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i haven't ejaculated for will be 3 weeks now and to be honest i don't feel much different. physically i suppose i'm a bit stronger since my body isn't on the cycle of trying to replenish the lost sperm but if something is going on in the spiritual level i'm not yet keen enough to tell. if i haven't had a wet dream i suppose my body is growing on the inside and it needs the energy so even in my awake hours i keep myself dry. what you all must keep in mind is that lin is a monk and their life is much more different. no disrespect in any way or form to you, lin, i just personally think life must be enjoyed more. i think the monk life is too bland and egyptian-ish in the esque that more emphasis is placed on enlightenment or your next life rather than enjoying what you have. if you cannot be happy now how could you be happy in the next life? or the life after that? mal, i personally think if you enjoy it who cares? it's like picking a career. do what you want first and let the money come later; money comes and goes, true happiness is forever.

I am doing basic qigong training in springforest qigong and robert pengs qigong course, right now at the moment. I wasn't scared but only because I have experienced so many unbelievable things I no longer think this world is even real. Nothing seems to phase me anymore. I believe the red lights may have been during a lucid dream. I get up several times a night and usually they are all in dreams. LOL. but still the red lights seemed to projected like from a laser pointer, there were some stripes along the walls but I could find no source of the light as if it were coming out of my curtains, and walls themselves. It's quite possible it was only a dream. I turned on my lights got something to drink and went back to bed. Like I said I am not 100% this world is even real anymore so I don't let things freak me out.

I've been following the threads for a while and decided it was time to join in. I absolutely don't want to get into anything technical about the practice. I'm no expert. Aside from yoga, I don't have experience with any other energy practices so I can't compare. I can only share what I've experienced and hope it will help. I've been doing the practice since February. I had a dream that I should go to Hawaii to see Max. I felt compelled. I had met Max before but at the time wasn't drawn to the practice. I guess I wasn't ready. Anyway, I went to Hawaii and Max transferred to me. I was immediately sensitive to the energy. It was a very quiet, simple process. I just sat there and closed my eyes but I actually saw an image when he did this. I won't say what it was but it was cool. There was no physical reacton but afterwards my arm was trembling. I got a little worried but he told me my energy was balancing itself. I felt tremors for about an hour, then it went away. I'll fast forward from here. I started doing the practice about a couple of times a week. During the practice my shoulder would twitch pretty hard, my stomach would tighten and release, I would start to swirl into a "pillar of bliss", laughing uncontrollably. At times, I would cry, deep sobs from the depths of my soul, sometimes with memories attached, other times not. Afterwards, I would start to laugh. After bringing the energy back down and coming back to the "real" world I would feel light and cleansed. I still have these reactions but they've also become more intense and more interesting. I have to run some errands but will elaborate more later if anyone is interested.

I have as well, though they are usually pretty mundane things on the surface. I have been training myself to be more perceptive to premonitions while I sleep (dream recollection and such), and I have experienced the interesting "side effect" of having similar experiences while awake. I usually find those to be random thought processes with no apparent logical origin, though I never realize what they are until I experience the actual event. If any of you have read the Celestine Prophecy, it is actually quite similar to the premonitory phenomena in that. I can only ever guess as to the meaning of these images, but I know that they somehow change my actions and thus my life and everyone's around me in some subtle way. They are not very regular, but I often go through days where I have several and then weeks where I have none. If anyone has any theories about this phenomenon I would love to hear them! -Flynn P.S. I apologize if this is not very coherently written, I just woke up!

I have not met any of the tao bums in person. I once dreamed Michael (thelerner, dream here) and today I dreamed I was reading a post made by Cristoph. I can`t remember what it said, but it was something bad. I hope you`re ok man. Perhaps I had more dreams about the TB members, but I can`t remember. Sometimes. Only I don`t figure out it`s about the future till it happens. Like while I was still in High school, I dreamed I was in a lab of some sort in a white robe and around me different people I never saw before also in white robes. They were talking amongst themselves and with me too, though I didn`t know how they were. Then one time at the university, this exact same thing happened for real. Only this time I knew who the people in white robes (that`s not the right word I guess haha) were, they were my schoolmates!

