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Actually it was turned around for me -- Yuen Biao -- I was very religious as a youth but mostly from the experience of music training and the powerful healing trance experience in music. So also I thought it fascinating that Jesus -- the story of Jesus -- was to hang with the prostitutes and thieves. So being the city and my parents were bohemian somewhat -- into Mayan culture, etc. -- anyway my friends all experiments with drugs -- shrooms, pot, etc. And then later on some friends did everything -- my girlfriend was slipped a dose of LSD without her knowing it at a party. I lived with people who all did LSD when it was someone's birthday. Not me!! All I did was read books and practice music and ponder philosophy. So then after I discovered qigong through Effie Chow -- grandmaster -- and then did further research and then took classes from Chunyi Lin -- only then did I experiment with psychotropics. My friend told me how he had done every type of drug but one hit of Salvia scared him so bad he'd never take it again. His spirit flew out of his body and into the floor. So I read up on it -- Salvia is legal. I wanted to test Salvia against the third eye full-lotus. Sure enough salvia caused me internal climaxes -- it opened up the kundalini energy -- and with stronger doses I BLACKED OUT -- but I was in full-lotus. Before I blacked out I had this amazing experience that my whole life had been a dream and even the whole universe was a dream. I would wake up completely having forgotten what had happened and it would take me a bit to come out of the dream state to think rationally. So I then took stronger salvia while in full-lotus -- again I would have about 6 internal climaxes so it really did increase the kundalini energy. Then when I blacked out I maintained my rational awareness. I woke up while still in full-lotus and I heard myself saying out loud -- "I think I opened my third eye!" I was in a dark black room with a hat over my eyes and my eyes closed -- I put my hands in front of my eyes and I could see rainbows around my hands! It was awesome. That night I dreamt of this old artwork in my parent's breakfast room. I had always stared at this art work as a child but had never rationally acknowledged it or thought about it -- the artwork was completely psychedelic -- with bright rainbow colors! So I contacted my mom -- what was that artwork? Oh that Mola stitchwork. So I googled Mola artwork -- it's from the Kuna indigenous tribe of Panama who smoke cannabis religiously. So then I discovered that Salvia activates the cannibinoid receptors of the brain. Blacking out is the highest you can go with Salvia. Once the salvia TRIED to pull my spirit out of my body. My spirit got half way out of my body but the magnetic force of the third eye was stronger than the electrochemical plant energy transduced up into my brain. So I was halfway out of myself - laughing at the Salvia. Next I did ayahuasca analog -- Mimosa. Mimosa is actually stronger than ayahuasca. This is very very powerful DMT plant experience. It is like the Level 4 Rainbow Meditation -- I did it in full-lotus and i was in full-lotus for 5 hours. It was a post-death experience -- I call it the Rainbow Vortex of Reality because any rational thought you have is sucked back into your body so that the external world is actually a projection of the internal rainbow holograph. When the DMT kicked in the intense orgasmic bliss was way beyond anything from the O at a Ds -- I called it "being fucked by God." My tailbone literally felt like it was peeled up my spine -- cracked open -- with sexual energy. This energy then shot to my brain and I heard gun shots in my head. My third eye cracked open and the light was bright and everything turned into a rainbow vortex. I just stayed in the full-lotus and rode out the experience. I had many visions but mainly they were of other trance healers. I had the Bushmen healers doing trance dance and singing as the soundtrack for the ayahuasca DMT. Then I got messages from Chunyi Lin and Jim Nance. I truly believe that the deep bone healing for AIDS, etc. is done in this rainbow astral state -- -the rainbow body is created on this level. Interesting website -- yes these experiences are based on a deep physiological transformation which is alchemical. The great irony of celibacy is that people assume it means no sex when in fact it's the opposite -- it means more sex. After I have a good "O at a D" session my lower dan tien is filled with female electrochemical jing energy. This is what the PERVS want -- and so then I have to be very careful about the Perv Attack -- I will literally be stalked by Pervs. I call this the "bouncing leg epidemic" -- all these pervs are found concentrated on some places. Unfortunately these people are usually victims of the class oppression. For example my brother-in-law had to join the military in El Salvador at age 14 and he was forced to be a sex slave. So now he is HARD-WIRED neurologically -- his electromagnetic male essence is STUCK in his lower chakra and so he is obsessed with ejaculating and sucking off female energy so he can ejaculate again. This is literally spirit possession of females -- he sucks off their will power -- their electromagnetic essence is brought down to be turned into sex fluid for his use. It's the opposite of what I do. Anyway I'm 38 but age is very relative to how the body energy is used, etc. Doing healing doesn't increase longevity but it does increase health which slows aging. If you want longevity and immortality then it's necessary to "pool" or store up the chi energy -- electromagnetic -- in the lower tan tien and also to convert it to shen for the astral travel. The qigong masters reach this level by making sure females are not sucking off their built up chi energy. This does require some misogyny on males part in my opinion and it's why traditionally qigong masters were taught only after they had finished martial arts training in a monastery. Because you also have to make sure male pervs don't suck you off as well. Basically modern society is so starved for electromagnetic healing energy that if you do have any extra energy then it will flow naturally - be sucked up -- by people around you who need it. The process is impersonal and in a post-death state of trance through pure awareness. I went 8 days on just half a glass of water and that's when my chi energy got strong enough to create enough shen to open up the third eye. But also I got the shen transmissions to the brain from Chunyi Lin. Still my third eye is not fully open -- or a Number 5 person as Gurdjieff calls it. This takes a lot of training again to store up the chi enough, etc.

