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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xu9GG76Jlx8 one of my classmates who teaches taiji in beijing. "Michelle Gong, Followed her dream as a young girl growing up in a small rural village in China. She learned taiji as young teenager, traveling to the “temple of heaven” in Beijing to study under the taiji masters, and would later go on to win an international competition in 2009. Her dream would lead her to go on to Wudang mountain and learn the 36 form “Wudang Taiji”. Her last taiji teacher she would met in Beijing through a friend. She met Master Zhang Youngliang a noted but very private taiji master teaching in one of the many Beijing parks. She continues to be a noted student of Master Zhang, who has encouraged her to teach people and help them feel the benefits of a traditional internal Gongfu, covered with meditation, very good at physical and mental health.benefits of taiji practice. Michelle, Beijing Tour Guide, Taiji teacher can be contacted at http://www.tourguidebeijing.cn/ https://journeytoemptiness.com/2017/01/12/taiji-beijing/

Dear Master, Thy Human Ego Self is Illusion. Figment of Imagination conjured up by Human Ego at time of your birth. To dream divine dreams, one has to totally deny and destroy Human Ego Self by seeking emptiness in order to reach God-Self as each of us is descended from God. If one doesn't reach God-self and destroy Human Ego Self, then one can never dream divine dreams. For divine dreams are only the domains of the Enlightened. If you don't awaken, you will be perpetually trapped in the dream for endless cycles of eternity. The only lesson which needs to be learn for all of us is that we are all living in a dream and we must awaken NOW to our divinity. There is no other lesson which needs to be learnt other than this lesson. All the other lessons about compassion, forgiveness, love, parents, marriages, children, work, wealth are all just subsets of this lesson about awakening. Once you awaken, compassion and forgiveness and love come naturally. Once you awaken, parents, marriages, children, work and wealth will become illusions which you do not care about anymore. If you don't awaken and reach the God-self, then how are you going to fulfill the desires of God? Adults like to play games too. But because adults possess the intelligence and maturity which children lack, the games of adults are much more sophisticated and complex than the games of children. The possibilities of adult games are infinitely more powerful and numerous than mere children's games. For eg, humans are considered to be children and they only play games of wealth, marriages, family, children, all other mundane things in life. But the Gods, which are considered to be adults in the universal scheme of things, they play games of creation. They create planets and universes and lifeforms. Would you rather play the games of children(humans) or adults(Gods)? I believe that the Human Ego Self will be destroyed in the end for every human in the world sooner or later.

Why seek to wake up from the dream rather than fully experience it? Yea I get it that the dream has become a nightmare where the dreamer believes they can only escape it by awakening, rather than realizing and learning to dream divine dreams only. Why seek emptiness and the denial of self when it is possible to acknowledge self and the fullness of being? When one wills to be, the will of the creator, one both chooses what one desires and what God desires. Besides if you awaken rather than realizing and learning the dream lesson you will re-experience it until you realize and learn the lesson. Children like to play and lear. They will enjoy the most a good fun games... it is just that they still have to imagine such games and thats where some adults can help, if they know how to play nice fun games... imagine the possibilities... the good ones... Even if one seeks to abandon and deny self ... one will be with self for a long time so its much better to educate and care for each being. You are force to believe while free to choose what to believe, choose wisely for while all believe enslave some allow free actions.

Yes,...I fully agree with the Law of Three in nature,...duality could not be duality without it,...the Law is Three is completely fundamental to the nature of light, and how light condenses into form, and unwinds back to emptiness, within duality. It is why 3 divide 7 = 0. 428571428571….or 142857 × 3 = 428571,...it is essential to the matrix of duality. First, for discussion, understand that nothing is outside the cube. There is no thinking out the box. A single cube is part of an interconnected matrix that includes all space–time. As spectra or donuts of divided light (particle-wave duality) condense into form through a multiplication-division process, space is simultaneously extended to accommodate time. There is neither space without time, nor time without space. All phenomena, both emptiness and form, are within the cube. A cube is bounded by six square sides, which in this presentation will be called six convex optic planes. These convex planes facilitate the flow of divided light along ninety-degree arch-angles. This flow of pressure follows the recursive pattern of 142857. That is to say, from plane one, the flow of pressure goes ninety degrees to plane four, then from plane four, ninety degrees to plane two, etc. As you can see on the enneagram, the numbers 142857 are not directly connected with numbers 9, 3, and 6. The numbers 142857 can be likened to the singularly aspected Mayan gods one through six in the Popol Vuh. Thus, the dynamics of interrelationship between the six convex boundary optic planes and the three inner, or zero, optic planes are how all emptiness and form come in and out of being. The law of three is like “god seven” in the Popol Vuh text, an account of Maya cosmology. The Popol Vuh speaks of seven gods whose individual urge is to create progeny through the heart of the galactic center, yet their efforts were barren of form, and they remained alone. God seven, who has three aspects, then directed them to undertake the urge together, and form was manifested. God Seven exemplifies the three centering optic planes within a cube, which divide the cube into eight parts or optical chambers. Keep in mind that the universe is an optical universe. Everything in duality and beyond duality is light. Impermanence is divided light, whereas permanence is undivided light. (Undivided Light is not outside the cube, but can be accessed at the center-point of the cube). Once light is divided and enters space–time, it cannot return to source (Undivided Light), just as the light projected on a theater’s screen does not return to the bulb, which is “still” in the projector. In sacred geometry, the optical cube upon which light is projected is called Metatron’s cube. In this holographic theater, all phenomena are unmanifest or manifest. The cube contains all emptiness and form. Diagrams of the Metatron matrix often show extended layers of the process, that is, how the cube extends or duplicates into other cubes, forming simple structures. Duality is a manifestation of divided light. The divided light of duality is both emptiness and form. Undivided light is nonduality. Nonduality contains neither emptiness nor form. Our authentic consciousness is not dual, although it records its thoughts within the dualistic structure, which is to say that form is a record of thought. The phenomenal personal consciousness of third-density thought is as evanescent as a dream, whereas authentic consciousness is permanent. Unlike the dream state in which you don’t know you’re dreaming while dreaming, an uncovered authentic consciousness is cognizant that life is a dream and as such can play in it without attachment to hope or fear. Undivided light is like the still light within a projector. Emptiness is as the flow between the film stock and the screen. The form with which we interact is as the image on the screen, a nine-optical-planed multidimensional holographic matrix. The form got on the screen through simulated light, not real light. Emptiness and form are impermanent simulations. The still light from which the simulation effects motion is in the center of the screen, that is, in the center of the cube. Our duality reality of divided, projected, simulated light is 299,792 kilometers per second slower than the stillness of what mahamudra calls the clear light of Vajra. When you realize that, you begin to gnow who you are because you have had a taste of when you are. In duality, everything is in the past. . All divided light is in the past. It makes no difference how fast energy equal mass square divided light (E=mc²) is moving, for even at 299,791 kilometers per second, undivided light is perceived as moving 299,792 kilometers per second faster. That’s why Einstein called it relativity. Everything in duality is sexual. V Marco