I feel compelled to inform you all that i regularly meet some of you in my dreams - either by indirect reference or a face-to-face meeting. This question goes out to people who have not yet met each other in person: do you, too, dream of fellow tao bums? If so, in what context? In my own experience, we are generally all in the same boat - that of seeking. Self seeking self. Some of us are way off the scent (to use a turn of phrase) and others are skirting the boundaries between our human conditioning and self-realisation. My last question is as to whether any other tao bums 'receive' premonitions of the future whilst they sleep; i have done for as long as i remember... do you? How often?

Hehe... You guys are taking this waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to seriously. Even if Max is who I think/thought he is. It's still just a big fun joke. Don't get caught up in being too serious people! Remember the funny Taoist philiosophers. This whole plane is a big joke .It's basically Earth School. We are all one. One..one..one..one..one..one..one..one..one. It's all here..whatever you want to think about it is secondary. I couldn't deny Max if I wanted to..going 2 weeks for the most part without sleep is interesting .At some point in the dream you just got feel the love people! I won't "divulge" anything else I was told about Sifu Max but as far as Egypt goes..let's just say he is versed. I have no intention here but to speak the truth to my friends. A friend of mine told be to be careful that I would acrue karma if Lama Dorge had a negative effect on people. Max is like Morpheus on the matrix. And my other teacher is just like the Oracle. Whoever made The Matrix and DragonBallZ knows stuff! Have fun.

Edgar Cayce, He was also called the sleeping prophet, and as a devout Christian he didn't believe some of his own revelations at first. He slept and tapped into the potential of his mind in that state, to solve real world problems. Einstein, Tesla, Andrew Carnegie, and many other famous geniuses and successful men have used this secret. There is something about this altered state of consciousness, which we yet truly understand. This is where I believe all higher knowledge and powers ultimately reside (inside the deepest realms of the mind accessible only by such altered states). From my own experience my qigong abilities increase 1000 fold when inside of a lucid dream or astral projection. I can literally feel the energy pouring into me, and any knowledge I gain in this state has proven very lucrative.

copied to my jounral and here- I have my doubts now whether Kunlun is the right path for me. Obviously it seems to be working beautifully for some people. I am not sure it is balanced for me or not. I am still only sleeping maybe 2 hrs a night. I had a dream of David Shen's teacher Jiang Sifu. I won't beat around the Bush. I felt a pretty powerful conncetion that I can't even explain with Sean Denty and when we were eating lunch togethe rhad some really intereting transmission from him. Was like the energy of his teacher came into my shen. As I told Trunk...that weekend was alot. As of now..I am not going to pracitce kunlun for 1 week. I will do standing meditation(yiquan) every morning. That's all. I just want the energy to come down at this point. This is wild but does not feel balanced to me. I am having a hard time focusing at work and at school..not something I particularly enjoy. So..for now..will just stand every day. My feeling as of this moment is I will study with Ken Cohen or will take the plunge and try to study with David Shen. It is possible something might change. But as of this moment I will not post or comment or address questions or anything until after my week of standing. Blessings, Cam

Man, This has been just amazing. Way beyond my wildest dreams. Ok..let me just try to have some little concept about what it has felt like for the last week. Basically..the oneness that is realaized and sustained is so real. Like unity..Tao..just feels like I am a fish swimming in the ocean of Tao. My really deep dark crap has been getting released(as some friends of mine on the board can probably note) but the most profound thing is this total 'opening' to all that has happened in this lifetime. Most noticebaly conneciton to childlike, innocence. Also...seems to be wild levels of synchronicty and almost like this sense of 'working with the universe' like sort of catching things before they happen. Like people are mostly characters in this dream state called life and this practice opens you to the truth..that it is all God's play. It is a little difficult at times for sure. It is a bit challenging to be so in the ehad for so many years..really just 'asleep' and then basically have the rug pulled out from under you like this. It's like playing a video game and you think you are this character in the game..but then 'wake up' that your just an imaginary little blip on the tv screen. The real you is something so vast and undescibeable you just feel like laughing about it. I will do my best to try to make it to SF. Also, since being in Max's presence the celibacy thing has been a non issue. I don't know if Max did something to me energetically or what but it feels like the energy is basically 'locked' down there. Like it has nowhere to go but up. Anyway..the not sleeping thing has been a little weird but I am finding some solice in just laying down now. Like just being still in bed. I don't know..I imagine in ancient Egypt they would do all sorts of stuff and I know Max is a master in that school too. Well..anyway..I porbably shouldn't go on too much. But the time you said Max is a "system breaker" just makes total sense to me now. It can be a scary thing to break the system but also probably what is encissary for us crazy humans to evolve.

