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Allinone, The moment of awakening is basically the same for everybody, but varies in the details… The moment of awakening always comes after you have exerted a lot of effort to reach it, but not when you are thinking about it or expecting it… it happens when you are temporarily mindlessly preoccupied with something else and you least expect it… also it never happens when it would put you in danger (like if you were driving a car, or engaged in some hazardous activity)… I know of one monk who was mindlessly watching a farmer plant rice when he had his moment of awakening… another monk had walked a long distance, and when he stopped to rest for a few minutes and sat down, he had his moment of awakening… another monk was mindlessly taking a piss when he had his moment of awakening… when it happened to me, it was late afternoon and I was sitting mindlessly listening to the wind rustling the leaves on the trees, and to a solitary bird that was singing its heart out, when it hit me like a ton of bricks… totally without warning… that was my moment of awakening… As soon as it hit me, I could hear loud very deep rumbling sounds like an earthquake was ripping mountains apart, and hear very high pitched zinging sounds… and see blinding flashes of light, like the flash on a camera going off in my face… (this is basically the same for most people at their moment of awakening… but after this it can vary a lot, depending on the person )… I had just spent more than six weeks in solitary meditation, trying to force my way into my subconscious mind, in an attempt to reprogram it… because of this, after the loud rumbling earthquake sounds, zinging sounds, and flashing lights were finished… I found myself inside my subconscious mind in a huge space looking at what looked like Hoover Dam (which represented my delusion) towering in front of me… then big cracks started appearing in the dam, getting bigger and spreading, and pieces of the dam were breaking off and falling away, fizzing away as they got smaller and smaller until they evaporated… then the whole dam gave away and collapsed… and the entire contents of my subconscious mind, like a giant wave swept out and over me… at this point my moment of awakening was over, and I was awakened… the “hypnotic trance of delusion” had been destroyed… Everyone thinks that they are not deluded (which is delusion), until they awaken… then they feel as if their whole life up to this point was just a long hypnotic dream, and that they have just awakened in the “real world”… everyone experiences this, which is why it is called “awakening”… After awakening, my subconscious mind had become as conscious as my conscious mind… so I then spent the next seven days inside my subconscious mind exploring it, and experiencing it, seeing what it was capable of… gaining firsthand knowledge of it… I had no sense of time passing, except that the sun kept coming up and going down, it was always “NOW”… and I was pure awareness, simply aware that I was aware… my subconscious mind was no longer deluded, so it was now completely reliable… and my conscious mind was serenely "empty” and peaceful… Dawg

Here's what I do -- burn off my sexual energy as "O at Ds" during the day. In other words transform the lower emotion energy into light -- shoot it out of the pineal gland -- into REAL females -- giving them feelings of bliss and love. This in turn creates an internal climax for you, the male and also transduces your lower emotions into love. This is best done while in full-lotus but can also be done through reverse-breathing and "flexing" the pineal gland. If at night I feel really randy and think I will lose a load since I'm too tired and I have not converted my jing into chi -- then I may use physical stimulation while in full-lotus, making sure to retain as much as possible (which usually is probably 90% or more of the fluid). The fluid then is safely in your brain, having shot up the spine, where it is more easily converted to electromagnetic energy. If this doesn't happen and I end up going to sleep not having converted the jing to chi -- then usually in my dreams I will wake myself up right before losing a load. Usually in my dreams I'm shooting energy at people, flying, or if I get randy with a female -- I usually go into full-lotus in my dream. Sometimes I will have an internal climax while asleep -- this is great. My back just arches and it all just shoots up my spine -- and of course since it's a dream that's very vivid, it's as real as the waking state. haha. If I wake myself up before losing the load -- I just go right into full-lotus and then will actually climax with the "alchemical pill" safely tucked into my brain. haha. Then I can go safely back into sleep if I want. Having said the above it's been longer than I can remember since I lost a full load. It really grows your hair great as well when you're constantly feeding it with the transduced electrochemicals of anerobic bacteria and sex hormones, etc. ha!

A good first clue. Thanks. Hm, I guess it's not because the sleep phase is too short and thus not entering REM sleep. After all, one can just take a brief nap and still dream.

Whenever I've had large dream-less chunks of life, it almost *always* corresponded to periods where I was simply not getting enough sleep. Like not even close.

My dream when I was 20 was seriously to become a goat rancher. Ranch dem goats!