Well I haven't a clue though i have heard if one is able to maintain consciousness during the dream state you should be able to navigate the 'after life' / bardo state easily and achieve 'enlightenment' in that moment perhaps dream yoga? they say death is like falling asleep moving from one dream to the next few can remember the day just gone by, even less remember their dreams? how does one suppose to remember lifetimes? once one remembers then one learns to control the dream... I am dreaming... infinite playground we have to maintain consciousness // never fall asleep the body asleep the mind (consciousness, interfaces with body) awake

A scene from a dream drifts about like a balloon on wistful sea breeze

Well, for some specific students 100 days laying the foundation may symbolise 1000 days laying the foundation and even that might be not enough It makes sense. Ancient Yijing is about the Changes, but is it possible for relative people to understand it? In traditional daoism (= daoist alchemy) there are special practices to stop dreams. Dreams actually are fantasies, illusion, daoist patriarchs have written about it. They might be more pleasant or less pleasant but all of it is for ordinary person. Alchemy master doesn't have dreams. What daoist text have you taken this sequence from? It is correct. Here is a quote from dictionary everyone is probably aware of: "Dream 1. mental activity, usually in the form of an imagined series of events, occurring during certain phases of sleep 2. a sequence of imaginative thoughts indulged in while awake; daydream; fantasy ... 5. a vain hope 6. a person or thing that is as pleasant, or seemingly unreal, as a dream" What daoist text have you taken these statements from? Or is it your own thoughts? Practically, it is not possible. Obviously it contradicts self-cultivation. All you are talking about - "realeasing bonds of karma" and so on is a kind of mindwork and has no relation to Daoism. All living creatures have a simple karma - to die. If you can not escape from this - all these nice words about "releasing bonds of karma" remain just words... What you have noticed above clearly corresponds with the meaning of the Chinese term oftenly translated as "sudden enlightenement". See http://www.thedaobums.com/topic/43032-sudden-enlightenment-in-daoism/ Known by whom? Should this knowledge be somehow backed by evidences? Best Regards, A.A.Khokhlov

I have been under some "influence" as a result of this incidence. I think I am over it now. BTW, expecting something big will come out from the Kremlin because last night I dream I was in Russia or something to do in a Russian university. Something was happening in this university and everybody was expecting to see a show or something. Then, I think I dream of seeing the Russian Czar? As a Dharma warrior, I have done my part to shed some light and penetrating thoughts into this incidence. Few bad players in the world stage exploiting this incidence to further advance their political agenda to wage war on Russia. And FB, Youtube, and Twitter evidences are credible enough to settle international, geopolitical conflicts. Hahahah.... The world did not care about the Ukrainian conflict until some Europeans are caught in it. All of a sudden, people around the world begins to realize there is actually a war going on in Ukraine. The only precognitive dream I have about this incidence was seeing a passenger plane attempting to land. There was something about 6000 ft. I saw this plane's nose pitched up. I didn't see it land instead this plane changed to a car and landed as a car. I thought the symbolism here is just metaphors. Sight, there are so much sadness in Ukraine. I can't take it anymore....

Waitamute! Oi! Zork, i get the gist and intention but stop insulting functionally varied people and their achievements by comparing them to Jim who, without intended offence to Jim, can only dream of qualifying for membership in such an illustrious fellowship.

A white winter beach, A lone bed: snow falls on it— A scene from a dream

I explain the infinite and eternal ever expanding nature of Dao in my new topic Understanding Dao That with you call non-physical is 99% of creation. You can find a higher dimension than 6 as you say, by mastering it. By raising your frequency. By feeling better emotionally. That is your unconditional ability and free will to do so as a consciousness. To master unconditional love. And then moving on from there. But there are FOR SURE INFINITE MORE DIMENSIONS EVER EXPANDING. By yearning, you will never find it. Allow it to be yielded to you. So inside and outside are still 2 dimensional elemental conscoiousness. 3 dimensional is animal dream. 4th is the shortest ego dimension where we learn about unconditional love. 5th dimension is unconditional love, it exists, here, when you free from your ego or mind. Most people when they die, they get into 5th. But if you live unconditional love, you can become quasi physical. Even while alife. In between 5th and 4th. And death will be like completely normal. Like walking from one door into another room. But if you try to understand and yearn, you are still exploring the 4th dimensiob, to learn about unconditional love. It can seem eternal never ending and difficult, but life is actually very extremely short. It's just temporary ego exploration. To learn true self = true freedom = unconditional love. Again, God is 7th dimension, in 5th dimension you can have personal joyful interactions with God. Maybe you are already 6th and you come here to master unconditional love to a higher degree. To express the 5th in the 4th can be the 6th dimension. So you are well on your way to becoming 7th dimension. Remember, words are irrelevant. Feel your emotions always. As all is one and one is all. You contain everything within your very heart, soul and being. Everything is interconnected. Fractal. Ever more expanding into higher resolution and knowing. Of evermore greater allowed realisation. Infinite dimensions being and becoming evermore here and now.

To answer your question about how to tell if the LDT is full, and what to do, depends on the lineage. Most lineages I've worked with don't concern themselves with such questions as the practice takes care of moving things from one stage to the next. Ie, there is wisdom in the practice that guides my development. If you are attempting to practice Mo Pai, I would strongly urge caution, as there are no western teaching teachers. And I've heard of people practicing that getting more injuries, over all other systems I've heard about combined. It is important to be clear on the intent of why you are practicing and of the practices, because mixing and matching can cause conflicting information in your body. Ideally a local teacher, and if not a non-local teacher. I've traveled to meet all my teachers, and I practice in between. Once your initiated into a quality lineage you will have a connection to your teacher, and can receive training in dream, meditation, etc. Getting initiated can be as simple as being a very diligent student. Good luck. John

Yes! this sense... permeates all about my life like a scent a dreaming within dreaming. to wake from a dream into a dream... who dreams? thanks for sharing this neti neti...