There are many worlds in our world, not necessarily coexisting together in the same physical plane. You can tap into them through meditation or dream travel.

Thank you Scotty. This is why I decided I was done with this topic. And ~jk~ somewhere earlier you posted a link to your topic, which was an interesting read. One of the processes written on the first post is very similar to what I use when I wish to lucid dream, except I guess I haven't thought it out so much as a process, I just kinda do it. Thanks for that

Now we are getting deep into things I'd say most of the 'problem' is to do with overpopulation and the fact there can only be one (or a few in their relative territories) alpha male/s. Back in the day it wouldn't have mattered so much that the alpha hoards stock as this was relevant to the hunter gatherer epoch back then and was necessary for survival but now there are so many ppl around it is detrimental. So currently we have those greedy elites who run the world and are hoarding the resources and destroying the world to boot. The rest of the 'common' men lay somewhere in between on the totem pole but most lay at the lower end as they do not dominate the environment. It's like the wolf packs where the alpha males gets to mat with all of the females in the pack but the betas aren't allowed to mate with any. As such the betas are not gonna be alpha and not gonna be attractive to women and thus there is a cycle of frustration between the sexes. The beta males want the hotties but the hotties want the alphas and there are precious few around. I'm not saying this is the ideal archetype of the alpha male but rather it's an old one which is outdated still be used today- hoarding of resources being a relic of our hunter gatherer days which is also causing us to b destroying the planet. So what we need is a new concept of the alpha to run the show a more egalitarian alpha who will reform this corrupt and polluted society; but, alas this is just a dream.

