth... Best,

Hi & you will relax with friends, and progress with many ideas, here., I'm familiar with lucid dreaming. It's quite a ride sneaks up like a fast locomotive, but once awake the second time in the dream, it reappears then the 3rd-4th time isn't so chaotic, can actually slow it down by knowing it is a dream and now it's a game. similar to playing hide'n'seek. Even the day dreams slow down, also. Once you recognize your the director, producer,actor in all life's events-all day-all night, there's no forcing the matter(which alan watts speaks matter to be measure)-lol. For example; 3 x this same dream repeated itself overlaying each other. I was being chased by a murderer and killed. After death occured, I appeared right where i was once again; chased and killed. chased and killed. Finally woke up and crawled out of bed, and said; 3's enough!'

completed acrylic-painting from a dream i had a month ago. called "92 empty pages", on a maxi skirt tonight- believe 92 will be the finishing touches within The Tao or ThyRocks chapter of it greatest novel ever thought an idea called Life, without an 'end' cover of course,,,life goes on,,,, Namaste

Thanks! Yeah I had a great feeling of love for qigong master Jim Nance -- and he actually called me again today as he healed my friend and his wife in Brazil - this cyber-friend of 10 years had set up a podcast website for qigong master Jim Nance but then there was miscommunication between our friend in Spain and me and then the friend in Brazil. haha. So then qigong master Jim Nance had me email the friend in Brazil to give him free qigong healing!! He said - well the friend in Brazil stil wants to pay but he doesn't realize that I do this all the time! haha. Anyway I said how he had a painting that the friend in Brazil did of Jim - and so I think that will be his payment. Ummm - so Jim is doing one more healing of them on Friday. There's another taobums person who PM'd me who is getting a Jim Nance healing on Weds. and the person said they would definitely share their experience for thetaobums. Ummm..... another person on thetaobums just got a group healing with Jim - felt some energy but not alot but they have two more one-to-one healings from Jim set up. So I'm sure will be hearing more about that also. Anyway I did not mention when Jim and I were hanging out on our deck -- then it seemed from the forest there was a bad smell that kept -- like when the wind picked up - all of a sudden we got a waft. My sister goes - smells like caca, is it from the baby? I smell the diapers. Nope. haha. Jim goes - yeah I smell it but you know with the woods you never know what's going on. haha. So then the next day I'm mowing the lawn with the push mower and I realize it was the bird bath! So embarrassing. We got tons of rain so I never checked the bird bath but this wild turkey had left a big one in the water. haha. No wonder we had not been getting many birds later. Oh well -- that stuff always happens to me - something really hilariously embarrassing. I'm used to it now. Jim didn't seem to be bothered - he can probably tune smells out like cats can do. But anyway he told me today I had "extraordinary potential" for the qigong training and that I just "gotta keep working at it." At first I said - when you say "you" - do you mean you like everyone you or... and he goes - no I mean you -- just you. haha. So yeah I am obligated to practice more now but I am also transcribing his qi-talks - that is slow work to get it right. So this is a dream come true for me -- Jim says he wants me to be able to meditate more and so this qi-talk project is part of that plan.

The idea of reduction is seductive to the mind. You /it can see the simplicity in the idea - it gives it process - a feeling of direction and holes in the dam to plug up. Or dams to remove. A map for success. Every apple polishers dream. You do not quit smoking by mind - at some point you are done with it and at that point it is quite easy to drop. You will not quit the addiction to future and past by reduction and these are truly illusion. No portion of the you that you associate with yourself is interested in winging it in present time - and you have rarely listened to the horse that moves you along. This cheap sellout that steers your course in life - whether you are a doctor or a king or a waiter or a cop - reduction is not practice in living with no future. Reduction is a tool for understanding that you can and cannot do as you intend. The driver (you)is a lunatic with glimpses of sanity and just enough intermittent positive reinforcement to pull the wool over your eyes.

The way I understand deities in Indo-Tibetan Vajrayana is that an accomplished siddha/terton's own wisdom manifests as deities in a lucid dream etc. The deities are primordial manifestations of a siddha's own wisdom. Then when a regular person practices that same deity, its like a shortcut.