...And the dream of the mountain...

and it helps if you get enough sleep to dream, too

Greetings telos. First place I'd look is to your diet. Are you getting enough healthy fats in your diet? This is crucial for cognition. There are lots of ways to add them in. If you're a tea or coffee drinker, the current trend is "Bulletproof coffee" which uses grass-fed ghee and MCT oil, which is a condensed form of coconut oil. This is supremely powerful for cognition, and the high quality fat also gives great energy for several hours. And it trains your body to burn fat for calories. I'm a biohacker, so a lot of my advice comes with the caveat - everyone has a different biology, a different diet, a different mindset. But I try to offer a lot of options. In my own struggles, I always feel better knowing I have a lot of options to try. Krill oil is good, especially with megahydrate, which is a high-grade antioxidant. Whenever you take refined oils, a portion of them oxidize in your system, so you don't get maximum bioavailability. But megahydrate keeps it from oxidizing, so you get closer to 90% instead of 50-60%. When fasting or eating minimally, I've also found megahydrate to cut my need for sleep down dramatically. What else... pranayama of course, in the freshest air you can get. Hydrating is really important. I live in Boulder up at 6,000 feet, so it's very dry at altitude, and I find that if I'm not hitting liter bottles of water continuously, my performance suffers. Also, read, man. Read all kinds of wild stuff. When I'm working on a novel, I keep books on architecture around. Because it stimulates a different aspect of my brain. A book gives you the ability to think like someone else for a while, and I find this totally addictive. Poetry is good for stimulating the imagination. Sudoku and word finds have helped me with dream recall. The point is to just be interested in things. Binge on information that you're curious about, and it will light up your brain more and more. Neuroplasticity is so cool. I personally believe the mind has the ability to keep growing forever, like that big pink monster in Akira, except less gross, and more on the psychic level. I try not to post links to other sites very often, but the subreddit on Nootropics and biohacking is a fun conversation I drop into every once in a while, even though this is more toward the hard geek-mode side of things: http://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/ Also, a note on fish oil - I suggest avoiding it unless it's extremely high-grade (pharmaceutical grade) because fish holds a LOT of toxins in their liver, which is what's used for the oil. And also because this oil is highly volitile, and will get damaged (oxidized) in processing, so a great deal of what you get is rancid. Which is why people get the fish oil burps, etc. A company called Dr. Dave's makes very high grade stuff, I just ordered it to see if it's legit or not. But krill oil is super legit and very good for eyesight also. I go with Mercola's just because I know it's on point. Feel free to PM if you wanna geek about brain cognition and meditation and various stuff. I'm super into it.

Funny, I'm going through a similar transition at the moment. My gaming is more for reflex training and problem solving, transferable into my new field. I have also been marketing games/consoles recently...so yes, what a dream! But as you say, alas, I am leaving that world behind.

Used to want to be a game tester/developer when a teen. Get paid to create and play video games all day along. But alas another dream deferred. Two roads diverged in a yellow wood. My 2 cents, Peace

May my long-winded, twisting, winding words teach you patience Padawan! Let's see... 1. I am offended that a guru would throw seekers out. I think it likely that I would suffer the same fate, were I to find a guru. 2. I am lonely. In a physical sense I have nobody to share my life with, no friends, nowhere I fit. 3. I am hurting. Being around this beautiful young woman, feeling electrified, yet having this inner knowing that she is not for me. 4. I am lost and confused, with no clear dream or purpose. Tired of having to figure crap out on my own. 5. I am asking for help to understand. Some way to be at peace with all I am feeling and going through.

Kosta Danaos: Nei Kung- Quote : In space and time, while we are alive, we havethe ability to create, to think analytically, to dream, to lie and fabricate. This is because we possess both the yin and yang energies, both conscious and unconscious capability, while living. Quote : The decision to bring yin and yang together in thespirit through a process of meditation undertaken exclusively while the individual is alive changes things considerably. In essence, this practice is nei kung, the development of inner power. NEI GONG - NOT MOPAI EXCLUSIVELY! Quote : Accepting that our nervous systemprocesses the yin energy and accepting that this yin energy is the primal chaos beyond space and time i.e., = NOT JUST UNDER DIRT

Being part of a community like this has always been a dream of mine... But it doesn't look like I'll make it happen in this lifetime. The worst part is, I know my wife would actually enjoy it, but she'd never let go of the system unless it let go of her first. Slightly envious