Well since Chunyi Lin was mentioned I'll add a few comments. When I first posted about my "O at a D" discovery Santiago exclaimed that I shouldn't do this because I was just burning off my sex energy -- losing energy big time. So then I explained that the full-lotus takes in as much energy as it loses -- there's an equal exchange. Actually it's not quite true -- the yin energy has different sources. Yin is the jing electrochemical energy that is taken in through the lower body. As Mantak Chia emphasizes it's "stem cell" energy -- sex energy that can make anything your body needs. That's the best source of taking in energy but if I'm healing old people they don't have much jing to give back. So the healing is an energy exchange -- chi or shen out -- transmitted by the healer (since most can not do this) and then jing or electrochemical energy in. Now that's the great secret of healing so I researched this to great extent. There's a book called "Modernity in Witchcraft" -- about African witchcraft where this is known directly. The energy healer EATS HIS OWN KIN -- the sexual energy -- and then sends out the healing energy in return. So cannibalism was the opposite of healing energy -- a person not part of the kin network could be literally eaten as an energy source. I also traced this back to Bushmen healing culture -- I read all the anthropological literature. Now Santiago states that the Bushmen do not rely on eating the female jing sexual energy -- called the N/UM in Bushmen culture. Santiago's source for this though is a Western modern female -- a healer also -- but female healers in Bushmen culture are not the norm. Instead for females to become healers the use of psychotropic plants helped the females to open up the third eye yet the PAIN of the healing is too strong. Read the book NISA -- the Bushmen female healer explains that it's stated females can handle the pain of childbirth but can not handle the pain of healing. So it's not just the female sex energy taken in but also all the other lower emotional electrochemical energy which hasn't been resonated or harmonized back to pure consciousness, the source of light. True Shakti or Shen transmission is very very rare. You will definitely know if you get a Shen or Shakti transmission -- it feels just like a laser and you will see light -- and your whole body will fill with bliss better than sex. Still to open the third eye to transmit any energy requires that enough electromagnetic chi was transformed into shen to create the macrocosmic orbit. As Master Nan, Huai-chin states most modern practitioners "fall back into worldliness" because of "heroic overexuberance." In other words before you open the third eye you have very strong chi energy which also gives you telepathy, telekinesis, precognition and strong healing powers. People WANT this energy so bad that they'll scream in pain to get it -- they will freak out -- because their subconscious spirit possession -- their lower emotional energy -- is being driven out of them!! It's a dangerous situation to be in because you've switched to free energy and eating any food will shut the system down. You literally EAT the lower emotional energy of other people and then in turn transmit the healing energy back to them. But people are in DENIAL about this process. I've been doing healing without money. Sure my transmission is FA JING -- which means it's primarily the electrochemical jing energy transmitted but in order to transmit the FA JING through the third eye you have to again open up the macrocosmic orbit -- the transmission is done through a foundation of laser light shen and electromagnetic chi. As Dr. David Palmer details in "Qigong Fever" -- qi transmission is composed of the three -- jing, chi, and shen -- with different proportions of each depending on the level of the transmission. Anyway after I explained to Santiago and others how the jing energy is taken in then Santiago instead of stating I was losing my sex energy also added that Glenn Morris knew how to take in people's jing energy as well. This, of course, implies that Santiago does the same which contradicts Santiago passing on about the Bushmen healers not relying on taking in female sex energy. In fact this is a natural resonance -- the transmission is impersonal like a waterfall -- it happens through subconscious properties and only LATER does the rational left-brain conscious mind figure out what happened. So if you do like me -- heal without charging money -- then what happens is people are in CONTINUAL DENIAL about the healing -- even though they know they feel better they do not know why -- or don't want to admit it. At my former workplace I was in a special situation where people would come to me for "charge ups" because work had tired them out. I had a couple coworkers -- males -- who wanted to learn about healing and started to practice a bit and so while they were in constant denial because their subconscious lower emotional energy would take over -- they still would want to ask me about the energy healing. One time a female from another department of the office came up to me, asking about my full-lotus sitting and what I had been talking about with a male worker in my department. I had been charging him up and she wanted in on it. So I transmitted energy to her while in full-lotus. I looked into her eyes. When I'm talking that means it's left-brain dominant and the energy is not transmitted. So then I would pause in my talking and then she would see my vagus nerve pulsating on the right side of my neck. After I transmitted I would then explain what this meant to her. So we had a mutual climax together. Then her boss came into the room and playfully told her to stop distracting me from my work. She then told her boss that I had transmitted energy to her. Now normally this stuff is taboo -- why? because it's sex energy! Language itself was created to repress sex energy so that long-distance hunting could be carried out -- sex for food exchange. Read Professor Chris Knight's book BLOOD RELATIONS. I did this with another female coworker as well -- and she too acknowledged the energy transmission. But the most profound energy transmissions I did at work had to remain secret because they went completely against the patriarchal technological commodity fetish -- repressed sex energy and projected anger-fear energy -- of the office hierarchy. This stuff undermines the monogamous bourgeois "commodity unit" of marriage which goes all the way back to gibbons and fruit eating!! It's the original forbidden fruit. The menstrual cycle synchronous with the moon cycle by females was the original communal "sex strike" to enforce long distance hunting by males so that increased iron content could enlarge the human brain with the side effect of increased blood loss. Originally gold and silver -- money -- was for the SOLAR AND LUNAR SACRED SEX TEMPLE RITUALS OF BLOOD SACRIFICE. Money was standardized by the Greeks but paper money was first used by the Chinese empire -- enforced through fiat -- military force. Both Greek imperialism and Chinese imperialism were the origins of today's standardized money value. The loss of money as the original complementary opposite gold-solar, silver-lunar ALCHEMICAL value is a great secret. Solar is electromagnetic energy and Lunar is electrochemical energy. Chunyi Lin does give free healings in special cases but keep in mind that there are many NUMBER 1 people now a days -- especially in the inner city. Gurdjieff describes Number 1 persons as having a hard-wired lower chakra essence which comes from sexual ejaculation focus before puberty is finished. Hard-wired meaning it's subconscious and all language will say one thing while meaning another!! This is the "Freudian Slip" on acid -- meaning all their language will have the secret goal of sucking off your sex energy for their own ejaculation. The Bushmen had very strict sexual training - if a male wanted to get married he first had to move in to the female's parents house (the opposite of today's female exogamy which parallels the chimp's war culture). So the male lives with the female's parents but there's still no sex. Not until he hunts for 3 years providing the food for the female's parents can he and the female consummate the marriage. Still after that every time he goes hunting there is no contact with females for several days and also a period of fasting. Any meat caught is then not eaten until the next morning -- giving plenty of time for digestion before the all night trance dance. These type of strict standards are easily misconstrued in today's "sex sells" culture -- where there's a "commodity fetish" driving the repressed desires which then are projected as destructive war-based technology. It's the anger-fear cycle of civilization based on male ejaculation!! Money in contrast is the repressed sex energy recycled as SHIT. "It smells like money" is a common phrase from the French phrase about money as shit. That's the other great secret of alchemy. Nonwestern horticulture -- Asian traditional farming and African farming -- relies on HUMANURE -- recycling shit back into food. The same sublimation of sex energy also sublimates anaerobic bacteria -- the e. coli shit bacteria of the lower body. That's why the free energy system relies on eating very little food and instead directly taking in ionized electrochemical energy as blissful heat. Sure food also creates jing energy -- but food is an impure source!! When we live off money instead of recycled SHIT (as food) and SEX then we repress the shit as much as the sex -- and the repressed shit piles up. So the Number One person will use language to demand things subconsciously -- just like the motto "the customer is always right" -- or "I don't 'buy' it" -- I call this MALL SCIENCE -- unless it's a mass-produced product then it's not proven. The Number One person actually just wants to jerk off -- a pervert who wants to feed off sex energy for ejaculation. The mass psychotic leaders of civilization are actually Number One pervs -- like G.W. Bush, Hitler, Hoover, even Clinton, JFK, etc. It's a mass hypnosis because the Number 1 perv -- the opposite of a healer -- has their ELECTROMAGNETIC QI ESSENCE STUCK IN THEIR LOWER CHAKRA. Their goal is to suck people off by activating a person's electromagnetic energy and then deconverting it to sex ejaculation -- so the person's will power is converted to FEAR. If the Number 1 perv doesn't accomplish this goal for their own ejaculation then they do the next step: ANGER -- and that's where you get the dopamine addicted sex crime serial killers masking as global leaders -- civilized gentleman, etc. It's the whole Take the Toys Away from the Boys shtick -- all these missiles and rockets -- spears and stones -- are just big sword fights based on sex power. This problem can be defined by Foucault and the leftist Freudian-Marxists but the ANSWER is still not provided. Why not? Because the answer is based on nonwestern music -- on something discovered through deep psychological physiological transformation and passed on through lineage. Trance dance healing through sex ionization acoustic alchemy. As Chunyi Lin says he's NOT ATTACHED to material wealth and traditionally a Taoist master would be paid not in money necessarily but based on the MEANS of the person -- as long as the client was sincere in seeking healing. Chunyi Lin prefers phone healings because he says there's less ego involved on his part. The energy healing is impersonal! The voice is the generative force energy -- the jing energy -- that's why phone healing works so well. If you can see the person directly then the aura reading by an energy master picks up too much information! If you make personal judgments against someone then that will block the energy transmission. MONEY comes from MONISM -- the basis for MONOTHEISM -- whereas healing energy is the Law of Three -- complementary opposite resonance. God comes from GOTT which means BULL -- BRAHMAN -- the original Tantric Bull Priesthood of fertility with gold-solar and silver-lunar ritual temple sacrifice money. The bull was god was formed with Plow-Based farming of the original City-State empires formed by the "Symbolic Revolution" (Jaques Cauvin) of around 9000 BCE. The "symbolic revolution" was based on the idea that the eternal energy of consciousness could be "contained" in geometric visual symbols -- money. This co-evolved with the domestication of bulls and goats for food. When the moon caused a solar eclipse then an animal was sacrificed in order to save the SON -- because the SUN WAS SICK -- this is the original patriarchal animal domestication religion documented in Kenya. And so alchemy became patriarchal because the SUN (son) was held primary along with the development of plow-based farming and the invention of the chariot technology through the proto-Pythagorean Theorem -- ritual sacrifice geometry as a solar priesthood. The moon energy again is the subconscious energy which is the JING energy -- both the start and end of alchemy. It's the female energy that resonates from female formless awareness. If "sex sells" then HEALING ENERGY is the final stage of late-capitalism -- it's the final "sex" commodity fetish -- so much sex energy that it is sublimated into so much bliss that the brain explodes back into a post-death, post-apocalyptic -- trance healing state beyond spacetime itself. Humans merge back into primordial awareness of the Rainbow Snake of dream time. The snake statue found in a Bushmen cave -- 70,000 BCE -- is the original religion -- the secret of good and evil. The sex energy which feeds back into itself as parthenogenesis -- virgin birth -- through the Solar-Lunar resonance.