In Madhyamaka, D.O. is merely a device that gets you to nonarising. In Dzogchen, there is a different device that gets you to nonarising, since there is no dependent origination there. Instead of worrying about all the philosophy, you can just learn the 8 examples of illusion: dream, mirage, reflection etc.

Dear Ones, the dream of every pracitioneer: Being able to meditate in the middle of a city, during day... Okay maybe half-extreme for "the beginning"... Any tips on getting in a deep meditation in an unsupportive environment? No, I do not want to suffer, but I want to meditate where I want to meditate and this is currently in my home. I can also go into the woods if I want to do so, but that is not part of this question. I live in a rather large village on the country side, in an environment with lots of families and their kids. Cars drive by my house every 10-15mins. Children play occasionally in the afternoon, which can get quite loud but doesnt really disturb me since they broadcast "joy"most of the time Is anyone in a similar environment and mastered how to deal with such noisy circumstances? I am asking this particularly because when I get into deep meditations at night, where no one is outside, every crack of a doorframe, bed, whatever gets So loud like a bang of a thunder or an explosion! And the triggered soundwave is felt in me like being temporarily in the beginning a dimensional shift. Hard to describe. Like a mind-shift ...becoming... that sound. Maybe you know what I mean... Any idea? Seeking the emptiness, the void in all those sounds? Being sensitive in such an environment is tough sometimes, but it works itself out somehow... no baby-monk tears haha! Kind regards

Love the name "SkyDog"....I love Dakini's, Guruda's, Butterfies, Phonices, all metaphors of sky goddesses (Nut, Isis, Inanna, Ishtar, Shekhina, Lilith, Vajrayogini, Yeshe Tsogyel ) and the Prajna underlying all Means. To 4bsolute....get a copy of The Heart Attack Sutra, by Karl Brunnholzl,...and disregard all the above posts. Second,...Is attaining emptiness a form of constant reduction? Let's break it down. Emptiness is not attained, it is unveiled from the barriers you have built against it. The perception of constant reduction is how ego sees the unlearning process. True Emptiness is actually realized through the simultaneous cancellation of opposites. Yang cannot be separated from Yin. Wholeness is beyond the sum of all opposites. SkyDog,...yes, perceived life is as inherently empty as last nights dream. Although I don't care for the term "empty mind"...because neither empty nor mind has a clear meaning among caterpillars attempting to discuss butterfies,...I do recognize your point,...at least partially. An enlightened person once gave 6 words of advice: Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come. Let go of what is happening now. Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. Relax, right now, and rest. Contrary to Jeff's New Age opinions above, one does not uncover emptiness through the senses, thoughts, or feelings,...as if those skandhas can actually observe the Present. Senses, thoughts, and feeling can NEVER observe the Present,...and thus will NEVER realize True Emptiness. Senses, Thoughts, Feelings...come and go,...that's what they do,....they witness the illusion of change in motion. To realize the nature, so to say, of emptiness,...we must let go of attachment to senses, thoughts, feelings,...which includes the cerebro-centric mind,...whether empty or not.

So this one time there was this zen dude who was dreaming that he was a pony He wakes up all like, "AAAAAAAAAH!!!" Other dude walks up to him like, "The hell us wrong wit chu?" And he like, "If I can dream I'm a pony then can a pony dream that it's a brony?"