If you were close to sleep and you felt your heart chakra beating but your physical heart was still it means you did or were close to ejecting one of your energetic bodies. We have multiple energetic bodies with copies of our consciousness layered like an onion or a Russian matryoshka doll, Sounds like new age BS but it isn't. You should read astral dynamics by robert bruce. I find his explanation of multiple simultaneous sets of consciousness to coincide exactly with my own experiences. If your bored sometime read my theory 6 dimensional reality. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T6UTGkC73GE this also may interest you. I haven't been able to find any thing written by or about this master yet, if anyone has any information on him please let me know. My greatest revelation is that all meditation should be done while lucid dreaming, during this state you have access to abilities not fathomable of in your normal body. The key I have found is to let you body go to sleep but keep your mind awake. You are for all intents and purposes asleep to the rest of the world, but you are awake in your dream, and the laws of this reality no longer apply to you. You can have access to higher knowledge, distort time to have more time for meditation and training. Anything you can conceive of is possible in this state, and it in my opinion is the most powerful way to accelerate your growth. However I don't think I am qualified yet to instruct you on specific meditation techniques. I can however recommend several books and courses for you to look into. Energy Work -Robert Bruce. (and all his other books) "The Magus of Java" of "The Secret Teachings Of The Warrior Sages" -Kosta Danaos The Tao of Meditation The Way To Enlightenment -Tsung Hwa Jou Spring Forest Qigong www.springforestqigong.com Robert Peng's DVD www.robertpeng.com Pillars of Bliss http://www.risingredphoenix.com/ Those are the best easy to understand systems I know of. I hope this helps you some.

lucid dreaming is when you are awake in a dream, if that makes any sense.

Has anyone here preformed qigong exercises during a lucid dream? Have you tried seeking a master during dreams? Seeking information on training etc? I had the most amazing dream today, I could only bring back a fragment of a sentence, "west of the moon" I was reading so much I couldn't remember it all. I could feel the flows of energy inside my body like air or water, it was AMAZING. I honestly believe this is the key to a higher level of qigong/neigong practice. But I found this wonderful poem by Tolkien (which I have no memory of ever reading) West of the Moon Still round the corner there may wait A new road or a secret gate; And though I oft have passed them by, A day will come at last when I Shall take the hidden paths that run West of the Moon, East of the Sun. -J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings

Hey thanks. He is great, very practical, no theatrics. Bread and butter Neikung, I guess. Have you been practicing your Kunlun? I haven't managed to squeeze it in yet, but I did have an interesting dream involving Max.

I just asked, if he is really a lama, authorized by Ralo rinpoche, if he really has the lineage connections. Yes, he may have the connections, but so is the other few hundred, or thousand, who got the empowerment. But it is not about teaching, but pacticing If you check his website you can find this, among the subjects he is teaching: "Elements of Santig Phurba Practice: learn the mantra, visualizations, and essence of Nyingma tantra of the ruthless compassionate one. This class will explore the basics of Cave Lama practice that is without the ceremonial ritual elements." Sound good, but without authorization it's just messing with serious karma. Refusal of prostration is not only a bad manner, but pure ignorance concerning what this is all about. It's not a contest of who is the bigger dog, but a gesture of respect towards the Buddha within. " If you see a dog like a Buddha, you get the Buddha's blessing, when you meet, but if you see a Buddha like dog, you get a dog's blessing." He may be a powerful man, with lots of skills, but why he has to present himself this way? Ralo rinpoche's daughter answered to me a very eastern way. She just said that the guy is an impostor, in case, you can not decode what she wrote politely. I really wanted to believe Max, against all my better knowing of tibetan buddhism. Two days ago I had a clear dream of my Lama, who gave me a book. In the book he said that Max is not a Lama. I woke up and still mistrusted my dream, although it was very definite answer. Then the email arrived. Why? Even if I want to trust his Taoist connections, which I can not check, how, after this? He could say: ok guys I checked out some nyingma stuff, I feel I can do better than them, without too much ritual. You don't have to be a lama to be very powerful. Do you know who Lobsang Rampa is? He wrote some books on tibetan buddhism. He claimed to be the clairvoyant of the Dalai Lama, healer, etc. Later it turned out, that he was a plumber in Manchester. He even claimed to have changed body with the English guy, in order to fulfill his mission. So, now I stop. If you experienced nice things meeting him, good for you. I hope you get enlightened soon, and have a nice thought about this unbeliever, with too much dust on eyes. I will not write more on this subject of distrust, but I am really interested, what explanations or excuses can you find? Have a better day!

