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Hello everyone! I'm Jewish. I'm new here in the forum I wanted to consult about spiritual work. In my tradition, studying the Holy Scriptures is a very significant part of the spiritual work. I have studied for several years in the Holy Scriptures and in various Jewish streams, and in recent years I have been studying Aristotelian philosophy - the writings of Ibn Sina, and this so that I can delve deeper and learn from the teachings of Maimonides. So far so good. The problem is that since my childhood, I have a strong attraction to mysticism. I feel like this world is calling me, no matter how much I try to put it aside I am drawn there again and again. Because this need floats with great intensity, I sometimes look for shortcuts (like the gateway experience), read about them, understand that this is not a significant spiritual path that will develop me as a human being and in the end do nothing. I do practice a little qi gong in an amateur way, I want to work on monkey squatting for half an hour to an hour a day to activate my Dan Tien. Recently I also started writing a dream journal. I'm just restless all the time. I have a burning need to open my chakras, especially the third eye, and I feel lost. Sometimes I feel tingling in the third eye area, but I don't do any work and I don't know what to do about the tingling, they are not too strong but appear from time to time. I have felt for years that I belong to these worlds and in practice I have no part in them and this gap hurts me. Seeing auras, telepathy, lucid dreaming, astral travel, energy work and other spiritual experiences are things that I feel knock on my door every once in a while, calling me to work. Although I am relatively young (27), I am married with two daughters. I am a student and work at the same time, and so is my wife, so our routine is very busy and I don't have much time for long practices. Every practice costs me a huge sacrifice. On a deep level, I feel that I am moving in a good direction and becoming a better person who is more connected to the environment and the world. At the same time, on a personal level, I feel a huge lack and a tremendous attraction to engage in the occult. I feel like I don't have a teacher who can guide me and teach me what I should do about my chakras for example. I don't even know how good or problematic my system is and I'm afraid to go to any medium because I think the market is flooded with imposters. Do you have any advice for me? Thank you very much!