Tilopa's Shoe The story of Tilopa's Shoe is one of my personal favorites, and has been an integral guide in my life's path since I read it at 19. It's a story of intrigue, magick, humor, and enlightenment. Much of the following was adapted from Alexandra David-Neel's 1929 'Mystiques et Magicens du Thibet' as told to her through the oral tradition. Madame David-Neel, who was fluent in Tibetan, spent fourteen years in the magical and mysterious Land of Snows. Tilopa was a Bengali, some say of noble caste, who lived during the 11th Century CE. He chose to leave his home and seek realization through meditation and study in a remote area near the Tibetan border. While seated in a cave reading a philosophic treatise, a beggar woman appeared behind him, read a few lines over his shoulder and asked abruptly, "do you understand what you are reading?" Tilopa was irked. What does this witch mean by such an unmannerly question, he thought. But before he could express his feelings, she spit on the book. Tilopa jumps up and shouts "how dare you spit on the Holy Scriptures". The woman then spits again on the book, utters a word Tilopa cannot understand, and disappears. Tilopa felt an uncomfortable sensation through his body. Doubt of his knowledge arose in his mind. After all he pondered, it may be true that he had not understood the doctrine expounded in the treatise, or any doctrine whatever, and that he may be an absolute dunce. What did that strange woman say, he thought. What was that word he did not comprehend? He felt he must know it. And so Tilopa started in search of the old woman. After much wandering, he found her at night in a solitary wood. She was seated along, her red eyes shining like live coals in the darkness. She was a Dakini, a kind of faery or 'sky-flyer' who played a great part in mystic Tibet as teachers of secret doctrines. They often appear in the shape of an aged woman, and one of their peculiar signs is that they have red or green eyes. In the course of the conversation, Tilopa was directed to go to the Dakini's land, in order to meet their queen and learn the Heart teachings of the Dakini. She told him that on the road, countless dangers awaited him, like abysses, roaring torrents, ferocious animals, delusive mirages. If he allowed himself to be overpowered by fear or missed the narrow, threadlike path winding across this terrible region, he would fall prey to monsters. If he drank at the clear springs or ate the fruits hanging at hand on the trees by the road, or yielded to fair maidens inviting him to sport with them in pleasant groves, he would become bewildered and incapable of finding his way. For his protection, the woman gave him a magic formula; a mantra. She said he must repeat it all along the road, keeping his mind entirely concentrated on it, uttering no word, listening to nothing. Tilopa saw the countless, frightful or alluring sights. He struggled across steep, rocky slopes and foaming rivers. He felt himself freezing amidst snows, scorched on burning sandy steppes, and never departed from his concentration on the magic words. At last, he reached the castle whose bronze walls were glowing with heat. Trees, with branches holding weapons, barred his way. Yet, he entered the enchanted palace. There, innumerable sumptuous rooms formed a maze. Tilopa winded his way through them and reached the queen's apartment. The beautiful faery sat on her throne adorned with precious jewels, and she smiled at the daring pilgrim as he crossed the threshold. But Tilopa was unmoved by her loveliness, ascended the steps of the throne and, still repeating the mantra, wrenched from her the glittering jewels, trampled under foot the flowery garlands, tore away her precious silk and golden robes, and as she lay naked on her wrecked throne, he violated her. Such conquests of a Dakini, either by sheer violence or by magic devices, are a popular theme in Tibetan mystic literature. They are an allegory referring to the realization of truth and process of self-spiritual development. Tilopa had thus reached the level of Avadhuta, a state of enlightenment where the distinctions between good and evil do not exist anymore. He, thus, returned to his cave in the north part of Bengal, and the old woman once again appeared. She said that he still had barriers to his full realization of Mahanirvana Tantra, and directed him to go to a particular town and enter the employ of the local prostitute there. Without hesitation, Tilopa found his way to the town and began working for the prostitute. In the day he would grind seed for her oils, and at night, he would pander her clients. One day, as he was grinding sesame seeds in a mortar on his lap, he realized and released his last barrier to the Light and Love he was and levitated to the height of a palm tree while still grinding sesame seeds in the mortar on his lap. When the prostitute saw Tilopa suspended in air, still making her oil, the harlot was overcome with shame for having given this task to such an enlightened being. She contemplated begging Tilopa for the privilege of being his disciple; and in that very moment he released a flower, which hit her on the head, and as if being struck by the diamond-thunderbolt of Vajra, the prostitute instantly attained enlightenment, and elevated to Tilopa's side. Tilopa, which means sesame-grinder, realized Mahanirvana Tantra when the seed he was grinding revealed to him the inverse flow of forward moving things, thereby actualizing liberation in one lifetime; the fourth stream of mastery. He called this Fourth Way, Kagyu, the Short Path of Vajra. And it was through the unbroken lineage of Tilopa, the Kagyudpas Red Hats, that the Twentieth Century mystic G. I. Gurdjieff received the foundation of his teachings through the Sarmoun Brotherhood. Tilopa himself had no human guru, having realized liberation through Vajra, the Light of Reality. His most famous student was a learned Kashmiri Brahmin named Naropa, who in turn was the master of Marpa, the Mahasiddha that brought the