The Non-Separation of Buddhas and Living Beings By: Lin Zi Yi (Lin Ai Wei) The wonderful ways of this universe are only according to the minds living beings. In the realm of hot, there is cold. In the realm of big there is short. That which is myriad is only myriad because of the thoughts and afflictions of living beings. What is an affliction? An affliction is nothing more than that which the mind attracts to, moves to, and remains in view (perception) of, which is the fuel of the process of creating things. Taking the view that all beings area interconnected, we will direct our attention to the relation with all things. In the relation to all things, living beings are thus all things. A rock, a tree, a statue, a car, all things. How is this so if a rock, a car and a statue do not breathe, live, think? It is because living beings which do breathe, think and live create such with the mind. When a living being sees things, they see with the use of the function of the physical eyes. When eyes are closed, they claim to see nothing. This seeing of nothing is still seeing. One thinks there is nothing being seen, and thus, nothing is seen. One says because of the blackness, there is nothing. The present moment of labeling what is sought to be the blackness makes this blackness something. It now becomes the mind of the seer, the one seeing, not a sage. When things enter the function of the eye organ, one claims to see, and thus one views such a seeing as an experience of the object in sight. From labeling comes further separation of views. The movement of mind to what is seen is the separating of things, thus the creation of things. Things that are created are, in form, separate from other forms that are in creation, hence a quote from the Dao De Jing, “One creates two, two creates three, three creates the myriad things.” This line only points to the function of labeling. Not the overall manner of the universe. What is known as the universe is nothing more than mind. When mind views the universe, there is a universe to view. No minding of a universe and the universe is not separate from the minder. When such is cultivated, the view of oneness with that which is outside of the one seeing begins to function. This view of oneness is still not actual oneness, but only a guideline to the realization that all things are actually of a single substance. When the mind is not moved by that which is a result of the function of viewing, the mind no longer is the mind. The idea of a mind is still a view. Once the view of a mind that is unmoved is put down, there is a realization that all places, all things and all minds of living beings are no longer places, things and minds of living beings. Just for the sake of saying so, all minds, places and things are all one. Buddha is a name to that which is the put down mind, the unmoved and unattached mind. One cannot grasp it as a thing because it is not a thing. Though it is the “mind” which is unmoved, unattached and put down, it is also the defiled mind; mind of attachments, unbalanced and full of views. The “mind” that is attached is just the same “mind” that is not attached. To be clearer, we can look at the analogy of clear water and dirty water. In a cup of clear water, no dirt, there is just water. When dirt is added to the water, it is now defiled water. It is still water, but only with dirt in it. When the dirt is first put into the water, it falls down to the bottom of the cup. The water was originally not moving, but because it was in a vessel, the cup, it was subject to dirt entering its abode and defiling it. The dirt enters, and the water moves slightly as the dirt falls to the bottom. After all of the dirt has settled, the water is now again still, but is defiled. When there is wind, or a vibration, the water moves, and that movement also disrupts the settled dirt causing it to move about, and sometimes rise up to the surface of the water. This is the mind of living beings. They have a vessel, a body, a form, and are subject to the influence of the functions of the body. They in turn believe these functions to be real, and base their views on them. This is the same as the defiled water and its movement of dirt. When there is a sensation from the body of the living being, because of the attachment to the sensations and views of them, the mind moves to them. This results in stronger attachments to the views of the sensations. It is likened to the defiled cup of water. This brings us to look past the emotions, sensations and views we hold, and realize that they are all created by improper views. Improper views are thoughts held in the mind which assist in believing what is experienced to be real. Though living beings have a body, and will inevitably have views, certain views result in the experience of a destructive mind, a sick mind which results in the forms of living beings to be the same. The Buddha taught to put down views, but since great amount of living beings have the condition of needing to hold onto views in order to cultivate, as an expedient to keep the mind from creating what we consider unpleasant things, he teaches to hold onto precepts, truths of what we consider reality so as to stay focused on not becoming stuck in daily habits, thoughts, emotions, etc. The lesson with that is, if we are to hold onto any false thoughts, hold onto those which result in wisdom. Using poison against poison and thus curing the mind from ignorance. The mind which we call the Buddha mind is none other than the mind of living beings. The only main difference is, the Buddha mind is not pre-occupied with , attached to, the things unrealized Buddhas are. What are unrealized Buddha but living beings with no wisdom, virtue, morality; Patience, Compassion and Wisdom. All are the same, all have certain characteristics. A living being puts down their pre-occupied mind, all emotions and thoughts by not entertaining them with emotion, desire. Constant practice of this leads to wisdom, compassion, patience. When all is finally put down without a trace of defilement; emotional attachment, personal desire, there is enlightenment. It was said in the Sixth Patriarch’s Sutra, “Karma ended and emotions empty, defines a true Buddha. Karma heavy and emotions turbid, defines a living being”. People tend to think that having a physical body means one is not a Buddha. On the contrary, without a physical body, how can you become a Buddha? Utilizing the body, mind properly, one will become a Buddha. But, it is not that one mysteriously, magically turns into a Buddha. It is that one’s mind transforms from filled with emotional imbalances, to no mind of emotion at all. That doesn’t mean a Buddha doesn’t feel emotion and is dead emotionally. That means the Buddha is not moved by emotion; when someone dies, an unrealized Buddha usually cries in loss of the person. A Buddha knows that “Life and Death” are of the mind, and so no one is actually dying. That is the difference. To be in the ups and downs of emotions is going with the flow of turbidity because emotional ebbs and flows are but coverings to the actual truth of conditions. Though people consider feelings to be pleasant and lively, this is only because people think it to be that way. In actuality, there is no pleasant and unpleasant. Living beings have a problem with this, because they are so used to labeling and indulging in their good and bad feelings. This is the separation of the Buddha mind and the mind’s of living beings. The separation exists only because living beings cannot put down their likes and dislikes, their views. The views of living beings is the dirt in the water, it is the clouds covering the sky, and it is the blue color we call the sky. These views, because of the strong attachment to them from living beings, deter the concentration of mind from the original nature. What is the original nature? It’s simple, just meditate and find out. In this we realize that the Buddha mind and the defiled mind are only a thought away. There is no real separation of Buddhas and living beings, yet there is separation due to the views living beings hold onto. Seeing the Buddha, is not really seeing the Buddha. Hearing the Buddha is not really hearing the Buddha, becoming a Buddha is not really becoming a Buddha. This means that if we see the form which we call a Buddha, it is because of our own views that it is a Buddha’s form. If we hear the voice of one we call the Buddha because of the profundity of the teachings, it is only that way because we view the teachings spoken to be profound. Becoming a Buddha is only viewed as a becoming because of the defiled thoughts viewed of in the mind of the living being. It is due to our views of ego, others, a being and a life that there is a view of separation of Buddhas and unrealized Buddhas. It is not enough to recite the words of a Buddha, and speak in the manner of how a realized master would speak. That is lying to oneself. What is proper is that once one realizes the way, attains enlightenment; there is no difference between living beings and a realized one. In this, there is no becoming a Buddha because there is nothing that is transformed. What is experienced is only passing, not real, a bubble, a dream, empty. Why use what is empty as a base for experience? Thus is such a life of living beings. NAMO ORIGINAL TEACHER SHAKYAMUNI BUDDHA NAMO GREAT COMPASSIONATE AVALOKITESHVARA BODHISATTVA NAMO AMITABHA BUDDHA NAMO GREAT SHURANGAMA NAMO XUAN HUA SHANGREN NAMO ALL BUDDHAS and BODHISATTVAS, PRATYEKA BUDDHAS AND ARHATS OF THE TEN DIRECTIONS May the merit and virtue accrued from this work be transferred to all the living beings throughout the ten directions. May they all attain great affinities with the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas of their minds and be reborn in their lands of great and ultimate bliss according to their affinities.