I have a favorite cup , on it is a picture of stone fishermans cottage by a little quay, with two fishing boats .... its my dream retirement place. Not sure about the windswept (cold?) aspect .... I like the idea of hearing lapping water and old boats clonking up against each other ( the time I experienced that I loved it ) ... throw in some night time mopoke owl hoots and I would be in heaven. Good luck ... Nungali blesses you efforts

I practice the cultivation of the chi energy, the chi force. Not exactly chi kung...that is, I don't necessary follow an elaborated format to cultivate my chi....because I never need to follow any format to have completed the microcosmic orbit. The microcosmic orbit is the most fundamental aspect of the Taoist internal alchemy. Your chi must be able to complete all its energy paths along your body. I experienced it when I was 18, some 15 years ago, with only to have dream about 2 Taoist immortals...hehehehe... Mystical..... Since my body is generally healthy, I don't go through a great length to strength my body for the sake of the chi energy. However, I cultivate my chi through meditation....to cultivate the mind to see and to become the Tao. Then, the chi energy would come and go naturally in my body. How long I have been practicing it? If you include my past lives, it could have been a long, long time ago. But, I experienced the kundalini energy and the microcosmic orbit when I was 18, 15 years ago. Is it a daily practice? I do 2 meditations a day, about 1 hour per session. One in the morning, after waking up and the other before bed. And I meditate in my sleep too. Personal benefits? This is tough. It is only personal because I experience the chi personally. However, the effect is beyond personal because I seem to have developed the ability for precognitions for world events and maybe events in my own life, in my dreams. And of course, I don't look my age, maybe looking 10 to 15 years younger. And I believe my chi can neutralize toxins like being stung by a giant wasp. Yeah, it happened to me and let's just say that I have mosquito bites looking worst than being stung by a giant wasp. And another incidence in which my life was in danger (about to be run over by a SUV while I was biking, with less than 4 seconds reaction time). Somehow, I did some Matrix move and I didn't even touch the SUV at all.

I've got a few cool dreams and reoccurring ones I'm still trying to figure out meanings for. Years back one of my coolest dreams was about me being chased by a spirit that could turn into anything.. It cornered me and actually killed me, then everything was just black.. A voice in my head said "no this is my world" So I rewound the dream like a VHS up to the point before I died, then saved myself and killed the spirit. Others have been phsychic but about useless events..still pretty cool though

Simple Jack's comments on the previous page are excellent. I'm not sure why there is such contention towards a term such as 'non-arising', it is a perfect term to describe that species of insight in my eyes. Non-arising entails recognizing that appearance does not actually create anything, it is suddenly apparent there is no identity or entity within or behind appearance, like a reflection, no arising in apparent arising, that is non-arising. It is a direct non-conceptual cognition, just like seeing the color blue, or tasting an apple. Just as you see an object you see that nothing is truly 'there'. No core or essence, no linking qualities which extend that appearance in time or space. It feels like you are seeing something correctly for the very first time, directly perceiving the actuality of phenomena. No longer beguiled by taking things to be real, like waking up from a dream, and you know intimately that nothing is real. The recognition is so immediate and intimate, carrying a doubtlessness about it, requiring no evaluation or outside confirmation like you wouldn't need someone to confirm that you had just been stung by a bee. This is me trying to put it in words for you, since you feel so put off that I don't speak about my experience, but how to actually capture that? Seeing appearances yet knowing without any doubt or uncertainty that there is nothing 'there', and never has been, it really cannot be communicated. It is beautiful.

Thank you all for your input and giving me this information! Very strange that a former Christian who renounced his faith would be speaking in tongues. Also not what I remeber the experience to be like the one time I witnessed someone doing it years ago. What I saw was a sort of overflow of emotions, an emotional high, in worship. It brought on people speakng in tongues. For me it seems to be different. I guess I could be said to be in some ecstatic or close-to ecstatic state, but there is no worship aspect going on. Also I can sort of "tune in" it. Just have t think about it. Certainly not in an extreme of emotion now. And I can speak it. Almost like I've tuned in to something, and most of the time I have tuned it out? Well whatever it is, I will just ask the Source to be with me when speaking it, to guide and direct me to its usage, if I should use it in any way. Treat it as a gift and remain curious. It's nice to have things in the world that can't currently be explained, although I am sure if someone really wanted to they could. Checking links. Thank you again! UPDATE: So it closely resembles that english representation for the Hebrew name of God. Interesting. Also this speaking in tongues is connected to Shamanism. OK, well I defintely have a tie in there, as I met Ayhunna, a spirit fox, in a dream re-entry. I seem to have a natural affinity for shamanistic practices. Or at least I think I do. Not an expert, never met or talked to a Shaman to my knowledge. So this language could be Hebrew or Native American or something.