    Okay let me explain little more. Dao is unlimited and vast and can not be named as everything/nothing (those are only fingers pointing to the Moon not Moon itself). Knowing the Dao is Yang Shen = Immortal/Clear/Pure/Positive (no suffering) depends on the meaning of the "Yang" and "Shen" which means generally wisdom. People think it's just some kind of immortal body but not any form can be immortal so I discard concept of immortality in the sense your consciousness can not be saved upon death even if you cultivate golden/purple/rainbow pill or whatever because it's product of taji so it also subject of cessation. What I actually experienced which I believe is Dao. which means you become transformed totally by knowing true nature of ourselves and dream-like state and then when dream become conscious you can manifest yourself thousand different ways when your wisdom backs to the source. It would make sense to me as explanation of traditional stages because as you become non physical you develop different type or consciousness which is not related to taji (or discover as it can not be product of effort, rather of understanding/wisdom/insight) So knowing the Dao is knowing that you are not the body nor mind, then when you realize that on experimental level not only intellectual level the mysterious gate opens up and you are knower of the Dao. Dao can be known, can be seen and from that perspective I can speak. There is something like Dao, enlightenment or whatever you name it (but you can not name it tho really as it will automatic generate conceptions/opinions which you gathered before when someone mentions it and your mind will trying to fit it into our framing if it's not fitting your framing the argue starts) There is actually way to know what buddhist called "central core of entire world/conventional reality", when are you feeling of being or sense perception of this reality ceases to be so, what we took as real becomes unreal and what was unreal becomes real. Silence becomes sound and sound becomes silence. Reverting the light as is said in Golden Flower. So you can just know the Dao if your perception is clear. Dao is actually withing this body - that why no need of true teachers or anything like that if you are attentive enough you can actually directly see the Dao and become immortal in one split second or even less. The other practices are just to open you up to Dao and then use different methods to transform you but those are what I call cultivating illusion and appearances. You said "So the person who naturally follows their nature; eating when hungry and sleeping when tired... does not know Dao ?" Knowing the Dao is beyond Taji, you get out of the Taji into Wuji, so those things does not matter any more, you are not limited to the eating and sleeping, this is only things which contributing into sustaining the body. Dao is not the body nor is the mind. Dao is beyond those two and Dao is inherent, here and now so to speak but we are tend to focus on our imagination, thoughts and beliefs systems rather then discard it all and start from scratch with sincere heart. Like if you understand the Dao is here, your mind natural start to look for it - most people "think" or "thinking for it, not really looking or searching. It's here all the time, but you are looking in wrong places. The more Dao become visible and the more Dao you know, the less and less real this world becomes - when less real world becomes till materiality is exhausted you enter wuji and become immortal, but formless immortal like a space without start and end and this is not bubbling and rambling of some crazy person. It's generally back to sanity, to the original nature things really happen like that. It's so unbelievable that I would never even think about it, you can not image this you can not even think about it. If you try to think about it in terms I try to explain you will go nuts, crazy or get anxiety. It's need to be confronted directly. So knowing the Dao is just this, knowing your original nature which is not limited to this body and mind and can be known instantly if you have no obstacles into perception or dust in eye. Actually the easiest thing to know the Dao is that you can hear the Dao. You can actually grasp the Dao thru hearing.

These three stages (purge, tonify, regulate) are usually taught as how to treat another person. I've not really seen it mentioned when one is doing something on themselves but it seems reasonable to consider. Cool on the dream. You can search here for some relationship between the lungs and throat: http://www.itmonline.org/5organs/lung.htm As I mentioned the idea of purging lung dirty Qi potentially moving down to an organ already 'cleaned', the Qi can also go upward and the lungs connect to the throat. This is my first guess at what you might of experienced. This reminds me of the idea that I think one can/should do the sounds and smile with the chakras as well. I prefer to do most of this type of thing from head down to feet so I can finish by purging out of my feet as well. I think its good to self-explore and don't want to recommend one pat method.

Wow... what a dream indeed! The implications of this machine... utterly stunning! Particularly when seen as a metaphor for human assumptions, dogma and systemic thinking divorced from presence, attentive interactive awareness and intuition. I can't seem to escape the 'truth by consensus' dogma which to me is little more than 'mental mob violence' that litters our mental landscape and disquises itself and is presented as 'unquestionable truths' due to the shear number of folks repeating it, no matter how mindlessly... the rule of truth by repitition and consensus is mental violence to me, and no matter where I turn it seems lately... I encounter it. And the process of attempting to weed it out or induce malleability of it in my own mental process has been decidedly unpleasant, almost unchangeable in some aspects, (like that final gear) yet I am compelled to press on, for the other option is untenable. The implications of that final gear, the horrifying and clearly exemplified notion of 'all this business of work work work and what does it accomplish? Work for the sake of work work work, because that's the consensus reinforced in nearly every aspect of human 'civilized' dogmatic thinking. Concrete or no concrete, that final gear represents a manner of interacting with the world through senses and mentation that is beyond change... horrifying stuff to this intrepid explorer... demoralizing to think this is the progression and structure of our collective minds. And it poignantly re-minds me of one of my biggest fears over what assumptions lie beneath the threshold of my awareness... these are the most terrifying for me lately. These are the implication of the final gear, connected to the rest of life, connected to the bustle and ceaseless pursuits and business of life, yet effectively utterly unmoved by any practical application. Stunning and horrifying. Thanks for sharing Taomeow... this one really rang the bell.