I remember little from my last existence, other than a sincere loneliness and heartfelt sorrow for those who had gone before me (friends, family etc.). i felt grey and lifeless towards the end - i wanted to dissolve. when the time did come i was surrounded by love, i tried to keep my awareness, but it drifted in what seemed a quick period of time. I also recall coming close to the "source" ... what i could best describe as pure, non-judgemental love. I was almost reunited when a deep sorrow pulled me back. i accepted that i was to become once again. everything that happened was without form and seemingly outwith time. now here i am. i dream my deja vus days or weeks before they happen. (i am shown what is to come in both third and first person). i could sense a guide next to me during my youth - with the same love as aforementioned. i have lived through hell on earth (i will post about it sometime... when i am ready to transmit it). i am here to teach, but on no grand scale. i have done it before and i will do it again. death? what to expect? hehe. that's part of the eternal question that is behind all human thought - who am i? or somethimes, why am i here? "ooh, look! i don't know why i am here, so what happens to those who die around me? they were here... and now they're not." many realised folk have given their teachings, but please remember that everything has relevance (time/place). i would say that you should treat it as all things in existence - have no expectations. (Mai, there is much literature/philosophy/religious speculation on death. you are the best person to know what would suit her temperament. Christopher Hansard writes about the fear of death in his book The Tibetan Art of Serenity... if i remember rightly he gives meditations to overcome the fear too... he also writes about how to comfort dying people in the end of his Tibetan Art of Living. These are books i would personally recommend).