I just thought I'd add to this. I think I watch too much stuff, but due to illness I've been stuck inside. Obviously, it's better to practice than to watch things, but, if you're having a break, hanging out with friends/family, or just want to watch something to inspire you, then it's good to have inspirational, enlightening viewings (i think). I'm going to put an @ in line with all of the things that I think are best, indicating that: 'this is where it's at/@.' Obviously, more @'s mean it's even better, but, at least one means I think it's definitely worth a watch and is amazing; more than one means that I think it's amazing AND relevant and a 'MUST' watch. Spiritually Inclined/Enlightening/Mystical Films: I heart Huckabees. Never seen anything else like it. Non Dual, philosophical, existential comedy with dustin hoffman. What more could you want? It's brilliant. @@@ Fight Club (Let that which does not matter, truly slide; know you are going to die; you are not your khakis) @@@ Waking Life (brilliant docu/film about lucid dreaming and enlightenment/philosophy) @ American Beauty (giving up material life/surrender) @@@ Avatar (tribal/nature importance/beauty) Big Fish (nice and mystical, a bit of yama and niyama) Green Mile (beautiful, mystical, super natural) @@ K-Pax (alien visitor? ) Kung Fu Hustle (for those into the martial side; funny and beautiful) @ Magnolia (about the human condition; life, death, forgiveness) @ Me and You and Everyone We Know (it's weird, I don't know why I've recommended it, good though) Mr Nobody (about life, death, destiny) One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest (breaking out of maya's prison) Moby Dick (killing the white whale/illusion) Pleasantville (new paradigms) Synechdoche New York (can't recommend this highly enough; it's weird, wonderful; not an easy watch, but covers many topics) @ @ @ The Fall (whilst most all films involve the importance of relationship love, this one doesn't so much, which I really like; it focuses on the innocent relationship between a guy and a little girl both in hospital; beautiful and funny and nice) @@@ The Men Who Stare At Goats (for those interested in modern OBE research, special powers, etc, this is a must watch; based on real events; you can even get a scanned copy of the 'New Earth Army' training manual online: http://arcturus.org/field_manual.pdf !!! ) @@@ Shawshank Redemption (beautiful; get busy living or get busy dying) @@@ The Truman Show (breaking out of the illusory world) @@ The Game (mid life crisis/transcending what's not important) The Lovely Bones (nice and mystical story) The Secret of Kells (beautiful mystical animation) @@@ The Diving Bell and The Butterfly (importance of perseverance) Total Recall (what is real, what isn't; old version) V for Vendetta (overcoming the odds; vanquishing lies, etc) Vanilla Sky (waking up from illusion) Wristcutters a Love Story (funny quirky film about afterlife for suicides) I second: The Fountain. (The importance of surrender). @@@ Milarepa (still waiting for the follow up though) The Matrix (breaking out of illusion) @@@ Blade Runner (what is life/soul/true) What Dreams May Come (heaven and hell) @ Jacobs Ladder (heaven, hell, surrender) (not an easy watch) @@@ Gattaca (overcoming the odds) @ Spiritual Documentaries wise: Who's driving the dream bus (I don't agree with the guy's conclusions at the end, but the film is good). @@ The Yogis Of Tibet (Contains stuff on Trul Khor not shown before + interesting in general) @ The Tibetan Book of the Dead (narrated by Leonard Cohen) DON'T watch Enlighten Up (in my opinion, I found it irritating; the person doing the documentary and the person in it didn't seem to know what they were going on about; she just focused on asana really; the guy struggles to see where bhakti, jnana and asana all fit together; no one explains this to him, it feels like the creator of the film could easily have done this; I'm sure anyone who has spent a month reading into Yoga (Jnana, Bhakti, Raja, Karma - Yoga) could quite easily explain how they all connect.) The Louis Theroux India and Enlightenment episode (all louis theroux stuff is amazing too) @@@ Aliens (actually good, not like a lot of rubbish out there): I know what I saw (best alien documentary I've seen so far) @@@ Sirius (mixed feelings about this, but it's another interesting doc on aliens with a spiritual edge; I definitely agree with the sentiment) With regards to society stuff, corruption, indoctrination: The Trap - Series - Adam Curtis (a good sociological look at society) @@@ The Corporation @@@ The Yes Men 1 and 2 @ The House I Live in (amazing look at the ridiculousness of prohibition and how it disenfranchises the poor [and, of course, the people at the top get all the money; including HSBC [look in the news] who have NOT been punished for knowingly receiving and laundering drug money, whilst the poor get locked up for the petty crimes of selling to their friends to support their habits]) @@@ Jonestown, the life and death of the people's temple (incredibly sad story on a cult and the importance of not being brainwashed ; it's a shame; headed by a non sociopath, it could have been a beautiful non american, socialist utopia [makes me wonder about conspiracy]) @ Leaving the cult (interesting doc about leaving 'The Prophet' cult) The most dangerous man in america (about a guy who went from war supporter to whistle blower, the first whistle blower, brilliant) @@ With regards to anthropology: Tribe (by bruce parry; I think it's called something else in the US; he goes around staying with different tribes, taking part in ceremonies, properly immersing himself in the tribe) @@@ BBC Human Planet @@ Science, Biology, Physics: BBC Inside The Human Body BBC Time - Series - Michio Kaku @@ Into The Wormhole (hosted by morgan freeman; brilliant; asks questions we all wonder, especially those who are mystical/spiritually inclined) @@@ Haven't Watched Yet, but Carl Sagan's Cosmos looks amazing. BBC: The Life series; Planet Earth series; Blue Planet series (all for the beauty of nature) @@@ 'Other', documentaries: Murderball (inspirational; about living a full life with disability, among other things) @@ How hackers changed the world (self explanatory) @@ Fiction series: Adventure Time (it's amazing; funny without being derogatory or negative; truly positive AND comical; mystical; some episodes mention third eye, dmt, other dimensions, many mentions of meditation; in one episode B-mo and Finn are meditating and B-Mo says that he/she felt like she was floating up and down when she was meditating (Kriya / Spontaneous Movements!!! / Levitation); a brilliant Non-dual episode is B-Mo lost [the ending]; it's on cartoon network, and CAN be watched by kids (if you've got them, no swearing) but has a massive cult following, and seems to be primarily geared towards mystically inclined adults; SO positive, lovely, funny, mystical) @@@