Today I looked up at the top of the stairs. And I asked my self, "Can I reach the top of the stairs? Can I reach the top of the stairs... Can I? ..." With so much that has been going on down here. All that I have lived. All that has taken place. Every single moment in time and space. Every boundary of time and space that I have surpassed. All that I have co-created. All that I have done. All that I have experienced... I walked to the top of the stairs. And I looked down... And I said to myself "I am at the top of the stairs. What is life going to bring me now?" Has live ever ceased to bring you new experiences? Or have you been believing in the same experience, over and over again. What has really prevented you? And is it still preventing you? Or are you preventing yourself. And how much longer can you really prevent yourself do you think? What if time did not exist. And you could potentially prevent yourself for all eternity. How much longer could you really prevent yourself, do you think? When would you go absolutely mad? And crawl out the door, into the light, and be free forever more. And if god did not respond, would you swim to the ocean. And ask for a sign? And had you not found, would you swim down into the dark to become blind? Do you think there is always hope in the unknown? To explore beyond that which you had ever known? How can you never know for sure? How can you ever know for sure... Did you look under your bed today to find god there? Well, did you? I have looked under mine, on your behalf and mine. Have you looked under your bed today? For this god of mine? What... You don't believe in God? Oh come on, tell me another good joke! Ofcourse you don't believe in God, if you haven't even looked under your bed for it. Ofcourse you don't believe in God, if you have not even looked in the closet for it. How do you know it is not there? What if God is there, everytime you close the closet? What if there is a space in your posession, that only contains God, when you do not look into it. Would you not try and make a photo of it, without looking? Would you not try and open the box and look into it through a mirror, without directly looking into the box. Have you ever tried this? What if you look into the mirror, and God is looking right back at ya? Would you look away? Would you try to make up an excuse to go and leave? Would you say you are not ready to know God? Would you say you have other more important things to do, and that you are not worthy anyway. Would you close the door behind you, and leave God in that mirror, forever alone, in the dark. Trapped into the eternal awe and wonder and bliss of your never ending beautiful gaze that you had left it forever there stunned in your eternal never ending light of conscious recognition that you are real, and you are more than you have ever thought yourself to be. Do you ever regret not taking the actions in your life that you could have taken. Do you ever think what life could have been for you had you not squandered it away, in so many ways, so many times. Do you think you still have hope. That as long as the desire is there, then the achievement of it can be realised? Do you think God will ever give up on you? Or do you think that God has not the lack of strength nor will, to bend time and space, and envelop you in a trillion of stars. And breath the life of your soul into your beautiful body. Don't you think that God has set up every event in history to lead to this point in time and space. Don't you know how much fun God is having. You have any idea how certain the plan is set up to be. And how much more there is to come. And that none of it will ever come without you, and that none of it will ever move without you. Don't you know that the entire universe moves with your every movement. And that you are an inseperable extension of all of it. Or do you feel alone, in an ocean of millions of people, like so many. Not knowing what life is ever really about. Not finding any real purpose. And certainly not one that feels good. For whenever time ceases to exist, you will know the answer. Where your truth is and your soul. Always holding it steadily for you, offering you it bit by bit, never endingly. Like little bits and pieces of breadcrumbs. Here and there. Your life is at life. Please go left and turn right. Move towards the green. There you can find your life. Oh here it is. Where is the moving life. Wait for the wind. And look up, and see that which the trees reach for. The guiding light that moves all life. And had you not found the squirrell hiding amongst the trees? Have you not seen the frog that leaped underneath the bushes? Are they not shy of you? Where do you think they go when you do not look? What do you think they do when you do not look? What are they hiding from you, most of all? Can you read their minds? What do you think the frog thinks when it looks at you? Don't you think it loves the warmth of your hand? And cherrishes every bit of moment you allow it to be there? Have you condemmed every bit of life that exists around you? When it is free forevermore from your condemnation? And loves you anyway? Look at your trees. You cut it one way, it grows another. Life is free to be itself. And so are you. When... You allow yourself to be. Who you really are... Unconditionally... Emotionally... Wait for it... WAIT FOR IT!!!! WAAAIT FOR IT!!!!! .... ... Evermore... Here and now... Where all of existence is. Where all of time and space is. Being and becoming evermore here and now. Do you think it is time to make peace with life? Even without God? ...Or do you wanna take God with you, into your peaceful life? Let it show you the way. Guide you to the next and the next and the next life. Anything that you can ever want to be, do or have. It is all revolving around you, as infinite possibility and probability. Free for your choosing out of any and all of it. As all of creation resides within you forevermore. And there is nothing that you cannot be, do or have. If only you knew you wanted it. Then you would allow yourself to be free! Free to fly as high as you can possibly want to fly. You would dream big, and achieve it, in a matter of no time. But how do you know you want it? You can only tell by the way you feel as you think about it. We humans are not complex. We simply like to have fun by being together. If everyone dies from your presence, that is not your fault. And not their fault either. It is a perfect presentation of your immortal nature. That is who you truely are. I would say, let them die. It is not your fault or theirs. Be free to be who you truely are. No matter who you are or where you are. In the end it benefits everyone the most. To simply allow yourself to be who you truely are. It doesn't matter if you believe in a God or Rain Forrest. It is all the same to me. For I do not even exist. Forevermore free, to wait, at the top of my stairs, for you. I write you this, from a place that does not exist. And it is God. Here waiting for me. To tell you that God exists. And God is real. "What did you tell me God?! ...OH OK! I hear you now! Ok! .... He wants me to tell you that baseball is real aswell." I wonder why baseball. Out of all things that could be real. God wants you to know that baseball is real aswell. Baseball is boring if you ask me. I like more fast paced and more action. Like chess... Millions of battles being fought every single second. And every move is the ever surprising result of all of that. And yet so ever seemingly more boring than all of the boredom in the entire universe combined together into one single HUGE BIG BORING MESS OF BULLSHT. ARGH! *smacks chess table to the floor* "Uh? Oh, you're still waiting for life to happen? ..." Hush hush now darling, you will be dead soon, and with God forevermore. Come to the grave soon, there is allot we need to discuss. And by discuss, I mean you are going to listen and I am going to speak endlessly, ofcourse. For my words will not reach your ears. I will forever envelop you with time and space, beyond your wildest dreams and imaginings. Hold on... Wait for it! .... ... WAIT FOR IT! .... Evermore here and now.