Ever had a very vivid dream, and while in the dream you were convinced it was real? That's all it is. For some reason, people are ok with "dream states" while sleeping, where they perceive they have no control; but not ok with dreams states while awake, where they perceive they should have control. The true scary thing is that people actually believe they have control, and haven't learned that control is only a perceived thing - not real. Two of our most limiting fears are the fear of the unknown and the fear of loss of control; because to know and to be in control are purely context based perceptions. First you have to create an artificial framework wherein the knowing or control has anchor points. Remove the framework, remove the fear, accept. Peace,

2 weeks ago I decided to renew my lucid dreaming practice. I thought I would try the wake and back to bed routine. I get up at 4:30am to dream journal, walk, qi gong and relax with the StressEraser. Back to bed by 5:30am and sleep for 90 more minutes. I'm fighting with the monkey, but I'm making progress. I'm also investigating sleep and dream supplements. Calcium before bed is supposed to be good, so is b6. There are essential proteins which deepen sleep and promote healing. There is also a dream herb used by ancient shaman, who used it to make a tea and smoke. A few years ago I quit smoking cigarettes because I couldn't stand the opposing duality with breath-work. Now I'm considering the health risks of smoking again. Not habitually like cigarettes, but occasionally as an aid to dream work. Does anyone know of specific practices that will promote lung repair and healing? Is there anything I should avoid, such as bellows?

I just ordered the book. Smile, thankyou for sharing about the dream reception. Like it!

