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Small Dream, We don't want teachers to do anything, we just aren't going to listen to them unless we have what we feel is a good reason to do so. Objective evidence of an investigation with scientists and medical doctors present to rule out fraud, we feel provides that at least for us. We provide what we believe is the best objective evidence available to us, and we encourage others who feel the same to come see for themselves. We do not charge, but we also do no tolerate trolls. Were our forum like this one with all the hatred and spit being flung into our faces our forum would be paralyzed. That is why we have to work so hard to screen out the trolls. If you think that makes us terrible people, then think that. If you don't think the evidence we present is valid, or that Jim and Kosta misunderstood, hey great! More power to you! The solution is simple, practice something you like better. There really isn't much more we have to say to one another, I sincerely wish you the best on your path, but are you really furthering yourself by continuing to stand here and spit in my face, throw insults, and direct so much anger and hatred at our group because you disagree with the way we think? Best wishes.

Over the years I've seen quite a few people rise up as masters, grandmasters, gurus and the like. I have basically been presented with two views on this matter. 1. A master is a person with a certain degree of learning and skill, be it in martial arts, NLP, Academia, Chi Gong, etcetera. 2. A master is a person who is one with the Dao and is immortal. (See also living buddha, or saint) In many cases, particularly in the case of Asian martial and cultural arts, somebody achieved mastery by the first definition and then proceeds to believe, act and be accepted as a master by the second definition. I have spent many years of my life studying eastern philosophy, culture, and martial arts and have found an explanation for this that I tend to find acts as a functional guide to such matters. In Chinese history there was an ancient attitude that China is the sole civilized world and everything beyond its borders is barbarian wilderness. This attitude elevates Chinese culture to a divine status within the context of said definition. Because of this anyone who wished to have any influence and rank in ancient Chinese society must be well versed in the traditional rituals, arts and knowledges of their ancestors. These arts, by the very fact that they are Chinese are divine knowledge. Anyone who masters martial arts skills, caligraphy, or has masterful knowledge of the Chinese classics is essentially the divine in human format. This divinity is revealed in the form of artful documents, breaking bricks, healing the sick and governing according to precedent. This attitude is very Confucian. It is also an attitude that has many parallels with Socialism in the context of western academic and scientific communities, as well as fundamentalist Abrahamic religions. According to academic institutions, the only people qualified to guide a person into the framework of their own soul (Psychology) or to heal the sick (allopathic medicine) are people who have completed extensive socialization rituals in the framework of an academic context. The foundations of western scientific and social knowledge are based upon our civilization being the most civilized civilization ever to have existed in millions of years of human evolution. In fact, according to the Marxist ideal that has formed the bases of social sciences, civilization did not even begin until Mesopotamia, and after many failed attempts finally reached a pinnacle in the modern west. On the other hand, I have heard many followers of fundamentalist Abrahamic religions consider their own form of cultural knowledge to be the only valid viewpoint and that all others that disagree with them are incorrect. From this framework I have to question the validity of claims made by masters of Asian cultural and martial arts that their knowledge somehow qualifies them to spiritually guide others. I even question the validity of Qigong and yoga masters as to the validity of any claims to spirituality, as the modern incarnations of these arts are more oriented towards health, or martial arts, and less oriented towards spirituality. Even if someone were a master of a spiritual tradition, I would still question their validity as a living buddha, immortal wayfarer or saint. Tradition in my experience is not the same as reality. Many people who quest after spiritual knowledge in the context of a traditional framework often find that people may possess an authentic degree of magical or energetic skill while still being a pitiful excuse of a human being. Horror stories of encounters with life-force stealing vampires, dark sorcerers, cult leaders, and sex maniacs abound in modern and ancient literature surrounding this subject. In fiction, which is drawn directly from collective dream consciousness, and often reveals the archetypal nature of situations, sorcerers, wizards, witches, shamans, priests, and magicians are just as often evil as they are good. In the Teachings of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda, Don Juan (a Yaqui Shaman) defines the four enemies of a Man of Knowledge. 1. Fear 2. Clarity 3. Power 4. Old Age Clarity and Power are the domains associated with spiritual teachers and sorcerers. Don Juan makes the point that upon achieving clarity, the act of seeing clearly must be treated as almost a lie or it will just blind a person and they will fall into an egotistical path enhanced by their own clarity. Power the second enemy, must be recognized as an enemy as well or the power will just control the person and bolster their egos. An egotistical person who believes in absoluteness of their own vision, and the greatness of their own power, is unable to achieve oneness with the Dao/universe/God/Goddess, and is very likely to fall into the trap of becoming a dark sorcerer by their tendency to use their clarity and power for their own personal gain. When a person fundamentally believes that they are better than everyone else and had a legitimate level of skill in esoteric, energetic, magical or spiritual arts they inevitably become the archetypal dark sorcerer, cult leader, or televangelist. In order to achieve oneness with the divine and become an authentic Master of Dao a person must forget the small mind and merge with the true knowledge of the shining mind. Some simple criteria for identifying this are laid out in the Dao-De-Ching, the Wen-Tzu, and The Chuang-Tzu these probably include humbleness, knowing that they know nothing, simplicity,love, kindness, compassion, detachment, balance and mysterious power. On the other hand cult leaders, dark sorcerers and televangelists are much easier to identify. Their qualities commonly include a belief in their superiority, a belief in the superiority of their knowledge, tradition, or power, a belief in their unbending commitment to the greater good even in acts of selfishness or hatred, and a tendency to dis-empower the people around them who are perceived to have lesser degrees of knowledge or divinity. They are additionally easy to offend, loud, brag a lot, and like to set themselves up as the center of attention. They may in fact posses authentic power. What are some criteria you use to judge mastery?