"Words of my Perfect Teacher," by Patrul Rinpoche: ******************************************************************** Drom Tonpa asked Atisha what was the ultimate of all teachings. "Of all teachings, the ultimate is emptiness of which compassion is the very essence," replied the Master. "It is like a very powerful medicine, a panacea which can cure every desease in the world. And just like that very powerful medicine, realisation of the truth of emptiness, the nature of reality, is the remedy for all the different negative emotions." "Why is it, then," Drom Tonpa went on, "that so many people who claim to have realized emptiness have no less attachment and hatred?" "Because their realization is only words," Atisha replied. "Had they really grasped the true meaning of emptiness, their thoughts, words and deeds would be as soft as stepping on cotton wool or as tsampa soup laced with butter. The Master Aryadeva said that even to wonder wether all beings were empty by nature would make samsara fall apart. True realization of emptiness, therefor, is the ultimate panacea which includes all the elements of the path." "How can every element of the path be included within the realization of emptiness?" Drom Tonpa asked. "All the elements of the path are contained in the six transcendent perfections. Now, if you truely realize emptiness, you become free from attachment. As you feel no craving, grasping or desire for anything within or without, you always have transcendent generosity. Being free from grasping and attachment, you are never defiled by negative actions, so you always have transcendent discipline. Without any concepts of "I" and 'mine' you have no anger, so you always have transcendent patience. Your mind made truely joyful by the realization of emptiness, you always have transcendent diligence. Being free from distraction, which comes from grasping at things as solid, you always have transcendent concentration. As you do not conceptualize anything whatsoever, in terms of subject, object and action, you always have transcendent wisdom." "Do those who have realized the truth become Buddhas simply through the view of emptiness and meditation?" Drom Tonpa asked. "Of all that we perceive as forms and sounds there is nothing that does not arise from the mind. To realize that the mind is awareness indivisable from emptiness is the view. Keeping this realization in mind at all times, and never being distacted from it, is meditation. To practice the two accumulations as magical illusion from within that state is action. If you make a living experience of this practice, it will continue in your dreams. If it comes in the dream state, it will come at the moment of death. And if it comes at the moment of death, it will come in the intermediate state. If it is present in the intermediate state you may be certain of attaining suppreme accomplishment." The eighty-four thousand doors to the Dharma that the Conqueror taught are thus all skillful means to cause the bodhichitta-- emptiness of which compassion is the very essence--to arise in us. Without bodhichitta, teachings on the view and meditation, however profound they may seem, will be no use at all for attaining Buddhahood (...)