Creative Explosion: Year of Green Male Wood Horse 2014 is for folks who want practical tools to get deeper into their Natural Self. Dear Lovers of China's Earthly 12 Animals Wisdom, Happy Lunar New Year! I hope every one is able to ride the Celestial Cloud Horse of their choice with an Open Heart to swiftly enjoy their highest creative worldly and spiritual destiny in this Year of the Green Male Wood Horse. I normally wait a week into the Chinese New Year before writing about it, so I can sample it energetically. But I grew up riding horses. Ionce horse-packed for two weeks in Wyoming's Wind River Range. I was also married to a Water Horse woman for 25 years - Joyce Gayheart, who leaped (a horse-like trait) from her body into higher dimensions of soul-life on Feb. 29, the 2008 "leap day". Joyce had the quintessential horse personality - stubborn and independent, smart, creative, loved to travel, a gifted teacher, an ambitious explorer galloping in all directions, and socially skillful. Horse-types have big hearts as horse epitomizes the fire element, and she was widely loved. She even had the big bones of a horse body. So I know the horse energy well. I was not surprised to recently have a spontaneous "visitation" by Joyce shortly before her January 2014 birthday and the start of this Wood Horse Year. I'd kept open the portal to her soul since she passed, and we've done a lot of powerful spiritual work together since our "heart transplant" operation three days after her death (see link below to read more about Taoist "shijie" liberation from the corpse). On this visit she was radiant, smiling and beaming love on the rapid changes galloping through my life. It was an auspicious encounter, so strong that I could not only feel her but in my third eye actually see her etheric presence in the room. Joyce said she came to bless my life with Jem (my current wife) and our process of conscious conception. She hinted the child, spiritual name Emerald, has been waiting for the right astrology to support its destiny. Then Joyce departed like a Celestial Horse flying back to heaven. As an alchemist, I love these fluid shifts between realities, and our potential for having multi-dimensional relationships. Why limit ourselves to a narrow 3-D reality? Different Schools of Astrology - Which is Right? Joyce Gayheart is coincidentally the subject of one of the best astrology books ever written - it compares 12 different systems of astrology for their accuracy against Joyce's real life "Horse story". The book is Under One Sky, by Rafi Nasser, who is also a Taoist adept. Under One Sky has 12 blind readings of Joyce's chart from 12 different astrology schools. You can read Joyce's amazing life story and decide for yourself if the chart readings match her life (we have a few copies in stock, you can also order the book). Joyce herself felt four of the 12 readings were accurate, four were so-so, and four were completely worthless. You can still get Joyce's Divine Love Elixir she alchemized from 72 flower essences, as well as her fantastic CD set "My Body Moves Easily - I Feel Graceful and Light", designed for Primordial Tai Chi adepts but useful to anyone). One lesson I got from Joyce's book is that astrology's usefulness depends on 1) the SKILL of the astrologer; there is little objectively predictive in it. Two people born in the same place at the same time will have totally different destinies. 2) once you have a skillful reading, use of it depends on your WILL to interact consciously with the cosmic forces flowing into one's personal chart/Energy Body map. So it's risky to predict the stock market using astrology, because markets involve the free will decisions of millions of investors. They could use the Horse Year energy to drive it higher or suddenly gallop lower. The best we can do is energetically merge our personal Energy Body (the layers of our soul and body-mind) into the larger Qi field and absorb the information we most need moment-to-moment. This essay explores in depth the Chinese horse mythos, which is central to the roots of Chinese culture. This includes Dragon-horses and the I Ching, blood-sweating "Thousand Mile" horses and the Magical Flying horses of Fergana that I first encountered while following the Silk Road across China in 1985. Plus a Taoist parable on horses, and loads of lovely horse paintings and sculpture. Horses are a favorite topic of classical Chinese painters. Taoist Living Astrology vs. Abstract Mental Astrology My top focus is on HOW TO CONNECT TO HORSE ENERGY this year. Most modern astrology has devolved into an abstract mental exercise. I myself didn't take it seriously until I re-read a Chinese astrology reading done before Joyce and I got married, and realized, 20 years later, how incredibly accurate it was. Until then, astrology for me was "interesting mental garbage in/ interesting mental garbage out". Readings for most people are like New Year resolutions: we think about it for a day or two, and then forget it as life's real demands overwhelm our abstract ideas or wishes about Life. I now take very seriously the Taoist art and science of Living Astrology, which preserves the lost initiatic roots of inner alchemy. It gives a PRACTICAL way to interact with the planetary cycles that link our personal Energy Body to the Cosmic Energy Body of the stars. What is beyond the Zodiac is what underpins all astrology and karmic patterns - the great Central Sun of Oneness and pure love (called Tai Yi by Taoists). The Planetary & Soul Alchemy Formula (aka. Greatest Kan & Li, or Water & Fire) deals exclusively with Living Astrology (taught in March in Holland, see below). See my Taoist Cosmology Diagram to clarify this energetic map. It's an excerpt from my forthcoming Primordial Tai Chi book. Let me emphasize the Independent nature of horse types. In China, Fire Horse female babies were often killed because they were considered too independent and so unmanageable (by men) as to be un-marriageable. I valued Joyce's high level of independence, so I have a different cultural perspective than the Chinese. My current wife is equally independent. When astrology systems cross borders, they must adapt to new cultural values. Transition from Water Snake to Wood Horse Year is BIG! The Lunar calendar Chinese New Year (2nd new moon after Winter Solstice) starts Jan. 31 in China, and runs through Feb. 18, 2015. The Solar calendar New Year starts on Feb. 4, 2014 and runs to Feb. 4, 2015. There is a 4-day cusp between Jan. 31 and Feb. 4 where newborns may have qualities from both the departing Black Female Water Snake and the arriving Green Male Wood Horse. I recommend doing your own "welcome in Horse qigong ceremony" during the first week of the New Year to capture the billions of Asians charging it up emotionally with their festivities. Horses are skittish about Snakes, so this cusp period could be a delicate transition period for some - and possibly for the planet. My wife Jem and I got a very strong omen about this just before we did our first set of "Welcome Horse Energy" qigong ceremonies last night. Within two minutes we each broke a favorite water vessel - an antique ceramic tea cup and a glass tea decanter with a lovely yin-yang symbol on it. Were these two rare household accidents happening at random, or an omen of how the Male Yang Wood Horse Year is literally busting out of the Yin Water Snake Year container? By Tao theory of synchrnicity, there are NO ACCIDENTS. As an omen, it may portend that people will be shocked by how powerful and rapid changes coming this year will "break" the comfortable patterns of their old life. (AP Report): Another bizarre omen: on the very last day of the Year of Water Snake, a California schoolteacher was arrested