Surely Kosta exaggerated what John said. As 小梦想 Small Dream put it "whatever you have in your mind to be so utterly incredible that you cannot even speak about it comparing it to being abducted by aliens is fantasy"

Small Dream, Whatever it is argument or discussion it is over. Best wishes.

Small Dream, As politely as I can, believe whatever you wish to believe. I am not going to argue with you further. Best wishes.

Small Dream, I wouldn't feel comfortable posting on ANY public forum, under ANY username about what I have experienced, it absolutely cannot be believed, I wouldn't believe it if someone else said they experienced the exact same thing. It has to be seen first hand to be believed, it can't be believed any other way. Your other questions will not be answered here. Best wishes.

Glad you mentioned Prajnaparamita as that body of work in the Mahayana canon has a big focus on Emptiness (Sunyata). I will answer from a Zen perspective and also borrow some writings from Shoryu Bradley of Gyobutsuji Zen Monastery. (Before I start this is a philosophical, experimental, and even (something) else topic. This is a topic you can't really touch with frameworks no matter how eloquent and tirelessly you write on it.) Emptiness is meant to convey the truth as you stated of anatta (non-self). In Mahayana this truth is taken deeper than simply that the five skandhas are not self (Theravada). In Mahayana there is the view that all things are empty of an ontological essence and so are in a sense only conceptual. Since they are only conceptual they are like a dream or an illusion. Diamond sutra: All conditioned phenomena Are like a dream, an illusion, a bubble, a shadow, Like dew or a flash of lightning; Thus we shall perceive them In the Tiantai school and the Huayan school they use the Prajnaparamita literature to understand deep aspects of dependent-origination. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buddhist_philosophy Scroll down to the bottom You are going to have to also start understanding Trikaya thought. Thankfully some of the Tantric traditions like Dzogchen & Mahamudra have a well framed ways of approaching this as a central teaching. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trikaya Scroll down till you get to those two. In general this a topic that bleads into a lot of other topics. The void aspect is translational but also has an experiential dimension. Imagine deep Jhana meditation were the body is let go of, the doer is let go of, the knower is let go of and one starts dismantling the mind. They realize the mind is beyond the body and go into a full existent state of space, they then realize space is empty of existence and find it is only consciousness that perceives space and so space as a dimension of mind is let go and the more subtle consciousness is the new object of meditation that becomes full being. Then consciousness is seen to be empty and "no thingness" is what one becomes. Then there is found to be a more subtle state of "neither perception nor non perception". Then this is found to still be subtle aggravation and not true peace and so "cessation of perception and feeling" happens. Then you awaken to what is on the other side when all things are truly let go of. This could be said to be the void or nirvana though I am not at a level to maybe talk about those realities. This is the deathless. The unconditioned.

Small Dream, I am not going to argue with you further. If what you have works for you then great, but we are not interested. Best wishes.

Small Dream, First our experiences will not be taken seriously, we might as well claim alien abduction. Believing this requires seeing it firsthand for yourself. Were I told what I would experience I would have left in disbelief, and never returned. Next without any doubt, our experiences will be used as ammo against us in any conversation here. Finally what you are talking about isn't in the ballpark of what we are talking about, not even close. About sharing, yes we really are trying to do that, but it is not possible to share publicly in an environment as hostile and as toxic as this one. We had to create a private forum, and we have to go to absurd lengths to screen out the trolls, and mentally deranged people. You say you used to "believe the books too", no we don't want anyone believing books. We want people who will examine the video of John's investigation with scientists and medical doctors present to rule out fraud, and put in enough effort to see for themselves. We don't want anyone believing anything on faith, or because someone else, or some book says so. Also about the book recommendations, thanks but not interested unless you can present at least as much evidence as exists for MoPai for the system or teacher.

The no-dream state may come for years and then without what might be assumed to be a slide backward some dreams may ventilate in order to show where work must be done. This is particularly true just prior to certain bodies transforming. At these points the embodiment is aware of the needs and events though not clearly the outcomes. Often only a light new awareness of an "obstacle" results in its dissipation.

楞伽經 一切佛語心品之三 云何三昧樂正受意生身，謂第三第四第五地，三昧樂正受故，種種自心寂靜，安住心海，起浪識相不生，知自心現境界，性非性，是名三昧樂正受意生身。 Who can find the translation of this part? This means the first stage of 意生身 start from the fifth land. the fifth Buddhisatva is very still in his heart sea and stay there. No conscious waves there. Knowing everything of his own heart. Xin in is not xin. This is 楞伽經（梵文：लंकावतारसूत्र Lankāvatāra-sūtra) dreams are the waves of consciousness. in fifth buddhisatva , no consciousness waves, so no dreams. We can not [guess] sutra. And we must practice to prove the sutra. We should not guess what it said or misunderstand it. actually, the first land buddhisatva already start to have no dreams. If one still has dream, he has consciousness activities, it is impossible to get into the first land. he just stay in 欲界（梵文：कामधातु，kāma-dhātu）