Lots of shaking and twisting- arms, legs, torso, head. Lots of heat generated that at the end of 1 hour make your underwear soaked with sweat. Sometimes there is a feeling like you want to make sounds with your mouth and there are some sounds coming out related to animal sounds or to Healing Sounds, it only happened to me once when I practiced with a friend. It seems if you practice with someone, the effects are much greater, at least for me. Doesn't matter if the air conditioner is on- the heat is all the same, and eventually you would prefer having a freezing water shower just to cool things down a bit. The heat is not uncomfortable per say. This practice generates a lot of energy but again this type of energy doesn't make me feel too full or uncomfortable. It opened up the legs a bit so it feels now like walking on something soft, even if I walk on the concrete floor. It's been now over a month into this type of practice, and there are some weird feelings on the upper back area- kind of pleasurable. Also, many times, same feeling in the feet and the knees. This practice greatly improved my stillness meditation and an ability to sit cross legged for longer periods of time. Also, the flexibility in the legs improved, even though I haven't done anything targeting it. Also, I noticed the hunger is gone, and some days I eat once a day, mainly veggies and fruits. There is definitely something is going on with this method, and although I practiced before a similar method related to Soaring Crane chi kung, the effects of this practice are much more powerful. I would also recommend it to anyone who wants to improve the quality of their emptiness meditation. If you sincere enough and have the right heart/mind, the transmission from Sifu Max could happen in a dream. Actually, there are a couple of "dreams" with Max and his teacher that convinced me to come to the upcoming September workshop. I wasn't going to before. One of the main reasons I'm recommending this practice is because it helped me with my stillness meditation. that's all for now. Max

Yeah man, just joking. I have to say though, when I read it was about babies, what you wrote next wasn't exactly what came to mind first. I think the dream means you are being too serious, and have to bring forth your inner child more.

Alright this is a lengthy topic that I'll try to make as concise as possible while explaining everything required. When I was in my early twenties my lifestyle was basically eating tv dinners, fast food, junk snacks etc., waking up at noon and taking late college classes, playing guitar in a band, playing RPGs, playing some hockey once in a great while, smoked cigarrettes, and partying-drinking and smoking doobies- hitting the hay around 2-4 AM every night. I also was dating, and had normal regular sex with my girlfriend, as well as "self stimulation". Well I was doing this for about four years out of high school, then I noticed I was feeling tired alot. Then one evening, I was out a a local beach party, I had a couple of beers, when I went home that night I "self stimulated" twice finishing off both times. The second time something very weird happened, I felt something like a mental energy drain, like some kind of vitality exited my body and/or mind. I immediately felt exhausted and felt strange bodily/nerve pain sensations. To make a long story short these continued for years after this, resulting in problems sleeping, fatigue on and off all the time, and pains in what felt like the nerves on and off. Doctors diagnosed epstein barr and then later chronic fatigue. However a couple of years ago I went to a holisitc practioner who said he cured hinself of chronic fatigue. I went through the program and was able to fix close to 85-90 percent of my issues with detoxification. However there are a couple of issues remaining. The one I am most concerned about is that after I ejaculate, be it with a girl, "self stimulation", or a wet dream i am physically drained for days, and I experience aching under the ribs on the sides-alleviated most of the time when I urinate. I have been reading up on Taoist yoga -inner alchemy and have seen how the taoist (as well as Aryuvedic tradtion), considers ejaculation the loss of vital energy. 1. I am wondering if I should try to learn how to transform the semen into vital essence energy as described in the book: Taoist yoga, alchemy and immortality 2. Is this the best solution, or do I supplement my nurishment and excercise practices to increase the health and energy levels to withstand these regular functions which are resulting in these symptoms? 3. Can there be a mental component I am missing, blocking, and/or not realising that can be causing these symptoms? I feel I don't have any hangups or problems with ejaculation, and my guess that these symptoms are leftover from the initial onset so many years ago that night when I first got sick. I have read about personal energy fields, and how burning coal walkers simply train their minds to think that they will not let the burning coals affect them when they walk over them, and so their body is not affected. If this can be a mental manifestation (?), can the mind be retrained to block this type of conscious or subconscious thinking? Any suggestions on further research, more places to look, others to ask on this matter? My holistic health practitioner has not been able to help very much with this problem. I have been considering seeing a TCM practitioner, but she has said she will most likely recommend herbs for the symptoms. Whew, thas a lot to read...sorry

My theory (since he mentioned Shrek) is that Harry was dreaming he was banging the human princess Fiona (from Shrek), who then turned into an ogre during the act. OR, he was doing it with that laidy dragon while flying. What would be the dream interpretation for that? :lol: BTW Harry, why are you mentioning you're single? Celibacy period already over?

Ok I sent an email asking about accommodations. sweet dreams. I'm still wondering about the VERY STRANGE dream you said you had, that you mentioned in your practise thread. obviously I'm imagining the worst possbile stuffs... I will post here whatever response I hear about peat accom.