lineage and doctrine of the Short Path to Tibet. The biography of Naropa is both an amusing and illuminating description of the tests devised by a master of the Short Path to train and direct an initiate. Naropa, born around 1010, c.e., was considered a man of refinement, a learned doctor and deeply convinced of his superiority as a member of the Brahmin caste. Having been greatly offended by a rajah to whom he was chaplain, he resolved to kill the prince by an occult process. For this purpose, he shut himself up in an isolated house and began a magic rite to bring about death; the dragpoi dubhab. As he was performing the rite, a Dakini faery appeared at a corner of the magic diagram and asked Naropa if he deemed himself capable of sending the spirit of the rajah towards a happy place in another world, or of bring it back into the body which it had left and resuscitating it. The magician could only confess that his science did not extend so far. Then the faery assumed a stern presence and reproached him for his nefarious undertaking. She told him that no one had the right to destroy who could not build up again the being destroyed or establish it in a better condition. The consequence of his criminal thought, she added, would be his own rebirth in one of the purgatories. Terror-stricken, Naropa inquired how he could escape that terrible fate. The Dakini advised him to seek the Sage named Tilopa and beg from him initiation into the mystic doctrine of the Short Path which frees a man from the consequences of his actions, whatever they may be, by the revelation of their true nature, and ensures enlightenment in one single life. If he succeeded in grasping the meaning of that teaching and realize it, he would not be reborn again and consequently would escape a life of torment in the purgatories. Naropa stopped the performance of the rite and hastened towards Bengal where Tilopa lived. However, before Naropa would meet the Sage and receive the Ultimate Teaching, that is, Tilopa's Mahamudra, through which Enlightenment could be realized in one lifetime, he would first undergo twelve astonishments, followed by twelve ordeals. The Twelve Astonishments were challenges to Naropa's conditioning, that is, his ego and beliefs; whereas the Twelve Ordeals, or Hardships, were intended to encourage complete surrender. The first meeting of Naropa with Tilopa occurred in the courtyard of a Buddhist monastery. The cynic Sage, nearly naked, was seated on the ground eating fish. As the meal went on, he put down the fish's backbones beside him. However, in order not to defile his cast purity, Naropa was on the point of passing by at some little distance from the eater, when a monk started to reproach Tilopa for parading his lack of compassion for the animals, that is, killing and eating the fish, in the very premises of a Buddhist Monastery; and ordered him to leave at once. Tilopa did not even condescend to answer. He muttered some words, snapped his fingers and the fish bones were again covered with flesh. The fishes then moved as if living and swam away through the air as if it was water. No vestige remained of the cruel meal on the ground. Naropa was dazed, but suddenly thought that this strange wonder worker, no doubt, was the very Tilopa whom he was seeking. He hurriedly inquired about him, and the information given by the monks agreed with his own intuition. He ran after the Sage, but Tilopa was nowhere to be found. Then in his eagerness to learn the doctrine that could save him from the purgatories, Naropa wanders from town to town with the only result being that each time he reaches a place where Tilopa is said to be staying, the latter has, invariably just left it a little before his arrival. In the coming months, as if by chance on his way, Naropa would meet singular beings who were phantoms created by Tilopa. Once, knocking at the door of a house to beg food, a man comes out who offers him wine. To offer wine or spirit to a high caste Brahmin is an insult, so Naropa feels deeply offended and indignantly refuses the impure beverage. The house and its master vanish immediately. The proud Brahmin is left alone on the solitary road, while a mocking voice laughs that man was I, Tilopa. Again, the traveler sees a brutal husband who drags his wife buy her hair, and when he interferes, the cruel fellow tells him, you had better help me, I want to kill her. At least pass your way and let me do it. Naropa can hear no more. He knocks the man down on the ground, sets free the woman, and, lo!, once more the pantasmagoria disappears while the same voice repeats scornfully, I was there, I, Tilopa. The adventures continue in the same vein. Proficient magician though he may be, Naropa has never even conceived the idea of such display of supernormal powers. He stands on the brink of madness, the beliefs he clung to for his identity shaken to their core, but his fortitude to become Tilopa's disciple grew still stronger. He roamed at random across the country, calling Tilopa aloud and, knowing by experience that the Sage is capable of assuming any form, he bows down at the feet of any passer-by and even before any animal he happens to see on the road. One evening, after a long walk, he reaches a cemetary. A fire is smouldering in a corner; at times, a dark, reddish flame leaps from it showing shriveled- up, carbonized remains. The glimmer allows Naropa to vaguely discern a man laying beside the fire. He looks at him, and a mocking laugh answers his inspection. He falls prostrate on the ground at Tilopa's feet. This time the Sage does not disappear. The obscurations which inhibited Naropa from recognizing the Sage had waned. During the next several years, Naropa followed Tilopa without being treated as of any import, athough the Sage engages him in twelve ordeals, as mentioned above. Each Ordeal or Hardship, according to later Mahasiddhas of the lineage, contained one of twelve instructions of the Fourth Empowerment. As the first three empowerments encouraged the blossoming of the