after at least 300 living and dead pythons were found in plastic bins inside his stench-filled home in suburban Orange County..... L: Animal zodiac in China is indigenous. It bears absolutely no historical resemblance to early Babylonian zodiacs. R: Every animal or element (fire, water, wood, etc.) is also governed by laws of yin-yang harmony and balance. These forces keep Nature in harmony with itself. LOOK UP YOUR OWN CHINESE 4 PILLARS CHART This essay is not just for those born in a Horse year. Everyone's Chinese 4 Pillars Astrology chart has four Animals, so even if you are not born in a Horse Year, you might have a Horse Moon, Horse Day, or Horse Hour. To see your chart, go to my website, click on FREE READING, enter your data, and copy it for future study:http://www.healingtaousa.com/ZiPingWeb/ziping-reading.html If you want a professional Chinese astrologer to help you understand your chart, just email me (hit reply) and I will refer someone to you. David Twicken, a Senior Healing Tao instructor, is also offering a ten week webinar on Chinese astrology, suitable for those wanting to offer consultations. Sundays starting Feb. 23. See below. Even if you have NO horse energy in your 4 Pillars chart, everyone on planet earth will be experiencing this year's Male Wood Horse energy, so it pays to understand what is going on. Chinese astrology is earth-centered and body-centered; Western, Hindu and Middle Eastern astrology systems are sky-centered. All astrology systems that have withstood the test of time are valid, they are just isolating different information. But I find it curious that the sky systems ignore the planet that is closest to us, Earth, while they focus on the other far-away planets. The last wood horse year was 60 years ago, in 1954, and we'll review the explosive creativity that happened then. The Big Picture Astrologically The Female Water Snake Year 2013 was about digging up deep unconscious personal patterns and bringing them into the Light so they can be shed, like an old skin, by our wise inner Snake. We've been in a re-boot and cleanup pattern for the first six Animals of the Chinese zodiac. The Yang Water Dragon 2012 year was about re-shaping our personal and collective Mythic Self. The Wood Horse of 2014, number 7 Animal in this 12-year cycle, is about kick-starting the second half of the cycle into action. I used the Water Snake Year to explore the roots of the Healing Tao lineage on Mt. Changbai, a lake-filled active volcano in China. If you missed that story, I feel its one of the most important I wrote this year: http://www.healingtaousa.com/cgi-bin/articles.pl?rm=mode2&articleid=168 I plan to use the more expansive Wood Horse Qi to launch my new website and my new book, Primordial Tai Chi: Way of Enlightened Love. The nano-motor funded in 2008 by Taoist investors from this newsletter is now taking off, and it promises a radically disruptive technology that will change the globe. That in turn will fund my vision of Taoist Temple of Heaven & Earth in North Carolina, so western Taoists will have a place for deep retreats and training. Mobilize your Will to Ride Your Inner Horse This Yang Wood Horse Year promises to give us a yang boost in manifesting our newly cleansed selves - BUT ONLY IF WE CHOOSE TO ALIGN WITH THAT POTENTIAL. Nothing is automatic within these large cycles of Nature. People struggle against the flow of nature all the time, and suffer for it. The ultimate result is often disease, unhappiness, poverty, divorce, etc. All personal evolution requires exercising our free will, love, and imagination. That's called "embracing life and responding to it creatively, in the Present Moment". The essence of Taoist self-cultivation is to harmonize with the broader cycles of change and put its Qi (chi) to work within our body and our personal destiny. We can ground the macro-cosmic Qi cycles with qigong and dynamic Taoist meditation like the Micro-cosmic Orbit. You don't have to be born in the Year of the Horse to benefit from it - you can tune in and CAPTURE the creative horse qualities through your intent and energetic practice. Horse Qi is "in the air" this year - just start breathing it in. The best qigong ceremonies for capturing these large planetary energies involve facing all four cardinal horizontal directions and connecting that Qi into our body's core channel. This in turn aligns our worldly outer life with the vertical Heaven-Earth spiritual axis. I rely on three qigong forms that best meet this criteria: Primordial Tai Chi (aka Wu Ji Gong), Deep Healing Qigong, and Shamanic Big Dipper 7-Star Stepping Qigong. The first two are available on DVD, the last one is currently only taught to those who come on my China Dream Trip. Each works a little differently. There is an acquired skill to focus the Qi they gather to accelerate your evolution. 12 Animals = Chi Clock in Mother Earth's Body Chinese medicine has a 12 -hour "Chi Clock" that describes the progression of Qi flow through the 12 major vital organ and bowel meridians of the body. (I'm interchanging Chi and Qi to get readers used to the fact they are identical in meaning and pronunciation). The Chi Clock works like a snake swallowing and digesting a meal - there is a large "lump" of expanded energy that moves every two hours from organ to organ. Think of the 12 Animals of the Chinese zodiac as the 12 organs of Mother Earth's planetary body. This makes the animal zodiac - the 12 Earthly Branches - into the meridians of the planetary "chi clock". Earth is just beginning to puts its inner mouth around the Horse lump. Every 12 years Mother Earth cycles through 12 animal-organ energies, one per year. Now we have Horse energy for an entire year. To make sure the energies are well digested, and keep our "energetic diet" varied and interesting, the Tao rotates the Five Element/5 Phase Qi from Heaven through the 12 Animal cycle FIVE times. 12 Animal Years x 5 elements = 60 year cycle. This gives each of the 12 animals a chance to experience all five elements (five, earth, gold, water, wood). This is THE operating system of Nature, just like your computer has an operating system. This natural system ensures that change (= evolution) is balanced and harmonious. If you can sense the Horse energy as the vital organ Qi from Mother Earth, it makes it more tangible. When I called in the Horse Qi during my "welcoming the New Year qigong ceremony", I knew exactly where it is coming from and its function in the planetary psyche. In 2014, the "yang" or male Qi and the Wood element are like flavors from Heaven that color the Horse-earthly Qi. This is a big energetic "meal" to eat, and we'll be digesting it all year long. But the key is to start inviting the Horse Qi into your qigong practice. Your yang wood qi will gradually increase. I'm feeling this Yang Male Wood Horse Qi in 2014 is that it's essentially a Fire Horse on Steroids. Horse is naturally excitable, due to its dominant Fire element. Horse hour is high noon in the human body daily chi clock, the time of greatest fire. The Horse month is June in the planetary chi clock - a time of high heat and the longest day. When you feed a fire-horse Wood-element fuel, it is like pouring gasoline on a flame. Then you add Yang/male Qi into the mix, and it becomes even more volatile due to its extreme expansiveness. So that's why I theme this Yang Male Green Wood Horse as the Year of Explosive Creativity. Horse is considered the most yang of all 12 animals. It's a fire horse stoked up on steroids (Wood element) and Yang force as "speed" (the street drug). That makes for huge potential - both positive and destructive. In 1954, during the last Wood Horse Year, they exploded the first atomic bomb above ground on the Bikini