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Hey guys, Like the title says, I had an experience yesterday that has left me a bit shaken. I was practicing ejaculating up the spine, as I usually do during intercourse, and this time I actually succeeded in doing it. Usually, the energy got stuck somewhere up along the spine and felt a bit unnatural- I never got any huge results from it. But last night, I channeled it a bit different, more to the anterior side of the spine, and the energy shot straight up very smoothly, unimpeded, and left me in a state of indescribable bliss for about 1.5 hours. After 1.5 hours, as I was lying in my bed contemplating my newfound state of being, I gradually started feeling crappy all of a sudden, like, *really* crappy. I started feeling a very intense feeling of fear, dread, and sadness, similar to when I was extremely depressed a few years ago. I also started feeling an aching, burning feeling at the bottom of my spine in my coccyx. The best analogy I can give you, for those who have tried MDMA, is I experienced an ultra rapid high, followed by an awful "hangover". I started freaking out, got up, sat in lotus and tried to rectify this thing ASAP. I also noticed that I could no longer get a boner (please don't ask why I felt it was important to test this) and felt zero sexual desire. I started doing some deep breathing, and calmed myself down, and did the 5 tibetan rites as well as a nice, long qigong session (SFQ), which upon completion, left me feeling totally fine. So, what the heck happened there, and what can I do to make sure this never happens again? I kid you not when I say that it scared the shit out of me.