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One of the most important lessons of a continuous Kundalini awakening, with all the unpleasant and weird energetic effects is that "you are not really in control" of your body, emotional states, proclivities, etc. The ego really hates this, it wants you to know that its static version of you is under control, and that any Kundalini weird stuff is akin to a temporary sickness. But in Kundalini, you are constantly reminded that you have no control, you are not doing it, its changing you, somehow slowly your personality is changing. One can fight this (wah, I want to be a rich entrepreneur), not some lame ass kundalini guy who stares at trees) , or go even deeper towards a more important message: There is no inherent self, or, there is no self that exists on its own independently, or, the static, isolated self is an illusion. We are a sum of all of the parts, causes, conditions, interactions. Clearly the Kundalini energy effects are not part of the self we consider to be the self: and yet there is no denying that they are there. You have to take into account that you are part of an energetic world and that these forces are working through you. You have to admit, and even contemplate that yes there is a self, but it's not the inherent self you thought. Energetically you are simply part of a landscape. There's a sense of you'ness being in control, and at the same time not. If, instead of going into the self-pitying ego, when we are feeling heavy Kundalini effects, we can use it to make progress by contemplating how we are not separate, there is no inherent self that is apart from the Kundalini. There is a larger field of consciousness, and you are simply a part of it, like a blade of grass in a field. It is not some weird outside force, nor is it some weird little tree growing inside you from the base of your sacrum. It is the field of consciousness reminding your ego "small self" that you are field of consciousness too. It is the real you and you can love it. You can actually surrender to the idea that there is no you existing on its own. Buddhists contemplate this by using logic, but Kundalini people get this lesson for "free" in the form of weird energetic effects. Only to use this free lesson, one needs to contemplate non-separateness, and "no independent self apart from the vast conscious energy fields", and not just compartmentalize or ignore the effects.