So I went to this talk at a biological museum at the University - this was 20 years ago. The talk was on the need to protect the rainforest - someone had been to the Amazon. At the end I asked if he knew it was international day against McDonald's destroying the Amazon. He said he didn't. As I was leaving, a young man ran up to me to ask me about what I had said. We went to a local cafe for a chat. In our talk he offered for me to move into his house where he rented a room with other students - mainly international students, as I needed a place to move to. So after I moved in, then this young female entered the house and I thought she was very pretty. We ended up meeting and she shared how she was indigenous, from the Andes. I happened to have a video documentary on VHS - of the Kogi - and she was shocked as her tribe was related to the Kogi but she knew the Kogi were very secretive. At this time I began practicing Yan Xin qigong with the Chinese immigrant community at the University and my new friend told me she had meditated with a Chinese qigong master named Chunyi Lin - just him and a philosophy professor at the local community college. I didn't think much of it until in my "spiritual healing" class for my "liberal studies" master's degree Chunyi Lin was invited to do a presentation so I sat right up front. I had studied up on qigong and as soon as I saw him, I knew he was the real deal. Meanwhile I fell in love with my friend and we traveled back to her country together but we remained just friends. But in the Andes my heart was very hot from my love feeling and I could not sleep. So I sang softly in the middle of the night and suddenly I had this vision I could not stop - my whole life flashed before me in a review. But it was not linear - instead revealed to me were secret connections from years apart - where subtle energy blockages had been resolved, years later - and I had not realized how my whole life had been synchronized through spirit light. After I did the intensive qigong training with Chunyi Lin I began having precognitive visions a lot. The skeptic materialists say that statistically we are bound to have "coincidences" in our dreams - but when reality is exactly matched - and the vision or dream is more real than being awake - we realize that our waking self is a type of dream as well, and even time itself is a type of dream. When I was living in a house of my friend from the Andes - she had invited me to move to a house she newly acquired - with other international students - and then I was looking at this photocopy of a newspaper photo. It was of my environmental activist friends with Native indigenous activists, standing on the roof of a house, holding a banner, to protect a forest. Suddenly I got this uncanny sensation and I drove to my parents to look up my old journal. Sure enough in 1995 I had a dream that was more real than being awake - before I had even practiced qigong but after I had met qigong master Effie P. Chow and experienced her energy. At 2:30 a.m. I wrote the dream down and said it was more real than being awake and I thought the dream would come true. I had long forgotten the dream but three years later it had come true exactly.

