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Hello, my name is Aaron, I'm a 16 year old kid from Venezuela, I was on a journey to limit all distractions so I could focus more on my studies and stuff, and in my journey I wanted to control my sexual urges and stuff so I could quit pornography, and so I stumbled upon Mantak Chia's "The Multi-Orgasmic Man" and "Taoist Secrets of Love", I started bit by bit doing the practices, and they worked for a while, then one night, it was like 2 a.m; I was practicing the big draw and I guess I successfully did it because my head felt hot and so I moved the energy down to my navel as the book said, but then that night I really didn't sleep much, I had forgotten the warning about to not do it at night and stuff, and so I'm like ok it's alright, I went to sleep at 6 a.m. after practicing the big draw for a while, and then went to sleep to wake up at 8:40 a.m. because I didn't want to miss breakfast and I also had to do some other stuff, so you see, I'm not planning on practicing anymore for like 2 days because I'm thinking that the body is trying to adapt to this new energy, and then like 1 or 2 days later after that, I go ahead and do a cool draw, then I'm going to do 13 scrotal compressions (my high score), and then suddenly, at the 6th or 7th scrotal compression, my head felt overwhelmed and so I'm like alright this is it, something happened and I'm not feeling too normal, and I was right, that day after doing that, I felt on edge and I felt like random cold sensations on my navel and my back, kind of like just the whole microcosmic orbit, but it was automatic, and it was scaring me because I had never felt like this, and so when I go to sleep, I'm having crazy trouble falling asleep, I'm getting cold sensations, when I am completely relaxed I get cold sensations near my navel, and so I'm like this is definitely not normal, I made a mistake, so I'm like damn ok what can I do, I try rocking my spine back and forth and stuff to see if it's just blocked channels, and nope, so I just go ahead and sleep with my mom because I'm really just feeling on edge and actually just trying to relax and not try to think about it too much, after a bit of research, I find out that Mantak Chia's system is fucked up! And that Qi should never be forced! So I'm like damn that's the exact opposite of the big draw and well almost every major practice in that book, and I'm like ok then but I want to see now what can I do to like fix this, I'm not even like getting suicidal thoughts or doing dangerous shit, I just have crazy insomnia when I go to sleep at night and I feel cold sensations near my navel and stuff, I can sleep during the day, afternoon naps, I feel refreshed and really well after taking an afternoon nap, and I only feel relaxed after like 4 a.m. at night! So basically from what I've gathered that could help me is - Forget everything about Qigong, stop all practices and stop worrying about all of that stuff and keep living my life relaxed - Exercise is good, I do exercise very regularly so I'm good with that, same with stretching, I exercise for about 2 and a half hours really well. - Seek help from a person who knows accupunture or a herbalist (This is super difficult and a bit expensive for me because of where I live, Venezuela.) So I'm currently just doing my regular exercise routines, my post exercise stretching, I definitely do not feel anything weird or strange during the day, just a bit of exhaustion because of sleeping too little. I do not have social media, I do not drink coffee, or smoke, or do drugs, or chronically masturbate, and I'm in the process of quitting pornography (I'm almost there let's goo!!) I'm a healthy kid, I do not stress or worry or complain too much but I made a mistake practicing this spiritual exercises from books and not from an actual teacher!, Anyways, I want to see what else could people from the community aid me with to overcome this temporary adversity, all I'm hoping is that no permanent damage has been done and that I can return to how I was before practicing anything. By the way, I only practiced testicle breathing, microcosmic orbit, scrotal compression for like 20 days, everything smooth, and then I practiced the big draw and now I'm in this little struggle, but I have faith that everything will be alright and I believe that I'll be alright by stopping all these practices and never again reading any books about spiritual things like these instead of seeking a teacher, I'll keep living life relaxed, and I just want to sleep again like how I used to