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Hello, First I'll start off telling my story. I grew up in America the land of the polluted and brainwashed. When i was young i got into health, philosophy, and energy. Eventually i watched the double slit experiment and asked my self " are the electrons god or are we god able to shape reality?" . I was obsessed with opposites and figured out they merely tell the difference between two things. So what is the point of all these opposites? who do they benefit? The only answer would be us. so who are we? god or a piece/son of god? i also learned about suffering. When your in a dessert dying of thirst and you find a puddle of water you are extremely grateful and loving. Or your in jail eating tasteless food when you get out and eat something normal it tastes 10x better. So suffering creates love. The opposite is true aswell. When you live in paradise you become ungrateful and perverted. Common example would be a spoiled brat trashing the car their parents worked hard to pay for. There are infinite examples of both. So "Bliss" for lack of a better word creates ungratefulness or hate. I figured this is what the opposing black and white dots means on the yin and yang. The dark side "boredum" or nothingness, maybe destruction. From withing that love is born. and vice versa. so heaven and hell can't exist. Heaven would be a breeding ground for hate so religions were not able to brainwash me. All of these things i believe were not taught to me. I figured this all out on my own in my own mind. I trust my instincts above anything else. I look a lot younger then my age. I also think my third eye has always been open. When i put my finger up to it i can feel a strong force or tingling. I can make it do it on its own too. I found somewhere that it's a sign of your third eye open or awakened. Also i been reading a lot of forums here and found out people have a problem clearing there mind? For some reason my mind has always been empty/no thoughts. I talked to a psychiatrist and she said it was a constant state of meditation. For the last year i been reading Chinese translated light novels about the cultivation world. I hated god for being born in such a lowly mortal realm where the thought of cultivation is merely a fairy tail or myth. Later i realized that these hundreds of books are all very similar and use the same words so i started learning about the longest living humans in history. Later god granted my wish and i found this site. i know some secrets that may help Taoists. Like a Spirit/qi gathering formation. Found in electro-culture the field of science using energy to heal. A simple lavkoski coil held up between the brows makes people feel the tingling. For some people it takes longer. The energies in nature are attracted to piezoelectric materials and the pulsing of any form of energy heals the living. A very suppressed field of study. I want to try to keep my first post short. I know the ideal age to start internal alchemy is before 9. Is there any hope for me a man whose 30? Thank you for reading this far. Unlimited Love. Abel