I was walking towards the final stand of humanity. Allong my path I found a young boy who had lost all hope. About to give up. I kneeled next to his side, where he layed with his hands in the sand. Crying. I could see his hands seek grip in the sandy soil, but he could not find the support he sought to keep on going, not any longer. Could this be my last moment, my last deed in life. As life. "Hey, you. Don't look to deep, you might be dissapointed to find life to be more shallow than you expect it to be. The truth is, only you can make it this shallow, and thus you did. And only you can increase its depth!" *looks at the high heavens, breaking, incoming fire exploding the very foundation of all heavens to bits and pieces.* "To be as far as the depth of all distance, from here to everywhere! From here, to everywhere... My friend. Family. life. You forgot how to do that. As did I, friend... We even forgot how to remember our ability. It seems so far away, but it's all around us." The boy looked at me and his surroundings. I continued: "It has allways been all around us. You're no longer who you're used to be, because you're no longer where you used to be... I wish we could go home. It's too far. None of us can make it back anymore. There is nothing left of it, because the distance has faded its timeline. Even if we could reach it... If... We need to be where we are not in order to remember how to get to where we have to be. Can you believe how far we are? How far away, from who we really are. Gone, even from memory. Even silenced in truth, faded into the eternal chaos founded in silence, the caller of the eternal storm. It has swallowed all that we have ever hold dear to. EVERYTHING!!! ...and now it is coming for us." *The boy looks at the burning rage of the heavens* I continue: "Silence, is all that is left for us, our path, our truth. Can you see how this is your purpose now? You will find your greatest purpose in silence, allways. Not only the silence of mind, but the future of humanity will be focused in the real silence, in all places, in all times and all spaces and all spaces of all times and all spaces of all times. IN ALL OF EXISTANCE, FOR ETERNITY, EVEN AS WE JOIN ETERNITY AND BE SILENCED BY ITS VAST SEA OF CRUSHING AND EVERLASTING, UNENDING CHAOS! Fear not young one. Even in the greatest depth of all storms there are those whose heartbeat still keep going on, it carves its way through the fire, burns stronger than fire, because the memory of we truely are cannot be broken. Do you remember? Prior to the expansion and ascension of humanity, the memory was experienced. But a shimmer of our true past. SO GRAND. And you know it is past. It has been silenced. Thus, in silence we live. So that you may never forget the last memory of who you truely were and all that you are suppose to be. So that you may sleep! and dream of it again, and again! Hoping each time you get to live the dream, every single time STILL WAKING UP! and flee all of life and experience into the darkest depth of existance that you can find to experience the same silence which you know is the caller of all STORMS! Just to keep the dream alive! DONT CLOSE YOUR EYES ON ME! ...THIS is who you are! Look at the life of the soil which has supported you for all your life. THIS IS WHO YOU ARE!!!!! WE ALL CHOSE TO BE HERE! Because it's all gone. And you know it never had the chance to grow amongst the chaos of which it was made. Death comes to us all. Even the last memory you hold on to so dearly, and fight so hard to protect. But does that mean you have to give up?! NEVER. You know what to do. Travel far, and never stop. Drink while moving, eat while moving. But never stop fighting. CAUSE WE KNOW WE ARE GOING TO DIE! AND WE ARE NOT GOING DOWN SILENTLY!!!!! WHERE THERE IS NO SILENCE, WE WILL MAKE SILENCE!!! WE WILL SPREAD THE TRUTH OF WHO WE REALLY ARE! ... IT IS YOU WHO KEEPS THE DREAM ALIVE. Of who we used to be. Cause it's all going down. Under the sea. Swallowed by grief, far past. As there has been this one memory, there have been countless of others that have gone before it. It does not matter if you fight or not. But if you will, you will feed the possibility that one day all memories will fight back, and perhapS we may all be swallowed by grief accompanied by the hope that those who come after may be unburdened by the silence. Take pride in this. And proud we are, on this planet, and those who are with pride do not go down silently! WE MAKE IT KNOWN WHO WE ARE!!!! Stand up, For the sake of this one pride. Let this be your final statement. It WILL be magnified when we go straight towards our greatest challenge, fear. I promise you. Look up, where we are all headed. Meet your destination with pride, my son. You deserve as much. The fire of passion in our heart does not lie, IT DOES NOT DIE! IT BURNS WITH RAGE!! READY FOR THE FIRE THAT COMES FOR US! burning fiercely with rage. Fighting in deed and wish. They don't have to remember us. They can feel us. The fire that burns within, of fury, and outrage, for all that we have lost, in one small memory of all that we had! WE HAVE LOST EVERYTHING THAT HAS EVER MENT ANYTHING TO US!!! THEY TOOK EVERYTHING FROM US!!!! EVERYTHING!!!!!!! Stop looking for it and fight your last battle, it has been going on since before you were born. Wake up to the truth of all that you dont know and never will be allowed to know, never will be able to know. Cause they took everything from you, from me, from everyone you know! Don't fear the rain. It is all temporary. All storms pass, to make way for peace and harmony. AS WE ONCE USED TO BE, AS WE ONCE WERE, SO WILL BE THE LIFE OF ALL THOSE WHO COME AFTER. We cannot keep going on like this anymore. Not as life. We have to find a way, even if we cannot. To risk everything, means there is no choice. That is why you are here. That is why you are so far from who you really are. That is why you no longer remember who you truely are. You have sacrificed everything, even the ability to remember, cause you knew you had no choice. No choice but to find a way, where there is no way. You are alone, but you're not alone. Many have reached the edge of this universe. Among the universe there are many like you, such as yourself. The animals are you. You are the same as all life, we are all but one life, as is family suppose to be, and we have all chosen a different path. And here you are, because it's now time to remember this. Because we all have to fight again. Together, as one planet. I'm sorry, we have no choice, there is no choice. We all knew we had no choice. The time of remembrance has to come for everyone. Even you. I'm sorry. I cannot stop this. I cannot stop anything. I am but a tiny part of all that we once were. As are you, son. You know you will join all of that, back, one day, back to who you truely are... And are suppose to be... NOW IS THE ONLY TIME THAT IT CAN HAPPEN!! MAKE YOUR FINAL STAND!!!! ALWAYS HOLD YOUR DESTINY IN SIGHT!! ONE FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" ... ... ... *Rumbling waves of stone, fire and chaos.* Even the black furred beast displayed their enormous strength that day. Even the repitillian races raised their teeth towards the injustice of invading legions of fire, making the final stand for the soil of their planet and all those that had become one with it. The dimensions tore. Demons, disoriented as they were, made their way into physical expressions. They carried the memories of those they have seen dying that day. The passion they fought with. The promise of everlasting purpose, to them. They sought out the physical beings in their physical plane ready to keep the dream alive of the promise of everlasting purpose, which they had been witness to.

He used to say - "the more you heal others, the more you heal yourself" - that was in the early 2000s. Then when I returned to the center in 2013 - I was told by Jim Nance that until the third eye is fully open then a person can use up their energy, and then at the Level 3 class Chunyi explained that what happens is people open up the third eye (but not fully) - so they use up their psychic energy. Then they get fat from needing to rely on food for jing energy to restore the psychic energy. Chunyi said he has seen that happen many times. So I have not heard him say that first saying that he used to say all the time. But yes what they do say is to "visualize light" when you do then healing. The yin qi as psychic energy is based on the mind as intention or focus, and not as much on visualization. But the key about the universal energy is that you turn the light around so that time goes to zero - Jim Nance describes it as "holding a snap shot" on the image that is being healed - and then time freezes - and then the Yuan Qi energy does the healing on its own. So that is the level when the third eye is fully open. Michael Lomax posts in the "group healing" forum here - he has the third eye fully open. Effie P. Chow also has her third eye fully open and she said how Adam the Dream Healer has his third eye fully open. So that is the qigong master level - a number 5 person by Gurdjieff's terminology. But the even deeper level is the enlightenment healing - a number 6 person which means from beyond physical death - like what Ramana Maharshi did - and so Jim Nance achieved that level in 2013 after he did a meditation retreat on his own - a "sabbatical" for a few months. But to have the third eye center just opened permanently - but not fully open - that is a Number 4 person.

funny... This morning, before I woke up, I had a dream about Jesus ( qualifies as nice/helpful person?) reading me a book about what Jesus actually said. And I was thinking, wait a second, Jeff actually told us about Gospels and I did buy one ( but did not read yet)... Given last night I was at the fire puja, perhaps there is some connection to my dream... but obviously my lands are more of cats' lands than buddhas:) gotta read the Gospel now...