sapiential mind, the Fourth liberated the sapiential mind. However, only a few of the ordeals will be given here to grasp the principle of Naropa's release from his belief barriers and surrender to the Sage, whereby he fully understood the acquenscence of who he thought he was, and realized who he actually was. One of Naropa's first hardships arose following a begging round. According to the custom of Indian ascetics can beg for food, or alms, once a day. Coming back to his master, he offered him the rice and curry which he had received as alms. The rule is that a disciple eats only after his guru is satisfied, but far from leaving something for his follower, Tilopa ate up the whole contents of the bowl, and even declared that the food was so much to his taste that he could have eaten another bowl full with pleasure. Without waiting for a more direct command, Naropa took the bowl and started again for the house where generous householders bestowed such tasty alms, even though he knew he could not beg again. When he arrived, he found the door closed. However, burning with zeal, the devoted disciple did not let himself be stopped for so little. He forced the door open, discovered some rice and various stews keeping warm on the stove in the kitchen and helped himself to more of what Tilopa had so much enjoyed. The masters of the house came back as he was plunging a spoon in their pots and gave him a harsh thrashing. Bruised from head to feet, Naropa returned to the Sage, who showed no compassion whatever for his suffering. What adventure has befallen you on my account, he said with a cynical calm. Do you not regret having become my disciple? With all the strength that his pitiful condition left at his disposal, Naropa protested that far from regretting having followed such a Sage, he deemed the privilege of being his disciple could never be paid for too dearly, even if one was to purchase it at the cost of one's life. Another ordeal took place while Sage and disciple lived in a hut near a forest. Once, returning from the village with Tilopa's meal, Naropa saw that during his absence, the latter had fabricated a number of long bamboo needles, and with covered with molten butter, hardened them in a fire. Inquisitively he inquired about the use Tilopa meant to make of these implements. The Sage responded with a queer smile. Could you, he asked, bear some pain if it pleased me? Naropa answered that he belonged entirely to him and that he would do whatever he liked with him. Well, replied Tilopa, stretch out your hand. And when Naropa had obeyed, he thrust one of the needles under each of the nails of one hand, did the same to the other, and finished with the toes. Then he pushed the tortured Naropa into the hut, commanded him to wait there till he returned, closed the door, and went away. Several days elapsed before he came back. He found Naropa seated on the ground, the bamboo needles still in his flesh. What did you think while alone?, inquired Tilopa. Have you not come to 'believe' that I am a cruel master and that you had better leave me? I have been thinking of the dreadful life of torments which will be mine in the purgatories if I do not succeed, by your grace, in becoming enlightened in the mystic doctrine, and so escaping a new rebirth and having to begin all over, answered Naropa. As the years went by, Naropa drank fowl water, a defiling thing according to religious law; crossed a blazing fire, nearly drowned in icy water, and performed other fantastic feats which often put his life in jeopardy. Once, Sage and disciple were strolling in the streets when they happened to meet a wedding procession accompanying a bride to her husband's house. I desire that woman, said Tilopa to Naropa. Go bring her to me. He had scarcely finished speaking before Naropa joined the cortege. Seeing that he was a Brahmin, the men of the wedding party allowed him to approach the bride, thinking that he meant to bless her. But when they saw that he took her in his arms and intended to carry her away, they seized on everything they could find and belabored poor Naropa so soundly that he fainted and was left for dead. Tilopa had not waited for the end of the performance to pass quietly on his way. When Naropa came to his senses again and had painfully dragged himself along until he overtook his whimsical guru, the latter, as welcome, asked him once more the usual question, Do you not regret?. And as usual, Naropa protested that a thousand deaths seemed to him but a trifle to purchase the privilege of being his disciple. By some accounts, Naropa's last ordeal was said to have occurred at the end of a day walking in a remote mountainous region. Stopping at a cliff, Tilopa asked, what if it would please me for you to jump off this cliff? Before the final word was finished, Naropa leaps off the cliff, breaking nearly every bone in his body. Tilopa made his way down the steep, rocky cliff and asked Naropa who was clearly in agony, How are you?. Naropa answered that the pain was unbearable. Then, in a calm voice, Tilopa commanded him to heal himself. Instantaneously Naropa healed himself, and his broken body was fully restored. That evening, while seated at a fire, quite unexpectedly Tilopa took off one of his shoes and soundly slapped Naropa on the head with it. In that instant Naropa saw the inverse flow of forward moving waves of Light, and would not again transgress into the sleep of samsara, the always changing and impermanent dream of Maya. The full meaning of the Short Path was then told to Naropa through Tilopa's twenty-eight verse Mahamudra, or Ultimate Teaching. The story of Tilopa's Shoe is considered a historic occurrence. Several variations of the story exist, some handed down by oral tradition, others written in the biographies of famous lamas. Yet, unlike other philosophies, the historical legitimacy of Kagyu makes no difference, for the essence of the Short Path, the realization of the sapiential Mind in a single lifetime, is contained within the story. VMarco

