Hello Friends and teachers alike!
Story/Question time!
I've spent the last 5 years living under a Taoist Priest in the Longmenpai tradition. This has been something I could not be more grateful for.
Something I've seen in our time together has been as follows.
: I intend to give a gift to my teacher
: I feel very sad (almost as if I want to weep) when he refuses to take my gift
I learned to be more sincere as a result but didn't think to much about it at the time
lately I've made a friend in the world who I shared some things with (perhaps too much?) and I've noticed the same behavior now from them.
:trying to excessively give me gifts
:and only this last time have I been present enough to not just absently accept it, and when I refused I could sense that same grief/whatever it is by my refusal.
Is there anyone who would like to speak to this? I am grateful for the fellowship.