I did not go through such immense pain (..yet?) (*knocking on wood*) but from time to time energy cultivation does bring some stuff to the surface. Like self-esteem issues or other things.. negative believes about myself and when chi hits those believes they come to consciousness exponentiated so I really got to deal with it. Because if I don't, chi won't move But what helps me till this day is a dream I had a few years ago, during a time where I had feelings of going crazy, because of too much generated energy to deal with.. In this dream - it was the most realistic dream I've ever had, in fact it was more real than normal reality, after waking up I really had the impression as if rather my waking state was the dream-world - I was a beggar in an ancient city, sitting at the corner of a street and waiting for the people to give me food or money. I was sick and hungry, life was a piece of shit. I really just sat there feeling intense self-pity.. Then, out of nowhere, colours get far more intense and an older person comes towards me, wearing a white robe cape like gandalf and I can feel this is the wisest person I ever met. This person looks at me saying: "You have to learn equanimity (I hope it is the right translation). In german the word was "Gleichmut". Then I felt an immense love and woke up. The crazy thing is when woke up I didn't even know what "Gleichmut" meant. I didn't know the word. So I googled it and found out that it's a buddhist principle (I really wasn't into buddhism at that time). And till this day this dream helps me a lot. Whenever times get tough I say to myself "phil, you just have to learn a little bit more equanimity" and I know, there are forces watching me, and whatever happens, my real inner being is safe, no matter how tough the circumstances appear. And no matter what problem one has to face, you would't face those problems if you could't solve them.

yeah I had this very amazing dream - when I was in the city doing lots of full lotus meditation - I had this dream of this white bear standing up against this old oak tree that was in the yard I grew up in, across from this lake in the city. Another dream around the same time was of another old oak tree in that same yard only the tree was surrounded with a rainbow aura. So with this 2nd dream of a white bear - I got very intrigued. So I went to that yard of my old house - i always played in this yard, throwing ball with a friend, and raking or on the tree swing or mowing, etc. So it turned out that old oak tree had been cut down since I had last seen the yard. So then I wondered - why did I dream of this white bear? why a white bear? so I went to the U of MN library to study the significance of white bear - and it turns out the bear for circumpolar native indigenous cultures is considered to be a gateway to the spirit world. Anyway so I was just thinking about this earlier today - how the spirit world is quite fascinating indeed. And of course I had this precognitive dream in 1995 that I wrote down - it was more real than being awake - of my activist friends with native indigenous activists, standing on the roof of a house, holding a banner to protect a forest. I wrote the dream down as soon as I woke up at 2:30 am in my journal. I said the dream was more real than being awake so I thought the dream would come true. That was before I did any qigong training but I saw Effie P. Chow in 1995 so I think it was after I saw her and experienced the qi. Also I was vegan and exercising a lot and very focused on doing activism - and I was the local contact in the EArth First! journal. So then in 1998 I saw this photo - from the newspaper - and suddenly I got this uncanny sensation and I drove to my parents house where my journal was. I confirmed the photo was exactly the same as my dream - that I had forgotten about until I saw that photo again. And I had gotten arrested at that protest of a spiritual area of a sacred forest where the Mississippi and Minnesota rivers meet - the regional tribes would meet there annual, considering it the local origin of the Universe via a rainbow water spirit. So that encampment was at the time the front page news story for the EArth First! Journal in 1998 and I had written a paper on it for Winona LaDuke's class on environmental racism at the U of MN.

I expanded the above poem and made it as a part of a poetic story. The story is metaphoric and has a conversation between a seeker and an old man.. Read this and let me know your comments: You are the Truth Carrying the weight of past in my head And dragging the scenes which were old and dead, I ran to grab the bliss of the future; The more I ran, the more was the torture.. The torture of the hedonic treadmill Followed me as I continued uphill; I was caught in the prison of craving With tedious thoughts, my mind was raving. I met an ugly old man on the way who had a long thick beard with shades of grey. His face was shining with heavenly bliss; In his eyes I saw an endless abyss! "What makes you so happy in this rat race?", I asked him as he slowly turned his face. He replied,"The answer is within you! The grand kingdom of God is within you!" "That's a joke", I said "Are you kidding me?". "No!" He said, "Turn inward, you'll become free! You've made your own boundaries inside your mind, You've closed your eyes and think you've become blind". I said, "How can I get out of this trap? I want to find the way, give me the map" He said, "You're the way, the truth and the life! Be still and know you're that, and end this strife! You’re not your body and you’re not your mind; Not knowing the timeless truth makes you blind; You’re not your story and you’re not your thoughts; You’re not those age old, buried mental knots. You’re not that chattering voice in your head; You’re not anything that you did or said; You’re not anything that you have or know You’re the truth that is watching all this show! You’re not anything that can be perceived; You’re not an object that can be observed; You’re the screen where the world is being played; You’re the emptiness where the form is made. You’re the one witnessing the mind and breath; You’re one without two, beyond birth and death; Like the air trapped in a small round bubble, You feel separate which brings all the trouble. Inquire inside and wake up from this dream! Let truth alone shine like a bright white beam! By inquiry, your illusions will break; You’ll stop mistaking the rope for a snake" Hearing these words stopped my thoughts for a while. Looking in, I slowly began to smile. I watched my thoughts as they slowly passed by; I observed my mind like a secret spy. For years, I contemplated on his words; I watched my thoughts fly like a bunch of birds. One day, I woke up and realized the truth; Since then my life has been peaceful and smooth!