In order to remain sane , the mind has to create some indicator that what one is thinking of is not exactly the same as what one experiences from the senses at some given moment. If the two were indistinguishable , daydreaming about a stroll in the park might leave you in the middle of a street. Present moment experiences tend to have a great deal of power relative to recollection, and it needs to be that way, because when you remember , to an extent, you relive an experience you had,,,and while it may be very vivid , you generally can tell that this is not present moment experience. You may recognize this dichotomy when in a dream state, when you recognize that you are dreaming, or overlook it when you meditate.

It's not you who feels powerless and low. It's the perceived you. This junction is basically the red and blue pill event from The Matrix. Either you live in the dream world or put in the effort to wake up. It's up to you.

In my opinion, a mo-pai forum is quite useless since the school is closed and all we have are books, legends and pop-corn. A lot of qigong people started to re-create a western mopai school: something like neo-paganism or rune revival. Probably, they have very little of the original thing. So, what's the point of discussing something that... nobody actually practice in the original school? There are many in delusional states of mind that think to be in the real thing because they feel something, they dream of JC, etc... They want to promote their weird views and teach their reconstruction-ism for fun.

By power, I mean able to enter deep meditation states easily, lucid dream/astral project at will and everyday, heal others especially, etc. If so, could you explain in detail how you attained this power. I'm just curios how the people around here stand and as I'm starting all of this energy stuff, I want to have a good foundation and try something that works. I know meditation is extremely helpful and I do it everyday, but I'm not really seeing any progress with meditation. Yea I'm able to calm my mind, slow my breath almost to a stop, and remember some dreams, but that's it. I sometimes do horse stance and then my body automatically starts reverse breathing and my legs shake, but I'm still not noticing any differences. I'm curious to see what actually works for people. Please don't say mo pai because I researched this and can't find any reliable information past a certain level. Also the book(The Magus of Java) although a good read, seems exaggerated. Thanks for reading this post and if you have any advice/criticism, please input your thoughts.

I'm wondering if anybody here knows about this. Before I got full blown physio kundalini syndrome a couple of years ago (along with all the nasty stuff), I had this 6 month "prodrome", warning, or transition period, however you want to say it. Basically there were definite changes to my body compared to normal, but once the "real" kundalini symptoms started, this transition state disappeared. It affected me in a lot of really fascinating ways- 1. I had WAY WAY more energy than before. It felt like my body was supercharged. I didn't want to sit still. I walked faster. I talked faster. I thought faster. I could breeze through an hour's worth of work in only 20 minutes. My head was buzzing with fresh, innovative ideas. 2. Despite this, my sleep was good. I got a full night's sleep every single night. I had really vivid dreams, much more than before, with lucid dreams practically nightly. I could even decide what I wanted to dream about. 3. Mood and feelings were increased. I felt good for no apparent reason. Every morning when I got up I would be like, FUCK YEAH, I'm awesome, glad to be alive ! I had a greater range of emotion than ever before. 4. Confidence, ego, and arrogance were way up. I used to hate public speaking, but suddenly I was able to give speeches in packed conferences with little preparation. It felt completely natural to me. I was hitting on every sloot in sight. Even married ones. I felt like I was the shit, and I didn't give a shit about what other people thought of me. 5. Temper also increased. I got into shouting matches. Almost got into fistfights over trivial things. I remember having one bout of severe rage that frankly frightened a coworker. 6. Sexual prowess was down very very slightly. Maybe 5% It was noticeable, but barely. My sexual ability was so high to begin with that 5% is nothing, so I was not bothered. OK, so basically I am wondering what the heck happened during this 6 month time. This was seriously the best time of my life. I was like being high, but at night I was able to rest. It was like my skills in every single category were increased drastically, except that 5% decrease in libido, which I will gladly trade. I truly believe this is the best natural state that man can experience, far far superior to actual kundalini. It really pissed me off that it all ended once I got full blown kundalini syndrome, and all of a sudden I couldn't sleep, started having physical symptoms like twitches and energetic sensations. I would give a lot to return to that 6 month state. I wonder what it is? Has anyone experienced anything like this ? Is it remotely possible to experience it again ??? Thanks.