I think it does buddy. Been going through the same thing. Often I don't know how to tell them about it so I lie and say, hey, I had a "dream about you last night", even though it normally occurs in a fully wakeful state.

Yeah - you mean his new SciFi show? I tweeted him about having the qigong masters on it. haha. Joe still has his spirit energy stuck in his cavity of vitality -- it's a strong dopamine energy which is a good bliss -- but he tends to suck people's energy down -- like qigong master Jim Nance says he avoids swear words and sex - which, of course, is the exact opposite of Joe Rogan. haha. So I always have to empty out my Joe Rogan experience - I sit in full lotus while I listen of course but then I might have to wake myself up from a "evil" dream to then go back into more full lotus. But I am waiting - qigong master Jim Nance has a new website in the works for athletics -- and he is going to post his video testimonial from an IFC fighter that Jim Nance healed. haha. Qigong master Jim Nance is also working with some top volleyball athletes - like the national team, etc. hmmm...... So yeah his big interest is the initation process for athletes. Actually I had a dream last night where this dude was coming after me to "pump" me as the term used on JRE -- and so I stood the dude off in a martial arts fight and I ended up literally bashing the guys head in. umm -- I felt bad about it -you know that smashing watermelon sound of the skull smashing open. So anyway I do appreciate this aspect of the sublimation training that the JRE scene focuses on - and I know he definitely dabbles in the energy consciousness stuff - so I still think there is a possibility of this down the road. I do think Joe is a good guy - despite his $22 million net worth. hahaha. I mean -- the thing is that this energy training has such strict mind training standards -- it goes totally against JRE. I think words are one thing -but it's the electromagnetic intention behind them that is crucial - and I can read that about Joe.... he definitely activates the cavity of vitality that kind of sucks off people's energy.....

This is what the statue I saw in my dream looked like concerning some black priest and that temple.. Not to sure about the lady in the middle. Might be Isis? Any ways I found this pic last night and had another crazy dream. A lot of traveling. Found myself at a temple that read Rose de Crux when I tried go into the temple, but the door was blocked with a inscription and a heading of Rose De Crux. Twas interesting. Rose Croix. It was Rose something. Possibly Rosicrucianism.

Nero's Guests - Sainath journalist exposes the fraud of Indian "development" as welfare for the rich which has caused a mass death ritual sacrifice -- meanwhile India exports grain at a cheaper price for European cows than sold for the domestic market.