But what do you think of the actual practices Creation? What did they bring you and do you still practice them? I know you have also taken a stillness movement workshop, has that worked better for you then KAP and how do they differ? AS for myself I plan on doing KAP eventually but want to ground first, do some more moderate and basic practices and sort some stuff out before I do anything that is potentially very powerful although clearly Kundalini per se does not happen as early with KAP as advertised. For me it is essential to combine KAP with Vipassana because I believe no energetic system has a good chance of getting you enlightened unless you combine it with an insight practice. And when I say insight practice I do not just mean sitting in "emptiness" somehow which can often be a concentric practice but an open investigation of reality type meditation like Vipassana, Zen Dzogchen and I believe certain Taoist stillness practices and certain christian practices and stuff from other traditions has similar but it has to be something else than a shamata practice. The tibetans have done such a combination now for an endless amount of time and if energy practices alone could do it they would have figured that out now and just skipped the insight practices. I believe energy practices can get you to the doorstep of enlightenment but then it is only insight and or surrender that will get you further which is why such a meditation and training is important. It can happen without this if you hang out in the landscape close to enlightenment where energy practices can take you because you eventually somehow get it or surrender enough but IMO it must be much easier if you actually know how to do insight practice. An interesting analogy to this is that a lot of people accidentally through meditation or even without any practice just in a dream or something cross what they in VIpassana call the arising and passing away which is very similar to a kundalini awakening. After that you invariably enter the Dark Night territory (which can be very mild for some and horrible for others). Acording to the Vipassana tradition you can then skip all the long hard work others have put in to get to the arising and passing away and just finish the last phases up till enlightenment which CAN be quite quick. I think raising the kundalini gets you into some of the same territory (can be exactly the same but also quite different but similar) and if you have an intelligent energy system it can also get you quite a bit further just by energy practices but then you will be stuck at the door of enlightenment for a looooooooong time unless you have an insight practice.

As the youtube comment says -- "orgasmic" -- I did the track in full-lotus while reading the latest ayahuasca interview on http://realitysandwich.com The OBE is described by Robert Monroe as starting with "rolling out of the stomach" -- which is another way of stating sublimating and ionizing the lower body life force energy. The fast rhythm of the music "empties out" the conceptual level of thinking -- so that the right brain becomes dominant. You can think but without any other conceptual voices competing. It's similar to the "auditory hallucination" effect in the shower -- white noise creates "hallucinations" -- or subconscious visionary experiences if you will. You go into a dream state and leave your body so to speak. Probably was more like an "astral tube" experience than real astral travel which is actually a very advanced practice. The "astral tube" is third eye energy though. Thanks for sharing.