Atoll. In 2014, it could be the global economy or some major government that blows up. The 2014 horse energy is amplified by the galactic cycle that we are in, just two years shy of finishing our 36 year journey across the dark rift of the Milky Way's Galactic Center that began in 1980. (Read that Mayan Solstice 2012 letter: That empowers this Creative Horse energy with super-charged potential on a collective scale. Will that happen? Let's find out! HORSE FIRE IS LOVING This explosive potential for creativity is softened by the fact that horse-Fire is very heart-centered and loving at its core. The Wood Horse also has very spiritual qualities; it's known as a Celestial or Cloud Horse. Wood Qi is expansive, it rises up to heaven. Within our body, wood is expressed by our Hun Soul, aka "our Cloud Soul", whose physical palace is our liver. It's spiritual nature is Celestial - it can see and hear things far away, and travel there instantly. A Cloud Horse Year offers us a high view of our life. But if we don't mount the saddle of our Wood Horse (= mobilize our creative body-mind) and ride hard towards our Highest Destiny, then we may end up feeling trampled upon by the hooves of change pounding all around us. It's time to Ride Your Own Horse Or Be Ridden by Others. Change actively or sit by passively and watch yourself Be Changed. BEST YEAR FOR TRAVEL 2014 is a good year to Travel, either physically or spiritually. A Wood Horse year is perhaps the best of the 60 Animal-element years to physically travel in. Wood Horse makes it an extremely auspicious year to join the China Dream Trip in May 2014 (see below). The next trip is not until 2016. This 2014 Wood Horse China Dream Trip takes you deep into China's Earth element (its sacred mountains). So it is pefect for folks who want to ground their heart energy and deepen their earth. You will get a Cloud or Celestial view of your life, doing qigong and sitting atop magnificent sacred peaks. Travel takes you away from your old life quickly, and puts you into a space where you are free to change yourself. The China trip will help harvest and ground the Wood Horse Qi being offered in this dramatic new cycle. This is the 31st year in a cycle of 60 years. This Yang Wood Horse Year offers fresh yang energy needed to kick start the second half of the 60 year cycle. If you prefer spiritual travel, take a retreat. Naturally I recommend the 20 fantastic low cost retreats offered by Healing Tao University between June 21 and July 22 (see details below). But any retreat that attracts you will work fine. Warning: an undisciplined horse can go galloping off a cliff. Please don't let yourself go flying off in ANY direction, make sure you have chosen it. The Horse is a FIRE animal, which implies rapid and creative change, but a horse is also very well grounded with four strong legs. This is another way of saying: align your heart fire with your body-earth stay grounded. Harness the Fire and Earth power together to effect positive change. Qigong can help us capture that wood-fire yang movement and direct it to create New Earth (= anything real and solid) in our personal life. L: Horse painting by Jesuit visiting China in 1715 of rider with arrow R: Horses are very independent, but they still love to run in herds. This expresses as "social skills" amongst human horse types. Susan Levitt, a talented Chinese astrologer, author of Taoist Astrology and Taoist Feng Shui (both are excellent, sold in my summer retreats Tao book store) summarized the mandate of this Horse Year very succinctly: The Wood Horse year is a time of fast victories, unexpected adventure, and surprising romance. It is an excellent year for travel, and the more far away and off the beaten path the better. Energy is high and production is rewarded. Decisive action, not procrastination, brings victory. But you have to act fast in a Horse year. If you are not 100% secure about a decision, then don't do it. Events move so quickly in a Horse year that you don't want to gallop off in the wrong direction. (Note: Get a cool Tao T-shirt with the I Ching bagua taken from Susan's book cover art at: http://www.healingtaousa.com/cgi-bin/prod_list.pl?ppage=mts05s_m Horse is one of Chinese favorite animals. Horses like to compete with others. They pursuit for their freedom, passion and leadership. That implies that people will have busy schedule for their goals in the year of Horse. The characteristics of those born in Horse Years I also found applied accurately to my own Horse wife Joyce. This summary is from Fortune Angel: Strengths The spirit of the horse makes unremitting efforts to improve themselves. It is energetic, bright, warm-hearted, intelligent and able. Ancient people liked to designate an able person as 'Qianli Ma', a horse that covers a thousand li a day (one li equals 500 meters). People born in the year of the horse have ingenious communicating techniques and in their community they always want to be in the limelight. They are clever, kind to others, and like to join in a venture career. Although they sometimes talk too much, they are cheerful, perceptive, talented, earthy but stubborn. They like entertainment and large crowds. They are popular among friends, active at work and refuse to be reconciled to failure, although their endeavor cannot last indefinitely. Weaknesses They cannot bear too much constraint. However their interest may be only superficial and lacking real substance. They are usually impatient and hot blooded about everything other than their daily work. They are independent and rarely listen to advice. Failure may result in pessimism. They usually have strong endurance but with bad temper. Flamboyant by nature, they are wasteful since they are not good with matters of finance due to a lack of budgetary efficiency. Some of those who are born in the horse like to move in glamorous circles while pursuing high profile careers. They tend to interfere in many things and frequently fail to finish projects of their own. Celebrities Born in the Year of the Horse Louisa May Alcott, Chopin, Davy Crockett, Ella Fitzgerald, Aretha Franklin, Sandra Day O'Connor, Rembrandt, Teddy Roosevelt, Sir Isaac Newton, Barbara Streisand, Cindy Crawford, Cynthia Nixon, Denzel Washington, Harrison Ford, Jason Biggs, Jackie Chan, Jerry Seinfeld, John Travolta, Leonard Bernstein, Oprah Winfrey, Paul McCartney, Rembrandt, Ashton Kutcher, Emma Watson, Josh Hartnett, Katie Holmes, Kristen Stewart, Kobe Bryant, Genghis Khan, Emperor Kangxi and Yongzheng of China’s Qing Dynasty (1644 - 1911). Show biz and politics is said to be filled with horse types because of their great communication skills and warm hearts. For 60 modern Horse actors, see Huffington Post: http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2014/01/13/chinese-new-year-2014_n_4590770.html The most interesting name on the Horse Year list for me is that of Khengis Khan. He had a military strategy that used small sturdy horses and quickly conquered most of Asia and Europe. Each horseman had three to four horses, so one would always be fresh. Mongol cavalryman even knew how to sleep in the saddle. That's why they could travel long distances without stopping. We know horses can sleep while standing. Mongolian horses had even a better sleeping skill. When they ran in a group, the horse in the center slept while running. This speed of his cavalry allowed Ghenghis Khan to overrun his enemies before they had time to organize a defense. Be sure to read the other horse sections below on the close relationshiop between horses and dragons in China, and how horses are at the root of Chinese culture and history, Source: Healing Tao USA Newsletter http://www.healingtaousa.com/cgi-bin/articles.pl?rm=mode2&articleid=177

