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Hey guys, I've been reading this forum for a few months now and there's a lot to learn here. Unfortunately this is such a massive amount with all the references to teachings, teachers, books, sites and practices that I don't know where to begin. Briefly about me, I will be 30 in the winter and work as a surgical technical assistant and in an apprenticeship as a non-medical practitioner. I'm very familiar with western medicine, but I'm drawn in a different direction. I'm familiar with simple meditation, sitting and stillness, I started 5 years ago and at times it's like "falling" into my body into an extremely dark, like pure black, timeless, silent space. If that happens, 40 - 60 min can easily pass, which feels like 15 min. I meditate while sitting on the floor, I can do the lotus seat for a long time without any numbness or anything else, because I often sat in this position as an child and then crawled around on my hands and knees. I also stretch regularly, I can't do splits but maybe one day. When I started meditating, I only knew Wim Hof and Tummo Meditation, and that's what I did, meditating outside in winter in shorts, cold showers and ice bath in summer, breathing exercises and so on. That all worked well, I also started to feel the heat that eventually came up in the lower abdomen even without the breathing exercises sometimes. Then life intervened, marriage, child, building a house, further education. As a result, I "only" meditated silently. Every day, but the deep states have assumed, probably because of everything that seemed more important at the moment. Now everything has stabilized and I'm sitting here with many books I've devoured, a number of forum reports and Videos. I understand what it's about, but there so many different ways, I just don't know which way is the best for me to go, or I don't know in which direction I have to start. I may have read too much and there was too much rubbish, you can hardly google the word m**ai anymore, unfortunately this video by the Blair brothers is the driver of a lot of searching people for it and it also fascinated me. However, that's not my goal, healing one time but this also far away. I've seen a ton of births and it sucks that not a single child came with an instruction manual. We literally don't know how we work. Had these teachings ever been lost (and there are probably thousands) it would be impossible to stumble across them by accident. My question to you is, have any of you found an operating manual? Joke Learning theory has become a passion, I love reading as much as some people tune in to Netflix, and I'm glad it's so much in this topic. That's something I can do. But, I would like to start with practice. Since I've been so drawn to the subject, I've been practicing the Wuji position as described by Damo and trying to let my mind sink in my Dan Tien while meditate. I'm also learning Qi Gong and getting to know exercises from this area. I have no idea if that's korrekt, that's my problem. how I should spend the first few years of practice? I mean the practical exercise. In other words, how did you start the practice? Thank you for reading!

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