Dark Night of the Soul
An agonizing and liberating experience when one has come to the absolute limit of wilfulness with regard to a situation or situations. When no part of the tools one has used in the past is applicable. It is where the bag of tricks are at a dead end and one is confronted with non-doing.
One is presented with a debasing of all positions, past views and exercised contrivances.
A feeling of *nowhere to go* at a depth that depletes all grasping to mere folly but without complete release from the trappings of axiety about ones perceived predicament - though even the perception of that predicament is in question.
A poisition from which one does not seek help from others for answers - where *answers* are not sought.
A state where from one comes to put one foot in front of another and one walks in grace with wilfulness suspended - one step at a time in the present
as a child.