Rossini (The Barber of Seville - Overture): The magic starts at 2:10. Mendelssohn (A Midsummer Night's Dream - Overture): Albinoni's Adagio in G minor adapted by Italian composer Remo Giazotto: J.S. Bach (Air on the G String): Some of the best performances of master trumpeter Maurice Andre: 1. Haendel - Gloria in Excelsis Deo http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUFoGaGHM2U...feature=related 2. Haydn - Trumpet Concerto in D minor (Adagio): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nEUIZakvqYo Let's not forget the great Johann Strauss II.: 1. The Blue Danube Waltz 2. Vienna Blood Waltz 3. Emperor Waltz Tchaikowsky and the "Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy" from the Nutcracker. They are using a magical instrument, the glass armonica invented by B. Franklin: Mozart's magical piece called "A Small Serenade": Let's change style and location, Hindu Diwali Aartis: 1. Jai Shri Ganesh http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1dFzi4BEjo 2. Maa Lakshmi 3. Om jai jagdish hare Enjoy!

Last night I dreamt about bears -- I was hanging out with bears. It was because yesterday I had been thinking about bears when I was working in the woods. Once there was a bear up a tree just off our deck while we ate dinner. Only 20 feet from the house - a small bear. Essentially when the mind gets really focused then there's certain thoughts that have extra intensity to them. Often we don't notice this moment of extra mind force with a thought but it's subconscious emotional energy. So that passing thought will then manifest in our dream state. For me the bear was in a precognitive dream I had about this tree in my yard being cut down. The dream about the tree was no longer I had moved from the house but I still went past the yard on occasion. I went back after a few months and sure enough this old oak was no gone. I had dreamt of a white bear standing up against its trunk. Another time I dreamt of another tree in my yard of youth -- only this time with a rainbow aura around it. Recently I saw a bear special on cable -- how this guy trained orphan bears and he played with the bears. When I lived in Alaska there were bear tracks everywhere. I also just read the book BEING CARIBOU and the authors are constantly being tracked by bears and then chasing them off, etc. Bears are a spirit animal for the circumpolar cultures and when bears hibernate they stick some moss up their butt to retain the energy, just like in the end of Taoist Yoga when he sticks a wooden bun up his ass. haha.

I thought I'd post about my mid-day meditation, a few times I stopped hearing the noises around me and felt very consumed in mindlessnes. I sat with my legs crosses, my back ended up resting on the wall behind me. By the time I was done, a section of my back felt like cold metal, as if it were asleep, yet very cold. I laid down on my stomach and began to fall asleep. Within 10 minutes I had a crazy tunnel of dreams, and very profound feelings of waking up. The beginning of the dream was normal but as I started to realize it was a dream I'd "Wake up". Only I was still dreaming, I believe I woke up at least 4 times in my dream and realized i was still dreaming after things around my house seemed to be out of order. It was VERY interesting, it felt as if I had woke up and stretched and went down stairs as if I had actually woke up. When I noticed I was still dreaming when about 90 Mexican people were in the street holding my car above them in the air. That one actually scared me a bit so i thought FOR SURE that i had actually woken up after that one. So... in the dream I woke up and the clock said 5 oclock, i started to panic (I don't panic nearly as much as i used to) i started checking my phone to see if my boss had been calling me and there was no missed calls, thats when i actually opened my eyes. I looked at the clock and only 10 minutes had passed but it felt as if i had left my body and went into a new reality, i experienced what felt like 30 real minutes, at least, in less than 10. It's something I'll never forget, and I'm grateful that I experienced it. - I'm interested to see if you guys agree with my speculation... I feel like my back resting against the wall may have blocked some sort of vital circulation, oh well, hope you enjoyed my post.

Yes! The other day I woke up too terrible weather with a 5-day old cold/illness ravaging my sinuses. I came back from my 8:00AM class and fell into a nap. During my nap, I became lucid. I walked into my bedroom and said "Wait a minute, why is my mattress on my ground?". Time for a reality check. I scanned my surroundings and placed my books down slowly. I tossed my hat into the air, to test gravity. It fell. But as it landed across the room, I noticed a great statue lying in the corner of my room. I knew it was a dream. I proceeded to enter a pose, believing it was Tai Chi (though I have never practiced the Art before...), and, while dreaming, circulated energy throughout my Astral body, regenerating my chi. I then fell out of Lucidity, and back into the "waking state". I felt so invigorated! My sinuses felt clear and my cough was gone for the rest of the day! The sunny, warm (in December terms) day! The miracle is small, but it is conclusive proof, to this author, of Divine Intervention.

Yeah last night I had this dream of my ex-girlfriend and she was staring into my eyes and I into hers. Suddenly my brain filled with light and my dream went lucid and then this amazing vision took place where the light changed from yellow to red, green, purple. All different forms where twisting and changing into each other. I was awake but was just watching the vision take place. Then I tried to sleep but the outside driveway light was too bright. Suddenly I realized it was the light of the full-moon way more bright than the street light. I remained wide awake for another hour or two and was able to figure out the subconscious influences behind the dream content but still the magnetic bliss in the brain was very strong and remains strong today.