Here is my recent poem about non-duality or advaita, which has some pointers to contemplate for anyone who is seeking the truth: You’re not your body and you’re not your mind; Not knowing the timeless truth makes you blind; You’re not your story and you’re not your thoughts; You’re not those age old, buried mental knots. You’re not that chattering voice in your head; You’re not anything that you did or said; You’re not anything that you have or know You’re the truth that is watching all this show! You’re not anything that can be perceived; You’re not an object that can be observed; You’re the screen where the world is being played; You’re the emptiness where the form is made. You’re the one witnessing the mind and breath; You’re one without two, beyond birth and death; Like the air trapped in a small round bubble, You feel separate which brings all the trouble. Inquire inside and wake up from this dream! Let truth alone shine like a bright white beam! By inquiry, your illusions will break; You’ll stop mistaking the rope for a snake. – Shanmugam

So then Poonjaji states that the first thought upon waking is a thought in the self-awareness. He states that the formless awareness is the space between thoughts. So the first thought upon waking is often still in REM brain state with theta brain waves - this is why you can smell yourself immediately upon waking up but then the next breath and thought you are suddenly beta brain wave dominant and the smell will go away. So I watched this neuroscientist on youtube lecturing on the "mystery of qi" or qi without mystery - stating that it is the cerebellum that has faster evolution of neurons than the prefrontal cortex. I think what he meant to say - more precisely - is that the cerebellum has a larger prefrontal cortex, in ratio to its size, then the cerebrum brain. This was also the main analysis of Stan Gooch - in his book Total Man - he said that paranormal powers is from the cerebellum-pineal gland connection. But the brain on its own is very weak - and so for example when athletes go into the "flow" - this neuroscientist says that means they are "learning to learn" - or meta-learning, and that this is a self-organizing of thinking on its own. As Stuart Hameroff states - precognition is real in this state of the "flow" - that Michael Jordan for example really does perceive faster than his fellow players. The canadian neuroscientist gives evidence to prove this is true - there really is faster perception. So in the REM state - this is also called the Mozart Effect - so when the heart resonates with the breathing and brain then the spirit takes over as a waking dream state for thinking or perceiving. So then - it's proven the "flow" is caused by a big spike in adrenaline to the amgydala and hippocampus so your brain from increased dopamine is able to process faster memories - and so your internal perception is faster so your external perception of time is slower. External time slows down to create the flow as your internal perception is faster.

So with proper training after the pineal gland third eye opens up then we experience a new objective reality that is psychophysiological. So for example if a person smells something new - then often the people around might not notice the smell since their cerebral mind already inhibited the smell - they adapted. A new smell is a REM theta state of mind -which is why animals like bears or rats have such a greater sense of smell - like dogs - being in the REM theta waking dream state all the time. So the large prefrontal cortex of humans focuses on vision instead of smell but to access the Dao is based on deep listening. So religion as a philosophy is based actually on logical inference - no belief or blind ignorance is necessary. This is called the I-thought that is self-referential and self-transcending - as our I-thought is the basis for all thoughts and yet our I-thought disappears in deep sleep. So this logic is then applied mathematically in Taoism with the I-thought as the One - and where does the One go into? This is then modeled as different meditation practices and in fact the secret of Taoism is based on understanding the One as complementary opposites of number - so One is a male number and 2 is a female number. This is very different than Western math and philosophy - until you discover "noncommutative phase" in quantum physics again. I have a free pdf on this - https://www.pdf-archive.com/2017/04/10/idiot-s-guide-to-taoist-alchemy/ So the word "religion" means "to bind" just as yoga means "to yoke." So someone who is serious about knowing the Self - as Socrates taught - will logically infer the source of the I-thought as an experiential change in reality. This is called emptying out the thoughts but then an energy is experienced - and to go deeper when the thoughts are concentrated then requires a deeper listening experience as energy or frequency with a change in time as well. So then finally we experience that neither our mind nor our body is the truth of reality but rather we exist within time as formless awareness or consciousness as the Emptiness. So this is a change from within that causes a change from without at the same time - called "noncommutative phase" or the 5th dimension of space that we exist within, that is time-like, so changing eternally, creating 4D spacetime as energy-mass. As physicist Gerard t'Hooft argues - we literally exist within micro quantum virtual black hole-white holes. This can be experienced through the Taoist training. So all the religions also have this mystical secret but the problem with Solar-based religions is that the Lunar energy got lost which is the female pineal gland psychic energy - and so the Solar-based religions like Vedic Brahminism - and Judaic-Islamic-Christian - this is all based on symmetric math.