Lol... My, you were a precocious child! The internet was not not set up to entertain people or give them presents. It has been built as an agent of influence, period (the period is the best part, because it's a just this teeny-weeny widdle-diddle dot, but it magically allows you to explain how millions and millions of people actually have no personal agency whatsoever and how there is no diversity of motivations and outcomes in a ginormous human effort spanning generations whatsoever, period). Ergo Vonkrankenhaus is a CIA agent. Ergo The Dao Bums exists to keep us all busy instead of cleaning our bedrooms. Ergo Sean is J Edgar Hoover incarnate, which explains why I keep having recurring dreams of him riding roughshod over my civil rights in fabulous red sequined pumps. At least, I think that explains my dream... IF that is your name, Herr Agent Special Secret Field Officer Von Krankyhouse

I think the knowledge is out there in the aether or the like/within, things will come in dreams with intention/focus. To me a lot of it seems like imagination/ consciousness creating/interacting. What if everything is a dream, one dream to the next. When lucid dreaming you wonder. The aim is to become conscious continually? as in the Nyingma tradition, to conquer sleep/dreams is to conquer death?

Hi Barbara, A good closure is a good closure. Period. How sure are you that Jim is not with Joseph... for having met you? You remember...? During this remembrance, XYZ sent me this via PM - "It was really nice to see your post for Marbs. I don’t think I told anyone but my dad also passed away last year, too, and that week I had a dream they were talking to each other. 💛" ... I trust XYZ will not mind my sharing thus. - Anand

I didn't read this whole thread and only scanned over the last post. My first reply was humorous. But this reply may have some negativity in it. I don't know why, but I have been feeling dark, for lack of a better word, all day. It is in that feeling/way of being that I now post, so please be forewarned. I am sick and f-ing tired of people trying to sell me on ritual. I read a book by an authoress in the Magical path. It's called, "Magical Knowledge Book 1." Stuff like Astral Projection requires this big prepetory process - ritual. I read how thsi previous poster studied for 10 years with some Gnostic master. OK. Well Robert Monroe did neither of those things. And a lot of other people just up and leave their bodies as easily as probably the majority of them lucid dream. There is no spiritual growth or development requied. It is not some specicialed skill or talent. All that is going on here is some people "get it" a little faster. Unfortunately for me I am one of the slow ones, and I strongly desire to curse whatever agency or energy made me that way. I am f-ing sick and f-ing tired of having to be slow at these things that I want to experience so badly. It is a constant struggle to have even one lucid dream. The single time I managed to astral project all I remember is talking to somebody on a park bench, something about the light, and slamming into my body. I have no memory of leaving my body and what I do remember leaves doubts that I even projected in the first place. I just say I projected, for a positive mindset. I have learned enough that trying hard to do something will just make it harder to do, and you have to step out in faith as if you have already experienced that which you wish to experience. I read about these experiences others have. I do not seek enlightenment. But it would be really f-ing nice to have a lucid dream, for example, and ask to experience the truth about good/evil - light/dark, as is described in Wagonner's book. Or to, at the very least, leave my body, fully conscious, and explore where I live from that non-physical perspective. Is that realy too much to ask? I even changed my damn diet and went lacto ovo vegetarian so I would not have heavy foods holding me back. What do I get for all the effeort expended, reading and time spent? Vivid dreams - that's it. I am thankful for this. I know some people experience colorless dreams or lack of detail. So in this area I seem to be one of the ones to pick something up quickly - what appears to be a natural ability. But I do not believe anyone is more gifted in any area than anyone else. Like I said, some pick stuff up quicker, and maybe, if reincarnation is real, there is something from that contributing. I just wanted to vent about this, and also request, that you stop trying to sell folks on rituals. Magic doesn't have to be cast from the tip of a wand or staff. You don't need special words. All this crap serves only to train your mind that "Hey, he's swinging that wand around a certain way and saying those words so its time for magic to happen." I don't know how to explain this any better. The actions and words make what you are trying to do more real to you. But there is no need for a physical componant to non-physical explorations. When you hypnotize yourself, you don't have to light candles, draw symbols on the floor, utter certain words, have eaten a certain food at a certain time, yada, yada, yada. You sit back, close your eyes, and let your body fall asleep. Then you bore you consious mind to death so the subconsious takes over. THEN the magic of reprogramming yourself through self-hypnosis can happen. In other words, throw out all the physical, "real world" crap, including rituals, that get in between you and something like astral projection. These phsyical things may be of some service, like meditation. But cut as much of the fat away from the meat as possible. All this extraneous stuff is fat, and makes non-physical activities cumbersome and weighty. FYI, I give everyone here permission to find me and rip me out of my body if you are able and willing to. I am usually asleep between 4AM - 2PM Pacific Standard Time. I think that to ever develop the ability to leave my body and be consious, I will have to have some help. So I am asking for it. I am getting nowhere on my own, and it should be obvious I am frustrated. Anyone can learn anything. Anything is possible - all possibilities exist. There is nothing you can not do, but you have to believe it. Your beliefs, level of openess and receptivity will determine what you experience. The only boundaries that exist are the ones you have drawn yourself or adopted from others. Someday, I pray soon, all humanity will realize this. All humanity will wake up. And every child will expeirence the truth of endless possibility for themselves.

I used to know Lust. Funny that the reason I decided to read this thread is because I dreamed last night. (I don't often do that.) I dreamed of two different redheads I actually knew in real life. Back when I knew them the attraction was Lust. In my dream there was no lust involved. The only visions were visions of their beauty and the nice people they were. I'm glad the dream reflected my "now" reality. (Yes, I still look at women.)

We can't use western terms to make a eastern dyagnosys, so I've googled it and found this list of symptoms: anxiety irritability fatigue poor short-term memory little or no dream recall mood swings increased sensitivity to lights, sounds, odors frequent infections allergies joint pain hypoglycemia poor appetite, especially in the morning nausea, motion sickness poor tolerance of dietary protein sweet or fruity smelling breath or sweat pale complexion white spots on fingernails premature graying delayed sexual development alcoholism Those symptoms seem to indicate a liver deficiency, but that could come from a spleen-pancreas deficiency in producing Xue, which then affects both the Heart and the Liver. The fruity smelling breath/sweat and the impossibility to recall dreams point to this possibility. It would be quite unfortunate for me to prescribe acupuncture points for someone by reading a post online, but you can try and tonify your Xue and Spleen with some dietary supplements, such as ginseng and low-fat meats.

I think that it would be a waste of precious moments to use a lucid dream or astral projection for a mere novelty, the experience could help a spiritual practitioner to deepen their study or practice. Although for this to happen it would be necessary to remember the motivation to do it, and then to experience the lucidity there would have to be some training involved, you could very well be lucid on most nights if you train consistently during the daytime hours when you are "awake". That's why I think it's important to start writing your dreams down, as much as you can remember, so that by working your memory in this way, your ability to recall dreams increases every time. Not only that, but you will also have a hardcopy of your dreams written down, this may prove to be invaluable as you may be drawn to review some of them later. By being more aware during the day, and becoming established in a consistent stream of awareness, witnessing all phenomena (both inner and outer) without attachments... lucidity and clarity within the dream experience naturally begin to arise. I offer a link here for anyone who wishes to read more about dream yoga: Dream Yoga