Last night I had this awesome flying dream. I was flying around Lake Michigan in Chicago and there were crowds of people on the shore with whom I was interacting. Yep 3rd night to the full moon!!!

I've have made my own program for falling to sleep. Am a universal tao practioner. Here it is: I have something I call the four sleeping methods=fsm: I do four exercises to help me fall into sleep and alternate them with some qigong exercises. I stay at every step as long as I like, and it varies from nigth to night. I do them every night. And they have created a positive aspect to my falling asleep problem. Here is the four methods fsm: 1 I do nothing, just lay down into the bed and let the thoughts go, if I want to I can do any practise I like here, like following the breath or feeling into the body or whathever. This time is seen as completely free, like a holliday from the rest of the methods. I not try to fall asleep I just stay in this time of freedom a relaxationi as long as I like. When I start to feel that is become boring beacase I not fall into sleep I progress to the next method. I have noticed that one reason I not fall into sleep is beacas of two main reasons. The first reason is that my thought are going around and around, I mean that the same thougths arises time after eachother. The second reason might be that I am worried or are thinking negative thoughts. 2 Next step is some amateur alchemy in that aspect that I change every thought every image to a positive or nice one. If I've got a problem in my life I just think about how I want the positive outcome to be and dream into it. When I am tired of this exercise that somethimes if I am not enougth tired creates alot of energy, though positive one I pass softly into the next pace 3 I feel heavyness in different body parts and realy go into the feeling of heavyness in my body. I can feel heavyness spreading in one part of the body to the next and stay with whatever heavy feeling untill it spreads to a heavy feeling i another body part, then I follow and let the heavyness be more heavy and spread like a relaxation to bigger areas in the body. When I not want to continue I go to the next step 4 If all this not work I let every thougth in my mind move into the depts of the earth and disapear. All thougths or emotions or anything that arises, I just move it into the earth. This was the four methods, fsm. that I alternate with yoga. This alternation I do according to the following program. First I go to bed and do the fsm If they not work I go up to a sitting position in another room and do the six healing sounds. I continue with eaach sound untill I feel that the organ used in one of the sounds is relaxed and happy. I do all the sounds in this way and go back to.fsm If I feel tired I stop earlier. The last sound the triple warmer sound I do in bed a few times, or if I have much energy in my head I do it many times. fsm (all the four steps as above again) Here I almost everytime fall asleep next yoga session continues if I not felt asleep already: This time I do: about 100 abdominal breath into the stomack The three rounds of the inner smile The microcosmic orbit as long as I like Circulating at the navel And then back to fsm I have actually never past this step but the plan to continue is 1 hour hatha yoga program for the adrenals, stop it if you feel real tired fsm The eight peaces of a brocade 1 hour from a cd, stop it if you feel realy tired fsm All to all the program make the sleeping process a nice and positive one. And actually it works so good beacase no more bad feeling about going to sleep. No demand on when to sleep, just following the program and the rest will take care of itself. Fire Dragon

A permanent reality is a dream, an illusion. Getting lost is what we do while being looking for the reality.

What is the color Yellow? I've never seen it. Assuming I've never had any contact with anyone who had seen Yellow before, how would I ever learn to recognize or distinguish the color? I could read about it in books. I could imagine what they might be like, in my mind's eye perhaps I can even paint what the color Yellow might be. But how can I ever know for sure? Now lets say I find someone who knows what these colors look like. Can she set me strait then? Yes, but not with more words. I still need the experience. So what we can do is, when we find something Yellow, she can point it out. Ah-ha, so that's Yellow! Now what's the point of learning the color Yellow? ... If you want to skip right to the end, then yes, Yellow has nothing to do with emptiness. I could become enlightened without knowledge of Yellow. In this regard, words mean nothing, learning means nothing, so why bother? Lets just wallow in the emptiness we began in and never leave the womb! As you've apparently never undergone the practice of separating reality from illusion, I can understand how from your point of view, it's all the same. But rest assured, imaginary phenomenon and real phenomenon are just as different as dreams are from the waking day. And yet, babies and young children have trouble distinguishing the difference. But they learn to distinguish. Why? Because it's useful. Now, yogis say there is no difference, reality is a dream. Are they right? If they are, does that make distinguishing between dreams and the waking day any less useful? ... Now Gold, if I make ask, what is your beef with teachers and learning from others?

You make a good point. My perspective on this subject. The astral level is the level of non-sense composed of thought forms, dream constructs, and disembodied liars. Why in the world would anyone wish to be caught up in this? What we are, the reality of what we are, is multidimensional beings; i.e., we simultaneously operate in many dimensions. The whole thing boils down to raising your energy body vibrational rate through cultivation. When we do (assuming we are actually practicing a method that works), we gain more access to "remembering" (put in "" because the brain will often mis-interpret these experiences because the experience itself is beyond mind limitations) what is happening and a certain amount of control of our dreamtime experiences. But we have them whether we remember or not. Many of the purposeful practices do not account the need of raising the energy body vibrational rate and leave people playing around in the non-sense area of the astral. Can't imagine anyone thinks this is good. There ARE Higher Levels and they are for YOU because YOU are an inherent part of them! I&I&I&I are a part of the whole.