According to the reading I did last night - it was Paul Dong on Yan Xin - https://issuu.com/exopolitics/docs/china_s_super_psychics_by_paul_dong Both chunyi lin and Jim Nance have achieved the amazing level of the "Divine Eye" - this is a very rare ability level of healing. In fact someone was reading my posts online - and they came from a family who has an Indian dad who was in Hare Krishna - and so this person literally traveled throughout India and China looking for energy masters. He even met Master Jiang and saw Jiang doing the amazing fire pyrokinesis ability. But he said Jiang did not do the same type of love shen healing that Chunyi did. So the person returned back to the U.S. and drove up from Kansas to Minnesota to the qigong center. It was then that Jim Nance called me and said I "knew this person." haha. No - they only read me online! But since Jim Nance o.k.'d the person I said sure they can come visit me. So the person stayed a couple nights at my house - and I made vegetarian food - like just mix wheat and oil in a pie pan for crust - and then I think I had lots of fruit from the organic fruit warehouse job - or maybe it was garden vegetables. Then organic black beans and organic brown rice. But I made sure to have small meals with also vinegar to counteract any sugar. Also I made him drink mushroom tea. haha. He was nice to do that - it was shelf mushroom tea. So it is very medicinal - Artist Conk tea - but bitter tasting. Anyway so then I was sitting in full lotus on the sofa next to him and suddenly he exclaimed - "your eyes are pulsating!" So I knew my eyes were pulsating but I didn't think anyone could notice since my family tries to ignore what I do - or whatever. So I explained to him - that was the yin qi and shen going out of the eyes - from the pineal gland. So as Jim Nance said, "I fell out of enlightenment" and the magnetic bliss I feel in the center of my brain is a "brain blockage." haha. Jim Nance meditated nonstop 12 hours a day for many years to get to his level and he was the personal assistant of Chunyi since Chunyi said Jim had the best aura of any student he had met. So for a Westerner to train to this ability is very rare - but also he is African-American with some Native indigenous heritage also. So the "lonemanpai" dude says he has the ability to see inside people's bodies at a distance. I don't believe him. If he could do that then his third eye would be fully open and like Jim Nance and chunyi lin - then the lonemanpai dude should be able to submit to peer-reviewed randomized controlled testing of "external qi" healing. The lonemanpai dude says he wants a coterie of scientists to follow him around like John Chang. That is very easy - look at what Wim Hof did. Lonemanpai can simply set up public demonstrations of his ability - just as Effie P. Chow did for me in 1995 - when she blew the fuse in the room behind her at St. Mary's University. haha. Effie P. Chow also declared that "Adam the Dream Healer" has his third eye fully open - because of his native indigenous heritage, he was born that way. Adam the Dream Healer also does public demonstrations of his qi-shen healing. So Lonemanpai doesn't need to hide on his forum - where he insists that people will be deleted for lurking on his site if they register on the site without posting their private practice details on his site. haha. That is why I declared him to be the "leader" of the person who says they like to read his site. Maybe they just lurk on his site without registering. But if you login then the lonemanpai "extracts" private information from you. That is very culty. He claims its for free but extracting private information is not free. It's what scientology does to black mail people. Hilarious. The real alchemy training is not based on the ego as God - but rather on the Emptiness as Impersonal Awareness - formless awareness. So the more a person becomes a God or immortal - the less of an individual ego the person has. But Lonemanpai is all about his ego. The God as Ego is the Siddhi ability - this is a lower ability. Even Jim Nance told me that at first he was using his mind to do healing and he realized this was very limiting. So then he learned to let the Emptiness or God do the healing for him. This is the real secret of the Cosmic Qi healing ability that also Yan Xin and Effie P. Chow and Chunyi Lin uses. So for Lonemanpai to repeatedly state that Chunyi is a thief - this is like calling someone a murderer - it is a formal label of someone convicted of a crime. Sure a person can make the claim - like the cop who killed the innocent black man in the Twin Cities and then the cop got off free of conviction. The mom of the black man killed calls the cop a murderer. That has some justification. Or if I have a coworker tell me that he is going to steal something or I have a family member steal something from my dad - then I am justified in calling them a Ladron! A thief (only the people are spanish speakers on those examples, haha). But Lonemanpai claims - when someone is told by Chunyi they should practice qigong 3 hours a day and get six healings that then Chunyi is a thief - when in fact there is a law in Minnesota for spiritual healing. So Chunyi has learned from experience due to the death of his wife - that if someone has serious blockages they need to practice more than 2 hours a day - if it is very serious they should practice 4 hours a day. That person had contacted me on my blog about Chunyi asking him to get six healings. I said just keep practicing and you can space the healings out over time. I know Chunyi says for his normal clients he recommends getting a healing once a year as a kind of check up. So that is his right as a healer - he is not doing any medical diagnosis or even medical treatment and Chunyi recommends people go to doctors and even his own son is in medical school, training to be a doctor. So Lonemanpai - his wife is a medical doctor - and so Lonemanpai should respect the right of spiritual healers also to be professional in their treatments and fees, etc. Legally Chunyi is not a thief - he is not using force to take money or property from someone else. So to repeatedly call Chunyi a thief is not proper. As I have stated Chunyi - in contrast to the "lonemanpai" dude - has publicly had his skill tested in a randomized controlled medical testing of external qi healing published in a peer reviewed journal. He also co-authored a medical qigong chapter for the Mayo Clinic textbook on complementary healing in 2006 - with Dr. Nisha Manek. So Chunyi works a lot with medical doctors - Bill Manahan, Nisha Manek, Ann Vincent, and there have been several other medical doctors. The "skeptics" claim that all these medical doctors have been duped by the placebo effect! Hilarious. Also when the Dalai Lama goes to the Mayo Clinic for his check ups then his entourage of monks stays at Chunyi's house and Chunyi does healings on the Dalai Lama and his monks. haha. The Spring Forest Qigong center regularly offers "free" sample healings and also has "master healers" who do free healings for homeless people, and other disadvantaged sectors of the population. I myself have been arrested 8 times protesting against imperialistic genocide and structural injustice. I ate out of dumpsters for 10 years because the U.S. wastes so much good food and I rode around on an old 3 speed bicycle even in the winter time in the U.S. I plan to live out my final years in a tent off a highway - in a forest area on land I bought. haha. When I say final years - I mean global ecological apocalypse from global warming - https://guymcpherson.com/2017/02/faster-than-expected/ Like in the next few years at most. Sure I did a lot of free healing that used up my jing energy by having the energy wrongly go up the front of my body and out of my skull. haha. I have no regrets - it was fun to have inner city strangers thank me or get a bit freaked out about me or try to stalk me or go into lewd female display behavior in front of me. haha. I was doing "evil fire" qi healing as the book Taoist Yoga: Alchemy and Immortality explains - it is the most common error of the alchemy training. I overused my psychic energy. Live and learn my friends. https://www.pdf-archive.com/2017/04/10/idiot-s-guide-to-taoist-alchemy/ So when lonemanpai attacks so many other qigong teachers like Michael Lomax and K.A.P. and Chunyi - and so forth - this is just like what Opendao did. Males, as chimps, are drawn towards power that is sadistic - they want the strong man to "lead" them, etc. - this is nothing new. Lonemanpai claims that I am misogynist - on the contrary I freely gave my energy to females - too much so. haha. So Lonemanpai even misunderstood what I was saying - when I make the claim that females shaking their legs are sucking off energy or some such. My pdf goes into the details more of how to fix these errors. You don't need some special download program to "unzip" the files as Lonemanpai requires of his followers. haha. Sure keep hiding out on the lonemanpai forum with your leader wearing a mask or whatever claiming he is a God by attacking everyone behind their backs - hilarious.

