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I'm having problems with things and I need some input. Lately I have been going to sleep and I feel that my health is being drained. I am told that I have mental health problems but I shaved my head and my attachment to my past is decreased and don't have to take my medication. I try meditation and I'm somewhat good at it. It is as if my spirit is taken from me but can't really leave. I just collect it after I wake up. I have to be strong in my life and I am starting to be wary of my parents. It is getting harder to do things. My spirit is out and about. Lately I heard my spirit say I was a slave to my dad. I'm thinking spirit possession of my parents or something. Sometimes I feel possessed too. Any solutions to my problem? I try talking to gods and such. I'm always pushing the envelope as they say. The problem is I can't trust anyone things are dark. I sat next to a young woman yesterday and had to reclaim my mind essence soul what have you. It seems delusional but it really hurts. Things are starting to seem surreal. The professionals would say this is mental illness, but this has something to do with the delusion of others. It is if I am on their roller coaster ride and I'm just along for the ride. How do I stop the influence of others and some sort of spirit magic. It might be tantric in origin. It as if my life has been influence by certain people to lead down a dark path and I said no and a great battle has ensued. That's how I feel. Amitabha