"KAP 15 hours a day" Apologies if I misquoted or out of context. I'd suggest that KAP actually ends up being somewhere around 15 hours a day unless you get into dream yoga stuff. Cause you get a time out when you sleep;-) The idea that the body is the servant of the mind (or the other way around guys;-)) seems to be lodged in (some of) us. For me KAP is a yoga in that it shows off the effects aimed for. With practice, the practice becomes the effects. It's as if we could suggest that after awakening one no longer needs to be aware, nor mindful. One just is those things (or at least tries to be!) So every time you are awake you are just that. Imagine how awful Enlightenment must then be?? Awake ALL the time!? I've been thinking about Full Lotus (if only to pass into this thread;-)) and I think it probably would hurt. Aren't there other, equally effective mudras without them being full body ones? From the limited understanding I have, mudras can be made to create circuits of all kinds with the added acupressure points linking up as well.

If you continue nourishing the kidney, you will have quite often wet dreams, at least once a month. This is a sign that your Yang kidney is overflowing so it's time to balance with some Yin. This is a clear sign you need to cool down a little bit. Drink water. If your urine is dark then you have Yang excess. If your urine is clear white or even turbid you have a Yin excess. The best is in between a yellow clear color which shows a Yin-Yang balance. Yes, the excesive Yang energy that you build in the lower dantien instead of loosing it by a wet dream or by an insomnia, is time to raise up higher to the middle dantien (solar plexus and heart area) and to spread to the limbs (arms and legs). I recommend you the 5 tibetan rites, and also the sixth rite if you practice retention, it should help, but pay careful attention not to overheat the internal organs. Keep the balance of Yin/Yang, Water/Fire. Think about the steam, if you have water in your cauldron with no fire, the water is cold. If you have fire the water will heat and will produce steam, if your fire is too big you end up evaporating all the water and you will burn the cauldron, so be careful allways to have some water in your cauldron and some fire that keeps the water hot and steamy.

I update my situation, in order to have a better view of what I'm doing. I finally understood that there was some imbalance and was because of too low yang water. The point is not that my kidneys were ill, but the overall state of my body is changing, and I always have to find a new order In the last month I started eating more kidney food (black beans, black sesame, barley, etc.). Two weeks ago I had some emotional imbalance even with one night insomnia, that drained my kidneys; after that I was kind of starting from zero and but I easily recovered. Last weekend I had a wet dream; anyway I kept nourishing my kidney, with good food, kidney qigong from the book "qigong empowerment" (simple but effective), kung fu, squats and (quite new and very important) some short sessions of taoist yoga, but just the first stage: fixing the spirit. I'm practising semen retention too, but quite naturally: at the moment I don't have a partner and I'm not interesting in porn. This morning I woke up with a great heat in the kidneys and genitals, I was quite thirsty. I did some qigong, without concentration on the kidneys - I just felt like to let flow all this heat with some MCO circulation. I massaged a little my body, but not that much (I actually wanted to massage my kidney channel but I forgot it....). During the day I experienced a pleasant warm in my hands and all through the body, like when I was younger Now I'm thinking about this experience: could be some kidney blockades opening ? Should I countinue nourishing the kidneys or what else ? Should I take advantage of this extra energy and put into the 8 extraordinary channels ? Thank you for your precious advices

You seem like a sane person, and your desires appear reasonable and achievable. Therefore you should have no problem reaching your goal. The real problem I guess is that you don't know what you want to do as a profession. Profession is about exchanging value. If you do something of value for others, you get some value back from society/others. That's all it is. We tend to be good at things we enjoy doing. And if you enjoy doing something that you're not currently good at, you almost always become good at it sooner rather than later. Therefore, the most valuable thing you can do for others is also, very likely, the thing you enjoy doing. This makes it sound like there is one thing, but that's not true. You most likely enjoy many activities. Ultimately being good at something is what matters to others when they want to get value from you, but if you are good at something that you do not enjoy, this puts a constant strain on your life -- this is like going against the grain. It's doable, but most people prefer better options (like being good at something you also enjoy doing). Another reason people will trade is to avoid a boring activity. It is especially fortuitous if what's boring to one is exciting to another. However if some activity is boring to everyone, even though there is value in doing it for others, it is always going to be hard. So you said you like writing. Maybe you should seek employment in that area? Try writing a blog, or a newsletter? Become an English tutor? Cooperate with a budding game designer to write some role playing game copy? Write custom copy for cards (a lot of Hallmark cards are boring... can you do better? Someone might want to pay you for it)? Dream a bit. What other skillful activities do you enjoy doing? Here I was just chasing the writing aspect a bit, but I am sure you have other potentials too. You can chase those to get a lot more variety. Like I said, dream a bit. It seems like your question has 90% of the answer already in it. Why don't you reread your question and see if your answer is not already in it.

You guys should give Dream of the Dragon Pool - A Daoist Quest by Albert A Dalia a shot. It's great, and it's all Li Bo.