You will get immune disorder. ( autoimmune). Here is the schedule: phase 1: human lives without any awareness. Time frame any. phase 2: human gets hit with "first bells ringing". Time frame: some get it in teens, some in 20s, some in 30s. I think it depends on location, culture, etc. phase 3: human starts "searching" outside of their point of reference. Usually finds something quick. In the past it was probably harder, but now with internet and google, I assume one would find their symptoms/issues in a matter of hours. phase 4: human starts to engage in practice. Meditation, taichi, reiki, yoga, whatever western/christian version of "healing", "happy thoughts", etc. Time frame : weeks to few years of "regular practice". First "ball of crap" is usually cleared. Crap can be anywhere in the body ( any body: physical/energy/spiritual) phase 5: human either loses interest in practice ( issue is healed) or human hits "second bells" where sh&t is so so much harder and nothing which worked before does not anymore. I.e. meditation does not calm, yoga does not do, christian priests suddenly presented in a strange light/ etc. Time frame: any, from seconds to timelives. phase 6: option 1: human gives up and spends 10 years in "oblivion" hoping to wing it". Immune decease develops and human dies from "hospital care" or tired of "beatings" goes back to practice and works through mounted crap. option 2: human is warned about option 1 ( i.e. you can take a break for 10 years, but you will still have to deal with this sh&t). Human is screaming and complaining yet is working towards "love and light" which does not seem like reality anymore. Those who had been there before tell human that it is possible to pass through this and there will be relief. source: my conversation with Sifu yesterday. I assume there is no need to say who is whining and complaining and scratching at option 2 and looking to see if perhaps option 1 is a better deal at this point. p.s. aint all cupcakes and rainbows p.p.s. The toxic heat is in my lungs and head right now along with psychosomatic pain all over the body. Random acu points are opening and shooting pain out and it gets better, but then another one opens and does it. I have noise canceling headphones on as not to take any outside energy right now. It helps with sleeping. Although sleeping is very painful too, like "psychic surgery" continues, only my being does it itself in a dream. Draining lots of black blood (? not as thick as oil but close) out of my fingers and taking black bugs out. Since we did meditation yesterday, I assume it will last about 24-48 hours. Note, this is a process about 5 month into almost weekly 4-6 hour a day sessions. Not sure if it is possible to turn this cat into a tiger. Please do not feel sorry for me nor send any energy ( I know some of you kind souls), this is just a process described very well. Thought I would share about "toxic heat" part, so people do not freak out when it happens. I just reiterate, I hope you have a good teacher by your side when you do this. Frying your brains aint good. I thank God every day I have knowledgeable Sifu. I don't tell Sifu how much I appreciate his help though. Don't want to look so desperate I guess...

It happened in a lucid dream. All I can say is that I was in a technologically highly advanced city, standing on a platform in a very high and long elevator-like transportation tube that was interconnecting the buildings. Now I do take Zecharia Sitchin's theory with a grain of salt, but the idea that Nibiru is not another (habitable!) planet orbiting our Sun on an extremely elliptic course, but could be a planet orbiting our companion star, makes it a little more conceivable. Interesting that Andy Lloyd reached the same conclusion: www.darkstar1.co.uk/