Steam -- this is an interesting analysis but should be further clarified: Qigong works because the body's blood and serotonin is overly focused in the stomach. When we do reverse breathing and most importantly, the FULL-LOTUS, then the vagus nerve is activated which then TRANSDUCES serotonin to the BRAIN. So we get bliss from a huge increase of serotonin because we have tons of serotonin it's just in our stomachs normally. Now it's not just reverse breathing, nor is it just posture or body movement but it's most importantly mind concentration which IONIZES the serotonin in the stomach, through ultrasound. That's my own model. Others claim it's because the brain frequency goes down to theta which is also infrasound and the lower frequency enables a higher AMPLITUDE of energy. So that's the classical model whereas the increased brain frequency is the quantum model. Both are just Western analogies. So to answer your first question -- the body stops being hungry because the lower tan tien is FULL OF ELECTROMAGNETIC FIELDS -- while the brain is full of serotonin. When the lower tan tien is full of electromagnetic fields then, as Chunyi Lin states, the chi can create all the necessary nutrition that the body needs. Or as Mantak Chia states since the jing comes from sex energy this is literally "stem cell" energy that can then create whatever the body needs. When the jing is full actually the sex energy is primed and ready to go. You WILL be chased after and hit on by females and also by male pervs. Also you will be susceptible to ANY subconscious sex desire -- this is why monks can't see movies. So the avatars on this website are a good example. What needs to be understood is that, as Gurdjieff states, if you can SELF-REMEMBER right when an attachment occurs, then you can DOUBLE the energy gained. So if someone is hitting on you what they really want is YOUR QI ENERGY. That's the GREAT secret of sex -- female desire is actually for QI or male electromagnetic energy. Male sex fluid is MADE from the electromagnetic energy of the brain -- the hormones as electrochemical energy are female energy. So if a person wants your electromagnetic energy then in turn they will also be giving you their electrochemical energy. So if females want to hit on you that's o.k. Now if males want to hit on you -- that's a problem -- because the male sex focus is on ejaculation and when ejaculation occurs it TRIGGERS the STRESS sympathetic nervous system. When the female climaxes it's through the relaxation PARASYMPATHETIC vagus nerve. So the full-lotus enables the internal climax through the vagus nerve and therefore the chi flows into the female and then the female climaxes providing MALE HORMONE TESTOSTERONE back to the male. So male energy is really electromagnetic -- yet this, again, is totally lost with the focus all on "female" electrochemical energy!! As for sleep -- in fact what happens is that in deep meditation, as Chunyi Lin states: 20 minutes of DEEP meditation is worth 4 HOURS of sleep! So people often have trouble sleeping because their mind is racing from too much dopamine! They're stressed out or they ate too much salt or too much sugar -- both causing dopamine spikes -- or caffeine. Sure, as Witch states, this eventually over-stress the system, causing kidney failure and then too much serotonin. No -- the meditation enables over-riding sleep because SLEEP is an electrochemical state of the brain while, again, chi energy and shen -- light -- are electromagnetic. So sleep is actually just an "energy blockage" -- just like food! haha. I mean I can sleep in full-lotus and I do that quite a bit. Here's how it works. I'm in full-lotus and I'm doing healing through the O at a D -- psychic mutual climax. So the vagus nerve is pulsating, the serotonin is transduced to my brain, it goes to the pineal gland, it is transduced INTO electromagnetic fields which are then sucked out and shot into the main YIN source around me -- through walls, ceiling, etc. Meanwhile the yin source gives off the electrochemical energy which I then suck in through the lower body of the full-lotus pressure. O.K. so this is happening and it's through PURE AWARENESS the source of light. But since it's a dynamic that goes through yin and yang (electrochemical and electromagnetic) then my thoughts crop in. My thoughts being: Damn I'm tired! Wow I really want to go to sleep! I'd like to go out of the full-lotus and lie down. But it's too late! Back into the emptiness I go and this time the energy is more intense - this time the brain is MORE magnetized -- with stronger electromagnetic fields. This time the brain fills with light. And so it goes. In other words the sensation of sleep -- the tiredness, just like any other energy blockage, is literally SUCKED OUT OF MY BRAIN. Because in fact the 4th state of awareness -- turiya -- is beyond deep, dreamless sleep. Take another example. I'm falling asleep -- lying in bed. As I fall asleep my mind begins to go into dream state -- what's call the hypnogagic state or something. I'm aware of my dreams though as they are happening but now I'm getting really sleepy and then suddenly the dreams stop and as I go into dreamless deep sleep the brain fills with light and what remains is this: AWARENESS. I'm not asleep -- but I'm not awake. I'm just aware that light is being created in my brain. There's no thoughts -- it's just awareness of light.

Hehehe. See? You gotta' tell me the whole truth when you tell me the truth else I will become delusional. Yes, I can totally understand why the Spanish was there in your dream. Your comments above recalled a memory of mine I will share. I was stationed in Italy. This is after I had spent 4 1/2 years in Germany and learned to speak German pretty well. While in Italy I was trying to learn Italian. Anyhow, four of us were selected to take training at a school in Germany. I drove my car, the others rode with me. We were in Switzerland (where German is the primary language) and it was time for supper so we stopped and the others decided that I would order for all of them as I spoke German. We sat at a table and the waitress came to us. My first statement to the waitress ended up coming out in a mixture of English, German and Italian. We all laughed like crazy. I finally got my mind straightened out and spoke German with the waitress the rest of the evening. Peace & Love!